Happy Birthday Elvin Si ! :)
Thanks for everything okay.
Its been more than a year and TIME FLIES!
I love you !

And oh my god! I can't believe this and I am feeling damn guilty now! I forgot to wish my best friend Purani a Happy Birthday on her birthday!!!(i think i was damn preoccupied with being stressed from being unable to find a job...) Oh crap! Sorrrrrryy, shall wish her a Happy Belated Birthday over here. SORRRRYY! I love you too!

I am such a blockhead sometimes.
And I am having this lack of appetite these days....
Whats wrong with me?!
Can't eat, can't sleep..
SIAO LIAO!

Bye gotta rush out now.

HELLO colourful WORLD!

MERRY MERRY MERRY XMAS TODAY! :)

Anyway,
Happy Birthday to MY DADDY!
- Love you! My father is like cooool.

And to Kiara the Tiara!
- my bro's sexyass girlfriend.

Birthdays on Xmas is soooo cool.

*Okay why do I seem to have so many plans today....
:(

(AND I COULDN'T GET TO SLEEP YESTERDAY EVEN THOUGH I REACHED HOME AT 3.30AM !!!! AND I SHOPPED THE WHOLE DAY OKAY, WHY DO I FEEL TIRED BUT UNABLE TO GET TO SLEEP! ITS SO ANNOYING.)
-I am very glad with my shopping loot yesterday with Edeline, we went absolutely crazeeee. Good thing for us, bad for our wallets.

on the other hand.... hahahaha! Glad to see Renuka and Purani having the same problem as me.. I am so mean but with people who can accompany me through my miserable days is GREAT!

Time to leave my house for a whole new day ahead! BYE!

Merry Xmas again, I love you all! Hugssss!

And all the way to Germany, Merry Xmas Christian!
And all the way to Cambodia, Merry Xmas Eang Chhan!

I am fucking worried!
I can't get to sleep every night!!!! Its becoming very serious.
Its like 2.28am & I am still bloghopping, me and gheeting found some really interesting blogs... coolness. And fuck, its been like a week since this insomnia thing starts!!!!!! FUCK.

I mean, I used to sleep at like 11 to 12 every night okay, and wtf. This is bad.. I slept at 4.30am yesterday, finishing my Twilight book. :) Its very nice, a little draggy but Edward Cullen seems to be like damn perfect...... Now I gotta rush to get the other series. I am addicted to the Twilight series! YAY! Fuck, I should have read them when Anittha and Dyan were all reading it. And cannot wait to watch the movie!!!

Okay, so the point is, its very late, and I cannot get to sleep, I don't know why. But its really very annoying. Like what Ziyan always say, "spoilt biological clock". Does it apply to me now cos I really cannot get to sleeeeeeep at alllll!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKK.

I like sleeping early !!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats why I don't have any serious eye bags or dark eye rings BUT AT THIS RATE I'M GOING, I AM GOING TO TURN INTO A PANDA!!!

AAAA!

And then I'm bugged by this stupid headacheeeeee. :(

So, late into the night.. I was MSN-ing with Gheeting.
Having the time of our lives blogsurfing.

to live, is to mambo! says:
name ur child Gucci
to live, is to mambo! says:
ahhhaha

Joei the Princess of SMILING. says:
i intend to
Joei the Princess of SMILING. says:
truly and honestly

to live, is to mambo! says:
i'll name mine Vuitton

to live, is to mambo! says:
Gucci Si
to live, is to mambo! says:
AHAHHAAH
to live, is to mambo! says:
Gucci Si is funny
to live, is to mambo! says:
like Fujitsu

and.... you wanna know what else she said??

to live, is to mambo! says:
if its a son name him Eric
to live, is to mambo! says:
daughter pls name Inez
to live, is to mambo! says:
AHAHAHAHAHHA
to live, is to mambo! says:
AHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

Thanks alot for being my best friend.

...

& I still can't get to sleeeeeep!!!!

UPDATE!! at 3 AM !
(oooh its xmas eve already!)

