i am crazy recently. i am hyper partying to the max. i am officially losing my mind!

HAHAHAHA! and im SUPER ULTRA HAPPY~!

thursday was SISTERS DAY for me & gheeting. we spent the WHOLEEEE day together. and its soo soo soo fun. fun fun. we watched Curse of the Golden Flower, the nehnehpok show, its full of overflowing boobs, i swear. and jay looks very very funny, really. and after that , we went to FarEast and walked around and decided to go K-box in Hougang! OMG! ITS THE FUNNEST DAY OF OUR LIVES. we totally sang from 9pm to 2am. TOTALLY. goshh. all the songs we sang are superb. i love singing with her alone! hahaha. and we smuggled food in , and got "said" by the annoying guy, but we did not give a fuck. HEH HEH HEH. and i REALLY do feeel alot alot better just by spending 3 whole days with my darling gheeting. *muacks* darling, i love you so, thanks for being here when i need u. HUGS HUGS!

and Friday , was Millenia Institute's opening day. the Bukit Batok Campus opening day, zhiwei was irresponsible cos he fell asleep and did not wake me up, that ass. and i had to take a cab to Bartley campus! ASSHOLE! i wasted 10bucks just like that.... just like that....... =( sobbies. HAHA. and when i reach school, was greeted by familiar faces that i love! PURANI & SYLVIA! i simply loveeeee u both. we laughed like siao as usual. den sylvia kept stealing glances at me n purani when she was standing at the doorway, !! hahaa.

den we headed to the new campus and me n dyan was bitching so so so much bout guys and love and its SUPER funny ! cos we share the same sentiments for certain things. hahaha. and poor darling purani was nauseous. cos the retarded bus was jerky to the max. anyway, the new campus is SUPERFUCKINGSUPER big. serious. and throughout, annitha, valerie,renuka,priya, dyan, me, purani we were fooling around! its so so fun. and when the dumb Amazing Race Millenia starts, we decided to fuck off from the school and went to West Mall instead. GOOD CHOICE!

COS I WATCHED NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM WITH PURANI! ITS SUPER NICE! PLEASE WATCH IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! its the BEST BEST BEST show on earth. =)

and went to watch Death Note 2 with zhiwei after that. (yay i finally can write zhiwei's name here CLEARLY AND BIGLY!) woohoo. ZHIWEI ZHIWEI ZHIWEI. i was so tempted to eat my Salmon Sashimi with Rice. BUT i resisted my temptations. heh heh heh. bought 3 door thingy. soo soo soo cute . =) so all in all, i had a fun fun fun day !

LOVE U ALL!

3 movies in 2 days. im siao. really..

and ONE MORE THING! i've nothing to do with him anymore! YAY!
cos i returned him the PSP like finally!! and now, we owe each other nothing no more!
YiPPEE! adds on to my already happiness! cannot take it man!
and please stop stalking my frenster and blog. i cannot take it.
your partner has aids and shes ugly and fat and it disgusts me like totally.
and she disgusts ALL my frens too. so please, don stalk me...(im scared k?)

heh heh. i've somewhat recovered. SOMEHOW. thanks to my darling gheeting ! i spent like 3 days with her already. hahahaa. its soo soo soo fun without a boyfriend. GOSH! i can't believe im actually enjoying myself and not indulging in loneliness instead. =D YAY! so so happy. and i really must thank gheeting AGAIN!

cos we had so much fun. we ate maggi noodles with eggs, and luncheon meat. GOSH! its heavenly~~ i LOVE it. den we watched gangster movie and laugh our asses off. and watched megapoden/megalopon some shark show la..

and today we're going out again! to watch Curse of the golden Flower! yay! can see neh neh and jay! hahahahaa.

and im becoming VERY irresponsible. BUT! its the last few days of the year, so its okay, when the new year comes, I WILL BE RESPONSIBLE AGAIN! i promise REALLY.

and thanks to a guy called SongFeng or something(i don really know), thanks for telling me theres a book warehouse sales at Expo. hugs. so nice of you!

all in all, im moving on! MOVING ON TO THE MAX.



