Thanks Mr LJH(our history teacher) for treating us to Swensens. Me, Sylvia, Purani, Annittha, Valerie, Shirin, Deepak, Priya all went for it. :) the food and the ice-cream after that was REALLY nice. and of cos, costly. Mr Lee paid for everything please, so lovely can, secretly in love with him liao.

hahaha. i'm still very full from the food!

and. i know this is gonna sound so weird, but thanks Deepak for getting me the 1001 cool freaky facts book. hahha, the weirdest present i ever got for my birthday. and I (and im sure the rest of you guys too) really love the book alot. its funny and retarded. gonna post some facts up here real soon. Thanks Deepak! i told him he made the rest of my life happy with the Meiji Milk and this present he gave me. He says im a simpleton who is satisfied very easily. What a slut.

I am happy for things happening in school everyday. :) Life is being a samaritan to me. YAY! I love it when life is not being a bitch.

Oh ya, i got my menses yesterday. :( it was so unexpected.to the max.

However, its funny how me & gheeting bonded and became BestFriendsForFuckinEver because of GUYS, and how me & sylvia bonded because of GUYS too. But funny how both best friends can fall out, because of a guy? The absurdest thing in my life ever. But maybe, just maybe, because my best friend's a guy. and so we fall out because of another guy. Ok, only I know what im talking about. Whateverrrrrrrrrr. But, since its not exactly your fault, and since its MY fault, i shall not be annoying and i shall just treat you as my best friend (still). It totally fine with me if the feeling's not mutual or if you don't wanna reciprocate the feeling. :) I'm about to say "I don't give a pussyfied fuck about you", but i shall just refrain from saying this sentence. Pretend you guys didn't see it. And, hmm. If you think severing ties with me just for this guy, think, just think. Is it worth it?

Yup, okay, since I'm in a good mood. and 2nd day of menses, I shall not talk about any bad stuffs.

....

Love you Kacang & Stripey! (forever&ever)

my shoulders are aching like fuck. i am hungry. i am all alone. i still have to do so many household chores. and.. i have this enormouse cravings for fucking donuts and fucking salmon sashimi.

but, thanks to you. thanks so much once again.
:) for getting for me medicated plasters, for getting me Zinger Meal, for (going to) help me queue for donuts.
thanks Eric the fatty.

i'm feeling so much better already! it was a perfect monday. :) received notes from sylvia. gave them notes as well. that way, monday blues are soon gone. Dead Silence after school, hahaha. so paiseh. we sat at the Director's seat, and got chased away during the course of the show. fucking suay. laughed alot today. its a good sign. and im surprised it was sucha happy Monday. i adore Happy Mondays. i wish all my Mondays would be like that. YAY to Perfect Mondays. I am Anti-Monday-Blues. heehee.

**i hope LJH keep his word and treats us to dinner tomorrow.

hello everyone. meet my boyfriend(the one in white). Chen Hao Nam. you may call him Nan-ge. HAHAA. omg! hes like the branch leader of Causeway Bay! HAHAHAHA. next time i go HongKong, i WILL be a happy girl! :) YAY! (spot his tattoo? so fucking hot)


hahahaa. dug out a picture of us clubbing at Powerhouse. taken by my BFF.
pictures taken by BFF's phone is always nice. dunno why.


yay my bitching partners in school.
LOVE ALL OF THEM, including the photographer.


We love MiloDinosaur + PrataHouse x 100000
Standard things to order, 2 milodino, 2 kosong, 2 cheese with egg.
HAHA. and a different side order each time we go.


We love pubbing.
when there is no clubbing.

hhaahahahaha, i keep listening to "Gan Xin Ti Dai Ni" and now i totally know how to sing it! YAY!! so happy. i know i am sick and gay and twisted, but i can't help but love the show/song so much right. yaya, i know im into gangster movies. i think that can be seen from the fact that i went googoo-gaga over the gangster show 15 made locally by Roystan Tan as well. this weird fetish over gansters is troubling me, WHY!? why do i have such an obsession with these shows. hmmm, i think i need to go on a pilgrimage to do some soul searching.

Ok, serious topic. been so long since i blogged bout serious issues.
No offence to anyone.