I still cannot get to sleep. Although I've googled "How to cure insomnia?", its not helping okay cos heres what I've done so far.

• Took a warm bath as instructed.
• Drank a warm cup of milk, I drank hot chocolate instead.
• Spy what is my hamster doing
• Walked around the house trying to pack some stuffs.
• Took a second spy on my hamster.

And I'm back in front of my laptop, unable to feel sleepy.

For the past few nights, I've been reading myself to sleep... Oh well, I guess I gotta read another book later. :) Mansfield Park by Jane Austen. HAHAHA.

So heres what I've found online..

1. Do a mellow activity before bed. Read, watch t.v. (try to avoid action thriller shows or movies), knit, write a letter, or maybe write in a journal, anything that will help you wind down, relax, and get to sleep quickly.

2. If your body is tense take a hot shower or a relaxing bath. Soothe those aching muscles to help fall asleep fast.

3. If your mind is racing about things you didn't get done or things you need to do then write a to-do list. Get all your thoughts down, write down any anxieties or worries. The more you can ease your mind, the easier it will be to fall right asleep.

LIES!!! Done all these and it doesnt help!!!

Okay bye. Maybe if I get off the computer... it might actually work.....

Hey there, I hope this clearly illustrates our problems.
I really hope you try to understand sometimes.

Because... you obviously don't know how I feel.
Bye.

I've decided to be all hurt and sad all of a sudden. HAHA.


Anyway. To YOU.
Harsh words hurt feelings.
But silence breaks hearts.


Understood?

THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I AM DAMN HAPPY.

NEVER FELT SO GOOD IN SUCH A LONGG TIME.

:D ALL SMILESSSSSSSSS.

I feel so bad. :(

Anyway, hello everyone! I am back! Sorry for going missing, but whatever, I doubt pple are coming back here anyway cos its like a dead blog for years! HAHAHAHA. Sorry for the few nice loyal favourite people who pops by here every now and then, only to leave disappointed cos they aren't any new entries, I AM SORRY! Now I am back to add some impact to your lives~~~ HAHA. Sorrrry I am just being annoying.

Okay so back to me feeling BAD. Everyone has a past, AND MY PAST SUCKS!! Like seriously, why didn't anyone tell me I was a bitch?! FUCK! What kinda friends do I have?! (no i still love you friends.. I know you are all biased). BUT SERIOUSLY, i am damn knn bad. :( and not to mention, so childish, and sucha sore loser.

And.. I know it is so unlike me to say this here!!! BUT I NEED TO APOLOGISE TO SOMEONE!! Though I don't know how to go about saying it... hahaha. Okay here goes, remember a girl called Xiaohui? Yea, shes my ex-boyfriend's Eric ex-girlfriend(okay.. so I don't know if they are still together...but whatever.) And I need to apologise from the bottom of my heart because, yes, its been 2 years and I am so sorry for whatever names I've called you. I take it all back, and seriously, I am very loserish that time. I mean, I don't know but looking back, I AM DAMN CHILDISH..!!!!

Can I please disappear or something? Really you know, why didn't anyone tell me bout my fucked up behaviour huh................ Its not cool to be mean. See la, now looking back, I feel so ashamed of my own acts. Yes please, scold me somebody.

BUT. I've decided to look past my mistakes, and I'm making a bold move by apologising for my gross mistakes of the past~ Its okay if she wants to forgive me or not, at least I apologised. Anyway what happened was so damn long ago, she might have forgotten all about it too!! Like me, just that I read my archives and felt like a total idiot. If it happened now, I wouldn't do that, like seriously.

(I dont know if she'll EVER EVER see this...... but its alright!)

Okay update soon. :)

****haha, you all can't believe Joei would do something like that right... I am surprised by myself too! But I feel really good now. So try forgiving your own mistakes and you'll feel ultimately better!!!!!

HELLO ALL!
JOEI TAN IS HERE!

I MISS MY MI FRIENDS! ALOT! ALOT ALOT!

I AM SATISFIED WITH MY LIFE NOW.
OMG DAMN HAPPY!

I miss all my friends lah knn!

