I shall blog, I shall not be selfish. I shall allow you pple to have some entertainment. HOWEVER, unfortunately, happy joei is upset. So..... quotes for the healing heart. HAHAH. Mainly for my darling Ziyan & Melanie & Gheeting & Dyan & others who are feeling not quite happy at the moment.

"You don't know how hard it is to get over you when every time I see you my heart begins to smile."

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met

Sometimes you don't realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you

It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does

"I've never had feelings this strong for someone in my whole life, and probably never will. And the fact that I just have to walk away from it hurts me more than you will ever know."

"Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that they'll love you back."

The hardest thing I'll ever do is walk away still loving you.

"To continue loving somebody even though there's no chance of that love ever thriving - that's romance."

I didn't realize how much I loved him until he was standing there and he wasn't mine any more.

I can't talk to you anymore. It's not that I'm mad at you, it's just that whenever I talk to you, I realize how much I love you. And when I realize how much I love you, I also realize that we can never be together. Which just makes me love you more. (this is so sad.......sobsobsob)

The worst feeling in the world is to love and hate a person all in the same second.

Why is it that we torture ourselves with love? We hope and wish for that special someone for so long, and it hurts so much to see them love someone else. When we finally get the person of our dreams, they leave sooner or later, gone from your life like a feather floating away in the wind, never to be seen again. We cry endlessly for many nights, remembering their smiles, their kind words, their warm embrace. You can't help but feel joy when you think of their sweet kisses or that special feeling you get whenever you see them. You dream of them and wake up smiling, until you realize it was only a dream and the closest thing you have to that person are the memories and times you shared, that made it all worthwhile. I guess that's why we torture ourselves with love.

**

Enjoy.
Sorry & a big Thanks to my my dearest sweet frens who were making me laugh and hitting me in a very painful way when I was stoning/zonking out today. I love you all. I am very upset, but anyway, fuck it. I miss Kacang, I wanna see her and feel her and talk to her. I wish I can escape to some island and spend the rest of my life there in isolation. Maybe I should pop in a few Panadol Heartache, Panadol Forget, Panadol Denial or Panadol unaffected (hahah dyan these are so funny). Maybe I should sleep and wish I can sleep forever. Maybe.................sometimes ignorance is bliss. I mean it. Ignorance is bliss.

Coolness.


More coolness.


Gayness. + 2 coolness.

The spongebob so gay & retarded right! HAHAHA. Elvin Si totally gave me a huge surprise today. WOOHOO. Red bike is like nice. The red colour is like some niceness and with a tinge of shimmering effect. I am blabbering nonsense cos I am very excited. Then still got MY name, (ya i only care about MY name).. both our names soooo nice. :) And RED colour!!! OMG. So nice lor. Love it! YAY! I love you I love you I love you! I know we are very gay but who cares. More clearer pics and more new modifications will be up soon. Stay tuned. HAHAHA. Elvin has decided to do alot more random modifications and he claims we will have cool new helmets soon. HAHHA, can't wait!

I talked to BluePeach via sms today. Love BluePeach lotsss!

Happyness! Watched Jumper(HOTNESSSS!). Collect specs. Got lost in some forsaken place. Haircut. See pple do extension. Arnold's Chicken(YUMMYNESS!). Go change the bike seat to Red colour and add words to it. What a very happy day.

What will you do if you see your boyfriend/girlfriend with another girl/boy? Will you walk over or walk away? Question to think about. Me and my girlfriends are constantly talking about it. HAHAHA.

I love YOU.
I really really really really do.

*promise k? :) *

Very tiring day in school, Dyan slept like a log in Malay lessons. I slept but was feeling cold. Sylvia did her Econs homework. Funny part was sneaking out, hahahahaa, one by one with the bags already outside. A big joke, but it was super funny. Very cold day but still very fun.
:) I wrote a letter to BluePeach during Econs.

Haircut tomorrow with my darling pretty friend who will TRY not to be a loser anymore. The haircut damn shiok one leh, got massage all those. SONG BO!? (Renukaaa, I'm not an ah beng haha.)

Had dinner with my godmummy and family. I saw Riri again today! Soooo cuteeee. Bought many toys for it & a new bed too. I missss it soooo much. Ate Gelare with Ronald korkor, Charlene jiejie & someone. Very yummy, Tuesday got half price, very happy.

I had a good talk with him at night. I like having good talks with him, it makes me feel super relaxed and happy. He promised me some stuffs. Like pure promise kinda thing, so... if he happens to break the promises, then can only blame it on myself for being naive and gullible for choosing to trust him so completely right? Hahaha. PLEASE try not to give empty promises okay.

Sigh.
Life is a bitch.

I miss you alot. Like a-fucking-cheebye-lot.
I wanna be able to see you 25 hours 8 days a week.
But this wouldn't be a good idea, cos it would make parting with you only more difficult.
WHY AM I TALKING LIKE THAT!!!!
FUCKING GROSSSSS!!!!
FUCK OFF JOEI TAN.

BYEBYE!
I'm convinced I've become a looney cos I miss someone too much.

Hello how was your weekend? Mine was pretty good, rather eventful cos I finally got my ass down to do my spectacles. Thanks for picking me to Yishun then to Toa Payoh, thanks x 10000. It was very much appreciated and thanks. My Saturday was spent with Riri the bunny-looking doggy, and then at ___'s house and my younger brother's birthday celebration at some pub named Gossip. Gossip is a place filled with.....gangsters and ya, I drank a cup of Chivas with coke. Coolness. No puking, I'm a winner. Saw my Ronald korkor there and it was so fun. I love the company there, Happy Birthday Jaron Tan Jie Jun. I hope you stop beingan ah beng and please stop looking so mature that everyone thinks you are my OLDER brother. You are only 15, and I am already 18+++++. Then Sunday was K-Lunch day and make my spectacles day, and a movie day and it was family dinner day. Some yummy food and I ate alot, and I had fun. So that sums up my weekend. WeeheeWoohoo.