You know its the Seventh Month now rite? so the Chinese gotta burn incense paper and offerings to the wandering ghosts out there and all. so we burn all these only on the first day of the Seventh month, and middle part and one last time at the end of it. so, altogether, ONLY 3 BLOODY TIMES RITE? ONLY 3 FUCKING BLOODY CHEEBYE TIMES OUT OF A FUCKING MONTH RITE?!?!!?!

so must some people make a big hoohaa over it anot? will die ah? breathe in all the smoke will die ha??? (ok i personally love the smell of the smoke, purani and sylvia knows that). its not like smoky till you all die in the smoke rite. PLEASE BE REASONABLE CAN. i mean, we don't do that EVERYDAY OF YOUR LIFE. only a few days only. Singapore leh, we all racial harmony wan leh. Can just shut the fuck up and let the Chinese burn anot? Respect the ghosts can anot? They long long time can come out one time, must you all deny their rights to smell the smoky smell anot? (well, i dunno about ghost loving the smell.....but haha, oh well)

I heard someone saying what, "Can you like ask them to go to the temple to burn or something? Its so irritating they are burning everywhere." AYE I TELL YOU. FUCK YOU OK. you think everyone very free ha? we burn at the void deck, we also burn inside the bin rite. we got anyhow burn OUTSIDE your house anot? don have den shut the fuck up.

yes, i agree, those pple who never burn inside the bin are indeed inconsiderate and all, cos they will "dirty" the pavements and obstruct the way. this i agree. but its their "culture" that the ghosts will only get the "money" that way. but pple now are more considerate already. we're all burning in the bins. even I, burn in the bin. ALL THE TIME.

So, i tell you. just bcos you are a different religion, and you don't follow this particular Chinese culture, i advise you not to let me hear you say ANYTHING about this issue. Because before my grandfather died, he will go down to burn EVERY YEAR, and me, my grandma and brother will accompany him. This year, I DID IT ALL ALONE WITH MY BROTHER ONLY. it was funny, (yea, and we did everything in the bin, as in the burning and all).

So kindly respect other pple's beliefs or culture okay? If the smoke really irritates your eye, or obstruct your breathing, I'm here to apologise for all the other people burning okay. Sorry okay.

Racial / Religious Harmony.
Everybody steady with that anot?

song

my favourite song.

Ok, when you have the world's bestest friend in the world,
you love them for who they are, and not what they are.

So, i love you ALL my best friends.

I think my form of escaping is by watching Young&Dangerous, my GuHuaZhai! and to which my daddy claims I'm a loser cos this shows are like 1o years ago and i'm only watching it now. I remember watching it when i was a little girl, so now im just trying to refresh my memory. TSK TSK.

Triple Fun Day on Saturday, despite the gay trip to school! :) love you.
AND I'M ADDICTED TO THE MACDONALD SMS THINGY.
HAHAHAHAHAA. fucking fucking funny.
thanks to the sweetie who dedicated the sms to me.
"good luck to all taking their A lvls, esp joei! so we can hang out soon. love you! -bff"
SWEEEETNESS.
I LOVE YOU THANKS.

i can't give u an answer.
i am sorry i can't.

bon gave me this webby.
about zombies. gotta put it here cos if not the tagboard need to scroll left and right.

.Love hurts when you know you've hurt the person that means the world to you.
.It's hard to make your head stop loving somebody when your heart still does.
this above quotes are so true can. :(

.How come whenever I think I'm over you, you come talk to me and make me feel like the most loved person in the world?
.I could have gotten over you, but then you had to tell me that you loved me.
hahahaha. true to the max. hello Dyan, do u "feel" for this quotes? hahaha, we're losers.

finefine, so korkor tells me this just now,
"mei.. listen, you lay awake crying over him, you go to sleep dreaming of him...but do you ever think there's someone crying over you? don't lie to me that no one is crying for you lar, you know there is people who wants you, why don't you give them the chance?"

(again, i must reiterate that NOone loves me.nuff said)

Anyway, i wanna say, the lesson i've learnt so far is that..
If you really, truly love someone, you can't stay mad at them forever. As much as you want to hate them for what they've done, your heart won't let you.

does it hurt you to know that we haven't spoken to each other in days?

i totally am crazy. i watched the WHOLE of Young & Dangerous/Gu Hua Zhai series today. AS IN, the part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, and i am watching more now. I'm even watching the version when they were young(the Nicholas Tse one). hahahaha. i am crazy. Nan-ge is sooooo hot. HOT. he is sex. my sex. *oooh-ahh*

(ok back to watching it now)

HOT STUFF, yes?
hes the gang leader/member of some HungHing gang. right??
gang member+tattoo= HOTNESSSSSS.


this scene looks .. very familiar.


i wanna watch the part 3 please!