& I need a job lah knn!

This family is back after disappearing into the woods and seas of Malaysia for 9 days.
The girl on the top right hand corner has become damn tanned. :(
They enjoyed themselves VERY much though.
Piccies sooooon.

HAHAHA. so cute.
Its gonna be a boooring day today, I shall be a good girl and stay at home.. or maybe I should stray out... but I've been going out alot recently.
going out = massive shopping = resources depleting = joei in poverty
So, I shall not let the impulse shopper in me have its way today.

Anyway, Friday tomorrow! Gonna do some interesting stuff.
HEH HEH HEH. :)

*you know what, i wanna experience the feeling of loving someone but not having the person love you back again. I mean, its better to have something to cling on to in your heart, than have nothing to cling on right. :( I am like aimless, having a boyfriend but not having any affairs(yes,boring i know), no secret sparks..... nothing at all ok. Some pple might go like "ooooh what a sweet relationship, they are SO gonna last forever." Do not ever say such things, (look at what happened to me and eric), we were like some couple of the century thing or something. But, we still didn't last! Oh gosh. I wanna have an affair I wanna have an affair! I am just kidding lah.

Okay bye.

Its 1.47am and I am not sleeping! I'm wasting my life away doing up this new blogskin, hahaha, looks pretty gay and animated, i like the animated rainbow(so cute!), but this skin is really very gay and happy, depicts my mood now, so we'll let it stay this way.

hello all.

Life's good.

I went shopping today and bought lots of things.
:)
I have 4 sets of swimming suits. HAHA. I am nuts.
I bought a new travel bag! Just for me to go travelling.

Am going for my retreat to beach and spa resort in Msia,
from 1st to 9th Dec! 5 days there, 4 days in GENTING!
Yippeee, I love Genting to the max.
COLDDDDness!

And hopefully, going to HONGKONG in Jan!!!!!
HAHAHAHHA. Life is mother fucking goood.

I am so excited.excited.excited.excited.excited.excited.

*I miss all my friends in school too!

*I am so happy life is so free and fun!

*Gheeting, smile stay strong. some pple are just seriously losers. however, we are not gonna care cos we've brains to think. :)

*Menny, please I want House of the Dead 3 pleaseplease! pleaseplease!

(okay im getting too high, will blog when I'm not so high)

Just a short chopchop & very interesting entry.

I met Gheeting and her NAFA friends at Hazel's place on Saturday for a FILM PREVIEW! Its totally artsy. and funny and not to forget, mysterious.

Anyway, the big hooha about it (for me only lah..) .. was Christine and Menny's BED SCENE!

LOLOLOLOLOL till I died!!!

Here goes!

oooo soo kinky!

HAHAHAHAHA! They are lesbians in the show lah so funny.

Anyway just to tell you people who produced the film, it was awesomely awesome and really you guys desrve more than an A for effort and results man. Its damn good! And funny and so interesting. The storyline was so sad. And the name of the film was B.F.F. Best Friend Forever. So it goes like, 3 best friends were close and all, and suddenly 2 of them ignores the other one, causing much misery for the one being left out.. and in the end, we found out the reason was because.....(hahahahaha), the 2 close friends were actually lesbians who often engage themselves in sexual activities. I was LOL-ing the entire time. Very funny lah, although its meant to be sad.

Okay, good job everyone. Lots of love!

So my Saturday was spent at Merchants Court eating the High Tea Buffet with my parents, it was damn good and costly. And I went for a hair cut plus treatment and everything, more costly!!!!!! but the effect was perfect, hair soft, healthy and whatever. And watched 2 movies till 3am!! Beverly Hills Chihuahua is so cuteee and REC was scary!! HAHA. Okay thats my Saturday for you!

I am off to my Godmum's house now!

Will blog about more interesting stuffs soon, so pls come back!

(EXAMS ARE FUCKINGGGGG OVERRR!!!!!!)

I lead such a sad life NOW, but when Friday comes.....
This will be all our faces!!

I cannot cannot cannot wait for Friday to come!!!