A very big surprise! I actually went to school today! HAHAHA. Happy right happy right happy right?? Its been a longggg time since I attended a Monday lesson, (looks at Dyan&Ziyan too). I must go to school for 5 days !!!!!! MUST!!!!! Resolution for this week is to complete a week. hahaha.

Oh my bloody mother fucking god. I just felt some tremors. Scary-ness.

Sleeping time.

I love all of you.

Love these girls. I miss them! Am glad I saw them lastlast week at Hougang Mall. Love my 4E4 class gatheringssss.


Heeheehee. Found this pic. We were REALLY sleeping.
Well, we are ALWAYS sleeping anyway.


NVSS canteen. Forgot when. Gheeting will be very affected when she sees this picture cos she will be like, "oh my god joei you are blind and gross" I agree with you.

Racial Harmony Day 2 years ago! Loook! Me and Sylvia in a sari!
HEEHEE.
Dyan is so pretty in her outfit. whistles.


Some farmers thingy. Taken years ago.
Gheeting took it.Can you remember?!?!
Anyone wanna guess what it resembles?!?!
YAY KUKU BIRD.


The 2 person who keeps assuming I'm with blahblah.
HAHAHA THE 2 PERSON. THE 2 PERSON!!!


I really miss clubbing alotalotalotalotalotalotalotalot.


Really miss it.. :(


Baby Kacang sleeping!
She looks like that when she died too.. Peaceful.
I love you always sweetie.


Gheeting's favourite.
Kacang-in-the-yakult-bottle.
hahahaa.


:) Love them x 300000


The BBQ, to which Gheeting will cringe and die again.


Clubmed at Bintan ! :) Some funnnn.
Hahahaha.


At the zooo.


Clubbing ! (you see our faces when we club, the kinda smile is totally different man, whahahahahahaa) weeheee. Joei got BFA.
BFA = Biggest Face Award for those that don't know.


Years ago.


More years ago. When we still dunno how to club yet.
J-O-K-E. BFFs.


FUN DAY! :)


The Chalet! :D oh god look at the way I twist.


At Australia. I miss it there.
Retarded spectacles.

Sorry no time put more pics, going bro's party now.
byebye all, hope you all enjoyed the GOOD OL' DAYS.
And hope it brings back some nostalgic, grossed-out, or happy feelings.
HAHAHA.

Pom Pom time!

Hello all !

Didn't turn up for the CCK thingy. Sorry guys! Love you all sorry!

Saw Riri the rabbit today! Ooops, I meant Riri the doggy. Riri really looks like a bunny, by the way. The way its ear flaps and everything, Riri is so blooooody fucking cheeebye cuteeee. I cannot stand it anymore, I shall kill it the next time I see it cos its soooooo cuteeeeee. Oh my god.

Its my brother's birthday tomorrow and I am supposed to go to his party tonight. He siao one lor, hes like only 15 and he wanna go to a pub. WTF. Aiya his birthday he decide la.

Awww. Missed an art film together with Sandra and Purani! :( cos no more tickets.
Please ask me along again the next time, would love to go. Spanish Art film somemore.
COOOL.

Found out that Gheeting and Mennny baked cupcakes without meeeee. >=(
Annoying ! cos the conclusion they came up with was "cos joei always with blahblah one mah.."
ASSUME SOMEMOREEEEE!! ASSSSUMEEEE SOMEMOREEE LAAAA!!!
CHEEEBYEEEEE.
Annoyed. Humpf. I shall not friend them anymore!!
Oh, Gheeting said she would bake fresh batches for me.... with delicious icing.....
HUMPFFFF!!! >=(((((((((
s0bbiiesxz. angwiieeeee.

I am sleeeepy. My head hurts. Looking thru old pictures.
I look loserish, as always.
Everyone hates me (YES EVERYONE ESPECIALLY GHEETING &MENNY)
Ya lor. everyone hates me.

Sometimes all I wanna do is die ah!!!!!!

@%#&!$#@ !!

Firstly, thanks Menny for sms-ing me so early in the morning asking how am I doing. I'm doing fine thanks. Hope all is well for you too.

Secondly, talked to Gheeting today. Some pure happyness. Little updates like that totally cheered me up. Heh heh.

Thirdly, I had fun in school today. Well, all I did was sleep but it was still fun. I kept covering my face cos I didn't want anyone to see me without specs. I swear I look nonsensical without my specs. Plsplspls let my new specs arrive soooon.

Fourthly, received news that I need to wear school uniform to go what Old Choa Chu Kang road for some shit. Its fucking early! Have to reach CCK station at like, 8.20am.. Why am I always suffering.. =/ Then still have to bring IC .... HAHAHA. Luckily all my favourite friends will be going ah, if not I'll die.

Fifthly, I wanna die.

Sixthly, I really wanna die.

Seventhly, I miss Kacang and I need to see her now now now now now now.

Eightly, I am feeling so miserable. Its killing me slowly but surely. Hope its just a menses kinda thing that will go away once my menses ends.

