Xmas pressie: The bear is called Christmas Kacang & my favouritest book of the century. Thanks so so so much for getting it for me. cos I couldnt find it anywhere else.


To Purani: this cute little thing is Riri. not what "that-R-thing-in-your-blog" hahahaha. I where got 10 million and 1 animals in my phone...joke.


The last few pics of my baby Kacang.


Happy 1st month. :)
Unbelievable.


And I hope you get it back soon.

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Caught a movie with Annittha,Priya & Purani at West Mall...
Penny's Dreadful. M18. I dunno why also.
Theres a boob scene, hmm, and other random stuffs.
ITs not scary, not sexish, not nothing. :(
Now they are blaming me for introing them gross movies.
especially poor Purani, not the first time for her! sorRrriiee.
HAHAHA PENNY , oh PENYYYYYY.

And went to school to have girly talks with Dyan & Ziyan.
Got caught(cheebye fucking suay)
But I've decided to stop being traumatised by it.
I hope darling Dyan feels better and sort out her life.
Same goes to Ziyan - you too okay!
and the soon-to-be messed up life Joei as well.
We had so much fun dying of laughter,
finding some new water bottle theory and all.
:)

Okay byebye.

Tagged by Valerie darling.

A. Found in my Room
1. LOTS of storybooks.
2. Clothes.Bras.
3. Handphone charger & other kinds of charger.
4. My favourite bed with nice smelling pillow.
5. BAGS everywhere man.

B. I've always wanted to
1. be slim and pretty
2. wish for Kacang to be slim and pretty.
3. be a tai-tai !
4. eat good food forever and ever.
5. turn back time (yay!)

C. Found in my Bag
1. Wallet
2. Phone
3. iPod
4. Comb/Mirroe
5. Storybook

D. Found in my Wallet
1. Kacang's/Riri's/Me&Elvin's photos
2. IC
3. Keys
4. Money and coins
5. POSB + Cards.

E. I am currently into
1. animals.
2. my relationsip(ohhhh.)
3. slimming down
4. smiling more often.
5. getting my attention back to school

CANDIDATES TO TAG: Gheeting, Melanie, (everyone else got tagged already!)

Being a bored loser, so I got this from Renuka's blog.
(i love doing such things!)

Hi, my name is:
Joei Tan Xin Yi

When I'm nervous:
I constantly bite my nails and I'll not smile.

The last song I listened to was:
My message ringing tone-Cai Hong by JayChou

I have a hard time understanding:
Why must Kacang die? Its like cute and soft so it shouldn't die right?

This Morning:
I woke up and played with Riri !!!!!!!!!!

Last night I was talking to:
Elvin Si De Zhi

Better name for me would be:
Princess Joei

Monday night I'll be:
trying to go out. and packing my school bag.

My heart:
loves Kacang forever. and my boyfriend. and my BFFs.

I was born:
on 21st July 1989.

Do you like walking in the rain?
When I'm in the mood to walk in the rain, of course!

Do you like thunderstorms?
Sometimesss.

Are you a vegetarian?
Nope nope.

Anything you absolutely could eat forever?
SALMON SASHIMI & Japanese food.

What food makes you want to gag?
Peas, Brinjal, Ladies Finger, CHILLI

What is your favorite dessert?
Cheese cake ! Cupcakes ! Crepes !

Do you want to get married?
OF COURSEEEEEEE! and have kids and all.

Do you smoke cigs?
NOPE.

Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
HAHAHAHHAA yes.

Who's the last person that came to your house?
Elvin

Miss someone?
Like of courseeeeee! Miss until cannot miss ah.

How's your ex doing?
I honestly hope he's doing well and I hope he is not mad at me.

Is there someone you want to fight?
No, I confirm lose one.

Do you like someone right now?
I love someone right now.

Song playing?
The channel 8 show song.

What are you doing tomorrow?
School + Crab dinner with mummy and Auntie Kellyn

Do you know what tofu is?
According to my friends, I'm as soft as a tofu.

Have you ever eaten it?
I love cheese tofu.

Do you want to go back to primary school?
OF COS. but would prefer sec sch though.

What are you doing tonight?
Sleeping and being happy.

Who did you ride in a car with last?
Elvin and family?

Who will you be with today/tonight?
Elvin and my family.

What color is the shirt you are wearing?
Yellow!

Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?
Yes I guess.

Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Getting ready for school.

How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
As long as it can take.

The last text you received on your mobile was from?
Boyfriend :)

Last movie you watched?
Alien vs Predator 2 !

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
Glassssses.

Next vacation you're going on?
So many places! From Hongkong to Thailand to Vietnam! cannot wait ah!!!!!

Do you have any piercings?
Yes.

Last person you hugged?
Elvin.

The last time and place you went out to?
IKEA and COURTS!!!!!!!

Who/What made you angry today?
not gonna talk about it! VIOLENCE IS STUPID!

Do you sing in the shower?
ALL THE TIME.

Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
hahahah of course.

Do you love anyone?
YESYESYESYESYES.

Have you ever bungee jumped?
NO! But would loveeee to.

How many pets do you have?
Used to have 2, but I'm left with Stripey now.

Who's your celeb crush(s)?
BRAD PITT & Danson Tang

Do you find yourself loved?
YESYES.

Has anyone you were close to you passed away recently?
Of course...... Kacang baby..

Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
Everywhere.

What's the closest orange object to you?
My computer table?

What is your natural hair color?
Brown.

Have you ever been asked out?
Ya.

What's your middle name?
Everyone insists its loser.

Your current relationship status?
Attached? I-have-a-boyfriend? What??!

What is your current mood?
HAPPY.

If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
My looks and figure! And to cherish pple!

If you must be an animal for a day?
A Kacang. Or a cow(can eat,sleep all day)

Ever had a near death experience?
Oh yes.....

Something you do a lot?
Laugh constantly, EAT ALOT, cry, miss Kacang

When was the last time you cried?
Like yesterday.

If you could have one super power what would it be?
Be invisible!

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Dressing?

What do you usually order from starbucks?
Java Chip.

What's your biggest secret?
I'm still sad over Kacang's departure.

Favorite color?
RED!

What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nothing.

Do you speak any other languages?
YUP, a little bit of TAMIL. I know a little Malay also. Of course Hokkien, and a little Cantonese.

What's your favorite smell?
Petrol, Thinner, Cigarettes, Glue(omg i love it), Mosquito Coil, Insect Repellent

Describe your life in one word:
Happy.

What are you thinking about right now?
What time should I sleep?

What should you be doing right now?
Actually studying but......

Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Elvin.

How often do you pray?
As long as when Tai sui is angry with me or gheeting. Or when luck is bad.

If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Princess.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
Been a long time since I had someone I liked, but back in sec 2, ya I did act differently. I tried not to though. AHAHHA so gross.

Its gonna be a long long school week ahead.
However, I'm not dreading it one bit. :) YAY!
Cos going to school to see Purani,Sylvia,Dyan,Ziyan,Annitha,Priya,Renuka,Valerie,Deepak and all is SO much fun and laughter. Yippeeee. I must bring more food and longlong green sweets to class.

Okay, I didn't go to school on Friday cos I seriously couldn't wake up. I had TTT and I passed! wee, so I get to book my FTT. :) Its like, I need to pass driving by this year, hopefully within 3 months. PLEASEEEE. Driving is sucha chore, :( learn to drive also no use, I'll also not drive. And I've this phobia of driving anything lor. Like since young, I hated bumper cars, and in Escape, I HATE GoKart, (ask gheeting).. I need her to drive me in a Go Kart. How loserish but I can't help it that I don't like driving rightttt!!!! I'm taking Auto, and if i fail my driving, the world will despise me. Sigh...