**SORRY I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG ADD. SOME GAY SHIT LOSERS KEEP STALKING IT, IM GETTING REALLY SCARED U KNOW**
(but i must be brave, i will change it back to fatcookies.blogspot.com again soon)

jason dage called me yesterday at 1.48am! and we were discussing bout the countdown party. and after which lead to BEING SINGLE. hahaha, we are super thrilled bout it. and we are not feeling sorry for ourselves at all. heh heh. cos we are still young ma! den we must enjoy enjoy! our night time philosophy.

why brood over unhappy things when we only live life once?

and why choose someone who isn't choosing you?

right right right? i think i make some sense.

and i would love to thank:
Roo Peiru
Isabel&co.
Jason dage
Kacang&Stripey

for making my day. =)

If you two come together because you're both lonely and needy and desperate to kiss someone (anyone! ANYONE!! ANYONE!!!). your relationship probabply won't last long.

But if u get along, care about each other, root for each other, and enjoy each other's strengths while also accepting each other's short comings, you just may have something there.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
- Edna St. Vincent Millay


Whether u're the one leaving or the one being left, its undeniably sad when the ove of love becomes the ove of over.

But just as the relationshop didnt last forever, the misery won't either. and while pain stinks, it isn't permanent. so plod along, and if u feel like crying, cry.

BUT THEN!! change the channel ! go for a swim, meet frens for pizza, cook something. build something. play music. VOLUNTEER. keep a journam. pet ur cat/hamster/dog. plan a getaway weekend. rent a movie. read a book.

When love makes an exit, let a flurry of activities sweep in to take its space. Staying busy and involved, even when ur smashed-up heart isnt in it, is the surest way to start feeling good again. that and having someone to talk to - like a best fren, (in fact, many best frens!).

"Patience, my heart: Night's length will pass." -Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Can you take 3 giant steps back? Can you see all the good things that are still in your life? Can you use your hurt to become more passionate?

"Do you believe in life after love?" someone asked. I do. And as k.d. lang pointed out, "Theres nothing like a good heartbreak to get a good song."

Yes, i've been hurt. i've suffered. but that's not what makes me me.
What makes me me is getting through all that stuff, pushing it aside, moving forward.



YES JOEI TAN XIN YI! U CAN! =D

its 26th of Dec liao! im moving on, im still alive. and this shows i can CAN can live without him. in fact, very well indeed. i had so much fun!

yesterday went to meet gheeting and talked like siao, den we went to meet Melanie & Jarael at rivervale mall. i was like, "sigh, i've been here with him before" , and gheeting will be like, "shut up la u whore" .. but she made me smile though. and i had my first proper meal in like forever. Long John's! gheeting darling was so sweet to treat me eat. hahahaa.

den we went to melanie's house. =D BIG SMILE. it was fun, AND AND AND gosh! me n gheeting did something we never ever tried before! and this time, its not just one or two puffs but the whole whole whole thingy! i was like so happy, cos its my first ever time kinda thing. =)

hmmm, some pple says doing that will relieve u off troubles temporarily.. so , i might wanna carry on doing it . but i don feel like getting throat cancer, lung cancer or wadever shit so early leh..

and we went back to mel's house to drink ! we are losers lor, we can't take alchohol.. we had vodka with green tea. we talked & talked & talked all night. but once we switch off the lights, all of us fell into a deep slumber! the next time i woke up was 7.30.. and i did melanie's SUDOKU. im considering getting one. =) time to work my brains.

the weather is PERFECT for sleeping. =) LOVE IT.

and i really would like to thank gheeting darling & melanie darling & jarael darling for being such sweet companions, helps alot. cos when we were sleeping, i slept in the middle of gheeting & melanie, and for once in so many days, i did NOT felt empty n lost, in fact, i felt protected and loved by my frens!

