on the 25th of Dec,
I wanna wish all of you a very Merry Xmas !
I had fun at a family club, some Laguna thingy. Theres a dancefloor there, with a DJ! But he played some ChaCha songs and Aunties were all dancing beside me.. And yea, this year's countdown was fabulously fabulous. (the DJ played R&B next, and so I had major fun.) I am extremely happy cos someone tried all means and ways to get me the Smiley Yellow Bear, so cute!! I love it lor, and we named it Christmas, by the way.

on the 26th of Dec,
I wanna wish my boyfriend a very Happy 19th Birthday !
I had fun going to the movies(first time hor.) and eating with you. I had fun with you at Parklane doing embarrassing things as well. HAHA. Choosing the right present for you, was a fucking chore. Its like, arghhhhhhhhhhh going-to-kill-myself kinda thing. However, everything is like settled and I'm like heaving a huge sigh of relief now. :) Happy Birthday, I hope you enjoyed yourself. And thanks so much for my Xmas present, I LOVE IT. I really do.

on the 27th of Dec,
I went for my facial with Mummy and had dinner/supper with Auntie & Uncle.

on the 28th of Dec,
I went to town with my daddy and brother for a major shopping spree then I went to pray and went to Macs to play computer. Mummy made Kacang open her eyes(i cried like some dumbfuck of the century), thanks Mummy! Someone got pissed with me cos he apparently waited for me for like 1 and a half hours. Yeayea, I am very sure 1 and a half hour is VERY long. Anyway, I'm sorry I'm always annoying you. I'm like sorry.

Oh! Zhiwei called me yesterday. at like 1.30 am or so. I was asleep please and I think I said some rubbish and hung up. Thanks for calling from Malaysia, I'm sorry I wasn't able to attend the wedding(which I was so looking forward to initially, I love wedding dinners!) Sorry Zhiwei!! Merry Xmas okay!

**

So... I sweeped and mopped the floor today. :) Sparkling clean. I ironed ALL the clothes. WOOHOO. Stress-free for now. Anyway, my dad bought me an Armani watch for my Xmas pressie, I love it, cost a bomb but ya I still love it. He bought me an NUM bag as well. Yay, haha. So I have a new bag for school, I need a new shoe too(so I'll be going out to get it later), and so.. see ya all! Byebyebyebyebye!!!!

Before the night started- while waiting for birthday girl Purani, she decided to be VERY late on that day !


:) guess who and who!


Happy Belated Birthday again!
I had fun ! (of cos Dyan was there joining us later in the night!)

Merry 2 days Christmas in advance!

and....

Its like Christmas Eve tomorrow already !! WTF !! How can time pass so fast without me realising it?! WTF. I cannot believe it la, tomorrow is Xmas Eve and I haven't got my events sorted out. Shit. Double Shit. Triple Shit. FuckfuckFUCK.

I hope all of you have a fun Xmas Eve tomorrow.

and lastly, Happy Birthday Zhiwei.

You know I've always used to envy people who are able to live & love like openly, as in they are able to post their pictures taken with their boyfriends on their Friendster/blogs/and god knows where else. And put their status as "Attached" or something like that. Its like, I've never ever ever done any of these in my life. Like, I really find no use and no point in doing that, really. And in some very extreme cases, it might result in them exclaiming exactly when & how they got together, like for example, "o8122oo7-our fairytale started", or "girl lurbbes babyy-neverendinglove" or something like that. Its quite.... i-dunno, maybe nonsensical? I really really wanna know how can pple actually have the guts to do such things, (maybe thats why I envy them and yet feel grossed out at the same time."

I wish I have their courage. :( Too bad Joei the loser doesn't have any !
And I wouldn't wanna let pple know when our fairytale or whatever you call that started anyway. Hahaha.

Happy Happy 19th birthday to ...
Kalvin Hoe Zhi Wei !
Enjoy yourself please, though you're in Malaysia!
Sorry I can't make it, but enjoy okay!

and.. Happy Birthday and Merry early Xmas to you!

**Yes, you will get your pressie.


Oh ya, my December is filled with birthdays. Like, omg.