Ninthly, I hope darling Ziyan will be fine soon. I can actually feel her sadness... :( I feel so bad now cos I keep asking her not to be a loser and to stop crying, but ya, its inevitable to feel heartbroken and sad, but life still has to go on, and the fact that you have so many....... friends around you. hahaha. Smile la!

Tenthly, I have a date next Friday!!!!!!! Its a promise date! Happpyness. Cannot wait. Lalalalalalalalalalalala. Eat some yummy food. Thats just what I need cos I'm not feeling too good these days.

^____^ _\/_ kawaii nehhxXxx?

GTG now, buaiizxzxz.

Some day in school. :)

I shall fuck off from this universe and die.
YAY! can see baby Kacang soon.

爱是不是不开口才珍贵 .. ?
Is love more precious when its left unspoken?

Happy Birthday Priya!
:) Your Vodka in school today was gooooooood.
Hahahahahaa. I love youuuuu.
P.S. Please eat your tequila worm lolly soon.

Last night was the baddest night in my life.
I hated yesterday night.
My pimple is getting bigger cos lack of sleep. CB.
I wish nothing like yesterday night is gonna happen again.

I just got a new pair of contacts from my cousin.
Hope my new spectacles arrive sooon so I don't have to wear it.
Yippee.

I'm reading BluePeach's LJ and I'm laughing my blooooody ass off.
Joke....

I was sleeping my way through lessons today. :)
Fun. I hope tomorrow would be funner though.

*MY mummy going Maldives tomorrow, sorry I keep lamenting bout it, but I cannot help it..... I wanna gooooooooo. Cheeeeebye. They got free spa and free meals, and free accomodation at one of the best hotels there. :( Sobsob. I wanna go ! FUCK!

I saw dearest Sandra on my way to town today!
HAHAHA! So cool right.

Don't worry someone, you will never ever see your name in my blog ever again, and I'll never talk to anyone about you again. Just in case you think I'm degrading you, (never had that intention though). But ya lor, I rather be on the safe side. And I shall never talk to any guys ever again. Byebye everyone.

I miss Kacang alot..............
I always miss Kacang exceptionally lot when I'm feeling down..
I mean, I used to have Kacang to talk to.
Some pure sadness going on.
Sigh.....

A little facts. Boring but bear with it, it will be over in a jiffy.

Other couples watch sweet happy drama serials together, like those lovey dovey sweet sweet ones like what Coffee Prince, GongZhuXiaoMei, blah blah that kind.

Me and Elvin watches Gu Huo Zai (Young & Dangerous) - all sorts of Ah Beng gangsters shows together.

Other couples have sweet cute little pets like tortoise, cute little puppies, hamsters and bunnies together.

Me and Elvin have a mini Amazon habitat - filled with the weirdest fishes you all can ever find. There some lizard like weirdo with a long tail, some rock looking thing, some aligator looking fishes, a fish that swims upside down, and a pangsai fish inside. In conclusion, they all just look weird and they do not look anything like sweet cute little pets.

Other couples receive wonderfully sweet Vday pressies like flowers, balloons, cupcakes, or other nice nice things.

I received 2 stink bombs, he received nothing. Sadness.

Other couples talk to each other nicely and sweetly, calling each other "Baby", "dardar", "lovelove" or whatnots. And are polite to each other, like "Honey, do you mind passing me the chilli sauce?", "Oh, you don't wanna pass it to me?", "Oh well, its okay, I'll take it myself then, I'll still love you." HAHAHAHAHA.

Me and Elvin calls each other "Oi boyfriend.", "Aye Girlfriend". And our conversations is filled with cheebyes, kaninas, tui leis, nabehs and alot about our mother(unfortunately). And we talk like "Eh fuck leh, pass that ket-chap leh.... aye kanina don't guai lan hor, you want to pass anot? nabeh you believe i take out my slipper and whack you anot?" Yes, thats how we speak to each other.

What a.........how-do-i-put-it.....hmmm..interesting relationship.
Quite alot of pple are quite amused by it. I am amused by it too.

I'm a loser. I'm at home and I'm not at Loyang Tua Peh Kong! Fuck. I'm always out of the fun zone. Its alright, small sacrifice, bigbigbig benefits. Song bo?!

Okay, mummy packing up to go Maldives. Leaving me sadder than ever. (hahahha she will transfer money to me before she go, yay!!!!)

Okay time to zZZzzzZzzz. Nitey Niteyyyy!

I had the worst day in school today. First time that "thing" ever happened to me. :( Embarrassing and I died and I was so uncomfy throughout the whole day. Everyone was like laughing at me. But thanks to those who helped! So nice of you all. And those who attempted to help... Like Deepak. Hahaahaa.

Anyway and I had the worst day at home today. I was showering and I decided to clean my spectacles and it bloody broke. Yes like into 2 pieces. I'm wearing contacts now but its gross and I want my new specs soon, which means I need to go town immediately after school tomorrow. And its gonna be a very rush day for me tomorrow. AAAAAAA.

Anyway, I love you - the one beside me now.

First day of menses - that explains why I "fa pi qi" on Elvin yesterday and the sudden pimply outbreaks.

To: The darling Ziyan & Dyan.

Please cheer up and we all love you.

This posts marks my 500th post. Hahaha. 500 is ALOT okay. I think I blog too excessively already. And now, take a look at my tag board. Theres some coolness between the convo between Edwin and Gheeting. Hahahaha. And everyone is pleased with xiiao pwiincess right? Do you all love A-day-in-the-life-of-XIIAO PWIINCESS? :) Hahaha. Anittha, my friend Gheeting thinks the faiwytale part is quite funny too. Thanks everyone for the support. HUGS & KISSES! When I free then I blog like a loser again okay.