I LOVE MY FRENS ! ALOT ! more den YOU. ^^
and sorry , i take back my words, i CANNOT LIVE without my darling hammieS!
YOU will never ever in be more important den my darling hammies in my life!



oh ya, hmm. i hope there will not be any more FUGLY pple viewing my frenster profile. scares the fuck outta me. SERIOUSLY. wad XiaoHui or dunno wad sai. EEEE. why so ugly de. and im like, TRAUMATISED. so pLEASE. don view me leh. don dirty my frenster k? FAT BITCH. i realise shes got a ZHENG ZHONG PIG FACE. (Original Pig Face). goes to show how Birds of the Same Feathers Flock Together. They look exactly like clowns together! HAHAHA!
(the above is not only MY opinion, but a mixture of ALOT of pple's opinion)
thanks. bcos i don give a flying fuck bout u anymore.


Enjoying every moment of my life~ and im looking forward a much better 2oo7 !

darling joei, why are u crying?


Me & my dajie! =D this is the time when all my frens stand by me! yay!


Fiona, Bel & Me!


My Xmas Cake! tell u its story soon. ahahhaa.


Nita & Me.


Xmark korkor & Me! thanks korkor for advice and all! LOVE U!
and johnathan korkor that shit too!


Fiona & Me.


Me, Jacq & Cher.


Bel, Nita, & ME!


Cher dearie & me!


US on the escalator! MERRY XMAS!


Merry Merry Xmas to Everyone ! (:


after work yesterday, i had lotsa fun. walked over to Cinieleisure to find my frens. Xmark korkor, Johnnie korkor, Isabel, Fiona, Nita, Jacqueline, Cheralyn darlings & Victoria, and some Xiaopang guy, Aik San, Ah Gong, and a few pple which i don really noe their names. haha. its fun, with all the foam spray and everything.

and while walkin past Orchard, i tot of the first year of Xmas me n him spent together. we were at Orchard.. he made me cry at McCafe, and this evoked such deep emotions in me. Its den i realised that i feel empty without him by my side. Everyone was pushing and spraying the foam thingy, and although my darling frens did protect me from those pushings and spraying. (thanks alot!) .. Its just feels different, cos its usually him who does this for me..

In a way, i feel so safe with him.. i do not have to worry about anything, as in anything. Walking down Orchard Road without him seems so different, its like, im not a whole person anymore. im left stranded without a heart, all bcos my stupid heart fled with him. :( I must admit, I fucking love him more den anything. I can give up ANYTHING just to be with him. my mahjongg game, all my food, sashimis and all, all my sleeping, all my high heels, all my manicure & pedicure, my darling baby hamster, all my bags, EVERYTHING LA! knn..

But still, things have changed and we can never change a person's heart. I am a cruel murderer cos i killed his heart with my bare hands. *screams*
And i shall self-punish myself. never mind how i do it, i'll just punish myself.

but anyway, i've learnt 2 of the most important lessons in life! Regret & Cherish.


and im happy cos gheeting darling is back, and we're gonna meet melanie like now, we're gonna drink and talk! im so happy !

i can never smile like before without you..




**oh ya, this Chinese song on my blog is VERY meaningful. plsplspls listen to the lyrics carefully.

someone told me: we cant control love but life is fullfilled without love. love is totally a waste of time . it jus gives us tearz N nothing more than that if u both love each other then also their will B a problem . The name of love is "problem" .Cuz there is never a happy ending in love stories. every one has 2 sacrifice in this stupid Love . Every body has to break itz heart in love . LOVE gives us nothing it just spoil us... So0o the better way is do not love and im sure life is much much better with out love. LOVE is just a waste of time and nothing more then that....