I am like as busy as i-dunno-what lately, but I really dunno wad i busy with leh. Didn't get to go to Dyan's ktv that day, :( but I had fun nevertheless.

Okay now I shall reply some tags.

To Purani : thanks thanks thanks ! :) for always praying for Kacang. You are the best. BFF. And I can't wait for the pressie!! haha.

To Ziyan: The diploma exam is a big fat joke. hahha, I left bloody early. I miss you, by the way! Hope you had fun that night. Miss Dyan too! (i need to know wad happened like badly okay! you know what i am talking bout!!!!)

To wilson6321: hahahahahaha, what you said is a joke. and heard that you have some manslaughter case going on as well, good luck. :)

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Okay, Kacang totally can't open her eyes at all, its like.... heartbreaking. Its worst than death seeing her like that okay. :( I am officially suffering from what you call a very serious depression. I shall isolate myself from this universe and start mourning for the loss of my beloved sweet soft Kacang. I love you Kacang, remember its like LOVE forever and ever and ever and ever k.

JTLES. :)

I still remember how I was a wreck during this period last year. Gheeting in Thailand, Purani Amsterdam, the rest of the world gone. And my manager gave me this gave for Xmas. So sweet. This year, I wonder how my Christmas is gonna be like. Or what kinda presents will I receive. Gheeting is gonna get me the Gingerbread man from Breadtalk, so sweet to the power of 320. I love you thanks. And I'm still wondering how my Xmas would be like............Lunching at Valerie's house(yummy!) would be one of the program for the day. :)

And I really should be studying lor...........

And Purani said,

The Psychiatrist wants simplicity says:
wanted to call you out but you seemed so busy
The Psychiatrist wants simplicity says:
joei you're always busy

Purani darling, I am not that busy that I can't hang out with you guys!! Okay, I miss you all! Like to the max. I'm not that occupied with E----. Okay?!

I love all my friends.Really&Truly.

And Zhiwei's birthday is coming! 23rd December!!
3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But he will be in Malaysia then.
See ya!

Tell me, isn't she the cutest thing ever? :(
Imagine her dying.. omg. OMG. omg.

Everyone, go to youtube and type "Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist", introduced by Gheeting and its a guarantee DIE-OF-LAUGHING video. Its the best video I've ever seen in my life. I'm like watching it 300 times per second. And Jeff Dunham is sucha fantastic ventriloquist ! All his shows are soooooo funny okay. Its like, hilariously hilarious to a very great extent in a very good way.

And I'm all alone at home now, totally slacking, doing non-constructive things like blogging, watching youtube videos, Facebooking, everything BUT studying for tomorrow's exam. Shit, what is my issue man?

Anyway, I've a wedding dinner to attend tomorrow again, weehee woohoo! I love wedding dinners, the food is like, wooohoooo.

I wish Kacang would be fine & healthy again, now can all of you help me wish for it too?
I love you okay sweetheart. I'm locking my blog again very soon, so readers if you wish to be invited, please please please let me know who you all are so I can send an invitation okay. MUST remember to tell me ah. PLEASE okay.

Firstly, sorry Dyan for not double checking the invited readers list, I thought all of you were inside ! :( Sorry x 1000 to the power of 10 okay. Haha, but you were quite resourceful to use Ziyan's account(haha). Sorry okay. I didn't mean it really.

And I finally settled my debts with Gheeting! I'm without debts now ! WOOHOO!! Joei the poor no more! muahahahhaa yay!

Anyway, I really need to thank Gheeting and Melanie.

To Melanie:

- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
im not gonna say things like death is a must or crap,
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
but c'mon kacang is such a sweet lil thg, with a mummy that loves her so,
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
no matter what happens, she'll always be glad to have you as her mummy.
- Nana; [c=4]❤[/c][i] I . . Miss You .[/i] says:
she knows you loves her like nothg else im sure (:

To: Gheeting

Thanks you know for the email, it made me die of crying but I'm like very touched , thanks. My mummy read it and cried also lor! Thanks okay, I love you.