YAY, gang members.


:)


this scene is VERY familiar. VERY. VERY.


his body alone is enough to allow me to have 15 orgasms in 1 second.

emo-ing now. found my world's most favourite MTV from Young & Dangerous 3 on youtube. im a happy and sad girl! this MTV, is the world's saddest one on earth. i tell you, do not watch it when you're emo-ing badly k. will die on the spot. Ekin Cheng is damn hot by the way. and anyone got Young & Dangerous 3? cos if no one has it, im gonna buy one. and keep watching and keep crying.

GAN XIN TI DAI NI - MTV(YOUNG&DANGEROUS)

its in Cantonese, but if u wanna see how sad it is, den just watch the MTV, don listen to what it says lor. YAY, gonna memorise and sing in Kbox next time.

lemme put the lyrics here, and i dunno how to continue! bat goon tin bin fung yi hei, jek seung yi hon jeuk nei ye laan yan jing wooi fau ying hoh hei kei ging dak hei yau seung yue bei, jek yan sum zhong yau jeuk nei lo yiu cheung ye gei yik chung bat se hei cheung gaai dik san ying chuen qwoh fung yue yau ngo hei chang yat hei chut jau bat pa chong jun kiu juet dei yue mo yue yin chuen jeung yau hei fong fut tin woh dei joi tiu suen ngoh gan nei yur jeung ngoh ......(to be continued)

oh anyway, i caught 881 the other day. NICE please. i cried like a fuck. like as though its the saddest show on earth. its really sad, like the person you love dying. having to sell away your favourite pet just to raise money for someone's hospital bills. (i cried most here, cos i was thinking how am i EVER able to sell Kacang away) SIGH.

*zhiwei, u better thank me for the treat. ungrateful bastard.
*gheeting, u better thank me for the treat. another ungrateful one.

GREAT! no one loves me ANYMORE. both my parents are totally overseas. ITS OK. all alone at home. i don care!!!!!

antique pictures. for our play. scary huh?
sylvia thinks it looks very olden-ny and spooky.
like the kind where another extra person appears, or anpther hand, or anything else.


i swear i look like those kinda Blood Countess in the Count Dracula era. those days pple wear such attires.


SEE? i look like one rite. this top belongs to my mummy please.
the attire was the most obiang thing i see in my life.


:) Joan & Lis. (hahahha)
our on-stage name. shes my sister.

The play was a success! had lotsa fun during this period. all the laughing at the death scene. the trying-not-to-laugh-but-failed-miserably scene. the memorising. the FOOD.(wah cheebye,the fucking food is making me fantasize like the world's most horniest girl). the off the lights at lecture room to tell ghost stories/play catching. i love this period. its the funnest days of my life.

(just as when im at the downest of my life)

anyone wanna cheer me up! please get me food from Princess Elizabeth Pri.Sch, its sex and i totally am addicted to their food. its all fried. its CHEAP. i love it there. :)

SIGH, am still affected and sad and everything.
sorry girls for being all emo on you all in school.
sorry sylvia & purani. sorry to the power of 10.

thanks Deepak for the bottle of milk, thanks! that cheered me up.

Remember, Joei is without a heart now.
So now, I'm a living dead!
YAY! my wish for turning into a zombie is finally here!
:) Joei the undead. Joei the Zombie.
Joei doesn't sound like a Zombie name.
Can anyone help me think of a zombie name pleasE?
like a cool zombie name.
the zombie name must sound like i've no heart k.
and must sound like a zombie also.
like Zombie the Zombie kinda thing.

i miss you.
still.
fuck.

once again, ONCE AGAIN.
you will never have any idea how i'm feeling now.
(ok well, maybe you did in the past)
(feels like shit, but oh well)
as much as i FEEL like blaming you.
i know i'm in NO position to.



my heart hurts and i bloddy cannot breathe.
im in the worst state anyone can ever imagine.
no one will ever ever know how i feel.


life is so full of empty promises and broken dreams...
EMO-ing now sorry.


just as i was so happy during the first day of Aug cos its the seventh month and got alot of "eat-tables".. just as i was just ABOUT to move on from the past and forgive ourselves for our mistakes. THIS JUST HAVE TO HAPPEN. HAVE TO.


like wad dyan said, "don hold on to hopes, cos hopes will make you more disappointed than ever if the hopes are dashed." MAKES ALOT OF SENSE.

my heart has officially cease to exist anymore.
totally broke & disintegrated into thin thin air.
byebye, heart!