That day on the train home, Purani and I got into the holy topic of love. HAHAHAHA. I love topic on LOVE. Its fun and annoying at the same time, which makes it so fun and annoying. So, when we were being philosophical, we asked: "Would you rather have loved and got hurt, or have never loved at all?" Of course, being 2 very different individuals, I chose the LOVE AND GOT HURT LA! and she chose, NEVER HAVE LOVED AT ALL. Anyway so this time round, topic was somewhat the same, except it was: "To be with someone who loves you? Or to be in love with someone?" We are both quite bored pple on the train home, usually. But rides home are always entertained with interesting issues to talk about. I love you BFF ! And my other BFFs too.

Now, to share a little something..

"If someone does not smile at you, be generous and offer your own smile. Nobody needs a smile more than the one that cannot smile to others."

"A smile is the lighting system of the face, the cooling system of the headand the heating system of the heart."

So, please don't forget to smile. See, I'm so nice, I always smile!

because I'll always swallow the pain,
so you would never ever see the tears.

Its 1.28am now and I can't get to sleep.
I must buy sleeping pills and sleep my life away.
I hate it when I'm feeling miserable and then can't get to sleep. Its so fucking irritating and I am not feeling in any way better. :( So nothing can make me feel better now, I've no Kacang to make me smile, I've no one to talk to, I'm fat, I'm without any money, I've no one to care about me cos apparently its MY life and that it shouldn't be controlled, I am not intending to club, I have lotsa unnecessary exams coming up, I am very very very unhappy.

quotes..

"You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone..."

I had a major fun day in school. Sleeping, eating green longlong sweets and telling everyone its my favourite sweet cos couples get to eat it from both ends of it, laughing and more laughings, more sleepings in centre stage, and finally laughed more and went back. :) So fun! Ziyan better come to school soon, before I go spray her hair for her ah.

I love you and thats all I'm gonna say.
Sometimes, I feel its bad to really love someone. Love causes sadness and everything! Love is a mother fucking bitchass loser. REALLY lor. Love means tolerating everything, like everything. Yes of course I will do that. But cheebye.. Love is like stupid. I think Love should be like banished or something. I'm like talking serious nonsense so please ignore me everyone, like ignore me badly.

Shakespeare that motherfucker can come up with some true quotes huh.. "The course of true love never did run smooth.." AAAAA. Why must love have so many obstacles. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. Cheebyebcheebyecheebye. KNN.KNN.KNN.


I'll never ever be slim & pretty enough for you.
:(

Hello everyone, how has the new year been for you guys? Oh ya, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 okay. :) Hope it will be a sweet smooth sailing year for you guys.

Now, for my very late looking-back of 2007.

Firstly, my saddest thing happened on the last day of 2007, I guess Kacang wants me to enjoy my 2008 so she decided to let go after hanging on for so long. I love you always and always Kacang. You are the sweetest, cutest, bravest, softest, nicest, tamest, gentlest, bestest hamster anyone can ever have(everyone knows that). I've always loved you and I'll always love you. You will be always remembered by my dear friends as well, who are ever so nice and supportive. They love you too, okay? You gotta have fun in heaven, and you will always stay alive in my heart, I love you dearly. Baby Kacang, I miss you so so so much. Thanks for being so cute and soft when you were alive, I LOVE YOU!

Now, my 2007 have been a topsy turvy year. It started out bad cos of Eric and stuffs, followed by his constant cycle of getting-new-girlfriends-and-then-telling-me-he-still-love-me, BUT then get a new girlfriend again. I tried changing for him, we tried talking things out a million of times, but too bad it won't work out anymore. It carried on throughout the year, we tried to make it work, but its like quite difficult. Then I had a new boyfriend Thomas, scared the daylights outta everyone. It was the bomb, but we broke up soon after, of course. Cos Eric and me were still hanging on. Then there was Zhiwei who decided to not speak to me cos I clubbed with Eric and we apparently was influenced by what you call "atmosphere". And me and Gheeting had a misunderstanding of our lives. Of course it was solved, and we are closer now. Followed by a series of unfortunate events like, exam stress, more exam stress, PW stress, school stress. And I gotta know Meng, he was very nice, we had lotsa fun. Many memories but too bad it didn't last, I guess its my fault but yea, its alright.

And my favorite was my Cambodia trip in June, I loved it with my heart. So many fun, I even had a "boyfriend" there(hes still contacting me now,by the way!). Hes super hot, hes like a Cambodian actor, and he is very hot. I had fun helping the needy there, I learnt alot about simplicity, I told Zhiwei: "I want to lead a simple life". Too bad I didn't stick to it. I love volunteering, my 2007 was filled with volunteering, with my class sweethearts, and all. My happy times are when I'm doing volunteer work. Another one would be my Pre-U Seminar at NTU. OMG, pure fun. I made so many new friends there, and we are STILL keeping in contact. So glad and I love Pre-U Sem cos me,sylvia,purani binge on the food there, then sleep, then eat, then sleep. SHIOK-ness.

And my 18th Birthday was sweet. It was clubbing constantly after that. Dancing was so fun, late night outings and everything. Drinking alchohol(abit only-like Ribena with a dot of Vodka) and smoking(a few puffs only) when I'm stressed. K-boxing like crazy with my EMO Chinese Songs Khakis(thanks). K-lunch with BFF. Foodscapades. and more. I love those.

Then it was so stressful, I almost died. All the project work, all the exams, all the stress building. It was almost unbearable. I'm glad I survived those ordeals. Then there was this class tension thingy which was quite unnecessary, but who cares about that anyway. Lets just move on with our lives and just fucking close that chapter. CAN?

Thanks to those who were always there for me, namely Zhiwei(for being my listening ear), Gheeting(for being the perfect BFF), Melanie(for being sweet and pretty), Eric, Purani(for being there ALWAYS), Sylvia(for being there always!), Dyan(for all the laughters and gossips), Ziyan(same to you), Val, Annitha, Renuka, Priya, Deepak, Dajie, Rachel, Chenghong, Meng, Glenn. I'm glad I've known you guys. Thanks for making my 2007 wonderful and keeping me sane all these while.

Towards the end, I'm glad I gotta know Elvin (again). He is constantly making me laugh and giving me nonsense promises that will make me smile for days like "I'm gonna make you the happiest girl." or something like that. Or talking about our future kid and everything. Thanks for being nice and everything. We'll make our 2008 a better year okay. (we try not to eat grass so often). Countdown at Downtown East with you, Edeline, Edwin, Xavier, Wallas and the jiejie and korkor is fun, free dancing with techno, R&B and trance. Its like FREE, and we are happy.

However, I still miss Kacang alot, but I'm sure Kacang wants me to smile for her, and I'll do just that. I love you Kacang. forever & ever okay!

So, this marks the end of my 2007, Hello 2008. I promised myself last last year that I'll make my 2007 perfect, I don't know if I fulfilled it, but ya, I'm just glad I'm closing that chapter of my life, and starting a brand new one. I love you my 2007, but 2008: I promise I'll love you more.

**

So, its my 1st day of school today. I had total fun. BUT stupid Ziyan got sent home, her hair is like.. HAHAHA. Then we spent our lives laughing and laughing. And me and Annitha died after 3 periods of Econs. I'm glad I had her. thanks Deepak for the gifts from Greece. Thanks everyone for your kindness and sympathy to Kacang and me. Then had Pastamania after school. Totally slacked for 2 whole hours laughing, gossiping, laughing, more laughings, AND LAUGHING. I love those sweethearts seriously. School would never ever be so fun without them. :) With my new bag, and new shoes that hurt so much(same as sylvia), and dyan being my "accidental" twin of the day. HAHA, so joke please, but it was a very pleasant surprise. I love you girls, muacks. They all really very nice! Gave me a bigbig hug cos they knew I'm sad over Kacang's death. AAAAA, so touched. And everyone is very surprised I have a boyfriend, (yes it feels so weird to be exclaiming, "I've a boyfriend", not something Joei would do, but since I'm actually doing that now.. sorry but muz bear with my nonsense!!!!!!)