Today was the happiest day of my life. :) Like yipppee yay yay.
Priya helped me henna Elvin and Joei in tamil !
And Purani helped me henna Joei loves Elvin !
WEEE. I'm way too easily contented. Bad.
And we had kopi roti after school, niceness.
And went home early and got everything done.
Happy-ness.

Contented with my life. :) Have everything I want. Have all the amusements I want in life (looks at my tagboard and laughs). Have the world's funniest and perfect friends. Have the love of my life. Have wonderful parents. I love things the way it is now. Yipeee-ness.

I had lotsa fun today.
:) Thanks.

I'm bored, I've nothing to blog about. I shall do something.
I shall blog like a loser. :) Dedicated to Gheeting & Menny.

So my name is probably like, j0eii pWiink sTorbeLii pWiincess. What an extremely kawaii name for someone abnormal. Or you may call me xiiao pwiincess. okiies?

So here goes a normal blog entry:

haiis todae damn siian 1/2 norhhs. todae miie wake up late dens go skool gort caught, nabehh norhhs. dens mrs ang caught miie fer moii skirt, say berii short, dens send miie home. cheebye lorrhs, ib ii noe kannah send home, ii wun go skool de lorhhs. sho ii meet up wiib moii laopors- xiiao ghee & xiiao nana. they giib me a pack ob viceroy menthol. lurbbe them worhhs! dens we keep smoke, dens we met up wiib taizi, xiiao thiis, xiiao that, ah this, ah that. dens we go slackk at future park deres. sho fun norhhs, they sho farnii lorhs, lurbbe them 184. dens miie, xiiaotiing & xiiaoNA is jiiemeiiqiingshenns ferebba. kekes. we cam-whored alot. dens we all want go eat but all no moneyy, siians. always no moneyy de. hahas. dens we go Mac take free water lorhs. dens we saw a gurll berii the xialan sho we decided to beat her up. she beri the guailan norhs, go farkk e spiider lahss! kaniina.

haiis, ii lurbbe hiim alort, but he lykk heck care heck care miie liidat. diis ish called silent lurbe ba? ii will wait fer him de. cos we last tym tgt den we patch back den we break again. 08122007. our faiwytale started. 10122007 our faiwytale ended. although onlii 2 days, moii lurbe fer euu will neber end. and tuu that charbo who keep flirt wiib hiim and even sarkk his c0ck, euu better be careful ahhs, or miie and my siistaz jiiemeiis go tiiao zuii piiang wiib euu ah.

okiies, siians, tomolo niid go court cos i POON GUM den giib teacher catch. ib ii go gerrs home, euu all mus miish miie okiies. remember, iim XIIAO PWINNCESSSSSSS.

KNNBCCB.
I took years to type those.
And this is only what happens for 1 day of my Xiiao Pwiincess life.
This will be the first time I post.
Such posts will appear ONLY if I'm bored and have nothing to blog about.

**Sorry to Purani,Renuka,Annitha,Priya,Valerie cos this is what happens in a typical mungen lifestyle. Ask me if you all need explanations. HAHAHA.*

Love you all! Byebye!

I don't know what to blog about, so this will be full of random shoutouts.

• I love my boyfriend alot.
• My leg is superbly itchy, all thanks to a night out at some ulufied place.
• I wish I can see Kacang again. The real Kacang.
• I miss you, BluePeach. Always & Forever.
• I've got a new Guess bag & wallet. I am very happy.
• My total spendings for this month is more than 1.3k. Its scary.
• I shall abstain from shopping. Shopping diet. :)
• I shall finish all my homework by tomorrow.
• Elvin is getting his bike a new colour. RED. YAY!
• I am happy cos I got to eat Sashimi on Saturday.
• I am happy cos I got to eat Crystal Jade DIM SUMs on Sunday.
• I love my parents, truly from the bottom of my heart.
• I miss all my friends.
• I think tongue piercings are the scariest thing on earth.
• I will never pierce any parts of my body.
• I will never tattoo myself.
• I might eat myself to death though.
• I would like to thank everyone who reads my blog.
• I am very happy.
• I hope things will go smoothly for me.
• BluePeach is the best thing that ever happened to me.
• I can't wait for March holidays.
• I wanna EAT Komalas, Seoul Garden, Sushis with my frens.
• I hope my pimples miraculously disappear.
• I want to vanish and then appear in Maldives with my Mummy.
• My mummy is going to Maldives FOR LEISURE WITH HER BEST FRIEND NEXT WEEK!
• I am dying cos I'm not going.

Well. Funny how I said I've nothing to blog yet I blogged a whole load of random craps. In complicated point form. Well nitey I am tired. Nitey BluePeach.

Perfect shot, (in my opinion).. HAHA.
Enough for Jay's fan to go crazy, I hope.


Gheeting's favourite. (cos hes smiling)
Then she'll exclaim: "Oh look, hes smiling leh!" (each and every time he smiles)
And she will give the look of the 10-orgasms-per-second face.
And she will look like she might just die of happiness just by seeing him smile.
Then I'll say, "he rarely smile one meh?"
Then she will not reply me and ignore me and continue giving that blissful look of just seeing him smile. And she has this secret fantasy of Zhou Jie Lun actually becoming her boyfriend.. Well, that will happen soon, just keep believing baby. :) (Imagine him having sex with you, OMFG) Okay. shes dying of multiple orgasms now. Oh fuck. I can actually imagine her squeezing pple(if theres anyone beside her) and going, "ZhouJieLun so handsome right, look at his eyes, look at his this-and-that". And we'll nod and give her a smile. :D HAHAHA.