****

And I really must add that I'm really super uber depressed about Kacang's condition. She totally can't go on the wheel anymore, she doesn't even have the strength to go peepee and shit. She is so skinny like LindsayLohan now, and she is very very weak. But whenever I see her try to respond when I call out to her, I feel really really relieved and sad at the same time. Its like, each time I look at her now, its just to check her breathing to ensure shes fine and still alive. I cannot stand such an agony anymore. Just call me a loser now. And please know that I love Kacang alot. like, alot. And I'll never ever forget her. EVER.

Okay, before you guys do anything, I need to let you know that this will be one very long dry post. So, you may choose to continue reading or wait for my next loserish post. hahahaha. Okay, so get some light snacks NOW, like now.

First thing to announce, I PASS MY BTT (Basic Theory Test)! woohoo! Its like very unbelievable cos I'll never pass it one. I'm like the most stupid person in the world when it comes to the road. Gheeting, Elvin, Jeffrey, my daddy, and more pple will despise me if I fail it one. hahaha. Lucky I pass it the first time round ah.. Have to thank Gheeting for the book, and actually is thank Meng but too bad he can't read this la.

Second thing for you guys to think about..
Have you ever felt so happy before that you don't dare to fall asleep.. for the fear that everything might only be a dream when you wake up? Its a fucking scary feeling you know. Like sometimes I dream that Kacang lives forever, then when I wake up, I see Kacang and I know shes not gonna live forever.. Then its like a very sad feeling suddenly overwhelms you. Sighh... Or have you ever had the kinda feeling like everything is very dreamlike and fairytale fairytale like that.. Like something happened which would actually NEVER EVER, and I mean NEVER EVER happen. It makes everything seem so surreal and its a very terrifying feeling. Because everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time.

You tell me la, when something is feeling too real and too unreal at the same time, scary anot? Its like so tormenting and so happy at the same time. Next time I wanna torture people, I confirm let them experience this cheebye feeling one la. Hahahha, sorry I'm being too tormented by these feelings that I might go bonkers sooon.

Third thing to tell you guys.(sadsadsad)
SAD!!!
:(
Life is so pain............when you have to see something you love dying.. or on the verge of dying..... Its like, Kacang is dying........ We all know that........ My mummy even put her picture in her wallet in case any unfortunate thing happens.... :( Its like every night I see Kacang , I start tearing like some deranged loser. Its like Kacang is the sweetest thing alive, the softest cutest loyal hamster anyone can ever find. She never ever bites and is so retarded and cute and always responds to me calling her "Kacang baby!", "Kacang Kacang Kacang", "daaaaaarlinggggg" and everything. She loves YAKULT(really), and all kinds of JUICES, she EATS ANYTHING and EVERYTHING, she has got these cute BIGBIG round round eyes with cute paws and everything..... She is like a perfect hamster. a perfect one without any faults...... Its like, I love Kacang with my heart. Its like I've to cremate her and get her ashes back and put it in an urn. I need KAcang to be with me forever, forever. :(

I'm gonna write an eulogy for her if she dies.. I just hope she doesn't die anytime sooon. I hope she is an immortal in disguise. But my mummy tells me her days are numbered....... Oh no, I'm gonna cry now, like now. :( so saddening!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

KACANG PLEASE LIVE LONGER, I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU MORE THAN I ALREADY DO LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU KACANGGGG! AND I REALLY CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!

(for those people having a doggy/kitty as a pet, im very sure you guys know how i feel about losing the pet, its like they become so much into your life that it'll be very devatasting once its gone...sigh....)

**Do not tell me that death is inevitable in life, I do not believe that a cute thing like Kacang will ever die. Really, its too cute to die.

melanie & gheeting is beside me.
we totally webcammed with a loser from msn.
and its a joke, cos we let him see everything except our faces.
its like, fucking funny.
and we are like totally slacking at the lan shop at what sunshine plaza.
hahahahahaha.

so fun! i love you girls.
hugs & kisses.
YAY!

:) BYEEEE!

wahlao, $1 for 3o minute.Cheebye.
and gheeting let me see a youtube video on a ventriloquist, fucking funny/ she says i type with 3 fingers and im a loser. okay byebye.