I hate Joei the gullible,
do you all hate Joei the gullible?
or Joei the Loser. Or Joei the Dumb.

i wanna kill pple now!

i am sick and tired of seeing your friendster comments.
i am sick and tired of 'discovering' your little secrets.
i am sick and tired of seeing you flirt with other girls.

(shit, now i totally feel for dyan, totally to the max.)

its fucking fucking fucking gross can.
yes yes, i noe we are not together.
BUT STILL, BUT STILL.
BUT STILL x 1000million times.

FUCK. x 1000000000000000000
CB. x 3
KNN x 4
NNB x 4

okay joei relax.
all guys are the same.
joei tan relax.

cmon, go play with kacang & stripey now.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A set of screwdrivers,A cordless drill, andA black lace bra..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A feeling of control over Her destiny...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
One friend who Always makes her Laugh...And one Who lets her cry...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to fall in love Without losing herself...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to quit a Job/ Break up with a lover and confront a friend withoutruining the friendship

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
When to try harder... And WHEN TO WALK AWAY .

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
What she would and Wouldn'tDo for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to live alone... even ifShe doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Whom she can trust,Whom she can't,And why she shouldn'tTake it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Where to go...Be it to her best friend's kitchen table..Or a charming inn in the woods...When her soul needs soothing... !

LONG x 10 time since i ever blogged.
aaahhhh, it feels so good now.. ah, ah... ah...
yes, that was an orgasm, thanks.

i am happy! because, YAY!!
i finally went to "eat-table!"(direct translation from Hokkien)
BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I WENT TO ONE OK!
went with Eric, i cried cos he made me scared.
he didn't tell me this "eat-table" is not the outdoor kind but is inside a restaurant kind! FUCK. i was so wearing slippers. :( ugly loserish slippers. i was TERRIFIED. i was so afraid they would refuse my entry and POOF! goes all my yummy food!
so happy i can finally seee all the familiar faces again.
food was quite good, love the first dish, the one with SO MANY fried food! AAAA.
and Shark's Fin next! (i seem to forget im AGAINST killing sharks for their fins when the bloody food is in front of me.!) joei tan is a hypocrite! joei tan is a traitor to the animal world! hmm, and omg! theres YAM PASTE with coconut sauce with gingko nut for desert! YAY! not Potong ice-cream for the first time. and i love the KONG-BAH-PAO. i ate only the FATS. yumyum.
and some uncle fetched us home after that, it was 11plus already can! so late. was so afraid my dad would kill me, heng he never.

these 3 days of school have been fun, funner den i expected, and to think i didnt wanna go to school one. hahahaa. poor purani, cheer up! :) you are not gay k. haha. i buy you many dark chocolate k. and one of the main reason why school's so fun is cos, there is alot of things to talk about, which in our context, is called bitching. about the grossest couple ever(you all know who), about EVERYTHING la. :) and sylvia has a score to settle with me. and i have a score to settle with her too. she DOESN'T know how to write my Chinese name! and i called her a liar today. (hahaha) it was the funnest chinese lesson ever.

after school, was stuck doing English Compre test. with Nabila and Hilwa. we were going , SIAN man all the way. haha. the grossest thing to do when school ends early!

had the longest nap ever when i went home , and here i am, finally blogging.

and yes! i would love to watch the show 881 ! first time i love Singapore show okay, okay not first, its second, my first is the gangster show 15. heeheeheeeeeeee. am glad gheeting,meland xmark they all liked it too.

have a chalet on Friday! and Saturday gonna watch fireworks! HAHAHAHA.
siao liao. need to go clubbing real soon !