Okay, I spent 3 hundred years typing those. I need sleep now, BYEBYE.

Goodnight Kacang, Mummy loves you.

on the 25th of Dec,
I wanna wish all of you a very Merry Xmas !
I had fun at a family club, some Laguna thingy. Theres a dancefloor there, with a DJ! But he played some ChaCha songs and Aunties were all dancing beside me.. And yea, this year's countdown was fabulously fabulous. (the DJ played R&B next, and so I had major fun.) I am extremely happy cos someone tried all means and ways to get me the Smiley Yellow Bear, so cute!! I love it lor, and we named it Christmas, by the way.

on the 26th of Dec,
I wanna wish my boyfriend a very Happy 19th Birthday !
I had fun going to the movies(first time hor.) and eating with you. I had fun with you at Parklane doing embarrassing things as well. HAHA. Choosing the right present for you, was a fucking chore. Its like, arghhhhhhhhhhh going-to-kill-myself kinda thing. However, everything is like settled and I'm like heaving a huge sigh of relief now. :) Happy Birthday, I hope you enjoyed yourself. And thanks so much for my Xmas present, I LOVE IT. I really do.

on the 27th of Dec,
I went for my facial with Mummy and had dinner/supper with Auntie & Uncle.

on the 28th of Dec,
I went to town with my daddy and brother for a major shopping spree then I went to pray and went to Macs to play computer. Mummy made Kacang open her eyes(i cried like some dumbfuck of the century), thanks Mummy! Someone got pissed with me cos he apparently waited for me for like 1 and a half hours. Yeayea, I am very sure 1 and a half hour is VERY long. Anyway, I'm sorry I'm always annoying you. I'm like sorry.

Oh! Zhiwei called me yesterday. at like 1.30 am or so. I was asleep please and I think I said some rubbish and hung up. Thanks for calling from Malaysia, I'm sorry I wasn't able to attend the wedding(which I was so looking forward to initially, I love wedding dinners!) Sorry Zhiwei!! Merry Xmas okay!

**

So... I sweeped and mopped the floor today. :) Sparkling clean. I ironed ALL the clothes. WOOHOO. Stress-free for now. Anyway, my dad bought me an Armani watch for my Xmas pressie, I love it, cost a bomb but ya I still love it. He bought me an NUM bag as well. Yay, haha. So I have a new bag for school, I need a new shoe too(so I'll be going out to get it later), and so.. see ya all! Byebyebyebyebye!!!!

Before the night started- while waiting for birthday girl Purani, she decided to be VERY late on that day !


:) guess who and who!


Happy Belated Birthday again!
I had fun ! (of cos Dyan was there joining us later in the night!)

Merry 2 days Christmas in advance!

and....

Its like Christmas Eve tomorrow already !! WTF !! How can time pass so fast without me realising it?! WTF. I cannot believe it la, tomorrow is Xmas Eve and I haven't got my events sorted out. Shit. Double Shit. Triple Shit. FuckfuckFUCK.

I hope all of you have a fun Xmas Eve tomorrow.

and lastly, Happy Birthday Zhiwei.

You know I've always used to envy people who are able to live & love like openly, as in they are able to post their pictures taken with their boyfriends on their Friendster/blogs/and god knows where else. And put their status as "Attached" or something like that. Its like, I've never ever ever done any of these in my life. Like, I really find no use and no point in doing that, really. And in some very extreme cases, it might result in them exclaiming exactly when & how they got together, like for example, "o8122oo7-our fairytale started", or "girl lurbbes babyy-neverendinglove" or something like that. Its quite.... i-dunno, maybe nonsensical? I really really wanna know how can pple actually have the guts to do such things, (maybe thats why I envy them and yet feel grossed out at the same time."

I wish I have their courage. :( Too bad Joei the loser doesn't have any !
And I wouldn't wanna let pple know when our fairytale or whatever you call that started anyway. Hahaha.

Happy Happy 19th birthday to ...
Kalvin Hoe Zhi Wei !
Enjoy yourself please, though you're in Malaysia!
Sorry I can't make it, but enjoy okay!

and.. Happy Birthday and Merry early Xmas to you!

**Yes, you will get your pressie.


Oh ya, my December is filled with birthdays. Like, omg.

I am like as busy as i-dunno-what lately, but I really dunno wad i busy with leh. Didn't get to go to Dyan's ktv that day, :( but I had fun nevertheless.

Okay now I shall reply some tags.

To Purani : thanks thanks thanks ! :) for always praying for Kacang. You are the best. BFF. And I can't wait for the pressie!! haha.

To Ziyan: The diploma exam is a big fat joke. hahha, I left bloody early. I miss you, by the way! Hope you had fun that night. Miss Dyan too! (i need to know wad happened like badly okay! you know what i am talking bout!!!!)

To wilson6321: hahahahahaha, what you said is a joke. and heard that you have some manslaughter case going on as well, good luck. :)

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Okay, Kacang totally can't open her eyes at all, its like.... heartbreaking. Its worst than death seeing her like that okay. :( I am officially suffering from what you call a very serious depression. I shall isolate myself from this universe and start mourning for the loss of my beloved sweet soft Kacang. I love you Kacang, remember its like LOVE forever and ever and ever and ever k.

JTLES. :)

I still remember how I was a wreck during this period last year. Gheeting in Thailand, Purani Amsterdam, the rest of the world gone. And my manager gave me this gave for Xmas. So sweet. This year, I wonder how my Christmas is gonna be like. Or what kinda presents will I receive. Gheeting is gonna get me the Gingerbread man from Breadtalk, so sweet to the power of 320. I love you thanks. And I'm still wondering how my Xmas would be like............Lunching at Valerie's house(yummy!) would be one of the program for the day. :)

And I really should be studying lor...........

And Purani said,

The Psychiatrist wants simplicity says:
wanted to call you out but you seemed so busy
The Psychiatrist wants simplicity says:
joei you're always busy

Purani darling, I am not that busy that I can't hang out with you guys!! Okay, I miss you all! Like to the max. I'm not that occupied with E----. Okay?!

I love all my friends.Really&Truly.

And Zhiwei's birthday is coming! 23rd December!!
3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But he will be in Malaysia then.
See ya!

Tell me, isn't she the cutest thing ever? :(
Imagine her dying.. omg. OMG. omg.

Everyone, go to youtube and type "Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist", introduced by Gheeting and its a guarantee DIE-OF-LAUGHING video. Its the best video I've ever seen in my life. I'm like watching it 300 times per second. And Jeff Dunham is sucha fantastic ventriloquist ! All his shows are soooooo funny okay. Its like, hilariously hilarious to a very great extent in a very good way.

And I'm all alone at home now, totally slacking, doing non-constructive things like blogging, watching youtube videos, Facebooking, everything BUT studying for tomorrow's exam. Shit, what is my issue man?

Anyway, I've a wedding dinner to attend tomorrow again, weehee woohoo! I love wedding dinners, the food is like, wooohoooo.

I wish Kacang would be fine & healthy again, now can all of you help me wish for it too?
I love you okay sweetheart. I'm locking my blog again very soon, so readers if you wish to be invited, please please please let me know who you all are so I can send an invitation okay. MUST remember to tell me ah. PLEASE okay.

