i've never felt so happy for a long time.
weehee.
im very very relaxed.

and what the fuck do we have to do for what Econs report ha?
hmmm. to the max.

i think i pamper my hammie darlings too much,
but im not gonna stop though.

i hope my happiness stays,
and never go away~

Life would be PER-fucking-FECT without homework,
really, trust me on that.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along


.............................


i am so hungry.
nobody buys me food.
i am so so so so hungry.
because i cannot eat,remember i got severe head pain from a hit by a HARD softball on my jaw.
and it all goes down to,
im very hungry,
without any food still.

cos my brain died, so i cannot remember my past.
from today onwards, my name is _____.
shit i cannot remember.

a little something.

#01. Would you mind if your guy is fat?
.see he loves me anot lor. or if hes rich. heh heh heh.

#02. Would you want your guy to do house chores?
. OF COS MAN, he don't do i don't want him ah.

#03. What is the maximum age gap you and your guy have?
.any age gap is fine with me. the older the guy,the richer he might be!
i have paedophile tendencies, so young boys appeal alot to me.

#04. Would you mind if your guy smokes?
.not really.

#05. Must he get good grades?
. YES to the max. so he can get a good job & let me be a tai-tai.

#06. A muscular/mature guy or achildish/cute guy?cute guy. and sort of mature?
.RICH GUY!

#07. Must he be popular to suit you?
.hahahhaaaa. yes. just kidding, relax.

#08. Would you allow your guy to join gang?
.whats new about joining gangs man?

#09. Must he have perfect eyesight?
.i dont care bout this aspect.but i like guys in specs though.

#10. Must he be perfect in everything?
. yes!

#12. Must he be taller than you?
.joei is attracted to short pple.

#13. What is the first thing he attracted you?
. whether he loves me ! and then...... of cos his wallet.(& $$$$)

#14. Does how much he loves you matter or as long as you love him is enough?
. no he must love me, thats all that matters.

#15. Would you allow your guy to show tantrums on the elderly or worthy of respect?
.retarded question.

#16. What if your guy's ex still loves him?
. my ex also still love me mah, he also never say anything.

#17. Which of his character or looks will make you leave him?
. if he continues to ask me do household chores after we get married,or if hes unfaithful.

#18. Must you be his first girlfriend?
. i love being the first girlfren!

#19. After marriage, must you be together or follow him back to his country?
. erm, if hes korean,japanese,angmoh, I SO WILL FOLLOW HIM TO HIS COUNTRY MAN!

#20. What will you do if his friends bully him?
. join in the fun.

#21. What is the most important thing you seek in your guy?
.the $$$$$$(relax la). and how much he loves me & treats me like a princess.

#22. Would you rather your guy be a studious or bad boy kind?
. i like a mixture of both, ooh kinky.

#23. What if your good friend likes your guy?
. WHAT IF YOUR GUY LIKES YOUR GOOD FRIEND?!?!?!?!!?

LOVE this EMO pic. by the EMO band.
super professional right. steady man.
Guess where am i !


FUN day is indeed FUN to the max. ahahaha.
clowning bout on the bus to Changi.


:) after our very tired race.
influx of many random pple's hand.


HAHAHA! love this classic moment!
we're on the lorry getting hitched la.
so cooool ! +100 points for us.
and i don really look like me in this pic.
we are all hyped up and too happy to care if we look fugly.


TODAY!
had free 4 periods, went to west mall with pu&syl.
bought 6 sotong balls & 1 stick of fried squid.
Heavenly.
school was super slack & fun today la.

den HAD TO go back to sch for PE.
im one very unlucky idiot.
i got hit by the softball ball [which happen to not be very soft, but gayingly hard] FOUR times on my legs.
Ok, legs still nver mind.
Whats worst is the Softball HARDball went flying to my jaws!!!!!
and fuck, seriously my right side of my head is so hurting.
I practically cannot laugh,talk & have sudden movements.
AND I CANNOT CHEW!!!!
( how am i gonna chew sotong balls for the next few days den?!)
very jialat.
very pain.
very miserable kind of pain.
but why willl like that ah?
hit the jaw should be jaw pain ma,
why is my head hurting so badly?
im so puking and im so dizzy.
siao liao, im suffering from concussion.
i think my skull is broken.
[what?!how to break ur skull when u hit ur jaw man?]
i dunno, my head so pain, i might die soon.