FUCK. went to play the stupid addicting game that melanie says its SO for us. CHEEBYE. i only got till Qns 12. FUCK, how on earth she got to 45 man. wanna play?
Click HERE NOW.

note: that game makes pple kee siao one. so UNLESS, only UNLESS you guys are bored until you all can die kinda bored, den play it. PLAY IT. joei highly recommends the game. anyway just remember i gave up at Qns 12. NEENAABEH!

yay daddy just bought stamps for me. if i talk nonsense. it means i dunno wad to blog about anymore. hahahaha. byebye.

hmm.

heehee, shhh, Kacang darling is sleeping. sooo cute.


oooh big balls. my Stripey.


sweet sweet darling. loves her to the max.


hello all, im sleeping. im so cute even when im sleeping.


yay ! i love joei's table. my maze.

hmm.
spent my days ALL very EVENTFULLY.
indeed.
alot of money spent.yes,we are now officially broke.
somemore is not SHOPPING-broke.
is go-and-enjoy-life kinda broke.
K-box, eat&eat, watch movie, go pub and drink.
therefore, we end up lidat.
BECAUSE WE DIDNT CLUB THIS WEEKEND!
(first time!ever.)
we decided to make ourselves feel better& went to a pub to drink.
so gay. BUT FUN!
:) LOVE NIGHTS OUT.LOVE.

i need more PSP games leh. cheebye ok.
my brother says im gay cos all i know how to play is Sims2 & Tekken5.
:( i can't help it, its really fun.

OH YA! i wanna watch 881 ! OMG!
for pple who say,"eee,singapore show,gross"
AYE, LIMPEH TELL YOU NOW OK.
FUCK YOUUUUUUU.FUCK FUCKING YOU.
this Singapore show is by my MOST favourite director
IN THE WORLD alrite.
my ROYSTON TAN!
(not that hes really hot or wad)
but he directed the gangster show 15 wad!
i loveLOVELOVELOVe him for that.
so since this is a Roystan Tan film,
I SHALL SUPPORT HIM!

watched RushHour3 already, fucking funny,FUNNY. should watch if you wanna relieve some stress.

watched Secret already, JayChou is hot, yes. the amounts of ooh & aahs emitting from the person beside me ah, is 3zillion. the plot is very nice. the song is very nice. its a comedy/romance/fantasy/thriller/horror. (REALLY!)

watched Hostel 2, at home of cos. FUCKING NICE. the plot rocks please. i have the dvd, so if you guys want it, just tell me, i'll lend it to you. melanie&gheeting watched it already too.

need to catch 881. Skinwalkers. and more...

**love my mummy&daddy for my 18year old birthday pressie! SERIOUSLY, my life is complete. COMPLETE. complete. COMPLETE. i do not need anything more in my life. YES! I LOVE THEM! so guess what they got me! GUESS. yay!

(i've so many things not done. sigh. okay the sick thing is i went to Popular today to buy blades. seriously. for fuck, i also dunno. gheeting says in case i wanna die.. anyway its very cheap. $0.45 for 5 blades. hahahahha. i bought it cos its cheap. and, in times of emergency, i can use it too.)

ok i shall go iron clothes now. byebye.

joei has died. her nose died.
DIED. DIED. DIED.
i wish i hadn't a nose.
:
feeling terrible now. to the max.

AAA FUCK.
haha, funniest thing is i was watching Troy just now, and got reminded of gheeting about, "come girl,lets talk about Troy" hahaha, and coolest thing was gheeting msged me in msn telling me HER NOSE DIED too! and den she asked me,"is twins supposed to be like that?" HAHAHA. i died, but she went offline before i could reply. some telepathic fields huh.

and to melanie, THOSE ARE THE PICS! THERE ARE NO MORE OTHER PICS! hahaha, you & your "im sure there are much more other pics".

Joei says: "clubbing pictures time!"


:( omg look at how tanned i bloody am! i used to be not so tanned. :( anyway, my pretty girls! me, sabrina, janejie, melaniedarling. they are all so pretty. PRETTY. SLIM.
not fair! so happy to see them by the way, bump into them inside powerhouse.


my another group of PRETTY girls! me, gheeghee, weiling, melanie!
love themmmmm. SO FUN rite? so fun sneaking in to clubs rite.
we love St.James powerhouse rite?!


me & pretty girl DXO-ing.
love those longlong hair of hers.


yay, meeting gheeting. guess where are we going?
ZOUK! YAY!
quote zhiwei,"either your camera or the mirror got problem, cos you look quite slim,which is very unusual." FUCK you ok. but honestly, i think theres something wrong too.


hello sexy sexy sylvia!
in DXO toilet!


another day at DXO. :)
with sylvia, priya and purani!