But I've to actually admit his concert was godly. Like way godly than godly.
It was the world's fantastic-iest concert! My first & only concert I've been to.
And I'm glad it was worth the exuberant price.


To prove the concert's godliness, LOOK! Even a teacher, BennyLim. YES EVERYONE, its him. He actually stood up for JayChou. COOL RIGHT? Yes, he sat right in front of us. How funny.


Singing Qian Li Zhi Wai. Handsome.


We were very early. And we somehow got the best view. Right in front. WOOHOO.


Yes, we really ♥ you JAY.
That would be Hazel, Gheeting & Me.
My huge hand is over at Elvin's house and he is not gonna return it to me.


Here are some overdue pics of Jay Chou's concert.
:) I hope you enjoyed it Renuka.
And..
I had fun with you that night BFF.
Lotsa love for all of you!

Hello everyone. Its Saturday and I'm home! :) I've finished sweeping & mopping the floor. Folding & ironing ALL the fucking clothes. Clearing up the living room and all the dustbin. Packing my room(the table only).

YAY! I'm not out on a Saturday. My first time ever since.................never mind.

I am not feeling too good. as in emotional-wise. I don't know why but such sadness couldn't be expressed through words. I don't even know why, well maybe I know but maybe I just don't wanna talk about it yet or something? I DON'T KNOW AND WHATEVER. I am convinced I hate the world. HATE.
Note: I'm not emo-ing at all.

Anyway, sorry Purani, Elvin doesn't know you all by your names. I hereby apologise and please note that its a very mungen way of addressing you all. (please don't blame a mungen's culture please). Sorry.

Sighh................................

I am so depressed. :(Nothing is gonna make me smile now.
I feel so alone. A-L-O-N-E.
Nabeh its very scary and I hate it.

Oh.. so its Valentines day yesterday. NOT THAT I DON'T KNOW! I mean, WE(Purani, Anittha, Priya, Renuka and Rosh) spent the whole bloody day looking at loserish couples TAKING FLOWERS WHERVER THEY GO!!!!!!! DRESSING UP LIKE THEY GOING FOR PROM LIDAT !!!!!!! WEARING RETARDED SAME CLOTHES (wtf seriously) !!!! FACES LOOKING LIKE THEY TOTALLY JUST FELL IN LOVE !!!! AND LOOKING LIKE IT IS ACTUALLY VALENTINES DAY!! oh wait, it IS actually Valentines Day.

Well, you see. I'm not having sour grapes. I have my own true love too. But I really used to think that Valentines Day IS actually a superbly special day. I've never thought that it was "overrated", "boring", or "just-another-day". To me, its RECEIVE MANY PRESENTS DAY! Okay, and spend it with your love ones day? However, unfortunately, most of the people around me were sceptical about Vday. Then I suddenly realised, ya hor, actually is no big deal leh. Purani even said, "When you love someone, everyday is a special day!" MAKES SENSE LOR! Therefore, my boyfriend should buy me gifts everyday, (HAHAHHA!)

Ya.. and I love last year's Vday. I had many presents. This year, all of you very interested what Elvin getting for me right? He got me 2 stink bombs with a handmade instruction manual on how to use it.

KUA KUA KUA....

He claims I have a bigger cooler pressie coming out though. WEEHEE.

And....

I am looking forward to it.

Alright, its sucha busy day for me today.
firstly, Papa (not my Daddy,my Papa) had a heartattack and is admitted to TanTockSeng hospital.
secondly, sylvia piercing her tongue and I really should go and see.
thirdly, Dyan and Ziyan are up for a Kbox session and I REALLY NEED TO GO.

I think I might just go to the hospital really.
I love him, please please let nothing happen to him!!

AND COMMON TESTS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR.
FUCK FUCK FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU.

I feel like running away and finding Kacang. :)
Really, not kidding.

Some stuffs you gotta know about guys. Took it from Friendster as well. Its like true okay. I particularly love the last point though. I love Elvin. HAHAH.


- Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them. (Now, thats something I've never known... I thought guys would LOVE girls who would have sex with them or DO A BLOWJOB FOR THEM.)

- Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. (Looks at my younger brother....)

- Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

- Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

- Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. (OOOOOPS)

- Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. (Fuck hor, girlfriends need that too okay.)

- Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend. (YES TOTALLY I UNDERSTAND THIS)

- Guys get jealous easily.

- Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

- Giving a guy a hanging message like "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. (Correct. Very true)

- Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships. (YAY!!!!!)

- Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

- Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

- When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

- If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

- If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

- When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

- When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

- A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

- Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

- Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

- If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

- Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

- When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. (really? cos if this is true..... I'm gonna be the happiest person on earth! :) heeheehee. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Got this from Friendster Bulletin. What a Girl wants but won't ask for. WAHHHH. Being a guy very poor thing lehhh. However, I only like those that I BOLD.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends, it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected,plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything -only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know !!
26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count onyou.

AR E YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT !!

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up forher.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.You'll never know when she needs just a little bit more love.

Hello. Its an important day today. Because.... Its the first day every since I'm back from Genting that we're not meeting at all. Lion dancing and him, him and liondancing. So after seeing him everyday for more than 3 months, today marks the first day of not meeting. YAY! (no im not THAT happy). I'm YAY-ing for the fact that we actually can survive not meeting for a day. (hahhaha... how loserish can we be..)

