I wish time would pass FASTER.

and now, i am positively sure the reason why im eating like a deranged shit is because i ain't feeling too good. hmm. im really outta my mind, im eating like a slut, like a slut who haven ate for 3727172 days. seriously, i dunno where did i get all my appetite from. omg. it scares me too.
im just continuously eating. after eating. and after eating. im scaring everyone else around me too. my new middle name is GREEDY.

yea, and i had Sakae Sushi Buffet Lunch with sylvia darling today, and as usual, did ALOT of illegal stuffs. laughed till we died. and i thought of how me n gheeting used to do all those nonsense too. haha.

Purani darling did not go to school today. :(

and, sleeping makes me smile. i shall make sleeping my no.1 love.
OMG NO. Kacang&Stripey ARE my NO.1 LOVE like, forever to the max kinda thing.

yes, i will not destroy any friendship okay. WILL NOT.
WILL NOT WILL NOT.

i wanna drink some booze and get wasted.
already have 2 booze parties ahead after my common test! (yippee yay!)
*ACTs EMO and feels that i should drown my sorrows in alcohol*

my daddy is so gonna get me my camera! HAPPY TO THE MAX.

THE PAST. at Bartley Campus. i just really love it there, i miss everything there.
Food, People, Classroom, Teachers, EVERYTHING.
and look how young we look.


After PE, looking real haggard.


THE PAST, at Bartley Campus again! :) i really love it there with my girls.
i love you all.


AND THE PRESENT... !!

o6A3 girls.


my darlings!


yup, we're all happy pple!


and of cos, really happy pple.


and.. i really love school to the max.

(thanks dyan darling for pictures!) yay!

and thats why i love Monday for today. and that , i love school !
its just so so fun.

MONDAY.

and i thought i would have Monday Blues, turns out the total opposite.
it was a funfunfunfun day to the max.cos me n sylvia was binging on rubbish in class,
like MURUKU IKAN, and COCO CRUNCH. yummy yummy. and we laughed like crazy pple.
and i heard shes bringing more food for me n purani tomoro. muahaha.

today's PE was so scary la, kept running, and muz jump so high. im like so scared. :(

and today was really fun ! except i know i tried to be mean to somebody in school, not like i can help it though. considering that, well, forget it, im not gonna elaborate here. its so not me to be mean to pple unnecessarily. UNLESS there is a need to. but i just wouldn't.

and so, i headed to MacDonalds after school ! AND GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!

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GHEETING DARLING! and of cos nicholas and simin.
WOOHOO! we were like crazy ok. we cannot breathe, cos we never plan to meet but we see each other there, the feeling was, hahaa, ORGASM-IE. orgasmie. we practically died . and laughed till we died. on the spot. and she reminded me to blog bout it, so here i am doing it just for her. I LOVE U ANYWAY. and YOU ARE LIKE SOSO SO SO SO SO PRETTY. to the max.
PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY.
:)

yea, im FAT & UGLY, BYE.

SUNDAY.

i spend my Saturday sleeping & eating non-stop.
and im quite pleased with that.
i SLEPT and SLEPT and SLEPT.
i practically hibernated to the max.
and im still very pleased with that. hahahaa.
accumulated tiredness man.
and i wasted a meal , with my darling. :(
never tell me earlier, ARGH.

so, im going to Plaza Sing later.
to study ! yay.
but i doubt i will la anyway.
Plaza Sing is just too filled with temptations.....


was browsing thru my old notebook of the past.
im writing my feelings down there again.
Seriously, im very immature last time,
i dun really know if i've grown up yet,
but the past of myself makes me grimace.
i can't believe i called eric laogong. WTF?
somebody please shoot me.

DYANdarling, FUGLY equates to HER. okay.



and im feeeling real real happy lately. YAY!
no stress. no troubles. no sadness!
if life continues this way, i'll live a hundred years more~

DARLING KACANG&STRIPEY, I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXMAXMAX.

=P


gosh ! my darling Stripey is like SO CUTE.


CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS IS A FUCKING BIRTHDAY CAKE?!
for a 1 year old kid?!?!?!!?
NO I BLOODY CAN'T!!!
why didnt i have it when i was 1 year old!?!


blowing bubble in the midst of a bubble, BUBBLE.


SPASTIC is our middle name.


Friday. very happy. went shopping with Kim & Syl.
bought a Sally Hansen RED nail poilish. FUCKING NICE.
i overslept on the train , did not alight at Khatib, alighted at AngMoKio instead.
den i took 136 home, and stupid 136 have to go pass Serangoon Gardens, which happens to be where a loser hangs out. i was like praying to the max i hope i won't bump into him la.

and.. yupp, i guess things are clearing up a little now, i love talks. talks makes me happy. and sad too of cos. i cannot believe i actually teared k. its so gay lor. gayingly gay to the max. but i hope things will really turn out as how u put it though. i just cannot stand empty promises, i cannot take the blow once more man. i'll probably go berserk and jump to my death. mahaha.

"If you don love me anymore, I'll commit suicide hor!" -quote someone.

Seriously, if i were to ever say that, shoot me, stab me, fuck me, wadever.
cos it'll never ever COME OUT FROM MY MOUTH MAN.
maybe it will, someday, BUT NOT NOW.
only LOSERS will say such bullshits.

This world isn't fair.
I've gained something,
but yet,
i've lost something in return too.
One can never ever be happily perfect in life.
I dunno why .

thanks for the Adidas wallet, damn hot to the max la. matches my Adidas shoes! AAAA. its RED. woohoo to the max. THANKSSSS. and yea, yea. yea, AIYA I DUNNO LA, THANKS K.

**dyan darling, smileee. i understand how u feel bout fugly girls. hahahaa.

OKAY, this is like so true k.

LACK OF SLEEP CAUSES PIMPLES .. TO THE MAX.

sigh, the pimples don seem to go away anymore. sobsob.

i .. am .. feeling .. quite.. happy .. today..
but .. den.. quite down in class cos of some stuffs.
BUT IM OVER IT NOW. yay!

and the worst thing is, i ate the whole day today.
i kept eating non stop to the max.
just keep munching and munching.
and anittha darling bought sandwiches to school for everyone.
LOVE HER to the max la. so sweet.
and .. to syl darling: I LOVE U OK.

anyway, i hope everyday would be fine for me!
joei needs to smile!
so pple around me will smile too!
*wishes hard* that i can stay positive.
and im like missing you to the max.

and thanks mengie for being the nice nice nice nice nice guy, though i know u always treat pple meanly. ALWAYS DISTURB PPLE. but thanks OKAY.

i am .. feeling .. i dunno also.

hahah. i dunno why, but yea, im not really happy.
neither am i really sad. im just feeling very numb.

i think its the exhaustion. the journey to and fro school.
the homeworks, and seriously, everything is tiring me out.

sometimes i wish i can put down everything, any single thing in my life, except my darling hamsters. and den escape to a SPA RESORT! woohoo. i want a SPA RESORT !!
i shall escape there as soon as i can, and i'll never ever come back to the real world.
i will continue escaping till the day i die.

I think Purani&Sylvia doesnt love me anymore, they are constantly laughing at me.
:(

i am officially tired of trying to please everybody.
wads the point anyway?
Why must i act like a slut?
Why must i act icy cool?
Why must i act like im-not-joei ?
Seriously, I SHALL NOT EMBARK ON THIS STUPID PROCESS ANY LONGER.

i shall just,sleep more.and hope things turn out well the next day.as usual.hahahaha.

MY OBSESSION WITH KOTEX. hahahaa. $80 worth of it hor, i won it in some contest.


SYL, JO, PUR.
best friends ah. hahahahaa.


we're in a bobble. barbbleee. bubble.


my darling loves me, yay! YAY!


SYL darling & ME. love you~


know why i love SYL? cos she everyday help me tie this nice nice BUNNY hair.
and makes me look like a slut. haha.


Joei is stressed when she has to copy homework in the morning.


dyan is touching my boobs. hahaha. LOVE YOU. smile more pls.


DYANdarling & ME smooching.


4 in a toilet cubicle. no joke.