Byebye,sobsob.

when your feeling alone like no one cares read this cos its absolutely true:
scroll down
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Every night,
someone thinks about you before they go to sleep,

At least fifteen people in this world love you.

The only reason someone would ever hate you
is because they want to be just like you

There are at least two people in this world
that would die for you

You mean the world to someone.

Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.

When you think the world has turned its back on you,
take a look.

Always remember the compliments you've received.
Forget the rude remarks.


yea, a little something for the sad souls out there.
hugs&kisses.

and i went home early today.*happy. cos i slept for hours.
yippee yay yay.

Ok, I am just only satisfied and happy that he still actually do love me all along,(haha)and he does not love her one teeny weeny bit AT ALL from the start. (oh?thats new.)
Ooooooh. I hate guys who cheat on their girlfriend. Exactly what he is doing now.
But its okay, since that Poser bitch* likes to be a poser.
I told him what, please la k, you don talk nonsense to me if you've her.
Afterall, you were the one who went after Poser Bitch* first.
He says "aiya, *sigh* you wun understand wan la."

Me: "don't make empty promises and say bullfucks like I promise to love you forever&ever"
Him: "no, i didnt break my promise at all,because i still am loving you. I've never loved her at all"

Now, thats another bullfuck, but you sound pretty convincing though.
Would you believe an ex-boyfriend?

Poor Poser Bitch*, I can't believe you are not having your love reciprocated. you know why?
Because you are a poser lor.

(inside gossip!don leak out ok readers?! Poser Bitch* actually begged him to stay when he wanted a breakup with her.hahahahaha.thats so amusing and utterly hilarious. which loserish loser will do that man?gross.*winces* she actually says, "wo bu gan yuan(which means I'm reluctant to accept the breakup) and PLEASE give me another chance." )

HAHAHA.i died of laughter when i hear this news man.classic.why girls nowadays so shameless wan ha?(applies to girls who do not care bout my friend's feelings AS WELL!) winks at my darling bitching partner in class.

*Names changed to protect identity of Poser Bitch. In case pple decides shes too fucking poserish that they wanna let her burn in hell.

School's so fun lately! :)
can't wait to go for Phantom of the Opera with Purani darling, Sylvia darling(maybe), and the rest of the girls. wonder what will we be doing for CIP day.
I hope theres still tickets for the play!
PURANI! CALL SISTIC LIKE NOW!
THANKS LOVE YOU ALL BYE!

Hello everyone!

Sorry i went M.I.A. I've alot of pictures to upload, but too little time.
sorry for boring posts darlings.

Friday.
went to school afterall.and went straight home after school to catch a short nap.so cute and guai and retarded.and then daddy woke me up so we can have steak at Lawry's Prime Rib or something.located at Paragon. A fucking Prime Rib costs bout 50 to 90 plus dollars. siao. daylight robbery to the max la. for consecutive two fridays we've been there, and each time the bill goes up to 400 plus bucks. Perverted Pricings. makes me shiver in fear. but the service there is splendid man. and i didnt go to Kbox with gheeting darling afterall, sorry!

Saturday.
had so much fun! caught TMNT & Pathfinder. I prefer Pathfinder more though. I enjoyed myself to the max man. I'm a tai tai in training! *yipeee yay yay!* Hope i can so get a bag soon. weeeheee. Love you!

Sunday.
met gheeting at compass, and ate Mossie Burger and GUESS WAD!!
YEA, GUESS WHAT LOSERISH THINGS WE DID!
Ok, we went to the arcade.
hahahahaha. we've totally gone siao.
But, it was fun okay.
We played the teamwork game, "Let's Go Jungle!"
Thrilling to the max . We were so scared la!
Then saw Tiancheng & my brother, OMG, they actually said they wanted to call **** down.. WTF. so me & gheeting escaped to Cold Storage and bought Coco Rice Puffs and Marshmallows to my house. And just as we were bout to prepare our sweet goodies, Jay called and wanted to bring us to East Coast to eat Rojak! ^^ so fun. So, he drived us there. and then drived us back to my house. And gheeting hung around at my house till 12.20am. PAST MIDNIGHT and yet we still yak yak yak non stop. so, we're gonna meet up again soon. for some chocolate outings and Kbox-ing.