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy. It is often filled with anger and tears. It is when you want to be together despite it all. That is when you are truly in love."

I had fun yesterday. :) woooohooooo.
I am suffering from a very bad cough. very very bad cough.
And its like I'm dying slowly, but surely.
And Elvin more poor thing lor, its like I cough 1 time, he cough 10 times. We both like some loser sick chicken like that. And Elvin is being a brave soul by putting our pictures on Friendster, perfect move. Its like I am still so coward locking up my blog and everything. AAAAAAAAAAAA. Joei the loser.

To gheeting, "Love is like a hole; once you fall in, it's hard to get out."

hahaha.

To melanie, now someone song song already lor. the love of your past is back to haunt you, he is sucha copycat! >=( the look on your face is the bomb k.

(I have alot of pictures to upload from Purani's birthday, but first I must be not so busy first, its like late at night now and I am very tired and I have work tomorrow. So guess what? I'll not be able to upload it now, haha byebye.)

Good night my sweet friends who loves me.
Good night my sweet bf who loves me too.
Good night my sweet other guys who loves me.
Good night my sweet Kacang & Stripey & Riri who loves me.
Good night everyone in this world who loves me.

Joei loves you all too! :D
Hugs & many many kisses!

Elvin would like to say hello to all of you.
(yes again i know)

:) Say hello to my exboyfriend/boyfriend now.

Just finished watching the whole series of 15 again.
HAHAHA, love ah bengs. wooohoo.
Its like, Shaun is sooooo hot.

Anyway, I totally ate Wanton noodles for breakfast,
AND, someone just fed me Maggi noodles not long after.
which is crazy cos it tastes so good i HAD to eat it.

I didn't go for my diploma class for like 3 hundred days,
but I don't give a fuck actually.
The people there are FUCKED UP tothefuckingmax.
I can't stand ANY one of them. ANY.
Grossss x 10000000.

And, hmm.
Jealousy - this word is evil.

And I'll be working with Gheeting and Melanie again this Saturday and Monday!
And bloody hell, my BTT is on the 18th.. Cheebye.
And my diploma exam is on the 21st.. Double Cheebye.
And I'm fucking cheebye not prepared.

I guess sacrifices have to be made sometimes.
Life can't always go on smoothly. :(

"I rather have bad times with you,
than have good times with someone else.."

hello everyone. hahahaa.


its like, i've never posted any pictures of any guy on my blog okay. its like, THE BOMB. like totally the bomb. okay anyway, meet Joei and Elvin. heh heh heh.

I'm like wondering when can I open up my blog.
:(
I don't like to keep it private this way.
Its so sneaky and retarded.

Happy Happy Happy Birthday to my BFF, Purani

Yesterday was a crazy partying day okay, it was a mad night out at MOS, the crowd was like grinding and it was so squeezy but the crowd i went with was absolute fun. For virgin clubbers like Valerie(haha), and then theres Sylvia, Annitha, Renuka, Priya, Rosh, Dyan & Ziyan, & Minshan & of course, my long lost friend Keathwee! It was so so so so fun, I got really tipsy after the Ribena Vodka, its like... I died. I puked like a loser, a pure loser and I couldn't walk straight. Gross. Really, I swear NEVER to drink again! (its like, I drink cos i show face to Purani okay, its her birthday!)

Then we went to find road blocks, HAHAHA JOKE. its so funny i died laughing. Very fun! woohoooo.

And Joei is officially a loser in life. A LOSER OKAY. I've become another Joei, you all wouldn't wanna know this new joei, its just gross and very stupid and retarded. ahahahahahhaa.

AND FUCK! I totally heard a very cheebye news, its like fuck okay, its like KNNBCCB + FUCKED UP + IDIOTIC. Make use of you? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'm not so free you know, seriously. Joke of the century lor, make use of you. Enough bout losers.

I gotta go, byebye.

To: Melanie darling.