Firstly, sorry Dyan for not double checking the invited readers list, I thought all of you were inside ! :( Sorry x 1000 to the power of 10 okay. Haha, but you were quite resourceful to use Ziyan's account(haha). Sorry okay. I didn't mean it really.

And I finally settled my debts with Gheeting! I'm without debts now ! WOOHOO!! Joei the poor no more! muahahahhaa yay!

Anyway, I really need to thank Gheeting and Melanie.

To Melanie:

- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
im not gonna say things like death is a must or crap,
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
but c'mon kacang is such a sweet lil thg, with a mummy that loves her so,
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
no matter what happens, she'll always be glad to have you as her mummy.
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
she knows you loves her like nothg else im sure (:

To: Gheeting

Thanks you know for the email, it made me die of crying but I'm like very touched , thanks. My mummy read it and cried also lor! Thanks okay, I love you.

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And I really must add that I'm really super uber depressed about Kacang's condition. She totally can't go on the wheel anymore, she doesn't even have the strength to go peepee and shit. She is so skinny like LindsayLohan now, and she is very very weak. But whenever I see her try to respond when I call out to her, I feel really really relieved and sad at the same time. Its like, each time I look at her now, its just to check her breathing to ensure shes fine and still alive. I cannot stand such an agony anymore. Just call me a loser now. And please know that I love Kacang alot. like, alot. And I'll never ever forget her. EVER.

Okay, before you guys do anything, I need to let you know that this will be one very long dry post. So, you may choose to continue reading or wait for my next loserish post. hahahaha. Okay, so get some light snacks NOW, like now.

First thing to announce, I PASS MY BTT (Basic Theory Test)! woohoo! Its like very unbelievable cos I'll never pass it one. I'm like the most stupid person in the world when it comes to the road. Gheeting, Elvin, Jeffrey, my daddy, and more pple will despise me if I fail it one. hahaha. Lucky I pass it the first time round ah.. Have to thank Gheeting for the book, and actually is thank Meng but too bad he can't read this la.

Second thing for you guys to think about..
Have you ever felt so happy before that you don't dare to fall asleep.. for the fear that everything might only be a dream when you wake up? Its a fucking scary feeling you know. Like sometimes I dream that Kacang lives forever, then when I wake up, I see Kacang and I know shes not gonna live forever.. Then its like a very sad feeling suddenly overwhelms you. Sighh... Or have you ever had the kinda feeling like everything is very dreamlike and fairytale fairytale like that.. Like something happened which would actually NEVER EVER, and I mean NEVER EVER happen. It makes everything seem so surreal and its a very terrifying feeling. Because everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time.

You tell me la, when something is feeling too real and too unreal at the same time, scary anot? Its like so tormenting and so happy at the same time. Next time I wanna torture people, I confirm let them experience this cheebye feeling one la. Hahahha, sorry I'm being too tormented by these feelings that I might go bonkers sooon.

Third thing to tell you guys.(sadsadsad)
SAD!!!
:(
Life is so pain............when you have to see something you love dying.. or on the verge of dying..... Its like, Kacang is dying........ We all know that........ My mummy even put her picture in her wallet in case any unfortunate thing happens.... :( Its like every night I see Kacang , I start tearing like some deranged loser. Its like Kacang is the sweetest thing alive, the softest cutest loyal hamster anyone can ever find. She never ever bites and is so retarded and cute and always responds to me calling her "Kacang baby!", "Kacang Kacang Kacang", "daaaaaarlinggggg" and everything. She loves YAKULT(really), and all kinds of JUICES, she EATS ANYTHING and EVERYTHING, she has got these cute BIGBIG round round eyes with cute paws and everything..... She is like a perfect hamster. a perfect one without any faults...... Its like, I love Kacang with my heart. Its like I've to cremate her and get her ashes back and put it in an urn. I need KAcang to be with me forever, forever. :(

I'm gonna write an eulogy for her if she dies.. I just hope she doesn't die anytime sooon. I hope she is an immortal in disguise. But my mummy tells me her days are numbered....... Oh no, I'm gonna cry now, like now. :( so saddening!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

KACANG PLEASE LIVE LONGER, I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU MORE THAN I ALREADY DO LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU KACANGGGG! AND I REALLY CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!

(for those people having a doggy/kitty as a pet, im very sure you guys know how i feel about losing the pet, its like they become so much into your life that it'll be very devatasting once its gone...sigh....)

**Do not tell me that death is inevitable in life, I do not believe that a cute thing like Kacang will ever die. Really, its too cute to die.

melanie & gheeting is beside me.
we totally webcammed with a loser from msn.
and its a joke, cos we let him see everything except our faces.
its like, fucking funny.
and we are like totally slacking at the lan shop at what sunshine plaza.
hahahahahaha.

so fun! i love you girls.
hugs & kisses.
YAY!

:) BYEEEE!

wahlao, $1 for 3o minute.Cheebye.
and gheeting let me see a youtube video on a ventriloquist, fucking funny/ she says i type with 3 fingers and im a loser. okay byebye.

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy. It is often filled with anger and tears. It is when you want to be together despite it all. That is when you are truly in love."

I had fun yesterday. :) woooohooooo.
I am suffering from a very bad cough. very very bad cough.
And its like I'm dying slowly, but surely.
And Elvin more poor thing lor, its like I cough 1 time, he cough 10 times. We both like some loser sick chicken like that. And Elvin is being a brave soul by putting our pictures on Friendster, perfect move. Its like I am still so coward locking up my blog and everything. AAAAAAAAAAAA. Joei the loser.

To gheeting, "Love is like a hole; once you fall in, it's hard to get out."

hahaha.

To melanie, now someone song song already lor. the love of your past is back to haunt you, he is sucha copycat! >=( the look on your face is the bomb k.

(I have alot of pictures to upload from Purani's birthday, but first I must be not so busy first, its like late at night now and I am very tired and I have work tomorrow. So guess what? I'll not be able to upload it now, haha byebye.)

Good night my sweet friends who loves me.
Good night my sweet bf who loves me too.
Good night my sweet other guys who loves me.
Good night my sweet Kacang & Stripey & Riri who loves me.
Good night everyone in this world who loves me.

Joei loves you all too! :D
Hugs & many many kisses!

Elvin would like to say hello to all of you.
(yes again i know)

:) Say hello to my exboyfriend/boyfriend now.

Just finished watching the whole series of 15 again.
HAHAHA, love ah bengs. wooohoo.
Its like, Shaun is sooooo hot.

Anyway, I totally ate Wanton noodles for breakfast,
AND, someone just fed me Maggi noodles not long after.
which is crazy cos it tastes so good i HAD to eat it.

I didn't go for my diploma class for like 3 hundred days,
but I don't give a fuck actually.
The people there are FUCKED UP tothefuckingmax.
I can't stand ANY one of them. ANY.
Grossss x 10000000.

And, hmm.
Jealousy - this word is evil.

And I'll be working with Gheeting and Melanie again this Saturday and Monday!
And bloody hell, my BTT is on the 18th.. Cheebye.
And my diploma exam is on the 21st.. Double Cheebye.
And I'm fucking cheebye not prepared.

I guess sacrifices have to be made sometimes.
Life can't always go on smoothly. :(

"I rather have bad times with you,
than have good times with someone else.."

hello everyone. hahahaa.


its like, i've never posted any pictures of any guy on my blog okay. its like, THE BOMB. like totally the bomb. okay anyway, meet Joei and Elvin. heh heh heh.