So fun.

School's fun ! :) Love all my darling friends. It was feasting time in school today.I love eating! and tomoro will be having BEEHOON. wooohooooo.

Okay, for some serious issues.
I beg you. YOU. you.
Eric's girlfriend ah, PLEASE CAN.
PLEASE DON'T USE TO THE MAX CAN?!
okok, you very chio, slim, clever, sweet, simi lanjiao good qualities you also have ok?
All the bad things you don have, can?
So please PLEASE PLEASE, I FUCKING BEG OF YOU.
PRETTY GIRL, PLEASE DONT MOTHERFUCKING USE WHAT I USUALLY SAY CAN.
stupid worthless piece of rotting shit.
You got no other life except using phrases pple say ha.
Whats your pro-fucking-blem ?
Originality.
All voice down to it.
Apparently you do not have any Originality.
And dignity.
Just bcos you think he'll love you like more if you say things I usually say.
What you wanna become?
Joei the 2nd. Please la, that will be so awful-ish awful.
Get a fucking life, pretty girl.

**Dyan darling,love you lots.don frown anymore okay.we all know whos the jerk and such pple are not worth your time,care,concern and tears.And,hahaha.HIP HOP English is just hilarious. yes?

been asked to pass this message for pple who know Lihui aka DaiDai.

d ai² The People's Chalet! You're invited if you can see THIS! pm me pls. says:
Hello, my name is Dai. I'll be having a bbq at my chalet on the 29th of March and YOU'RE invited! Please response if interested. =)

Ok, Gheeting, Xiaomark, Damark, or everyone that knows Lihui..
Please erm, comfirm with him, or me. Thanks.
No random peeps please.
Only pple who knows Lihui or has been seen by him before.

:)

ohhh. i chanced upon someone's blog today.
and therefore,decided to take a careful detailed read.
and omg la, i don't think i ever cared before.
and reading back, i reminisced a little bout the past.
don blame me la, memories ma, who don have it?
if any of you wants to access this particular blog, read it here
I cannot fucking believe he loved me so much la.
Ok, who doesn't make mistakes in one's life?

I've moved on(prettymuch), have you?

SICK.

yes,sick! and 1st time in my life doctor said i need to rest at home for 2 days.
2 whole days! weeee, u say i happy anot?
but also no use, might be going to school tomoro. haha.

oh ya, my current obsessions:
- CUPCAKES! [pretty pretty ones]
- browsing thru online stores
- watching serial shows.

i want a credit card, i want someone else's credit card and buybuybuybuybuybuybuy non-stop.

I WANT PRETTY CUPCAKES & COOKIES.
I will start a business on it soon, you all must support me okay?!
And will start an online business with dajie selling handmade hair accesories.
SUPPORT okay?

I wanna be driven around Singapore, please?
:)

stupid way to start my day.got screwed by TerenceFung. totally gross.yuck.

im made an artefact today.excessive history lessons.sigh.den got lost with ziyan,dyan and sylvia for our chinese lessons,we were walking all around school till johnathan called me.or we would still be searching for our chinese classroom NOW.

on a happy note, i came back home way early. yay. reached home at 4plus. so happy. i slept immediatly and woke up at 8 plus. shiok ah. i miss afternoon naps. used to have afternoon naps alot in the past, when i was in Bartley.sigh, now, afternoon naps is so rare, its like trying to find a hot guy in MI. probability is negative 10million.

i miss mapling in a sense. i miss the attention i used to get whenever i logged in, and how i used to go on adventures in high leveled monster place, or go mass defaming losers, or ks war.sigh. I miss my maple friends, my maple guild, my maple character[FATcookies], and my darling pet Husky[mookies]. I wanna start playing maple again, but NO TIME AT ALL. nabehhhhh.
I always think of maple when me & glenn starts messaging . ahahaha.

From this second onward, im embarking on a No-sugar lifestyle. To support the prevention of diabetes. Need to give all these poor patients our support. No sweet stuffs from now on! :( for me. but its okay, as long as i can still eat Fried stuffs, yumyum. ITS FINE WITH ME. I hope there is nosuch day where im forbidden to eat fried stuffs, i'll die of sufferings and miseries.