You know sweetie, you mustn't ever cry okay(though its like quite inevitable) but you see, sometimes not everything will go smoothly in life. (some pple are like worst, they are in debts but they still never cry, and like me, im like eating grass everyday, i also never cry..) so you mustn't cry okay. Because you are like never alone, you have me, gheeting, xingyuan, jarael,jeffrey and more more people who can totally waste their life away with you. (haha) I'm willing to ruin my life and come out slack with you from now on okay! Then we go eat grass together hor. just as long as you don't think of those sad sad things can already. :) You must remember you got me & ghee. Thats all that matters right? Remember you are NOT alone, if i hear you say that again, THATS IT u know. THATS IT. I love you, hugs and many kisses.

:D Never frown, cos you never know whos falling in love with your smile.

You know the song "Wo de Cuo" is so nice.
HAHAHA.

OKOK, I know people are complaining that my blog is officially redundant cos I don't update as much anymore. Sorry sorry sorry! I am very very very very very busy, though I don't know with what, but I'm just very busy. Okay, I'm working at those Starhub roadshows currently and I am enjoying myself very much actually. Except I don't get much sleep and I have to stand and talk ALL day. What makes it enjoyable is working with friends and all. And theres people like MIKE TAN(for gheeting only), DANIEL HENG GIN KIAT!(my elvin lookalike& candy-eye), CHENGYU(mel's CANDY EYE), our BEST FRIEND(someone we vow to make friends with but failed to do so), and more funny funny people. What a fun working experience. WOOHOO.

Something happened just yesterday at about 4 am in the morning, its like WOAH.. So I'm left with a very pain left chest and some body aches. And I'm so touched that the driver care about me first more than the car...... Its like.. omg.. But I'm not the unfortunate one please. :( Its the driver & the car that is like wrecked badly. I'm just glad the driver's fine. But the amount he has to pay for repair is THE BOMB. :(

Its like for now, I'll be eating grass and I'll not be thinking about any, and i mean ANY Guess wallet or Juicy Couture Watch for now. I'll not think about Japanese food for now as well. I will think about eating grass and drinking from Milo packet and order 1 packet of economical beehoon with more noodles from now on. And maybe eat only 1 meal a day. And be more gian peng gian sai, and find more WU HUA deals.

And I'm left with a funny voice again. >=(
Someone else has a funny voice too!

Its Melanie's test today, good luck pretty!

You know,I've always used to wonder "What is Love?" and all that crap kinda thing. HAHA, I think I've gotten the answer after much research. So here goes MY definition of love okay. You don't have to agree with it, I happy with the answer can already.
Love is like when you start missing the person even after they just left you, and how much you wanna see them every second of your life, when you smile just by the mention of their name, and laugh even when they do things which are not very funny, when you find that nothing else matters except them, and when you wanna hug them each time you see them, when you feel the happyhappy soursour feeling in the heart each time you see/hear them, and when you KNOW you are happy just by spending a LITTLE time with them, when you are willing to spend bad times together like eating grass, and when you know you are crazy by doing nonsensical stuffs like scolding each other cheebye(s) and fuck(s) and tiu lei(s).

Someone is coming to find me now, BYEBYE!

Hugs & Kisses.

The doggy Rusky is gone from my house and I miss it! But its okay I can go my godmummy house play with Riri already !! WOOHOO!

Isn't he a fucking cutieeee???


OMG so cuteee.


Baby Riri.

This is what I've been busy with.
The cutest thing in my life ever.(of cos can't be compared to my kacang darling) but this Riri is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Just look at the eyes. I will die can. I'm gonna migrate to Hougang(my godmummy's place) like for forever. OMG. BABY RIRI. JIEJIE LOVES YOUUUUU!!! I'm spoiling it very badly.

I've got good life already la, "ho mia liao" . I can enjoy life already la. Byebye!

I had lotsa fun with Edeline,Gerald,Edwin &co.!
:) more more fun please.

YAY! Saturday Melanie coming my house stay after work.
But I got wedding dinner, so you wait for me awhile okay?

And..
I'm so sad I can't go DXO with valz they all.
Its like DXO is my favourite gay club lor.
Its like got Free Drinks can.. Then I can ask for just Ribena without anything. or Ribena with a DOT of vodka only, A DOT AH. hahahahahaa.
I promise myself I will club when I'm not so busy!
PROMISE !!
Sorry darlings!

because everything you do for me makes me smile&smile

Quotes from some webbies. done cos I had nothing to do at home at all!