POEM

Two years of pain and tears
my love for you was always true
The things I’ve done I know not why
I see the hurt well up in your eyes
When you're not here a part of my soul does die
Each night in bed alone I cry
Soulmates once but now no more
My heart bleeds for you right to the core
I love you so and always will
Regret is always the bitterest pill


POEM

If you only knew how I feel
If you only knew what I think
Every time I look at you
My heart just seems to shrink
You took your love away
Like it didnt hurt to say
That you didn't love me anymore
And you wanted to get away
It's like my life was over
And it hurt to face the truth
Why was this happening
What did I do to make you change your feelings
Which were once so very deep
And looking back at the memories I can't help but weep.


sigh. sigh.
i should be happy, for having really fabulous frens who stand by me,
who ask me out on XMAS eve cos they noe im without a bf!
im so touched. really. for asking me out to countdown!
thanks johnnie korkor & xmark korkor and the rest,
i might be finding melanie dear at night too.

Christmas, 2 years i spend it with him,
and yet now, im all alone,
stranded alone in the streets of Singapore.
i miss you and i always will. sighhhh.

If i have 60 seconds per minute, i'll spend 398 seconds with u per minute.
If i have 60 minute per hours, i'll spend 90 minutes with u per hour.
If i have 24 hours a day, i'll spend 54 hours with u a day.
If i have 365 days a year, i'll spend 500 days with u a year.
If only, you would turn back, and look at me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me and would never let me go again...


POEM

how could you say you love me but you go and leave me
how could you say you care if your not going to stay
I wish it always rain so you could not seethe hurt, pain and tears you gave to me
how could you say you love me when you love someone else
how could you say I can find somebody else when all I want is you and all I need is you
how could you say i'll be fine when you made me blue
i don wanna see your face or anything reminds me of you
i don wanna be your friend though that’s what I am to you
how could you hurt me so bad when all I want is to love and be loved by you

direct translation just for Purani! cos she dunno chinese, and for non-chinese frens.

好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
(very regret, very sad, feel like starting over, can anot?)

再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
(i wouldnt walk to such an ending given one more chance)

好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
(very regret, very sad, who will put me back to the past)

我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机
(im willing to exchange everything i have for a time changing machine)

hehehe. my favourite song! by MAYDAY! my Wu Yue Tian.
this song is nice really.
some songs are just beautiful; bcos u can relate to them thru real life experiences. and poems too. i've alot more poems! hahaha. when im sad, inspiration attacks like crazy.


YAY! im meeting dajie to Bugis to buy a new bag, heels, Rahcel's present, and ... do a pedicure. HAHAHAA. sigh, i hope i wun be too sad when i get there. cos.. thats where most of our memories lies.. it used to be me in her place, thats wad hurts the mosts. OK SHUT UP JOEI ! lets shop to the max!!

MY LOVE WILL NO LONGER EXIST

Before I knew I loved him,
before I even cared,
before I felt so lonely,
before he wasn't there.
I took it all for granted,
the love he had for me,
I never knew I loved him,
until he ceased to be.
My one, my love, my all
will no longer exist.
I lost him,he's no more,
The only thing that's left,
is his deteriorating soul.
i made him feel like nothing,
I made him feel like shit,
this heart is oh so broken,
my own grave i have digged.
With his death my soul has parted,
no more reson to exist.
Without him I am nothing,
in my death I will be missed.



IT HURTS

It hurt so very bad,
No one sees that I am sad,
I long for arms to hold me,
Is it too hard to see?
I need you here today,
But that will never be,
At least I can think back on the days,
When you belonged to me.
You think that you're so funny,
Wait till the cold hands grab your throat,
you start to choke,
you will not cope,
you will be buried in the lies you have told.
I cant believe you,
What you did was so wrong,
But i still love you,
And i will forever long.


IM REALLY SORRY

I guess it is too late.
You weren't lying at all.
Now that I'm replaced.
No reason to stand tall.
I wish this didn't happen.
You found another one.
I didn't mean to get in the way.
Im really sorry.
Guess you and me are done.