**thanks renqi,rachel they all for getting me a cow moomoo pencil case, so sweet to think of me when watching movie also,hahaha, they are so sweet la, they passed it to HsiangLin whos in the same school as me and she passed it to me. sweetness. love them. thanks. thats why i love my secondary school mates lots.

Ok, i love Kacang baby and Stripey boy. muacks.
Danson is gorgeous[in case u all dunno,Danson is the hottie on my blogskin]
HAHAHAHA.

AMAZING RACE DAY.
i love this day. because o6a3 rocks. so fun. we're the world's enthu-iest class.
we hitched a ride from a foreign worker! (thanks to my charms) KIDDING.
Relax la.
And guess what? We got the first place. (ya whats new bout that?)
running all around Changi, like siao ding dongs.. under the glaring hot sun, and walking uphill, with all the fierce competition, its not an easy feat to get FIRST place okay.
I think its cause Terence thinks that we so deserve to win, cos we hitched a lorry ride.
The lorry ride was exhilarating MAN. WE ALL SO LOVE IT LA.
super shiok. I shall hitch a ride wherever i go now. HAHA.

Speaking bout hitching rides, Gheetingdarling just forced me to watch The Hitcher with her. She says the show reminds her of me., ahahahaha. and tat the first person she thought of when she see the trailer is.. ME! YAY! and our Kbox till past midnight outing. I cannot wait. heeeheeee.

note to you: if you think trying to hard for a relationship is very the tiring, then its okay, i guess i shouldn't try to expect so much , since its tiring you out, den just stop trying okay. i don really enjoy seeing you so tired anyway. as in tired mentally. so, yea, take a break from this relationship k. YOU shall take a well-deserved break. ENJOY!

I wanna eat yuki-yaki ! hint hint!
I want a new bag!
I want new heels!
I want new ........... bag.
I want a new.........bag.
bag,bag,bag.

Oh actually, I want the latest Escada perfume that is just released in the market.
Fucking nice. And i've already got a sponsor for it! im NABEH-LY happy.
YAY!

I, and im sure there are pple who share the same sentiments as me, TOTALLY FIND THAT PPLE SIGNING OFF WITH THEIR LOSER NAMES ARE GROSS. Wtf right? sign off for fuck? Especially apparent in friendster testimonials or blog entries,
For example:
[testimonial]
hi~ii missh you so much also, catch up soon kaes?
we go shop shop wors!
hahas. you stop flirting nahs!

[insert loser's name here] <-- they always sign off with their pet/real/chinese name.

For what fuck you tell me. For simi lanjiao do they find it very interesting? Its not as though the person receiving the testi dunno who you are rite. They deprived of identity ha? Imagine next time I always end off my testimonials to pple with a "joeicookies/FATcookies/xiN(haha)/, or whatever-loserish-name-is-available". So so so so so typical and stupid and senseless and retarded and i forgot, ITS SO CUTE WORS. c0s ii niid tuu let pple see moii cute cute name marrhs, if n0rts pple f0rget moii name h0ws nahs?

Sorry for my very-discriminating mindset now, Im still affected over the bitch who used "TO THE MAX".
Relax Joei , its alrite, as long as you know shes a big big loser and that shes not really well-loved by him, she is totally worthless and insignificant to even be noticed by you. Relax. She doesnt have the qualities to say TO THE MAX!

Anyway, school's so fun today. hahahaha. endless talking + packing up.
But very sombre because leaving our o6a3 class. :(
No more sense of belonging cos the dumb school decided to implement the homeroom system.
have to walk here walk there. used to love it in Secondary school cos the school is not-so-big and i seem to know everyone everywhere. And i do not have to travel so far to school and therefore, isn't always so tired and lethargic.
BUT NOW!
Im always tired and moody, so i don like walking about.