Its Valentines Day tomorrow, I was telling Purani how lonely I would be this Valentines. And she exclaimed, "JOEI! You'll be spending it with me in the afternoon and with Elvin at night right?!?!" I'm like, "I don't mean physically lonely. I mean the presents aspect. :( I used to be able to get much more presents when I'm not attached.."

She decided to go to Macs to take free water instead.

Sigh. Boring. Not studying. Surfing net. Eating chocolates drinking some fruit juice. Enjoying life only. Chatting to Ziyan. Booking tickets.

Feeling quite ________.

I live in a box. It is warm and safe and dull. I would like to leave my box and go disco dancing with you but I'm too afraid. I would like to leave my box and spend the rest of my life with you in the real word. But I am too afraid to do anything. That is why I live in this box. I hate this box.

Its funny how my views on Love changes overnight. I never thought that I could actually fall in love again. Okay, I shall confess. I got hurt by love before when I was 14 years old okay! (so sad but true..) So after that, I was convinced that even if you really loved someone deeply from the bottom of your heart, they will still leave you and move on. Therefore, I didn't really trust Love ever again. Of course, I spent 2 years loving someone silently(LOSER,JOEI IS A LOSER), watching him switch gfs, seeing him smile and peeping at him together with my BFFs, of cos they had someone else to peep at. Those days were fun! x100. The feeling of being able to love someone is so nice(even though you can never have them)

It hurts, of course knowing you can never have him again but the fact that your heart has someone to miss and yearn for is enough.. So I felt that loving someone doesn't mean you need to HAVE the person. However unfortunately, 2 years zoomed by and he left school. Then, slowly I moved on. I was so happy to move on man! Cos I realised that waiting will bring me nowhere. He will always have a place in my heart though. Then I got new boyfriends, but somehow I just couldn't fall in love again. Its like, it died a horrible death. Even though the new boyfriends treated me nicely and everything, I just couldn't love them back wholeheartedly. I know its super unfair for them but this happens when you learn to protect yourself, when you got hurt before, its only natural you want to shield yourself from those unnecessary hurt again right?

Then I kept complaining to Dajie, Gheeting, Melanie, Sylvia, Purani about my heart being numb and everything.. Nothing seemed to work.

THEN TADAH! Guess who appeared?!?!
GUESS.

YAY! I love him. ♥

Ya lor, so I'm trying to say its better to have loved and get hurt than to never have loved at all. And don't waste your time on anyone who won't waste theirs on you. And true love never ever dies. :) HAHA. And honestly, I agree to this quote alot, "The best way to love someone, is to let them go..If they return, it was meant to be, if they don't, then they were never yours to begin with."

Little shoutouts to my sweethearts♥

Gheeting: ZEEZING, I will always remember the times we spent together. And the fact that we're constantly talking and even some murmurs in the coffin. We are really the kind that go through thick and thin together and YOU will always be my BFF. Promise! :)

Melanie: Menny,(this is her new name everyone.) I've not spoken to you for years but thanks for the kind sms-es asking about my life and all. Thanks. I hope everything is going well for you and __.(Like omg okay both of you) And no worries,we'll meet soon okay. I love you BFF PROMISE too! :)

Purani&Sylvia: My Best Friends also. We went through the toughest storm braving promos exam, midyears, PWs, Common Tests, A'levels, Foodscapades, Adventures from Chinatown to National Museum, ups&downs in ♥(haha). I love you both! Thanks so so so much.

Dyan: Also the Best Friend. Messed up life but I hope everything will be fine soon. Don't get annoyed over loser things or I'll laugh at you. I know its inevitable for you to feel troubled but anything then we go shopshop and everything will be fine! And Kboxing Khaki, and used-to-be clubbing khakis.:( I love you lotssssss!

Ziyan: My Best at MIA Best Friend also! I'm currently still laughing at her for something. HAHA. And also my Kbox partner and used-to-be clubbing partner! I love her cos she very steady one okay. My chinese Emo Song partner as well. Love youuu!

Valerie: I've not seen you for years so if you see this you better do something bout it! HAHA I love you too Melayu friend. :)

Renuka: TIANGGGGGG. Sorry but its really funny, never fail to make me laugh and Renuka is the coolest Indian friend I'll ever have cos she LOVES JAY CHOU! And she even has his songs on her MP3. LOVE YOU.

Priya: FOODMANIAC. Thats why we love her, so skinny but can eat alot! Envious and she even has a food plan on the back of her foolscap! We'll be heading to Komalas soon. weeheeeee. And then Sakae Sushi next. Then Seoul Garden. WOOHOO.

Annitha: Hello Econs partner. We rely on each other for survival during econs. :) Very funny and we're always laughing at nonsensical things. She's anti social in a very sociable kinda way. And I love her cos I'll die without her during Econs.

Dajie&Rachel: YEARS since I've seen you both. Hope both of you are fine and I miss you both like crazy. We need some updates soooooon! I love you both as well! I'm sorry Dajie for being unable to meet you that time, was super busy. Promise to meet up soon okay.

Jeffrey: hello korkor, everything will be okay one, don't emo ah. And Love is a very Patient thing. So be patient okay! Your honey mustard dunno what potato chips is at my house and thanks for always letting me eat your kuay chap. :) HUAT AH!

Elvin: weeeheee boyfriend :) I ♥ you. It was our 2nd month 5 days ago & please remember I'll always love you. Hugs and Kisses.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

And to my sweet Kacang in Heaven, I'll always love you. ♥ You are the sweetest thing alive, and I'll never ever forget you! Love you my soft soft Kacang. I hope you're happy and please never forget me me okay.