"I do, cherish you, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control, I've waited so long, to say this to you, if you're asking do I love you this much, I do."

"To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive."

"If you ever had your heart broken or hurt, and you forgave that person and still was able to love them like before, that's true love!"

:)

because you asked me to listen..

Aviation - You Were My Everything

[Talking] This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…

No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you

Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel

Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guyI
tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

Chorus

[Talking] And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy


::

this song so nice lor, although its a rap & i don't really quite enjoy raps but its just so sad and everything. its quite true too. except that someone asked me to listen and i really find it so meaningful. it makes alot of sense. aiya forget it, nobody will understand one la.

hahaha, i think im getting PMS-sy again. PMS is a loser, it has no life and is only intent on ruining pple's life. so gay. Anti-PMS !!

:( to ziyan darling: sorry sorry sorry ! im so bad, i totally PS u 3 times in 3 days! I will make it up to you totally, so duper sorry !! im feeling so guilty now. sorry ziyannnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!! omg.

YAY! I'm sick! its like Jackpot can. cos someone predicted i confirm sick one, den i really now sick. whahahahaha. and my whole body is aching like a loser. like a loserish loser. i need sleep, lemme sleep now.. oh wait i can't. my mummy's friend dog is at my house. Its called Rusky and is a Maltese+terrier mix. very very cute one. and very guai. and its cos of this dog i gotta PS dear ziyan. SORRY okay SORRY!

Ok i didn't go for the first day of Diploma lesson. nobody cares anyway! If only my best friends were there............................................its alright! its only for 2 weeks. YOU CAN DO IT JOEI TAN! JOEI TAN IS BRAVE!(well,not really)

Kacang being lazy.

:) hahahaahhaaaa.

I am so sleepy.
I am sooooo tired.

My life so sucky hor? "Ming ku" translated means bitter life. hahahahhaa. Like so pitiful like that. But I really too exhausted to even work or stand up. My body is literally aching like a loser.. :( How unfortunate.

However, I am also being kept happy and "xing fu" translated means fortunate. YAY! :) I wish some good things would never end, but we all know it ends someday. No matter how much promises and assurance is made, it STILL WILL end someday one. (okay, i shall psycho myself to not keep thinking bout negative things.) [but then hor, i still somehow somehow need to prepare prepare abit right]. HAHAHAHAHHA, whatever I'm still very happy now.

Wait, I'm not entirely happy. I can't please everybody one lor. :( I'm like so affected when I know other people is affected by the things I do/say. But what the fuck can i do man? Fuck care also cannot, want to care also cannot later pple say "no point la" or show attitude. Then how? Tell me la, I'm like very xing ku can. ARGHHHHHH.

My cousin totally just got a puppy, so cute!! I shall stayover at his house FOREVER. heh heh heh. Hougang is sucha heavenly place.

YAY, meeting Ziyan to get pay tomorrow! Song ah! Can pay my 140 & 60 bucks debt like at last!! SONG!!

sian, tomorrow diploma class starts. So i asked Purani, "how to be a loner ah? is it just be a loser?" yea and the answer is yes. And additionally, i also cannot smile cos she says pple always wanna smile back if i smile at them. so im not allowed to smile and give any opinions and talk. so i shall be like a loser with no friends? OMG this is not happening to me pls. sigh, hate sucha dreading feeling. Heng got things to look forward to after every end of it, if not i confirm die one. Gheeting says, "fuck it, alone jiu alone lor, awhile only ma, also not forever." I like her style. haha.

Next Monday-Friday got diploma lessons in school. :(
Next Saturday got wedding dinner. :)
Next Sunday got work! :)

I am a happy busy girl lately.
Busy because of work.
Happy because:
- Working with Mel & Ghee spells PURE fun.
- of something that makes me happppyyy.

Kawasaki
someone asked me to just type this here
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Come come all visit me at Expo okay.
I'm like at Hall 6.
weehee.