Don worry everyone, I'll invent teleports SOON!
Promise! Just like The Sims!
Just go in, and *pooof!*
you're at ur destinationnnnn!
cool rite??!
Please let this invention be invented by the time i wake up tomoro.
*prays hard*

sleeping now bye.

hello folks(laughs at dyan)hahaha. okay sorry shall not start off this way.

hmm. first day of school was fun (because of all my frens)
but it was hell hectic for me. rushing to do all my homework.
and im very sure i'll get caught for skipping PE (again)
aiyo. never mind la, at most detention only.

thanks to someone who put in effort, thanks thanks thanks thanks.
i like the change, its so amazingly amazing.

and quote zhiwei, "i think shes not fugly, shes just normal looking"
OMG. no one thinks shes normal looking okay. all of my frens think shes the fugliest piece of dunno wad shit on earth lor. den u still purposely must agitate me. make me cry somemore. bitch leh you. even if shes not fugly, she speaks weirdly. and types weirdly as well. like "lehs" , or "hahas" and she types with TWO bloody fucking ii for each i.
example, a simple "i don like guys who flirt leh."
she must type "ii dunch like guys HU fliirt lehS"

ok tell me now,WTF is up with the II, the HU and the LEHS.
We, as normal human beings is trying very hard to minimise word/create shortcuts to SIMPLIFY our very hectic lives already. And you pranksters HAVE TO just add more alphabets to the poor little innocent word.
like the letter "I", "I" is sucha beautiful word on its own, like "I love you." , "I am a girl" , "I hate losers who type two iis".
Its NOT meant to be typed like "ii lubb euu" or "ii am a simple gurll".
And if your parents are kind enough to give you a name like "Xiaohui" (which to me is a pretty normal name for an ugly person)
Please respect it can? Don sign off with "xiiaohuii`` " lehS, very the typical and gross.

And CHEEBYEEEEE!!
she use "TO THE MAX!"
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Please. you are of NO, totally NO standard to even be close to the phrase,
"To The Max"
Kindly send yourself to hell and have your throat slit and may maggots fuck your wound.

GROSS.totally GROSS. i wanna die.
and god knows how old is she.shes probably fucking 19 or 20 la.
and shes been fucked okay.OMFG.

totally gross. turns me off totally. such loserish English scares me. if her English is not not good, never mind u noe. just speak normally. OR AT LEAST TYPE NORMALLY PLEASE. gosh. and pls don bloody use TO THE MAX,bitch.

Shall not ruin my mood for losers like her.


I am very happy. =)

Danson Tang is very hot! muackmuack.

Everybody say hello to my boyfriend.


MY Danson!


HOTness.


i LOVE guys in specs. so cute.

I am obsessed with Danson Tang Yuzhe.
He is my love and i love him.
muack muack.

**thanks darling for teaching me. remember your promise hor. den u will get ur treat.

and im feeling so sicklyy. feverish. aiyo.

Yes. I have changed my blogskin and i am very very satisfied with it.
Because my boyfriend is up on it. *orgasm*

and more ORGASMS because i seriously think he is very super duper gorgeous.

i shall search for his pictures online and cover my whole room with it.
And i shall replace my existing Kacang wallpaper on my lappy with his picture.

OMG. he makes me go gaga-ish. like how schoolgirls got siao with what 5566 or F4 or Energy.
Gay boy bands, who knows what they do behind the scenes. tsk tsk.
BUT, i like Jerry Yen from F4 though, im very sure hes straight because hes so hot.

Why am i guy-crazy all of a sudden?
Because, i am retarded, and i feel no purpose in living.


Okay, and my parents brought me to dine at some Posh steakhouse.
Lawry's something at Paragon there. service very good.
Price very good as well, see already will make ur eyes pop out and die kind of pricing.
Because i died when i saw the menu.
96+++ for a Prime Rib????
Close to a hundred dollars can?!
thats siao. only pple who go out of their mind eat such expensive food.
A big No-No for me.
And my parents will be bringing me there next Friday again.
Sigh, my brother is sucha fortunate piece of slut.
14 years old go to so many of such expensive steakhouse.
Nabeh, kids nowadays ah, spoilt ah!!
no need do housework, got handphone, can surf net 25/8, can watch porn, got 40inch Samsung tv, got ten million basketball shoes[these shoes are fuckin expensive ok], can constantly go out.
Fuck.
very unfair u know. im sure many of u feel very fucked up when u compare urself then with ur siblings now.
The feeling is so gross ok. knowing in the past u are not allowed to do such things,
and then ur siblings can do all of those at sucha young age.
I hate kids who do not know how to do household chores.
ARGH. kids nowadays ah!
dunno how fortunate they are !!!!!!!!!!
I hate spoilt kids.