1. I love you for your money

OR

2. I love you for who you are

OR

3. I love you for your looks

♥

Which will you choose? Money, Looks or Love? This is no ordinary question you know, cos out of maybe 10 pple you ask, you will all get a variation of answers. Everyone's answer is different lor. And their answer will also change as time passes. I get some very good answers and explanations sometimes though.

Like Purani said No. 2. She will go for True Love. I'm like, WHY? (I thought she would go for wealth.....) She said, "Cos you can't bring wealth with you after you die, but with true love, at least you've all the special memories that will stay with you always." Something like that la.. So sweet right. I'm enlightened now.

However, Dyan said HALF-HALF. And we all know why. (haha)

And me..... I'll obviously go for TRUE LOVE! :)
This applies only to Elvin though.

:( :( :( :( :( Tsunami of Sad faces :( :( :( :( :(

A sad news to share.

Joei's weekly resolution*updated!*
- Not to get Elvin to pick me up EVER AGAIN. Really. I don't care even if a parang is at my breast or vagina, I am refusing any rides from my own boyfriend. BECAUSE HE THINKS I ONLY TREAT HIM GOOD WHEN I WANT HIM TO PICK ME UP!!

Tell me everyone, do I treat Elvin nicely only when I want him to pick me up? Or do you pple think I treat him nicely all the time?

:( Unjustice of the world...... Seriously. How can Elvin actually think I treat him not nicely? Strange, isn't it? Yea, so conclusion is Elvin thinks I treats him nicely when I need something from him.. so logically speaking, he means that I treats him badly when I don't need anything........... So now............. I treats him badly.

SWEEEPING STATEMENT OF THE CENTURY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NBCB x 100000000000000

Oh cool, I'm so distracted now. I'm looking at cupcakes online... yumyum.

Forget it, I shall stop blogging now. And please remind me not to get Elvin to pick me up, thanks very much. I shall be my Private Transport girl again! :) I don't wish to get a helmet with the word Princess already! HUMPF!

And for example, if I'm going somewhere together with you, like maybe town, I'll take the MRT, and you'll take your bike and I'll see you in town! :)

And if we wanna go somewhere else, like maybe meet some pple or anything, I'll take the MRT and you'll take your bike. And when its late and its time to get home, I'll take the cab. OR I'LL WALK HOME! :D

I'm being sucha REASONABLE girlfriend. I ♥ myself. I am so proud of myself for being so reasonable and thoughtful to my boyfriend. I am actually sparing a thought for someone, (for the first time!) WOW! Achievement of the century!

YAY! Joei is a big girl liao.

Just reach home from school ! So early ! 3pm ! HAHAHA. Been a longggg time since I go home straight after school to study. Hahaha. But no use.. still going out later. WHAHAHAHA. Pointless sometimes.

Dyan asked me to blog about her party.. It was FUN! Really !! But some pple had to insist on not coming. >=( The food was so yummy, so sad I had to leave and let others eat. Now I'm hungry and I insist on eating buffets once exams are over. We(Renuka,Annitha,Priya,me) were watching Lord of the Rings then we changed to HAHAHA!Laughter to watch funny indian clips, then some Chinese turn and get some money show, then to The Notebook. WHAHAHHA! It was superbly funny cos we were laughing all the way. Dyan the birthday girl would pop by once in a while to take many many pictures with us. Her photographer was so nice lor. I want a photographer for my birthday party too if I have any.. (Gheeting pleaseeeeeeeee? Purani pleaseeeeeeeee?) Then we helped clear the tables (WHY MUZ WE?!?) Well, we love Dyan you see. :) So we cleared the tables and cut the cake. And some funny stuffs happened.

Well, its quite difficult for me to explain here but DYAN insist that i MUST explain. So here goes, imagine JOEI has a birthday party. And I invited Elvin(of cos i've to invite him, hes my boyfriend...), but then I invited Eric, Zhiwei, Glenn there... Then during the cutting cake session, me and Elvin gotta kiss. (THEN WTF?!?! LET ALL OF THEM SEEEEEE MEH!??!!?!) Ya, thats the gist of what happened (somehow or rather....)

Hope you guys get a better idea. Hahaha. The above scenario is just a scenario. Its NEVER gonna happen to me. Cos if that happens, I'll jump down and die. REALLY. And I love Elvin. (And then everyone starts asking, "what has this gotta do with loving Elvin?")

Haha, ya but I had lotsa fun at Dyan's party. Happy that Renuka,Annitha&Priya saw Elvin and thinks hes funny and strange. And Annitha claims, thats why me and him can get along so well. Hahahha. :D Then after Dyan's party, went over to Elvin's relatives place at Bedok I think. And played Blackjack with his cousins. Then went home and poor Elvin was tired. I'm repeating myself. Very boring. I shall stop.

Next..

I hope everyone doesn't get troubled by lovey dovey matters. :) I hope it'll be a great smooth year for all of you.

I will blog about Materialistic Love and True Love if I've the time. Purani and Dyan and me talked about it just now.

For now, BYEBYE.

Sorry Dyan's birthday is tomorrow! 11th Feb! Starting of common test! HAHHA SORRYYYY. Something else falls on the 13th..... I don't know what though..

SIGH. Some strong sickness is overpowering me. I AM DYING. I hate sore throats. I hate flu. I hate coughs. I hate headaches. However, Elvin more poor thing lor, have to be under the hot sun and carry heavy things and lion dance. :( *heart pain* I think this is love, when you care about the other party more than yourself. :D YIPEE. I'm in love. Joei is is love. Lalalala~ (i am sorry for grossing u others out)

And I feel so bad about the posts on the someone. But its the nicest post I can ever write about someone I don't really like.