Seeeeeee ya all soooooooooooooooooooooooooooon.

I know I shouldn't be wasting time here, but let me show you guys a new cool webby that gheeting recommended, she says i'll definitely LOVE it alot, which is so true! best friends what, anyway. so these are the things i've done. And I miss Kacang alot alot alot...

Kacang died on the 31st Dec 2007, and I've always always always loved her still and she is so cuteee to the max, and her fur is damn soft and she NEVER bites. She has big big eyes and she is retarded bcos she never ever bites. She LOVES all kinds of food, she even loves drinking Cranberry juice, Yakult, chocolate milk, fresh milk, any kind of drink that is offered, she loves FOOD too, and she hates durian! ohmygod right cos I hate durian too! And she smells superbly good, when I play with her everyday, I'd always take a deeeep sniff from herbody(hahaha), and I love squeezing her cos I really love her alot. She looks super cute when shes asleep and when I hover around her habitat, she knows and will respond by twitching her whiskers then waking up with a dazed look. CUTENESS. And her paws are the softest, smallest, whitest thing on earth! And I will carry her, smell her, feed her, let her run along everywhere EVERYDAY, AND she never ever dirty up my place. I miss Kacang!!!!! She is like perfect and soft and cute!! Oh, and Kacang responds to her name. Sigh, tell me whats not to love about such an adorable little cutie?

I mean, I know to some of you, a hamster is just a hamster, rodent, blahblah. BUT don't be shallow, animals ARE animals and they have feelings and they know if we love them or not. I know Kacang loves me,my mummy, my daddy to the max. Thats why we love her more than anything too. To anyone who thinks a hamster is JUST a hamster, or can't be compared to other pets like a bunny, a doggy, a cat, etc., get a life pls, pls try to be more positive and think of small things that are life's greatest pleasure ok, if not i will pity you to the max.

So.. this is Kacang ! Who will live in my heart forever and ever and I'll see her after I die which would be happyness for me!


Say hello my dearie!


This is a pig.


She likes to nua around.


she LOVES toilet rolls and she will always make that hole herself, clever girl.


peekaboo! soooo cuteeee!

So, this is the webby which produces coolass images,
its some photofunia.com thing, so try it!


Kacang is so cute and wonderful, she is a phenomena!

CUTENESS!

Okay so this is it, I love Kacang always. I still have Stripey though, and I love Stripey equally too, just that I don't know if I can take another death of my baby dying. The feeling is the grossest feeling ever, and I will die if I ever experience it again. Okay see you all.

*Menny's & Valerie's bday falls on the 9th Nov, which unfortunately is in the midst of my paper so I shall dedicate this section to wish them a VERY HAPPY 19TH BDAY! And we'll have lotsa fun after my torment and when gheeting's done with her projects and all! And Val, we'll party our ass off and drink to our death okay!

I just got off the phone with someone special! (can't tell who though) but we talked for damn long cos.. it just always happens. haha.

anyway, signs of stressness is appearing! its like hardcore.

I know I am stress when...

• I forgot to take off my bra and went straight into the shower, and when I realised it was too late cos it was already wet!!!!!!.
• I threw my socks in the rubbish bin instead of the laundry basket when I came back home from GP paper.
• I keep finding faults with Elvin.
• My weight keeps on increasing at the speed of light.
• My face becomes a fertile breeding ground for pimples.
• When life seems meaningless and suicide seems like an ideal solution
• When Purani,Anittha,Priya&Deepak and me hangs out at coffeeshops and discuss ways to end our life through a suicide pact.
• My body starts to ache fucking badly.
• When I start loving High School Musical exceptionally much that my ringtone and alarm is tunes of HSM3.

My ringtone is Right Here Right Now . My alarm tone is Now or Never. So I wake up to Zac Efron's heavy breathing of "sixteen..sixteen.." SHIOKNESS. love it. haha.