Period.

I FUCKING hate spoilt kids.

I promise i will not spoil my child. (but Kacang is spoilt too, butBUTbut, shes so sweet i can forgive her anytime)

will be heading to Queensway later.Byebye.

I would like to dedicate this post to..

an Albino Stick Insect.

for being there for me when i needed someone.
for offering to pay my course fees.
for helping think of ideas whenever i need one.
for .. everything.

Thanks Albino Stick Insect. You fucking rocks you know?

And wads so cool despite all my problems?

My blogskin. hahahahahahahaa.

I think he is so hot. he is so bloody gorgeous okay.
yumyum. i wanna gobble him up.
Im gonna make him my idol!

And hes very adorable in the show as well.
^^ love him, i wanna kisskiss himmmmm.

Sorry, im stressed and therefore is a little unwell up there.

Forgive me just for awhile.

My life is in a mess.

No wonder they say those born in the year of the snake will have a terrible year.

I think i need to make a trip to the temple again.
Make it two trips.
Make it three trips.
Ok fuck, i'll live in the temple for-fuckin-ever.
I'll be a nun, promise.

Just make my life a little better, PLEASE.

Because I might just go bonkers and end my life in a very tragic way.

Im very very unhappy, im so sorry to disappoint you mummy.
I love you but im sorry.

Baby darling Kacang


soooo cuteeee.


baby darling eating muffin.


Stripey baby boy.
grown boy with big balls liao.

joei hearts her hammies.
cannot live without them.
they're my oxygen, my life.
muack muack them.

Before.
Question: Do you believe in the thing called retribution?

Answer: Like no? whoever believes in such nonsense man.

After.
Question: Do you believe in the thing called retribution?

Answer: Yes i totally believe in it because its so happening to me NOW.


Yup. its wad they call karma. what comes around goes around, don't they?
And yet, the unfortunate part is that i cannot even ask myself, "hey,wad've i done to deserve all these man?" BECAUSE i jolly well know i fucking deserve it. right?
So, lets talk about choices, Syl&Pu says I actually DO have a choice, that i can actually avoid all these, that i don actually have to put up with such nonsense.
BUT, im positively sure, i'll be experiencing such shits for the REST OF MY FUCKING LIFE from now on.
be it any Tom,Dick and Harry who steps into my life, they'll treat me like shit :(
there will be no more guys in this world who will treat me like a princess anymore.
(zhiwei,STFU and stop raising ur hands wildly)
sighhh.

I am a girl afterall. I need a Guess bag. (HAHAHA.sorry unnecessary).
I really need an LV handbag badly. (OKAY SORRY.)

Lets try it again.

I am a girl afterall. All i need is a little more attention, love, care and concern, (and an LV bag).
I wanna be pampered and loved. I don't wanna be isolated and feeling all empty within me.
Such isolation scares me, I've never ever felt this way in my life before. Funny how i used to think receiving messages like "hello dear, i love you lots, you're so cute." or "good night sweetie pie" or "good morning baobei" IS SO FUCKING RETARDED AND REDUNDANT. thats in the past. and yet now hor, im so desperately needing it. :( im actually hoping to receive such gay sweet nothings. i really think im siao already.

Joei ah Joei, what the fuck has gotten into you man?

**im so happy! im actually using my laptop to blog! ahahaha. first time u noe! thanks mummy darling.

a myriad of poems and quotes~ my form of escapism when im feeling unhappy.

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me-
I’m going to smile.

At least be there to wipe away my tears
if you're going to make me cry.

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

The saddest love is to love someone,
to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them.
[neenabeh, this one very sad]


because i can see myself change,
and why can everyone see it,
except you.

im trying very hard not to self mutilate myself.
i am on the verge of doing so.
but please ok, its not fucking childish alrite.
it helps when it gets too hard for me to bear.
because when the pain goes over the limit,
it won't be that painful anymore.

feeling uber depressed,not goin to Kbox with gheeting tonite, changed to Friday.
i shall sing till i die then.

i shall catch a movie alone tomoro, and i shall shop alone tomoro.
funny how i wanted tomoro to come faster,
only to dread it when its nearer.