I'm like wondering when can I open up my blog.
:(
I don't like to keep it private this way.
Its so sneaky and retarded.

Happy Happy Happy Birthday to my BFF, Purani

Yesterday was a crazy partying day okay, it was a mad night out at MOS, the crowd was like grinding and it was so squeezy but the crowd i went with was absolute fun. For virgin clubbers like Valerie(haha), and then theres Sylvia, Annitha, Renuka, Priya, Rosh, Dyan & Ziyan, & Minshan & of course, my long lost friend Keathwee! It was so so so so fun, I got really tipsy after the Ribena Vodka, its like... I died. I puked like a loser, a pure loser and I couldn't walk straight. Gross. Really, I swear NEVER to drink again! (its like, I drink cos i show face to Purani okay, its her birthday!)

Then we went to find road blocks, HAHAHA JOKE. its so funny i died laughing. Very fun! woohoooo.

And Joei is officially a loser in life. A LOSER OKAY. I've become another Joei, you all wouldn't wanna know this new joei, its just gross and very stupid and retarded. ahahahahahhaa.

AND FUCK! I totally heard a very cheebye news, its like fuck okay, its like KNNBCCB + FUCKED UP + IDIOTIC. Make use of you? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'm not so free you know, seriously. Joke of the century lor, make use of you. Enough bout losers.

I gotta go, byebye.

To: Melanie darling.

You know sweetie, you mustn't ever cry okay(though its like quite inevitable) but you see, sometimes not everything will go smoothly in life. (some pple are like worst, they are in debts but they still never cry, and like me, im like eating grass everyday, i also never cry..) so you mustn't cry okay. Because you are like never alone, you have me, gheeting, xingyuan, jarael,jeffrey and more more people who can totally waste their life away with you. (haha) I'm willing to ruin my life and come out slack with you from now on okay! Then we go eat grass together hor. just as long as you don't think of those sad sad things can already. :) You must remember you got me & ghee. Thats all that matters right? Remember you are NOT alone, if i hear you say that again, THATS IT u know. THATS IT. I love you, hugs and many kisses.

:D Never frown, cos you never know whos falling in love with your smile.

You know the song "Wo de Cuo" is so nice.
HAHAHA.

OKOK, I know people are complaining that my blog is officially redundant cos I don't update as much anymore. Sorry sorry sorry! I am very very very very very busy, though I don't know with what, but I'm just very busy. Okay, I'm working at those Starhub roadshows currently and I am enjoying myself very much actually. Except I don't get much sleep and I have to stand and talk ALL day. What makes it enjoyable is working with friends and all. And theres people like MIKE TAN(for gheeting only), DANIEL HENG GIN KIAT!(my elvin lookalike& candy-eye), CHENGYU(mel's CANDY EYE), our BEST FRIEND(someone we vow to make friends with but failed to do so), and more funny funny people. What a fun working experience. WOOHOO.

Something happened just yesterday at about 4 am in the morning, its like WOAH.. So I'm left with a very pain left chest and some body aches. And I'm so touched that the driver care about me first more than the car...... Its like.. omg.. But I'm not the unfortunate one please. :( Its the driver & the car that is like wrecked badly. I'm just glad the driver's fine. But the amount he has to pay for repair is THE BOMB. :(

Its like for now, I'll be eating grass and I'll not be thinking about any, and i mean ANY Guess wallet or Juicy Couture Watch for now. I'll not think about Japanese food for now as well. I will think about eating grass and drinking from Milo packet and order 1 packet of economical beehoon with more noodles from now on. And maybe eat only 1 meal a day. And be more gian peng gian sai, and find more WU HUA deals.

And I'm left with a funny voice again. >=(
Someone else has a funny voice too!

Its Melanie's test today, good luck pretty!

You know,I've always used to wonder "What is Love?" and all that crap kinda thing. HAHA, I think I've gotten the answer after much research. So here goes MY definition of love okay. You don't have to agree with it, I happy with the answer can already.
Love is like when you start missing the person even after they just left you, and how much you wanna see them every second of your life, when you smile just by the mention of their name, and laugh even when they do things which are not very funny, when you find that nothing else matters except them, and when you wanna hug them each time you see them, when you feel the happyhappy soursour feeling in the heart each time you see/hear them, and when you KNOW you are happy just by spending a LITTLE time with them, when you are willing to spend bad times together like eating grass, and when you know you are crazy by doing nonsensical stuffs like scolding each other cheebye(s) and fuck(s) and tiu lei(s).

Someone is coming to find me now, BYEBYE!

Hugs & Kisses.

The doggy Rusky is gone from my house and I miss it! But its okay I can go my godmummy house play with Riri already !! WOOHOO!

Isn't he a fucking cutieeee???


OMG so cuteee.


Baby Riri.

This is what I've been busy with.
The cutest thing in my life ever.(of cos can't be compared to my kacang darling) but this Riri is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Just look at the eyes. I will die can. I'm gonna migrate to Hougang(my godmummy's place) like for forever. OMG. BABY RIRI. JIEJIE LOVES YOUUUUU!!! I'm spoiling it very badly.

I've got good life already la, "ho mia liao" . I can enjoy life already la. Byebye!

I had lotsa fun with Edeline,Gerald,Edwin &co.!
:) more more fun please.

YAY! Saturday Melanie coming my house stay after work.
But I got wedding dinner, so you wait for me awhile okay?

And..
I'm so sad I can't go DXO with valz they all.
Its like DXO is my favourite gay club lor.
Its like got Free Drinks can.. Then I can ask for just Ribena without anything. or Ribena with a DOT of vodka only, A DOT AH. hahahahahaa.
I promise myself I will club when I'm not so busy!
PROMISE !!
Sorry darlings!

because everything you do for me makes me smile&smile

Quotes from some webbies. done cos I had nothing to do at home at all!

"I do, cherish you, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control, I've waited so long, to say this to you, if you're asking do I love you this much, I do."

"To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive."

"If you ever had your heart broken or hurt, and you forgave that person and still was able to love them like before, that's true love!"

:)

because you asked me to listen..

Aviation - You Were My Everything

[Talking] This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…

No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you

Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel

Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guyI
tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

Chorus

[Talking] And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy


::

this song so nice lor, although its a rap & i don't really quite enjoy raps but its just so sad and everything. its quite true too. except that someone asked me to listen and i really find it so meaningful. it makes alot of sense. aiya forget it, nobody will understand one la.

hahaha, i think im getting PMS-sy again. PMS is a loser, it has no life and is only intent on ruining pple's life. so gay. Anti-PMS !!

:( to ziyan darling: sorry sorry sorry ! im so bad, i totally PS u 3 times in 3 days! I will make it up to you totally, so duper sorry !! im feeling so guilty now. sorry ziyannnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!! omg.

YAY! I'm sick! its like Jackpot can. cos someone predicted i confirm sick one, den i really now sick. whahahahaha. and my whole body is aching like a loser. like a loserish loser. i need sleep, lemme sleep now.. oh wait i can't. my mummy's friend dog is at my house. Its called Rusky and is a Maltese+terrier mix. very very cute one. and very guai. and its cos of this dog i gotta PS dear ziyan. SORRY okay SORRY!

Ok i didn't go for the first day of Diploma lesson. nobody cares anyway! If only my best friends were there............................................its alright! its only for 2 weeks. YOU CAN DO IT JOEI TAN! JOEI TAN IS BRAVE!(well,not really)

Kacang being lazy.

:) hahahaahhaaaa.

I am so sleepy.
I am sooooo tired.

My life so sucky hor? "Ming ku" translated means bitter life. hahahahhaa. Like so pitiful like that. But I really too exhausted to even work or stand up. My body is literally aching like a loser.. :( How unfortunate.