Okay byebye.

okay so its GP and SEA hist done, next week's paper will stress me out so badly, i might as well go commit suicide and end my bloody sorrows now. why is it that time seems to pass so fast yet so slowly?! :( okay so just let me calm down.....

and fuck, i hate it when i've like only 2 hours sleep daily.
thats like, very disgusting.

i shall be a no-lifer for now,
see ya all.

i like the song CRUSH by David Archuleta or something, very nice. and Can I have This Dance from High School Musical. i'm also into the Jay's latest song, the title is like 5 chinese words i dunno what is it, but it goes something like are you tired, what happening to our happiness something along that line. very emofied and nice. (and thats the only song i've heard so far...) so i need to get all the songs asap, and gheeting if u see this, and if u happen to have the songs(i know you surely do haha), send it to me please.

Okay, and I've watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!
wooohooo! i shall watch it continuously !!!!!!! :D
Such a nice nice show with nice nice song.

okay byebye.

*deleted this entry because someone laughed at me!

haha.haha.haha.

I need 3 weeks later to arrive faster, pleaseeeee!

So, Thursday was our Graduation High Tea at the OCC, (sobsob). It was damn fun! The pre-event preparation was superbly funny, rushing to do our hairs, change clothes, make up and all, tedious but worth it! HAHA. And the food they served was quite nice, I ate non-stop :( but I was feeling happy about it then. The teachers were damn sweet and nice considering they planned this event for us, and I was feeling damn sad at some point(so gay !!!) cos its like, HELLOOOOO! this is like the last few times we actually get to hang out as a group kinda thing. :( SO DEPRESSING. Such high tea are like meant to make pple sad, but we still had fun, hahaha, the post party which is to club is enough to make us all high already.

So here are the few of the many pics!
Upload ALL when I am free okay.

Firstly,these are my favouritest pple from MI, with Val and Renuka and Rosh included but they are not here! I love them to the max and they really never fail to make me laugh all the time.

Deepak,Anittha,Priya,Dyan,ME,Sylvia,Purani


I know we are damn biased, cos Jieyu(the one far right) is wearing some goth dress which looks damn good on her, even her makeup is goth, and she looks damn goooooood!!!! Like really!!! And these are the nice pple I love too!


My class. :D


I'm a minority. I'm always a minority with these Indians.
(i look so fair ... hahaha)


My favourite darlings ! :)


Me being gay with my award and Deepak being gay being himself.

AND WOOOOHOOOOO!!
DBL O!



Love EACH and EVERY one of them.


I don't know why I look so happy but I didn't drink any, the drinks are damn cheap, but I would never wanna go back there again cos its just not my ideal place to club. I didn't enjoyed myself thoroughly that night :( haha oh well, Purani is a joke to us now so hahahaha.

Oh my god, do you have any idea how much I'll miss these pple?! Like years zoom by just like that, the times we had together were GOODNESS. I'll miss them and being with them taught me many stuffs, like I learnt Tamil phrases, I learnt how to savour my Briyani rice and eat it with my hand, I learnt that my Indian friends actually DO date pple, I learnt that its possible to actually have feelings for girls(not me,of cos), I learnt that friends should be like them, easy going and positive.. and more!

OMG, im gonna tear! :( SOBS.
I LOVE THEM LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the times all my sweethearts!
I ❤ you all !

BYE!

*10 more days to my first A level paper.
FUCK
FUCKFUCK
FUCKFUCKFUCK

damn stressed! ohmyfuckinggod!
please let me tide through this period of hardship without falling sick!pleaseplease!

HELLO ALL!
JUST APPEARED TO WISH MY SWEETIES..

A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I ❤ YOU ALL LOADS!

To... My dearest best sis on earth, who lives in my block on the 8th level!! (how cool is that?), my childhood friend since like forever(hahha) and the prettiest, slimmest, and sweetest sister I've ever had in my entrie life! JOAN TAN XIU FEN, her name looks kinda similiar to mine right. Love you pretty!

To... My bestest best friend who is damn sweet and damn nice, and shes the most like kind-hearted soul you'll ever meet, pretty with humongous eyes and pink extensions. RACHEL! Happy happy birthday and you know I love you!