COS LOVE HURTS.

y are u doing this? uu breaking my heart,
u left me here to cry in the dark.
u told me u loved me but u told her too,
u left me here all sad and blue.
I want to cry,and cry a lot,
u say love me, yea I think not!
im getting my razor and im gonna cut real deep,
on my shirt the blood will seep..
ouch this hurts, but not as bad as wad u did to me,
all this cutting is making me bleed.
but ur love kills me more and more as the days go by,
I should jus end this now,
slit my throat and then die.



im so EMO.cannot tahan myself.aiyo.sigh.
love poems. they are my lifee. heehee.

Just because someone does not love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.


Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.


Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you. (this is so super sad)








and a happy news,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KALVIN HOE ZHI WEI! :)

hope u will not be skinny and that u'll pass all Maths exam! hahaha.
U MAKE ME SMILE!

although im super sad bout this unfortunate event,

but from this thingy, i finally realised i've many many good frens who will stand by me. gosh, im damn touched like seriously.. all of you are really nice. each and everyone of you.

WALL OF FAME

Ghee Ting darling
Melanie darling
Yeecher dajie
Rachel darling
Sylvia darling
Purani darling
Sandra darling
Jarael darling
Joan darling
Serene darling
Kaixuan darling
Cheng Hong
Johnnie korkor
Xmark korkor
Dickson
Hoe Zhiwei
Zhiwei (its a different zhiwei pls)
Glenn
Mengie
Shashita
Gaya
Minzi
My mummy&daddy

you know wad? im so glad i've so many nice pple around me.

johnnie korkor wanna have a gathering for xmas! woohoo! with gheeting! gosh! our whole group. can u imagine it? i cant wait for gheeting to come back !! cos it'll be a blast! i need to have HTHT with her. misss my WE HAVE NO HOPE gang!

its hard to breathe without him around, but i'll try.
TRY TRY TRY!
so many pple is behind me! all supporting me!!
A BREAKUP IS NOTHING LOR PLEASE..

though my heart hurts and i cant breathe, i shall just live with this pain in my heart. forever.


i got a lot of poems i wrote myself. hahaha, but i very lazy take out from my bag..

anyway, i've not eaten for 5 days! im so proud of myself, hope i'll be really skinny soon, but i've got no strength.. gosh. i can do it! I CAN!


I CANT WAIT FOR XMAS TO COME! AND FOR SCHOOL TO START!! I MISS MI FRENS AND SYLVIA AND PURANI LIKE CRAZY!!

since the day you left me, you took my heart away and leave..
and so now, im nothing more than a living dead without a heart..

a thousand words wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've tried
a thousand tears wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've cried..

walking all alone under the rain..
my thoughts never once stopped..
it was all about us, everything we went thru together..
how i like the rain..
because no one can see the tears falling from my face then.

im so EMO.
BUT, im in the healing process.
kindly forgive me.

it was fun in diploma class today!
we agreed on doing a petition together.
its a Say-No-To-Affairs and Treasure-Your-Partner petition.
hahaha, im gonna do it, they are gonna just VOTE an agree.

working was tough today! the first opening day!
gosh i was so busy.
but yet, i still have time to think bout some sad stuffs.
SIGH. my brain defies me constantly.
asssholic brain i have.

i MUST stop all the incessant crying, its getting on my own nerves.
lol, poor zhiwei muz always listen to me .. LOL! so poor thing.
and i hope i can get over it soon! i dunno why im acting lidat!
but its so not me!
I WILL GET OVER IT~

i love u allllll.

SORRY- by BuckCherry

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all you're sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right


why am i feeling so empty..
so lost.. so isolated..

heh heh. although i felt empty the whole day, im glad i've absolutely nice nice frens. yay to myself. i love gheeting,melanie,mengie,dajie,rachel,zhiwei,shashita,gaya and of cos some other nice pple. thanks thanks thanks. melanie wanted to meet me but due to time constrain it was cancelled!

im going thru a rough rough rough patch of life, but i'll get over it REAL SOON! really! thats wad gheeting says though.