Dragonfly day. LOVE IT THERE.


gheeghee says i must blog bout this picture.
hmm.


birthday boy, happy birthday!


fucking expensive. $680++.
at Dragonfly. so now Gilbert's an exclusive member.
i wanna be an exclusive member too!

yesterday was fun! at PowerHouse(free entry). though we intended to go Zouk initially. the queue was, 3ookm long, really. even when Dyan let us cut the queue, it was totally redundant! so headed to St.James instead. :) so funFUNfun. great music, BUT very packed. my poor foot was stepped on by this HUGE girl. she was dancing like a madfatslut. and totally kept banging against us. gross. saw many many pple yesterday ! so fun. chenghong's birthday cake was damn delicious, and that poor boy totally KNOCKED OUT. kept puking like a fucker, and den slept on the couch. and i declined every alcoholic drink offered to me yesterday, i drank coke and warm water,(how loserish and gay). danced the pussy outta me,and ya, i love all you pple. gheeting,you poor thing.

OMG, my neighbour saw me please.

ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
hey u at zouk yest ?
joei ❤s kacang&stripey always TOTHEMAX. yay! boo! yay! boo! fuck! says:
yupp
ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
not bad ar start clubbin already
joei ❤s kacang&stripey always TOTHEMAX. yay! boo! yay! boo! fuck! says:
how u noe ha?
ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
saw u

so funny. dongdong was at zouk queuing too, so i let him cut the queue, (sorry&thanks dyan!) but he went to MOS at last.

:) yay love partying!
can't wait for the next round.

first,lemme rest for 2 weeks first.

SHIT! purani just called and said we need to be in school tomoro, and.. i need to go pray my ahgong tomoro! HOW?! shitshitshit. everyone in my family took leave to go , and i will not be going? GOSH. how?

back from hospital, poor granny hospitalised. sigh, at SGH (again) been the 10millionth time i been to SGH within 2 months. OMG.i broke the highest record, perfect. anyway, i dislike hospitals. not the dislike, dislike. like is not i dislike visiting my granny, auntie or wad. its... i cannot bear to see the patients there, some are old and frail, and sick and bedridden, it hurts me alot. ALOT. my heart will have this strange gnawing sensation, i wish that i can eradicate the world's sufferings. seeing all these patients suffer is torture to me. IT IS. thats why.

BUT, i love hospital food. not the hospital KOPITIAM. but the food which is provided, the mealtime kinda food. :) love those. and guess why i like to visit pple. cos when they are hospitalised, they kinda become sick of such food! AND THEN I CAN GET TO EAT THEM!!!!! YAY!!!! heeheehee. im so despicable.

tomoro my godmummy gotta go SGH again for followup on her Operation. then we will go see granny together. i gotta bring my godmummy go cos she doesn't really knoe english, imagine her lost and all. (heart winces)

joei the loser with a soft-heart.

i wish and pray for my granny and godma.
love you both. hugs.

purani and sylvia and priya,valerie,annita,reyy will all kill me i swear. not in school for 2 days! no bitching sessions! no laughing at losers! no "omg,look at that,THAT,that,NOW,now,NOW!". sorry my darlings, SORRY! family matters, please understand please.

gheeting & melanie, chill please and i love you. and relax. RELAX. sigh.

zhiwei, u also relax la. stop being a loser.

my dajie is so clever can, got full marks for my best friend test. my best fren indeed. love you please! yay meeting up real soon to do some clubbing! and waiting for our dear dear rachel. (we haven go find her YET!) i miss both of my best best best best friends please! Joei, Cheryl, Rachel! love the 3 of us.

thanks Eric for earpiece, ur bag, and i wan airbrush tattoo leh.

(i dislike the hospital! i don't wanna see any patients! i wish i can save them from their miseries! sobsob!!! )

what is happening to the world?
WHAT IS HAPPENING!?

firstly, i heard a very SCARY news in school today, as in WAY scary. like scary until i can vomit blood and die on the spot. i died a death. TO THE FUCKING MAX. ARGH. i wanna die, i SCREAMED LIKE A MAD SLUT. LIKE A TOTAL MAD SLUT!! the news is so horrifying, i wish, (just a wish), that my life would just end. when i HEARD THE NEWS, my life ENDED in fact. ENDED. i don't wanna live anymore. sobsobsob. :( i don't wanna go shopping anymore.. i don't wanna wear any clothes anymore. SO SAD! I AM DEPRESSED! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! yes, in case anyone can't see, im very very affected.

secondly, my friends ah, sigh, FUCK.
also dunno wads going on.
FUCK x 10 to the power of 10.

okay shall bath now and sleep for awhile.