ACT handsome BROTHER & ME.
i swear we do not look alike in any way.





alritey, i hope my darling girl Dyan would not be so sad.
and i hope all my teachers will decide to be nice and not give anymore stupid homework.
and i wish that, hmmm. YOU will love me more and treat me nicer!

FUN day in school yesterday and today.
LOVELOVE IT.
love my frens, my sweeties never fails to make me smile and laugh each and everyday.
but im tired, MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY.
will die soon.
JOEI, please hang on!

for Kacang&Stripey darlling, and for my darlinggg.

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Seriously i do not understand guys.
And after all that had happened, i do not want to anymore.
Seriously, they are just a bunch of un-decipherable shits rite.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
save me from my miseries.

im feeeeeeeling ultra vulnerable yet things around me are not helping one bit.
they either do not understand or they are trying to make things worsen.

I officially hate my life. over here. at this very spot in Sengkang.


aiya, i shall just become a whore okay.
den lidat can fuck without worries ma, rite.
den no need study also.
den still can earn money.
den still no need care bout any troubles.
just lie on the fucking bed and open my fucking leg.
den PROBLEM SOLVED.
got money take, still can get pleasure.

THIS KIND OF JOB STILL GOT WHERE ELSE CAN FIND?!

(sorry im just feeeling really down now, pardon my excessive use of FUCKs)





Love = Sex
No Sex = No Love
no? yes?
seriously, i dun know anymore.

Because i miss you, because i need you.

i officially detest Sundays.
because today is Sunday , and im feeeling real real..

two words: FUCKED UP. (to the fucking max)

Seriously, i do not like going home when there are strangers k. (strangers=granny's fren)
but what to do. i dunno wads got into me recently. *double sighs*

i wish i can hurl profanities NON-STOP. 25 hours and 8 days a weeek.

Anyway, why can't things turn out smoothly ha?
If turning into an adult, or growing older means all these troubles,
seriously, i rather be a loserish kid all my life.
At least i do not have to worry bout exams, i do not have to worry bout my partner's exams, i do not have to face any relationships problems, and because of zhiwei, im facing friendship problems for like, the first time in my life? FUCK k. seriously. FUCK.

Love is so complicated.
and so is, ERR, pple loving you.
Love = pussy.

so,if theres a chance, DO NOT be in LOVE.seriously.brings nothing but troubles.gone are the times when love defines SWEET,HONEY,RAINBOWS,BLUE SKIES,BUTTERFLIES,CANDY,LOLLIPOP,MARSHMELLOW,HEART-SHAPED CHOCOLATES. NO!

its like ugly. LOVE is UGLY. its GARBAGE,PANGSAI,PIMPLES,FATS, ERIC(HAHAHA!im so evil) , ERIC's GF,BODY ODOUR, wadever la. add all the gross things here and you will have the definition of love.

and like wad Meng says, the spelling of DISAPPOINTMENT is spelt as J-O-E-I.

seriously k, if all i give pple is disappointment, den FUCK k, i shall have nothing to do with ANYBODY. BYEBYE.


**darling,seriously,study for your exams k.study hard.so we shall like not meet for like 341242476786786 days. alrite.okay, yea you are pressured by many many factors, so i shall not add on to it, you can have all the time you wan to yourself, i'll take a big step back. and, i can't really say im feeling fine or anything. but aiya, life is full of troubles anyway. just get your exams done and over with, get good grades and yay! you can like go US or something. yupp. so, just focus on your work and studies k. FOCUS. and PRIORITISE. shall not bother you ! BYE.




all i wanted was just to spend time with you.
maybe i can, if i were to dream a little more.

seriously. this is a very very serious post to the max.
SERIOUSLY .
some questions are just the cannot-be-answered and cannot-be-deciphered kind in my head.

its like, PLEASE CAN?
we are like over to the max.
OVER. O-V-E-R t o t h e m a x

get it? and when i mean we're over,
it means YOUR ugly name is NOT on my handphone contact list.
AND YOUR FUGLY PROFILE is not on my FRIENDSTER FRIEND LIST.
and ur loser msn is also NOT on my msn list.

