came across this meaning of ur name thingy.
lets see.

J: Lives life for fun.
O: Best in bed. ( i swear im doubting this)
E: A GOD DAMN GOOD KISSER. (im sceptical bout this toooo!)
I: Loyal to those you love. Loves everyone.

oooo. hahahaha.

and because my birthday is on 21st July and have brown hair.
im therefore labelled as a..
Kissable Sexy Beast whos Great in Bed.

how cool?

and because im a Cancerian. i thus have all these qualities.
CANCER : NICE. trust worthy. very good in bed. LOVER NOT A FIGHTER . great kissers. they know what they want. 100% sexy.

and heres another one.

CANCER
>Great Kisser. <---- just loook!
>Very high sex appeal.
>Great in bed ... <---- just loooooook!!!!! *gasps!
>Totally laid back
>Freak in bed
>Most horny. <---- WHY?!!! *screams.
>Love is one of a kind.
>Very romantic.
>Most caring person you will ever meet!
>Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out..
>very wild like panda eating bamboo



ooooookieeeeeeeeeee. im so fucking freaking out NOW.
WHY. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY suddenly my signs all states that im a good kisser and im horny and im good in bed? i've never seeen my signs saying that about Cancerians or my birthdate before!
WHY THE SUDDEN CHANGE?! WHY? why all got horny and good kisser n good in bed!!
why!!
scowls!

or maybe i should blame all the loserish friendsters bulletin, should nvr have believed in them. so probably from this, i can reckon that its all bullshit.

or please do not just tell me i REALLY do have a high sex drive ? or that in future, i'll be uber good in bed? or that im a good kisser !? ok fuck. i so cannot visualise myself this way. :( i ain't horny one bit. not one teeeny weeeny bit. really ! i do not get turned on by anything lor ! oh well, maybe by Yummy food?

sigh.

NOTE to boyfriend: i hope time will solve the barriers thats forming between us cos im super tired from all the arguments between us. we shouldn't be affected by all the external issues , why should we? but then, its easier said den done. even a little trivial matter can drive us both crazy and start yelling like demented whores. is it just solely cos of my mood aswings? or is it cos neither of us wanna give in at times? or is it cos of the lack of understanding and the rising of misunderstanding? seriously, im so tired. i do not like arguing with you, and neither do i like having my mood ruined by you.

Please spare a thought for me, would you? the world doesn't revolve around you and only you. i know u DO give me alot of space already, but from the HENNA issue, i can so see that u are trying to restrain me. please okay? Can't we just be happy and everything?

Why must we always be so emo-fied? and always EMO EMO together. cant we just be happy and everything?
I wish we would stop quarreling alrite.
and i still owe u your birthday gift~

im exhausted but i do not wanna take a break .
because i will hold on to everything till my heart stops.