"god made me leave him cos he wanted me to find someone better" -huili jiejie
"treat him like dust and blow him away!" -shashita ( i like this quote~~~)
"the ones who truly loves you never makes u cry" - i heard it somewhere.

anyway, despite the suffocating pain, I SHALL TRY TO SURVIVE AND BREATHE UNDERWATER. i say underwater cos my TEARS is enough to fill The UnderWater World. hahaha.


and i shall go drinking, cos Gaya says the best way to forget ur sorrows is to drink ! yay! i promise to be an alcoholic, sounds lame, but still. who cares?

a song that i think is soooo perfect.

So now I have lost everything
Cause now you say
You are gone forever more
So who will I

Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
And who will I turn to
Now that you are not here
In my life

You were the one I took for granted all those years
And you were the one I should have known
It was so clear

How could I be so blind
Not to see whats before my eyes
I will get you back here with me
If it takes the rest of my life

Cause I would do anything
Cause I want you back forever more


nice rite? this song is stuck in my fucking head. aaa. lol.
got another 2 songs that makes me cry, which is Cry on my Shoulder and Sorry.
byebyebyebyebye pple!

im sure the happy joei will be back soon! just gimme time! heh heh heh.

its 2.41 am now, its too late yet too early, im feeling as confused as the time now..

2am when it all started. well, im at a loss of what to do . it came too sudden, too surprising, and im taken aback by the impact it has on me, im overwhelmed by emotions i can't even explain. i guess its because its beeen a long long time since i've felt this way. this pain in my heart is almost familiar, i can't describe how it feels though, it bleeds.. its like a knife coated with salt slicing me up slowly. yes, i can feel myself dying and drowning in pain, slowly. its torturing, i cannot take sucha pain in my heart, i doubt anyone can..

we're all humans anyway, we all suffer pain, hurt, heartache, whatever..

omg, i wish i can just fucking fucking fucking die. DIE. die.

i hope he is happy with the other party now, i mean, its not like i'll give u both my blessings, i hope both of u would disappear and die instantly in a car crash, but still, before u both die, i sincerely hope u both are happy. hahahahahhaahhahaa. im so idiotic.

is it my fault?
if it is, why should it be mine?
is it cos i do not loveu enough? show u enough concern? spend time with u?
but if its u who is in love with another girl,
why is it my fault?

im drowning in tears.. and i wish so much for a tight big hug from anybody please.

this is so surreal, am i in a dream actually?
Reality hurts, don't they?

please please please do not say u love me still, please.
cos i probably would not care.
im gonna erase u from my memory.
everything will be gone.
im very sure i can do it.

You have just destroyed my world within 15 mins. Thanks.

**i wish u could gimme my present for Aloysious boiboi and the 2 meimei , BUT, i do not wish to see u neither do i wish to hear ur voice neither do i wanna have ANYTHING to do with u**


this pain is too much to bear..
i am devatasted. seriously.

again, one late night, gheeting was online, and as usual, some nonsensical talks soon rises.

THE ZEE GAME.


this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zello. zow zre zou?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zi zam zine
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zhank zou
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou'ze zezzome
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou zeant zou zanna zlog zout zhis zight?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zight


and this is not all,
we came up with names for everyone!

joei is ZOZI
gheeting is ZEEZING
melanie is ZEZANIE
johnathan is ZOHZAZHAN
mark wong is ZARK ZONG (hahahahha)
eric is ZEZIC
zhiwei is ZHIZEI
purani is ZUZAZI
sylvia is ZYLZIA
chenghong is ZHENGZONG

and the list goes on..


yes, and we can even ask each other "OMG, why are we doing such things?! it so does not help in our future."
YAYAYAYA, and we continued..