& To... Eric Ng! Okay so hes my ex-boyfriend and he is like nice and so wishing him like happy birthday and all the best in his tattoo career and I hope he closes up that humongous ear piercing of his cos I abhor it.

...

And promise to update once I'm free.
Bye!

Joei's favourite song from ABBA.

The Winner Takes It All

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear

The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small

The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...

LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& more.

The only best part of my weekend is the food. My parents bought me to The Cathay to dine at The Cathay Restaurant and the dim sum and eeefu noodles was soooooo yummy, like the kind where you eat and fly to heaven kind. The custard bun was so yummy with the custard oozing out, like omfg im salivating, the dim sum was all goooooood. For dinner, had seafood at Longbeach and again, omfg, the drunken prawns is sooooo bloody big and yummy and i had 3 massive orgasms after each bite. Yes, its that good.

And on Thursday, I got MAMMA MIA with Sylvia and Purani, its damnnnnnn nice as well! And I'm like hooked on ABBA songs now, so when we got to The Cathay on Saturday, my mummy and me went into the Gramophone store(or whatever) and she totally bought me an ABBA hits track !! AAA *screams with joyyyyyy!* And we caught Painted Skin, a chinese movie about some lovey dovey stuffs which was quite sad, cos...... aiya its super sad, the fox so cuteeee. Anyway and me and Elvin caught a midnight show as well, HOUSE BUNNY! soooo nice! damn funnnny.

Oh and on Friday, although school ended like damn late!! I managed to meet up with my dearest dajie for a cuppa. We talked like non stop and it was damn fun, so we promised to meetup this Thursday for more fun and laughter. And I met Elvin after and we went Prawning, expensive hobby but I'm addicted to it, damn bad. But I caught like many prawns and I'm so happy with myself and Elvin took them all home to feed his tortoise. I neeeeed to go prawning AGAIN, sooooon.

Now, back to another dreary week at school. :(
Okay, how about I stop here.

Anyway, seriously, if I see another post or other comments made by anyone towards any of my friends, I will fuck you up so hard, you will see stars in your eyes. Like twinkle twinkle little stars, except the stars will look horrendously ugly because they are in YOUR eyes. Like please get a life please, you don't wanna see ME blogging about you right? cos it wouldn't be nice, and seriously I've a life and I DO NOT need to keep bitching to keep me alive. Sigh, my sympathy goes all out to you.

Crap, Elvin has booked in, :( I hate this Sunday feeeeeling!! Somebody get it away from me please!!

okay feeling much much better.

Now lets all wish Elvin luck for his test, :) .

And I need to know Stewie's walkie talkie episode is which one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm feeling like unhappy and all.

:( I've absolutely NO ONE to make me happy at all.

Life is like, soooo miserable...

*CRIESSSSS*

Hello all, I've disappeared from school for a zillion days already, (DO YOU THINK ANY OF MY FRIENDS ACTUALLY MISS ME?!?!) hmmm. I've not seen them for sooo long! Okay so this is what I've been busy with recently.

My Sunday! - Working at Conrad Hotel for the F1 event with BFFs.


Getting ready..



Gheeting says I look slim here.
(does she mean I look un-slim elsewhere?)


We look damn nice right, like professionals. HAHA.
And we ate like a million and one food, nice great food.
Pictures are all with Menny and Gheeting, we had alot of FUN!!!
And we are like paid to eat, slack, sleep, play wordsearch, and take things.
Like seriously, FUN!! Working with them is just pure FUN!!
So, work ended about 12midnight & so went over to Godmummy's house to play with Riri and eat my granny's leftover buffet food.

My Tuesday. - at NAFA being model of the day for Gheeting's class.
So I had to just stay positioned for 3 hours, my ass was killing me, and at some point, my nose was reallt itchy but I dare not scratch it, hahahaha. I didn't smile, and therefore they all didn't draw me smiling so I look grouchy, almost like Purani, had an Oscar face. But it was fun, I'm paid anyway!!


The initial stage..


Nice hor?



All the artists at work!!


So interesting man.


I like this, looks so emo, and my thighs are too small to be true.. ahhhh.