ARGHH. wads the purpose of me deleting you from my frenster ha?
SO THAT U CANT SEE ME UPDATING MY PROFILE OR ADDING NEW PICS OR RECEIVING ANY NEW TESTIMONAILS RITE. so that your hand wun itchy itchy come click ME rite? and u fucking bitchass motherfucker HAVE TO come look at my profile u noe.

IT ANNOYS ME GREATLY.seriously.
why are some pple so so so annoying?

seeing your fugly name, eric-NG- just disgusts me greatly.
actually, you don really disgusts me dear, its just,
your current girlfren is like really FUGLISH, that i really cant help but feel disgusted for you.
yea, when u tell me things bout couple being frens after a relationship.
i feel totally okay bout it.
BUT, because u are like associated with somebody so FAT & UGLY & WORTHLESS.

SORRY BUT YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.

i don associate with pple who mixes with fugly pple. anyway, shes your type of girl. so yea, go screw her and get Aids , and den hope both of u die together also la.

and motherfucking piece of retarded shit, stop fucking viewing my profile la.

KNNBCCB, U GOT NO LIFE WAN IZZIT?!?!
so free go and view your that fugly girlfren's profile la.

(i swear she looks like a deformed twilight zone creature, and a huge enormous one at that too)



ok moving on..

i LOVE my hammies. and of cos, my darling.

because im feeling down, my frens are like trying to cheer me up, and hahahaha, they let me see this thingy. i swear i died of laughing. on the spot. when i was still siao over maple last time, i swear i did all these man. AHAHAHAHA. i go around F2-ing to the max. and some of it is like true. it cheered me up for awhile though. thanks thanks. hahahaa. its so late and im not asleep yet! AND MY TUMMY HURTS TO THE BLOODY MAX. DYING SOON LIKE NOW.


When u play too much MapleStory

1)When you try to smile but instead say "F2"
2)When you go out in the public parks and pretend to jump like maplestory characters
3)When you ask direction to balrog
4)When you dont know where ur friend is u say "/find *user*"
5)When you kill snails for money
6)When you take a stick and poke a snail
7)When someone walked past you and you are thinking about right clicking him.
8)When you try to pluck feathers from pigs and cats

SIGH. aiyo.

i do not like to start any post so emo. BUT, AAAAAA. never mind la.

school's super fun lately, except for the exhaustion. i think it rocks to the max.
hahaha. got so many best best bestest frens! LOVE U ALL.
i laugh like constantly to the max. i swear.
and my history teacher is like so cute, i love him.
REALLY. hes super adorable to the maxmaxmax.
he totally made my day fine.
hahaha.

BUT. things turned for the worst! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
FUCK. ok should not swear, but sighhhh to the max.

its times like now, that i wish a SALESMAN would just appear at my doorstep.
yea, as much as how annoying salesperson are, i kinda wish they would appear like NOW.

so that they can advertise, a product like....
A HEARTACHE PILL ! where it can cure a heartache, of cos.
so the conversation would be like. between me and the salesman.

(ding dong ding dong)

SALESMAN : HELLO ! can i talk to anybody please?

ME : yes? can i help u? im not in a very nice mood now, and if u annoy me, i'll bring u in and fuck you.

SALESMAN : okay, u look really nice, but u look so so so sad. BUT RELAX! i've just the thing to make u smile. and to introduce myself first, u may call me MR CHAI.

ME : and what the fuck is that, MR CHAI?

SALESMAN : (took out a box) TADAH! its this box of HEARTACHE PAIN KILLER!

ME : (opens my eyes BIG BIG) OMG! that is like way cool. you mean my heart will not ache after i eat it? as in, seriously?

SALESMAN : OF COS LA! i bluff u for wad, really, just a pill and no more heartache.!

ME : OKAY, IM SO HAVING ONE OF IT! HOW MUCH?!?!?!!?