Anyway, I love you Elvin ! x 20 times.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa
THE PAST IS BACK TO HAUNT ME!!!!!!
CHEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Back from Dyan's party, it was fab! The food was yummy and the company was great! :) YAY and Elvin came to pick me up! woohoo I love Elvin. However feeling quite bad about it, I shall not ask him to pick me up for the next 12 days. Cos he needs to liondance everyday and hes gonna be super tired and I shall be a nice girlfriend and not disturb him. So please get lots of rest and erm, be careful on the road. I shall see you once you are not so tired. And, I'll miss you alot alot alot during this period! :(

Me: How can I ever go to sleep without seeing your smile ....
Elvin: You don't talk cock la, you'll still sleep like a pig lor.
Me: ...speeechlessss...

I love you boyfriend.
Pleasepleaseplease don't tire yourself out okay.
And don't fall sick like me okay.


Happy advanced birthday to dyan darling here, (in case i don't get a chance to blog on the 13th..) I love you and I hope everything goes well for you !) Hugs & Kissessss.

Very very bad post on someone, I'm sorry I've to do this but I need to get it off my chest. After this post, I'll never talk about it again. Promise.

You know how some pple say we should always move on in life, and fuck the past and IGNORE what happened in the past before.. IF ONLY things were so easy right. Some things how to forget? Although ya, I have a tendency to forget unhappy things that happened to ME, but I can't forget things that happen to pple. Its so irritating and its so affecting me so badly. (wait, I'm not the only one affected okay, everyone also agrees that they will be super affected if they know about such unnecessary news okay..)

ARGH. I am so affected, still. Joei the loser CANNOT MOVE ON. I need to move on. I am better than her. At least she give pple slap before(haha), at least I don't have. And.. yea, at least I don't sleep around and give pple a ______. And lastly, at least I'm not as loose as her and she is quite insignificant in my life. Oh my goodness, I can't believe she actually stepped into my house before, I need to sterilise my house LIKE NOW. AAAAAAAAAAA.

My weekly resolution:
- Always think that you're better than her and shes worthless and pls kindly ignore what happened and pls kindly move on and pls kindly stop being affected.
:(

Quote Dyan & Ziyan & Sylvia during last year's Chinese lesson....
"The EX is a VERY powerful thing.."

And I agree to this statement now. Hmmm. Imagine me being a very powerful thing to some other pple. Whahahah, interesting. Well, actually, I AM actually a powerful thing to some pple. YAY!! Cheap thrills. Sigh.......

Love is sucha tiring & complicated thing. Right Dyan & Ziyan? RIGHT?

Gheeting and her KNIGHT, Mel and her __. *Envious.

Joei & Elvin - see how nice it sounds too. :)

Sometimes there's just one thing left to say...

Firstly,

GONG XI FA CAI !
HAPPY LUNAR CHINESE NEW YEAR !
XIN NIAN KUAI LER !

Lastly,

HUAT AH !!!!!!!!!

♥ ♥

Anyway, sorry for the lack of posts. Some busy-ness is going on for me. Haha, me loves Chinese New Year man! THE FOOD IS SPLENDID!!! (aaaah cheebye i love fried food!), ANG PAOS! (woohoo extra angpaos from my in-laws!!) [oh.. did I just say in-laws?] , Gambling !! (I only play BlackJack though), and more and more movies, and of course, theres Elvin this year! (i love this year)

Eve:
Reunion Dinner at Tanglin Halt, and Elvin came to pick me up and shit, I forgot where we went to..

Day 1:
I went to my granny's house at Yishun then Elvin came and collect angpaos, then I went over to his relatives place at Bedok to collect angpaos and we caught a movie with his cousins and all. Can you believe it? I actually watched the AhLongPteLtd. The Fann Wong and Mark Lee's show. OMG. How..........unbelievable. Luckily Elvin is there ah, if not i KI SIAO and leave ah. And we went over to Kenneth's place to play. It was a major gambling den there, got mahjong and poker card table. So fun. I won ! yay! And went to Mac to eat, and then ZZZ time.

Day 2:
I went to my grandmother's house at Tanglin Halt and then to my mummy's fren place at some ulu-fied Sembawang place. The house was huge though, tai-tai was so nice. And I got scolded by elvin cos he thinks I'm stupid and I don't know my way around. Then he came to pick me and we caught CJ7 at Cinieleisure. And he was sleeping like some pig , didnt wake up at all. And I was left crying all alone.. The show was the saddest thing on earth though. I WANT THAT ALIEN! THAT GREEN SLIMY CUTE THING THAT LOOKS LIKE KACANG! And.. went home!

Day 3:
Looking forward to Dyan's party. And I miss Elvin. I hope he has more rest cos hes feeling real tired cos he needs to CHU SI (Lion dance)

♥ ♥

Anyway, my throat seriously hurts. :( Having this terrible flu now. I hope it goes away soon cos I need to eat more ! And... It was me & Elvin's 2nd month yesterday ! WEEHEE WOOHOO!!

I ♥ you, boyfriend!

(i don't care if the world is gonna murder me for being gross.... whahahahahhaa. well actually i did it on purpose.. hahahahaa.)

♥♥♥♥

I passed my FTT. I know its no big deal but for JOEI to pass IS ACTUALLY A BIG DEAL. And I didn't study the book at all.... How... tyco.

♥♥♥♥

YAY! :)

I love love love love love love love ELVIN!

(to which Elvin exclaims: "you wanna gross everyone ah?")