Gheeting's workplace, the most comfy-iest one.


:)

I like this drawing too, but my thighs are seriously way TOO small, they are like perfect thighs man!


Me being positioned like that for 3 hours, with 5 mins break in between but I was hurting all over, really its not easy okay!


Look at the chair, gheeting drew it damn realistic-ly ok! MY fave piece.




And you know how I always wanted to be very skinny and anorexic-skinny kind of skinny, and since last time pple advised me against it cos they said I'd look better with some meat or something, I finally understand what they meant, and with this, I really DO NOT wanna be skinny. HAHAHAHAHA.

Take a look and you will know what I mean..

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Joei with a skinny face!

and the dear artist is my dear best friend gheeting.
I didn't know I look like that to her, with perfectly sunken face, so skinny looking almost like a monkey, and I look anorexic here.

So everyone thank Gheeting! She made me realised how I SHOULD NOT be skinny! :) My friends will love you dearlyyyyy. And thanks Gheeting for allowing me to the object of your works, love ya!

BYEBYE PPLE!

FUCKED UP!

I don't know why I typed that, but I'm not feeling fucked up or anything, haha. I got my menses in school today, fortunately I found out fast! (yay!) Anyway, I shall not go to school tomorrow cos it shall be rest day for me, (like I haven't had enough rest......) HAHA.

OMG Elvin just called me, and I totally forgot that tomorrow is Friday!! YIPPEEE YAYAYA! But he has to book in on Saturday, CRAP. :(

Why do I've so many things to do?

I am like in a foreign place now, left with a computer for 2 hours or more. Like seriously, and its quite funny. I'm actually glad this place is air-conditioned, plus theres internet access, and although I'm all alone in the dark in a strange place, I really have no idea why I'm not scared, like seriously. HAHA, I can't really disclose where I am now, I've my reasons for being secretive alright.

My eyes are damn itchyyyyyyy.

Alright, I feel like escaping to some secluded island and spend the rest of my life there. Firstly, there must be plentiful of food there, like neverending supple kinda thing, MUST HAVE: Salmon Sashimis, Negitoro sashimi(oooh sex), Prawn Tempuras, Soba, my medium rare beef with fats, Teriyaki Chicken with Egg and rice, Maggi noodles, Meatballs, Sotong balls!, Shark's fin(okay i'll give that up for the sake of the poor sharks.), all kinds of soups, Nasi Padang-my usual egg, with curry vegetable,and the fried potato thing, MY CHICKEN BRIYANI FROM YISHUN!!!!!!, chicken skins!(oooh double orgasms), prawn noodle with more fried pork lard, yummy hokkien mee from Lorong 9 Geylang, IKEA's meatball!!!!!(my all time fave), gheeting's mum kuay chap(godly), and meesiam, and mee rebus and eeefu noodles!!!!!!

I am mad. Usually when people are on an island, they think of bringing things like their electronic gadgets, or some other things. How come I think about so many food?!?! I am like deprived of food because of my stupid diet which is going nowhere. Elvin says I will die if I keep puking after I eat. (hahahaha, I AM BULIMIC!!!!!). I told Elvin I won't die, he says I will, and my tummy will rot or something, I shall not believe him.

I've not eaten the whole bloody damn day, all I had was some luncheon meat bread, its leaving me hungrier than fucking ever. :( I hate this whole I-cannot-eat-cos-I-am-so-fat thing. Maybe I should just let it go and be as fat as possible, like seriously. I mean its not like my fatness is posing a problem to me, hahaha, except that I stress Elvin out alot with my im-so-fat craze, and that I can't wear sexy clothes(oh man, you guys have no idea how much I HEARTS sexy clothes.) I swear that if I ever become slim, which is highly mpossible, the first thing I'll do is parade around my neighbourhood in sexy clothes meant for slim people! AND I WILL WEAR A BIKINI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN I WILL START HAVING SEX!!!!!! Yea reason number 2 for me abstaining from sex is bcos I am FUCKING FAT, so if my boyfriend is gonna get turned off by my body, we might as well not get it started in the first place. So we shall all pity Elvin cos he is one hell of a deprived guy. :( so sad.