However, I am also being kept happy and "xing fu" translated means fortunate. YAY! :) I wish some good things would never end, but we all know it ends someday. No matter how much promises and assurance is made, it STILL WILL end someday one. (okay, i shall psycho myself to not keep thinking bout negative things.) [but then hor, i still somehow somehow need to prepare prepare abit right]. HAHAHAHAHHA, whatever I'm still very happy now.

Wait, I'm not entirely happy. I can't please everybody one lor. :( I'm like so affected when I know other people is affected by the things I do/say. But what the fuck can i do man? Fuck care also cannot, want to care also cannot later pple say "no point la" or show attitude. Then how? Tell me la, I'm like very xing ku can. ARGHHHHHH.

My cousin totally just got a puppy, so cute!! I shall stayover at his house FOREVER. heh heh heh. Hougang is sucha heavenly place.

YAY, meeting Ziyan to get pay tomorrow! Song ah! Can pay my 140 & 60 bucks debt like at last!! SONG!!

sian, tomorrow diploma class starts. So i asked Purani, "how to be a loner ah? is it just be a loser?" yea and the answer is yes. And additionally, i also cannot smile cos she says pple always wanna smile back if i smile at them. so im not allowed to smile and give any opinions and talk. so i shall be like a loser with no friends? OMG this is not happening to me pls. sigh, hate sucha dreading feeling. Heng got things to look forward to after every end of it, if not i confirm die one. Gheeting says, "fuck it, alone jiu alone lor, awhile only ma, also not forever." I like her style. haha.

Next Monday-Friday got diploma lessons in school. :(
Next Saturday got wedding dinner. :)
Next Sunday got work! :)

I am a happy busy girl lately.
Busy because of work.
Happy because:
- Working with Mel & Ghee spells PURE fun.
- of something that makes me happppyyy.

Kawasaki
someone asked me to just type this here
=/

Come come all visit me at Expo okay.
I'm like at Hall 6.
weehee.

Hello I'm back after MIA-ing for years.

Today I shall blog about .....

I can't blog about anything I wanna blog about.

So byebye!

**sorryx1000 to dyan dearie! im so ashamed of myself and im so sorreeeeee!! im like a big loser so don't be mad at me lahh! i've been a bad friend for not hitting the clubs with you & ziyan sorryyyyyyyyyy! :(

And this marks the start of Joei's hectic worklife. Its gonna kill me slowly, but surely. But somehow, I'm enjoying this period of my life alot. Hanging out with gheeting & melanie.. SO HAPPY! :)

"I'm gonna marry you la really."
"LIAR!! stop being a big fat liar."
"yayaya, im always lying la."
"ya of course you are lying, you always lie"

Step One Step One Step One.

(thanks Edelline for the pretty nails! LOVE IT!)

I love this song! From my favourite gangster show also. HAHA. I shall watch Dou Yu part 1 & 2 all over again!

Till the end

All these precious moments with you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven that's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true to hold, to keep, to share

In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my boy
And through it all I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end

All my friend around me say you'd be gone too soon
Baby, I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my boy
And through it all I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end

The fine dining restaurant that went up to RM1000.
and one bottle of the "Finest Mineral Water from Italy" as seen from the bottom right of the picture costs RM13. Joke pricing.


Me with alot of ghostly orbs.


I love Genting. or I hearts Genting. hahaha.


Foggy and lotsa ghostly orbs. wee.
As seen from the pics, i was wearing a Fleshimp jacket, which DOESN'T belongs to me, but my gay brother. This jacket seems so familiar, I think someone around me has it too. I wonder who. Someone lent it to me when I was cold in the examination hall. hahahaha.

Back to ironing clothes! :)

I'm totally back from Genting, feeling real sad cos i LOVE Genting!
:( I wanna go back there.
I had LOTS OF fun there though! OMG.
FUN FUN & loads more FUN!

Fate has been my very good friend recently.
SERIOUSLY.

Right now,
I have a very sacred secret to keep.
*secret*

And my heart has been revived again..
I miss you, I really really do.
Those words you said to me,
I hope they are really really true.

Looking after doggy now, can't blog much!
Love you all!

YAY! going to Genting like in few more hours.
:D big big big big big grinssssss.
I LOVE GENTING!
cold cold weather! nice nice food! scary scary rides!
YAY gone from this loser place for 4 whole days.
I wished it would have been 4 years/months/weeks or something.
but i would miss all my friends..AND OMG MY HAMSTERS.

When i saw my hammies left this afternoon,I died.
I cried like a loserish loser you know.
:( It hurts not seeing them at home.
Kacang&Stripey&Bunnee; i love you all okay?

I want to have that Guess wallet !! >=(
I want to have that Juicy Couture watch!!
HINTHINT.
aiya scowls.

Purani is off somewhere in India now, hope she coems back safely and not get trapped by some Tsunami or something. Shes so sneaky! she left without a word and only informing me thru an email which i just read now. aiyo.

Gheeting&Melanie: LOVE YOU BOTH. and stayovers when im back! PARTY!
Dyan&Ziyan: Saw 4 & Kbox when im back! LOVE U BOTH!
Zhiwei&Meng: OMG OWE U BOTH BIG TIME! thanks for taking care of my hammies, please love them thanks.
Dajie&Rachel: Shopping trip when im back please!! SORRY LOVE u both too!
Eric: When im back then we go eat okay and stop saying loser things thanks very much! And you haven gimme my birthday present.
Joan&Serene: I miss you both like crazy.
Sylvia: I really need the bikini when I come back okay thanks haha.
Valerie&Annitha&Priya&Reyy:Sorry i can't club this Wed! do it next week okay!
Kacang&Stripey&Bunne:LOVE YOU THREEEEEEEE!!! OMG!!!!!!!

I did not take this picture hor! >=(
hahahaha joke picture please and OK THANKS for the cookies and you're so gay cos you make the stupid heartshape and still purposely take such pics. loser x 1000 okay.


Xmark being a very very happy bday boy unwrapping his presents.


All very happy cos last day of school.


I wish I'm as talented as Eric (in drawing Stewie only)
Clever right that Eric Ng.


What I had before heading to Club Play with Purani on Thursday. NICE!! I like it alot!!


Love of my life: GheeGhee & NANA


HAHAHA.


:) YAY.


My boyfriend la. REALLY. look like right.
he looks like hes on drugs but hes not the main thing in the pic la so ignore him.



My favourite! :)
Not as fun as NewZealand's one though!

** Just realised some people in this world are seriously so kind can, and whats so sweet is that person is just a stranger to me, and a girl somemore, shes called Annabel and she bought me socks! OMG so sweet, even though is people ask her to help me buy, she also buy. so nice hor! I dunno who she is At all though. But I admire her for that lor, cos if people ask me to help ANOTHER person buy, and somemore i dunno the person one hor, SORRY ah, you go and buy yourself. OMG, im so selfish, it scares me terribly. hahahahahaahahahha. joei is so selfish im so disgusted eeee.

***OMG, I'll miss my hamsters so so much already!

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak.
Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

hahaha, joke.

So, which of it is true? You decide.

I've not blogged for 3 hundred years.