hahahahhahahahahahahahaha. can't stop laughing; tummy hurts.gheeting's dying of laughter too.

love you!

i love gheeting BECAUSE:

joei the ____ girl said:
muz let u know, i'll always love u till the end of time
i am waiting says:
you said it, bitch. i love you too. till time has got no time no more, or we have no money no more, ainta gonna say more ainta, solve no mysteries no more, den i wont love u.
joei the ____ girl says:
lol, u made my day everyday
i am waiting says:
some nice shoppingggg
i am waiting says:
and we'll keep talking, and murmurs in the coffin


i wonder why we do this too, cant help but wonder.

heh heh. came back from NTUC with granny. bought 10billion things.
gave up my Pedicure session just to wash toilet, and go NTUC with granny.
shall go for Pedicure session tomoro ! yay x 1000000 .
and i gotta go Orchard for my meeting with my new manager as well.
will be working in a Japanese restaurant AGAIN.
LOVE IT! can eat Jappy food like siao ~ YUMYUM.
YAY x 10000000.

talked to Chengie Hongie & Johnnie korkor on MSN just .
hahahahah i laughed behind my computer for 20 minutes.
johnathan promised me a trip to Sentosa , cos we are gonna wreck that place, together with Gheeting, Melanie, Damark, Xmark , etc..
CAN'T FUCKING WAIT !
we used to destroy that place. on the MRT, on the beach, hahahah.
KOTEX floating in the sea.
gheeting drowning me. (oops!)

hahahhahaha. and johnnie korkor is a loser !
he asked me to call someone, and den scream loudly den laugh hysterically.
LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
imagine receiving a call den someone SCREAM loudly, will die lor.

I MISS ALL MY FRENS! ALOT!
FOREVER!

KAcang&Stripey is sooo cute..

Evidence of a 21.1 km MARATHON.


hahahaha, i feel this is funny and it quite make sense.
Translated: "If you do not work hard at work today, you work hard the next day to get another job."

i stayed at home today, simply cos my whole body aches like crazy and i can't really make any drastic moves. supposed to meet gheeting & melanie but gheeting has school and i was busy at home so i can't meet melanie. aww, i miss them both so so much. its been 2 hundred days since we see each other.

but tomoro, im gonna meet my fellow brave comrades who braved through rain, blisters, 100plus, water, miles of distance and TONS OF WALKING with me. Purani & Sylvia.
yes, they suffered the same way i did and they are asking me out tomoro , to go to our new campus and after that, shopping ~ wee. shopping sounds happy but at the rate my body is hurting, i doubt i can walk, or even move. i hope we have a fun time though, we ALWAYS have a fun time together rite, hahahaha.

and im going to malaysia on Friday ! woohoo~ yumyum food awaits me there, i can almost here them beckoning to me.

**Eric just got me a new hamster cage, Stripey is SO NOT accustomed to it at all, he is panicky and he keeps making the wheel fall off! i was so angry, but i know he is scared as he lived in a tank since he was a baby, and the sudden change makes him so panicky. sorry Stripey boiboi. i loveee u k. and i love my honey bunny Kacang baby girl too.

:) more love quotes anyone? Joei the Emo. :(
hahahahahahaha.

Joei the Emo. hahahaha.
addicted to sharing quotes.

There are moments in life when you really miss someone so much that you want to pick them up from your dreams and hug them for real.

One day I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain I've caused. One day I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand. One day I'll get over you. I'm sorry that day hasn't come yet.

Most people don't realize that while we sit and moon and pine and wish for the love of someone unattainable, there is often someone wishing and praying for and pining for us.

I dropped a tear in the ocean for you. The day you find it is the day I stop loving you.

Missing you isn't the hardest part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.

Loving someone who doesn't love you back, it's like reaching for a star, you know you'll never make it but you keep trying.

Why is it that you wish and cry to get over that someone special, then when that day comes you cry because you wish you were in love with them again?
(hey gheeting darling, this is for ME & YOU, winks)

You're been cold to me so long I'm crying icicles instead of tears.