;Dragonfly-ed yesterday. with gheeting,gilbert, 2 Eric Ng(s), sophie, and alot of random pple. thought it was some Uncle-Auntie place, but i was so wrong! ya there WERE uncle-aunties but it was still fun nevertheless. i LOVE the liveband, (first time) GUESS WHY.

because before i stepped into Dragonfly. some person(i forgot who, but i reckon it must be gheeting) said "Jo, you surely like this place, got chinese songs wan."

and true enough, really got chinese songs! the earlier part was EmoEmo chinese+english songs(damn nice), den slowly slowly R&B, the atmosphere is totally SEX. YAY! and we totally danced to the max can. :) with alot of women(yes women, they are all 20+, 30+), me and gheeting was the youngest. and we even heard a group walking past us and said "they look like kids hor." WTF. :( what losers.

made new friends too! but all very old.. so fun dancing with them, okay, and the drinks yesterday, was 10 hundred million. REALLY. its so much, and costs about 700 bucks, and maybe more! and now, Gilbert is an exclusive member of Dragonfly. i drank only Greentea and iced water, (so gay!) but this is to prevent me from being nonsensical.

okay, i love Dragonfly! :)

okay,new clubbing khaki is Eric Ng. Gilbert,Gheeting,Joei,Eric. i swear its the weirdest combination, cos 4 of us are all THE EX. :)

ok 1.43pm now. feel so bad for reaching home so late yesterday. and shit, tonight might be going MOS again. with BFF and the rest.

anyway DXO was quite, quite bored yesterday, but got VERY MUCH funner as time passes, went up on stage to dance! (haha) took me a LONGGGGGG time for me to go up, sylvia and priya went up first, i was.... scared. cos i am very *inserts wad joei always says about herself here* . drank alot of ribena and kept on shishi-ing. my BFF didn't go, yup.

my sunburn, is killing me to the max. the redness is REDDER than RED! gosh. the price to pay for being so "gian peng gian sai", for being so greedy and stupid to "make use" of the free 15 min. screams.

Thanks Charlene jiejie for everything, i miss you alot alot you know! :(

hahaha, ok im not gonna close down this blog.
yay so you pple got extra entertainment.

SHIT! i think im getting a sunburn NOW.
(whattt?! from an indoor artificial tan?)
really, the person warned me though,
but i JUST had to insist to have 5 more min.
:( its getting painful. very.
and i hope i do not GET so tan.
and i hope the tan will go away like real soon.
i don like being tanned,
the ONLY reason why i go is cos its FREE!
thanks sweetsweet CherYan for the voucher,
WE LOVE YOU LOTS!

haha, yay! purani decided to go!
:) i swear we'll be having alot of fun!
girls night out is like a page out of Playboy,
it will be SEX k!
DXO somemore(my favourite!), i don care wad others think.
i think DXO is the cosiest place ever.
Purani likes it there too, surprisingly.

heehee, shopping today.
:)

watched Vacancy and Captivity.
hahahaha. Captivity was...... HAHA.
me,syl and purani sat on the VIP seats.
comfortable shit can.
and we had so many food with us!!! NICE!
and they claimed i was scared,
NO IM NOT.

i miss my T100, my red cammie.
i want it BACK SOON!
SOON!

and im thirsty to the max.
lemme drink some water,bye!

(heard that alot of pple wanna see me and sylvia in school tomoro to see our newly tanned skin, hahahaha, if i purposely don go how ah?)

blog officially closed down.
:( very sad about it.
but, yupp, no choice.

not gonna tell anyone about my new blog.
maybe, just only maybe,
i will update this space,
so u guys may wanna take a sneak peek here every now and then.
sorry for this sudden decision.

i just feel so unwanted and all.
not everyone cares.
especially you and you.
i thought you would but too bad.
i was at my MOST crucial point, suicidal and all.
but, hah, i was wrong bout u !
so wrong. so wrong!

i feel so sorry for myself.
for everything.
for inflicting self-harm just to make myself feel better.
pathetic.
maybe i should get a new life.

yes, in my new blog maybe.
byebye readers.

contemplating closing down this blog.
should i?

some pple are just not worth it,
don't you think?
its a sad thing to realise someone is not worth being your friend after so long. just open your eyes bigbig next time joei. not everyone will be there for you when u need them. remember this COLD hard fact. just remember. because the one getting hurt and all will just be FUCKING ME. its alright.