SALESMAN : darling, this pill is priceless, in exchange for it, u need to learn to trust and love. and once you learn how to trust and love, and learn to give in sometimes, YOUR heartache is the cause of YOUR own stubborn-ness and your unwillingness to give in. Loving means finding something perfect out of an imperfect person. (quote:syl darling) , so in exchange for this pill, are u willing to put in more love and try to give in more in a relationship?

ME : (thinks bout it for awhile) (den cry a few drops of loserish tears) i'll try, good nitey.

(closes my door)


how nice if there really is sucha pill. EAT LIAO DEN HEART WILL NOT ACHE!
MUAHAHAHAA. im gonna be the first to invent it. and yay! i'll be the richest slut on earth.

=( SIGH ...
i wish i can mutilate myself..................






*** OMG. my favourite korkor in the world just gave me a friendster testimonial ! muahahaha. YAY !! ****

When a GUY is quiet and is alone,
He is thinking how good you're and he miss you!!!
(when a guy is quiet , he misses me? NO THATS NOT TRUE. some pple just like to stay quiet for no apparent reason.)

When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
( and im very sure its cos of my boobs or something)

When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.

When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after awhile,
He is not and feels hurts.

When a GUY keep asking you the same question,
He is wondering why you are lying.

When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you belongs to him forever.
( he is horny. if he does that)

When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.

When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and want to know how are you today.

When a GUY sms's u everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.

When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.

When a GUY says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.

When a GUY says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immeditely.


i got that from an email like today. i feel that , some of it are so not true. why on earth does pple come up with sucha nonsensical email ha? i don really understand, but still, maybe some of it are true to a certain extent, cos im not really a guy, i don really know.

okay, lately im a chiongster to the max. i keep doing so many projects and all my homework and everything. i wanna die . but at least i completed lotsa things. but there are still SUPER BLOODY LOTS of things to be done. :( im so depressed . sobsobs. BUT NO CHOICE! i will persevere.

13th january ! :) muz smile on this very day. cos im just like happy to the max.
was an awesome day, had lotsa fun.
shopping&shopping&more shopping.
and yumyum food.
and of cos, the great companion! hahahahaa.
and i had a new necklace which is like gorgeous. and a new handbag.
double yay!
thanks sweets.

and..... of cos. gheeting is staying at my house, we talked like for 13223 days before we slept. and den we made ONEH-ONEH which is like yummy, seriously yummy. not ROCK HARD like the one made the previous day. i loveeee her. and now we're eating HOME DELIVERY MACDONALD. heh heh. and LOVE IS LIKE A MALT CANDY :) we ROcks to the max. yippeee.

and my brother n gheeting is engaging in sex talks, i dunno wad they talking bout but they wan me to blog bout it. siao.

im goin to eat now! BYE!
I LOVE YOU.

i think im either the most cheerful-iest girl, or the most heartless girl like ever.

okay fine, i dunno which but for a relationship of 2 years and 2 months, i took like 6 days to get over it. 6 DAYS. 6 DAYS !!!!

and FUCk, 6 DAYS IS BLOODY FAST TO THE MAX!!!!

i think im heartless.
if not den im siao.

cos i took 2 years to get over a relationship of 2 months and 2 weeks.
im seriously siao.

BUT STILL, i've moved on.
YAY! (:
i've found someone WAY WAY WAY BETTER.
as in seriously way better den the word way better.
smooches.



Thats why I said 2007 would be a much much better year, dont u think?

YAY! i was so EMO today. i cried and cried. for awhile. ahaha. cos my parents throw away my nice nice smell pillows. so sad. no more nice smells. im fucking sad. and i know my parents DO NOT love me anymore. so i send an sms to my mum tellin her shes cruel and she hates me. and i called home to say im not going home today.

and i received a call from my mummy! she asked me not to act like a pathetic loser, and so, shes gonna gimme a SPA FACIAL PACKAGE TREATMENT! OHMYGOSH.

im fucking happy. i can die like now. GOSH.

loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

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i'll be away from the blogging world for awhile.

so, i even change my blog addy.

love all of u . hugs.

im really happy on the 7th Jan. heehee. *blushes*

gosh. i cannot stand it anymore.

happy happy happy happy new year, EVERYONE!

its year 2oo7, and we should all be very very happy bout it!