My previous week was a big fat joke okay. Hectic wild fun and very tired after that. A very brief summary of my week:
Monday-Ear Candling and slacking at Godmummy's place
Tuesday-Job training with Melanie+Gheeting! i had so much fun! + Steamboat
Wednesday-Highlighted my hair + Zouk with Dyan&Ziyan +stayover at Ziyan's place.
Thurday-Play(lesbian club) with Purani+Annitha+Priya+Rosh
Friday-Dinner at Winehouse + Dragonfly with Mummy, Auntie Kellyn, Auntie Carris, Auntie Jasmin & Denyse.
Saturday&Sunday-Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort, Butterfly Park, 4D show, Carlsberg Sky Tower, Luge and Skyride, Fort siloso with Parents and brother
Monday-Fish head steamboat at Boon Keng , yummy.

i clubbed 3 days in a row, the bomb already. but im a tad unhappy cos i didnt club with melanie and gheeting which is so unfair cos gheeting is having her projects and neverending essays now. yupp 3 of us will party like losers soon cos we HAVE and we NEED to. yes deal promise, swear upon my hamsters. (my hamsters!!!)

You know that day when 3 of us (me, gheeting &melanie) had the Job training at the Adecco there.. I had this nostalgic feeling of going back to the past with them. The days at school when we can see each other everyday, hang out at Plaza and eat KFC cheesefries, taking sneak peeks at The Fat, The Black, The Short, we laugh at every single things, when we sit at our Beggar Sect Place, Our lemon barley and fish fillet, when we are index number 1,2,3,4, and that we always get into trouble TOGETHER, when we ponteng class and got caught by the teacher(shit! gheeting whats her name!?!?! mystery!!) and got our parents down and we cried, when we go see people get tio-ed after school either at some carpark or school toilet, when we stole from the Art Room first aid box(haha), when we seriously can see each other EVERYDAY......

:( now we totally can't. and that day at the job training we scirbbled on each other's paper, writing ugly MELs everywhere and drew loser things all over, it really felt like secondary school days again.. :( i wish we were in sec sch forever and ever.... i love them you know. they made my school life so happy and everything. of cos we xmark,damark,ch,johnnie,dajie,rachel,4e4pple,and others also la. My resolution: Spend more time with Gheeting and Melanie so we wouldn't drift apart. Like more stayovers!:) since i can't thon cos i need sleep. And maybe we can have more job trainings forever. hahahahha. Or we can enrol in some cooking lessons, or some other classes so we can be in a class together? :) Good idea? SHALL WE DO IT? omg!! please reply!!

Yea, and that was dedicated to Melanie and Gheeting darling.HAHA,muacks.

And list of things that I need badly:

1. New handphone
2. Wallet
3. Bag
4. That Juicy Couture Watch! OMG i need to have it so badly.

And now i can't wait for my trip to Genting. 21st-24th November! Will miss all of you and i really love Genting!! :) YAY!!

I am so sad now.
I saw 2 dogs getting hit by 2 cars, and those 2 cars did not even bother to stop and take a look. And I watched one of it die right in front of my eyes.
I cried like a loser even though they are just stray dogs.

Seriously, im so affected by it. Terribly affected.

I.. watched it die. Like took its last breath and then die kinda thing. I shall kill myself now, that image of it taking its last breath is etched in my mind and it refuses to go away.

Why must those people be so cruel and not stop the fucking car!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those strays are innocent!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tastes as good as it looks man!
I LOVE IT.


BUNNEEE!


Gheeting giving me a ride, hahaha. I am damn terrified of driving this thing okay. She speeds and brakes and turns like a scary loser. And how sweet of melanie to take this picture. hahaha. Damark drove her on this and we overtook them i think! we overtook everyone! haahhaha.


Okay omg, i miss my Princess hair! :(
so unfair that all good things come to an end!
I WANT TO CURL MY HAIR NOW.
NOW. now. NOW.

I am highlighting it like now also.hahahaha.

I blame all my moodyness on PMS! PMS is sucha bitch, I hate PMS. PMS is a loser in life and therefore PMS wants to destroy us all. PMS ought to perish and burn in hell. Joei is officially now ANTI-PMS. I shall start a campaign soon. heh heh heh.

Highlighting my hair, LIKE LATERRRRRR!

I was the happiest girl in the world yesterday, not as happy as when I had 2 bowls of soup but yea,im still VERY happy BECAUSE my hair had beautiful curls yesterday!!!!!!! Me and Ziyan was totally slacking at work and we meet up to do some shopping and dropped by the RedKen something for FREE styling of the hair, and tadah! I had beautiful curls for the day. My all time wish since young was to have curly hair!(not the kind of CURLY CURLY kind, like only at the bottom have kind..) LIKE A PRINCESS KIND!!!! so i was a real princess for awhile yesterday. YAY!! but the curls are gone now, and its tempting me to do some real curls. :( BUT i promised myself the first thing i will do after A levels is to MAKE MY HAIR HAVE BEAUTIFUL CURLS!!! YIPPPEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway, I don't know if life is considered smooth sailing now or not..
I hope it will be..

Thanks to all who visited me when I was under torture of what you would call being a stupid promoter. I love all of you so much!

*Poor Gheeting is under examstress now! RELAX LOSER! if u don't relax, you are a loser okay, aiya just awhile more only! and after that is so partying time! please think of the partying ! love ya.

**Melanie REFUSE to blog about her birthday. REFUSE. anyway you are 18 and this calls for some pure fun ! like what you say, "TIME FOR SOME LADIES NIGHT OUT"

(what kinda friends are not worth having..? I NEED TO KNOW PLEASE)

looking at my archives when i came across this,
(yes i know im a loser, but i read my own blog ALL the time)

"What a lovely surprise to discover how unlonely being alone can be"

i want to put in a word about being single. its fine to be single!
beats going out with a lowlife or feeling like a vulnerable kid on an endless roller-coaster ride.

some pple aren't up for the whole relationship thing, they would rather focus on frens, sports, homework, shopping, wadever~. they like being able to do wadever they want, whenever they want. they like bein independent and able to flirt, they like having their options open, time free, and possibilities endless.no problem there. others jump from one love tangle to another and never take a moment to figure out who they really are and what they really want.

and that, my darlings, can be a BIG problem.

its nice to be loved, of cos ! but don't be afraid to be alone. bein alone doesnt mean u're unattractive, any more than bein part of a couple means u're attractive, thats total bullshit. and there's something kinda nice about not having your Friday nights booked up. besides, goin out with one person can sometimes be limiting and can lead to quarrels, jealousy, pressure, or hurt feelings. alone and unattached, you get to make your own schedule and keep yourself company. and who's better company than YOU?

"inside myself is a place where i live all alone" - Pearl S.Buck
"i never found the companion as companionable as solitude" - Henry David Thoreau

Alone, yes. Lonely, no.

**this is not a post discouraging love. of cos i encourage love~ i jus wanna let pple who are single have more confidence~ WOOHOO.

(hahahha, im sucha joke last time)

Current mood: PMS-sy

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See? Told you I'm PMS-sy.
I'm sucha loser.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TO..

MY DARLINGS:

MELANIE & VALERIE !

Happy 18th birthday!
Clubbing time!

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Working all day - killing me slowly, but surely.
ARGH. I feel like a patient in a hospital,
with people "visiting" me on a regular basis.
New people, surprise! people, family members.
And surprisingly, I'm like paid to sms and shop around.
JOKE.
I hate working ah!! very the fucking sian can!!

I want money, I want a doggy, I want new tops, I want my hamsters to never ever die, I want to highlight my hair red, I want to club everyday of the week, I want to STOP working but still have money coming in, I want to eat non stop and never get fat, I want to go on a holiday BADLY, I want to go everywhere in the car, I want to have free manicures & pedicures forever, I want to be able to fly and become invisible, I want to not be so gullible, I want a new branded wallet, I want an ATM machine as a boyfriend, I want to be able to sleep as long as I want, I want to be able to print money, I want to stay in Genting forever(haha), I want to migrate to New Zealand, I want to escape this cruel world, I want to stay in a HAPPYland where everyone is nice, I want to eat salmon every second of my life, I want the world to only have chicken skins, I want animal abuse to STOP, I want all kinds of sufferings to END, I want to be slim, I want to be a social worker, I want to be nice and smile to everyone, I want to be a tai-tai, I want to be a Princess, I want to be bestfriends with my bestfriends forever, .....and the list goes on.....