Okay so the thing is, I am never gonna become slim. HAPPY NOW?!
All the useless rantings. My blog is turning damn loserish and filled with fats.
Like owner, like blog.

HAHAHAA, you know what?
After all that I've said, I am still not gonna give up the love I've for foooood.
FOOD IS MY LIFE & I INTEND TO KEEP IT THIS WAY.
I live to eat good food! yumyum.

***I sound like a lunatic, stay away from me for the time being.

This time, I really miss Elvin like lots. :(

He has to be in camp like from Sunday to Friday, so technically speaking, we only have Saturday for each other. I can't believe I am saying this but..... how can I go on like this!? Being so loserish, gotta miss and wait for a guy. :( I'll not say its unfair cos Elvin might be feeling the same way too. But sooner or later, it'll take its toll on both of us. and then.. bad things are gonna happen. and you would't see happy pictures like the one above and the ones beneath already!!

Like everyone always say, relationships tend to go haywire when the guy's serving the army, like seriously, I so agree okay. Usually they say its the girls who go out to look for affairs, for companionship(okay I will NOT do that, it just doesn't make sense for the heart to hold more than 1 person seriously), but for some cases, its the guy who screws up totally(just bcos you are tired or stress doesn't mean we've to accomodate you guys, we girls are equally miserable alright!!)

And I don't really understand why pple can have affairs so readily these days, affairs ruin relationships so badly. Like they hurt not only one, but maybe two, or three, or four people! Like what the fuck is the purpose!?

And Dyan said something which makes sense and is so fucking unfair. Why is it when a guy flirts, he is given beautiful names like CASANOVA, WOMANIZER, DON JUAN, etc. and when a girl flirts, its like CHEAP, SLUT, VIXEN, BITCH, WHORE, blah blah. So annnnnnoyyyyinggg!!

Okay I am PMSing. My menses is supposed to come today, no signs of it yet though.

And I know, I am blabbering nonsense up there, ignore those.

Hello all, my pictures with Elvin at Sentosa & Chinese Garden are here!


I LOVE THE BIRDS OKAY!!!!!!

secret: (elvin is actually very afraid of the birds lor..)
loser.haha.

AT THE INSECT KINGDOM OR SOMETHING.

we saw these beetles fucking & that got us high the wholeeee day!
actually, it was Elvin who kept bugging me to take this pic.
Seriously.


We spotted this big fat caterpillar and I touched it and its damn soft!
And theres lots more on that plant!!!!!

HIGH !

On the skylift - contorted faces cos we were eating potato chips and i was threatening elvin that I will make him fall.

AT THE LUGE.

Elvin very happy - first-timer (don't blame him)

AT THE 4D MOVIE THINGY.

also very happy.



phone's camera-so its quite unclear.


Elvin: "this is the face you always give when you are losing an argument, or when you've already lost."

THE TOWER THING.

elvin is a beaver.



UNDERWATER WORLD!


Joei and Elvin with................ the Garoupa-lookalike fish which has an enormous mouth, me and Elvin named it Jeanette. I mean, we guessed that it was a female fish.... and we were damn happy to take pictures with it. Hello fish! we gave you a name, jeanette!


:)


CHINESE GARDEN!


(i spotted 4 Kacangs behind me!!!!!)

TURTLE MUSEUM.

Elvin was damn enthusiastic about feeding the tortoise, he claims he loves ONLY fishes and turtles/tortoise whatever. But the tortoise are really cuteeee! They respond and they LOVE food, and they BITE ! Like damn ferocious. One of them can even break bones.... and I thought they look quite retarded and harmless, and slow and everything.

OKAY.

I just wasted alot of time uploading pics.
byebye!
*and ya, I've grown fatter okay! I want no comments about me becoming fatter!!!!!

I promise to slim down once I get my determination!
So stop pressing me!!
(okay no one is actually pressing me, its my inner voice at it. its quite eerie. Like somethings telling me it might be youuuu........)