i had the funnest day of my year on the last day of 2oo6. :)
went to Marina Square & to Esplanade, and to see fireworks.
it was supposedly a many many pple thing, but network wasn't good,
so end up didnt meet alot of other pple.

but im glad got zhiwei! tommy! Jason Da ge! WeiQiang! Jiaming! another Zhiwei! and saw a few pple i noe on the way. like Mengie&co. . and some other losers which i have no idea wad are their names.

and i tell you, the fireworks is like so nice~ lovelovelove it. spectaculars sight.
and im never gonna forget it. its so squeezy though, and im like so short.
im being blocked by so many losers.

all in all, i had lotsa lotsa fun.
i missed out going to a disco with Dickson.
i missed a getaway with gheeting & melanie darling.
i missed a meeting with Glenn.
just for going to Marina Square to Countdown. HAHAHA.
though i think it would be alot more fun with darling gheeting, melanie dearie, and all my WeHaveNoHope pple.

wads more fun is the LATE NIGHT MOVIE with zhiwei & his sister, Doris.
HAHAHA, im so sick, i like Night at the Museum so much that i watched it again !
at 11.40pm . hahaha. the show is really nice. i wanna watch it for the 3rd time. HAHHAHAHA.

(pictures of Countdown 2oo6 will be out real soon, i promise)


and since its the New Year, let me do something really really mean, but im not gonna care la, of cos. its the first n last bad thing i will do.

Because seriously, im very annoyed at the fact that my ex-boyfriend's current girlfren viewed my frenster profile, SERIOUSLY, shes revolting. i swear. not lying. im like, CAN U LIKE KEEP UR EYES TO YOURSELF ANOT? must u view me? MUST U? its so annoying to see somebody so fat & hideous viewing you. makes me wanna delete my frenster account for good.

its not that i wanna make a BIG BIG fuss outta it, but u gotta understand the feeling of somebody so disgusting viewing you., totally makes me wanna die. REALLY.

so if i had a chance, i really wanna write this letter and send it to her.


Dear (FATBITCH) XiaoHui,

I do not know you at all, and i do not want to. And i would like to ask, you got nothing better to do wan ah? Oh ya, you are equally as NO LIFE as your boyfriend, who constantly SURF FRIENDSTER and anyhow anyhow view people. Please lor, you can do that and kill other pple, but don do that to me can?

And i would really like to ask, do you have any twin sister by any chance? Cos i just came back from Thailand and i saw this really really really grosteque-looking transvetite hooker. You know how some transvetite hooker are really chio, slim and all? Well, that particular transvetite who looks exactly like you, is really UGLY, FAT, and those failure failure kind. those no money to do Botox , and inject more female hormones kind. and seriously, she looks like you. As fat n ugly. And wads more, you are a whore , just like her. except i think u are uglier, and fatter, and much more disgusting of cos.

Please do not think i've no life, like why i go look at ugly pple, its because she looks soo ugly(like you, NO U ARE UGLIER) , that she got my attention immediatly. But despite how YUCKY she is, at least i respect her. FOR NOT BEING A BUSYBODY!

Seriously, you ugly is already quite bad liao u know. DEN U STILL MUST PURPOSELY BE so KPO ah. i cannot tahan you. its alrite to be Fat & Ugly & not well-liked by pple. but please leh, don anyhow anyhow view ME, if u pretty still never mind. BUT WITH A FACE LIKE YOURS, i wish u would just die. seriously.

And no, im so NOT jealous with u and my Ex-Boyfriend. Im so over him like to the max. and both of you may spend the rest of your lives together and be road/toilet cleaner as your future career as well. YAY! den both of u can be happy forever! HOW SWEET?

Oh By the way, out of a poll of 20 pple, 4362 pple thinks you are really hideous, and really Fat & Ugly. and that you have no life. (no personal feelings, im not even included in the 4362 pple!)
and they too agree you & him looks like a total circus freak when together.

its just so LOL-able sometimes.

Bye FUGLY whore! See you not!(cos i dowan to die young)

I really hope you die like now, together with him.

Joei`cookies. :)