(humans are just never satisfied, don't they?)

Went to Purani's granny's house for dinner yesterday.
I had the world's most spicy meal of my life. I died.
DIED. so now im actually dead.
Its damn spicy but damn delicious. YUM.
Headed over to Orchard with Sylvia and Purani,
And I FUCKING DIED A DEATH (yes, AGAIN)
GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!?!
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)


I saw Elvin. ELVIN. e-l-v-i-n.
MY EX-BOYFRIEND that i loved like a loser.omg.
with pple like Kenneth,Leon,Wilson and i forgot still got who.

wah seriously my heart stopped.
and then after that it went into a frenzy.
purani&sylvia had a hard time calming me down.
in fact, im still suffering from shock now.
(okay, i know now melanie and gheeting are so itching to hear what i have to say, and they will so ask me to meet them at rivervale plaza's mac and slack. hahahaa. or just stayover at melanie's house la for some HTHT)

hhahahhahaha. melanie darling hope you enjoyed your birthday! LOVE YOU! HAPPY 18th and MUACKS! i uploaded all the pics into my com liao. i will upload in my blog or send u via msn soon! when im free. hughugggg!

*valerie darling! happy 18th! sorry not able to join u guys at Sentosa, im working! sorry sorry but i know u enjoyed yourself. LOTS OF LOVE! 18th but still a baby!! hahaha.

OMG, i had salmon belly sashimi and famous amos cookies today, thanks to DASH. whahaha joke. it tastes so good im dying thanks thanks to the maximum max.

And to loser hoe, you think its so funny giving me sneaky visits huh.. i slap u den u noe. haha joke thanks for the Orange Julius.

and yes , my leg hurts so badly. :(
Thank god i don't have to take PT back home all the time!
I'm sucha fortunate shit.
XIEXIE.:)


Sucha long posts, even I am about to fall asleep.
Good nitey everyone.
I love you all.....

i need help badly. im being spoilt to the bloody max and i can't help feeling happy about it. and at the same time, im feeling so bad about it. hahahahah tell me what to do please.

im so sad i missed Zouk yesterday but i had a funner night out cos i laughed so hard i died. melanie's bday was a joke, i like her present part, its sucha BIG FAT joke. and as usual, damark and johnathan made me died laughing. so happy to see all of them again! its beeen years since i've seen melanie and gheeting !!! but technically speaking, i just saw them on the chalet day which is just a month ago. hahahahaa.

i like the surprise yesterday, i like the Princess on Board thing, and the cupcakes. alot. so im feeling happy!

YAY! another happier thing, going purani's granny house for Deepavali dinner. YAY!!!! YIPPEEEE!!

i cannot wait to go Genting!

WORK YESTERDAY WAS A TORTURE! I CAN'T BELIEVE I NEED TO WORK THERE ON FRIDAY, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!! but its okay, for my debts, i will work till i die. :)

been so long since i play with kacang, kacang me love you okay. and stripey too, and bunnee as well. Bunnee is being naughty, but i will tame her slowly la.

(pics to be uploaded soon)

Happy because:
1. Just did facial with mummy at De Beauty. I still have lots more to go! yay! I love the package she signed up for me. (ahhahahaaha)
2. Work officially starts tomorrow. weehee.
3. YAY, i get to be fetched again!
4. My quote is recognised in Purani's blog.
5. Melanie's bday celebration is tomorrow!
6. Valerie's bday celebration is Friday!
7. I have 3 love of my life! Kacang, Stripey & Bunnee!
8. I can pay up my debt soon!
9. I am going to Genting on the 21 - 24th November! HAPPYNESS!
10. Mummy just brought me to eat Jappy food.

Unhappy because:
1. Stupid Zhiwei gave me sneaky attacks in Facebook, say your prayers NOW loser. i wanna watch you die slowly, but surely.
2. I've no money at all, as in, at all.
3. Getting fatter & fatter.
4. Whats gonna happen to the 3 love of my life when i go Genting?
5. I am quite stressed for no reason at all!!!


Okay, its 10 happy things over 5 unhappy things. so I should be happier. Okay yay! i am going to Genting! happy happy! YAY!! i'm gonna forget all my loser troubles and sit the rides 10 million times, with the cold weather! and everythinggggggggg. My dad wanna go India too, maybe I'll bump into Purani there. muahahaha so fun. and then i will see so many of my "friends" in India! India is always night time, is it? Its okay, I will be the mangen sunlight there.

I am so sad over the demise of my Godpa's mummy. He is so devastated.... and it totally killed me to see him being so depressed at the wake. OMG, papa please be okay soon, i love you.

My secret wish: I want everyone to understand me, from the inside out.

Do you think it would be difficult???

I miss Cambodia,
and my junior ZhiYang is the nicest most sensitive guy ever.
then&now. thanksthanks buddy.


Look at their classroom..
Treasure yours now okay!


Me miss Cambodia la!!!!


Miss my bimbo friends!


:) Why am i always with Indians? I wonder why.
hahahaha.


Guess who & who? GUESS PLEASE.
omg, the girl has short hair, and braces. OMG.
If you noticed, the fat one has a big spoon and a big bowl, and i have a smaller spoon and bowl.hahaha joke picture.


Granny's birthday.


I dunno why i took this.


What I wanna let you know for all the things you've done.
Since you don't want any thankyous.


OMFG so sweet.

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Moral of this post: I miss Cambodia soooo much, that I will be going to Vietnam at the end of this year(hopefully). Daddy is very keen on going there, I am keen too, but that means I can't go Malaysia! :( I wanna go both. And i miss Genting so so much too. I love the weather there, I have so many longsleeves to bring there! hahaha.

New baby in my family: A Pearl White hammie, cousin doesn't have the time to look after it so its under my care now, its so cute and white and tiny. I shall name it "Bunnee" cos it looks like a Bunny. so cute right. when i take pictures of it den i post here. Its exactly like KACANG except its totally white. Okay its so cute, playing with it now. BYEBYE.

Actually I'm not feeling too happy about things happening around me at the moment. The $140 debt is very much affecting me, no kidding. The stress level is like so tremendously increasing, and it doesn't help when someone just decides to continuously ANNOY the fuck outta me. (adding on to the fucking stress), and the amount of unfinished household chores calling out to me, the death of someone, financial crisis... etc etc.

Have I ever ever mentioned that Life is a motherfucker ?
Well, it fucking is, and seriously I don't mind ending it.
(if not for my Kacang&Stripey& now with Bunnee around)

Thanks hammie for keeping my sanity.
I love you hammie darlings.

Alot of catching up with my friends!
Miss all of my friends!

Over at granny's house!
And that means MIA-ing time!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Byebye world!

I can sense a fun night out,
(no its not clubbing, i promised someone i will not club unless the person is there)
:) pasir ris, laughing, talking, drinking(no,i don't drink), and more laughings.

Haha, and another funner thing,
Meng is gonna fetch me again! YAY!
I am so so happy.
Fine,they are uncomfy.

I'm feeling uber happy now,
its almost like i'm floating.

Exams over, so much activities going on, fun ride outs to nowhere or everywhere, birthday celebrations, work starting soon, highlighting my hair RED(song bo!!!), and more.

If only everything stays the way it is now.....