Don't be the cause of someone else's tears, for next time it may be you that's crying.

The worst way to miss someone is to have them standing right next to you and knowing you can't have them.

Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back...but yet, loved them so much, you knew you'd die if they did?

How could something that seemed so right turn out to be so wrong?

How come you have enough time to go out and make other guys fall in love with you, but you don't have enough time to pay attention to the guy who already does?

Sometimes I look at you, and I wonder...do you ever sit here and look at me too?

Love that we cannot have lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest.


hope u pple enjoyed it. i just wanna be EMO. cos some pple just refuse to believe im an EMO kid, does anyone of u believe me? hmm?

anyway, i've officially got a huge phobia of marathons. so please, stop asking me go marathon with u all k. ever since pple know i completed it, they keep asking me join them go wad Army Half Marathon, HK Marathon, wahlao. they wanna kill me lor. 21km is pangsai to the max. still wan me join so many.

SORRY BUT I'VE GOT A HUGE PHOBIA FOR MARATHONS!
they are horribly nightmarish! :(

=D *GRINS WIDELY*

i did it.

we did it.

i completed the 21 km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.

we completed the 21km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.

and, we are so freaking proud of ourselves.

DESPITE the fact that we did not train for it AT ALL, the fact that we HATE RUNNING & PE!, and we have absolutely ZERO stamina, and considering how enormously FAT i am..

we still did it.

The journey was .. a torture. our legs hurt, cramped, sored, blistered, numbed and name all the bad things, we got it. we so much wanted to give up the whole thing at about 13km. we were dying and we had no more determination left. BUT WE PERSEVERED. we encouraged each other, pushing ourselves forward.

we laughed our whole 21km, dunno where we can get the enery from when our legs are crying out for help. though it was tiring, we overcame it by entertaining each other with funny antics. hahaha.

so next time, go marathon with ur frens okay?! it helps like ALOT! serious!

i finished 21km! so happy! and of cos, with the help of the 2 great ones, PURANI & SYLVIA.
applause please.

yupp, and i saw Samantha, Kaixuan & Weicheng. and thanks to all the participants % supporters who cheered us on. thanks.

and how on earth did the commendator know my name? hmm? but i SWEAR the last moment of the marathon was the most embarrassing yet happy part of our lives. HAHAHA.

saw some good reasons on why they went for the marathon.
"whats 21km after all the distances we have travelled in life?" (some woman)
"if I can do it, so can YOU" (by a woman who has a hunchback)
"because my BEST FRENS JOEI&SYLVIA is running!" (Purani)
"because my BEST FRENS PURANI&JOEI is running!" (Sylvia)

i am so proud of us. cos we did it. we did not give up! though most of the pple thinks we comfirm halfway give up, we did not! hahahahahahaha. but it was a super challenging task.



NOW MY WHOLE BODY ACHES LIKE CRAZY! i can't fucking move! AT ALL. i have difficulty walking, sleeping, standing, sitting, EVEYRTHING! im gonna die. OMG.
i wonder if Sylvia& Purani is suffering like i do, hmmm. tell me k girls.

alrite, i love my hammies alot, and i shall go sleep now!

gosh! i love her.


OMG! just look at her! just look at my little dearie.


baby i need u so.


hahaha. darling KACANG!



yay. just did my nails, and its so pretty. like it alot alot. clear base with gold tips. nice hor?

tomoro i have 2 weddings to go to. and i have to be 'sister' for one of them.
can wear my dress liao! woohoo.

omg. my hamster is so cute!!
take a look. please!

YAY! hurray finally my diploma exam is like OVER! to the max. no more nonsense ! yay!
so happy .

and thanks meng for collecting the marathon shirt for me. but i hate L! i hate size L !! hate it!!
i want size M when school starts! i insist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its true love that you don't know about