I AM VERY HUNGY BUT I SHALL OFFICIALLY NOT EAT FOR 6 DAYS AGAIN!

my darling girl is so cute


i've always been known as .. the-girl-who-doesn't-like-smoking.
yea, and if all my frens KNOW that, i don see why you don't.


>=(


just because u see me with a ciggy, doesnt mean i actually SMOKE.
because i NEVER and i DID NOT do it.
gosh. it was so hard trying to explain, i almost like died and walked off.
all the cold shoulders, treating me meanly, argh.
NOBODY treats me this way, i reiterate that.
ESPECIALLY when it isn't my fault, I DID NOT DO IT.



okay, so at least things got better, so yup.





and this morning. im bloody fucking knnbccb affected by just the gay sentence u said.
sorry, i very the serious wan. i cannot take jokes (oh and maybe u don really mean it as a joke afterall) i cannot get it outta my stupid brain. it continues playing over and over again like a deranged recorder. it just goes on and on and on.
CHEEBYE. [sorry for the immense profanity, readers pls understand that the emotional trauma im going thru now ain't easy to cope AT FUCKING ALL]
you wouldn't understand till you experienced it yourself.





yay! purani says shes gonna treat me n sylvia to kumalia[dunno how its spelt]
and i love school! cant wait! wangwangs, beehoons, mee and yummy EGGS.








i am very pleased with myself now.
because i just washed my toilet.
and my darling hammies cage.
YAY!





received a poem in wholivesnearyou.





beautiful is your smile
melt the heart of saddness
even the sun got burn by your pretty smile,
your eyes is the most beautiful stars i ever see
for swear that no shining stone
have a shine like yours.
to my heart that love till now
for swear inside or
i have never saw a true beauty
till i see you



i swear, any girls will melt and die instantly upon receiving this.





some inspirations today.
the way i walk,
the way i talk,
the way i smile,
does it appear in ur mind every once in a while?





** zhiwei ! thanks for dl-ing movies and songs for me, sorry im caught up with life lately, when im free-er, will watch movies ! promise.

OMG. i had the best and most enjoyable time of my life yesterday night! i wish time would like just stay there FORFUCKINGEVER! and do many many rounds of what we did yesterday. i love the thrill factor + excitement it gives me.

HAHAHA, sounds like i just had sex, but NO, its way more exciting and cool! its ........

SUPER SPEEED CAR RACING AT ORCHARD ROAD!

OMFG. seriously, thats uber way cool. i swear i'll die just to do that again.

so, yesterday after school, (school was pretty fun), we had an astronomy talk, interclass debate finals, japanese cultural lesson, and headed home! because im meeting gheeting darling for BBQ at Carson's place. on the way home, me sylvia and purani had the laugh of our lives. cos we were rushing to get MRT seats! WHAHAAHA. funny to the max. will die of laughing on the spot. we've mastered the arts of SNATCHING SEATS! yay!

and so me and gheeting headed to the BBQ at some Hougang Condominium, i ate lotsa beehoons, and i swear the guys were being very nice bcos me n gheeting literally sat down throughout and they had to serve us food! yumyum. i swear i'll lao sai very soon though! bcos the chicken wings is like BLACK in colour. im practically eating charcoal.

after that Albin called gheeting, went to some void deck to meet him in sengkang, and nicholas came along, slack around till like way past midnight. we had a few sticks!
AND I HAVE LIKE 4 CIGARETTE STICKS IN MY BAG! Albin gave it to me cos i find it cool. im not gonna smoke it though. ahahaha. just for the sake of cool-ness. nono, i wun kill myself in a delayed manner.

and den Albin's brother, named Jay(so cool rite!) called him! and says he wanna fetch us out for some fun with his frens, all above 21! its me & gheeting's virgin trip with them, and we were like excited, we knew its about some car thingy, but before that, we needed to pee badly so went up to nicholas house tto like pee. and HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA. me & gheeting died of laughter bcos we laughed from Sengkang to Serangoon. 20 mins. and more after, cos funny stuffs do happen when me n gheeting is present.

weehee! reached some random coffeeshop where lotsa guys AND LOTS OF CARS are there, Jay's friends are all around his age and of cos their girlfrens are also their age, so me & gheeting & albin & nicholas were like young retards, but me & gheeting were more noobish though. cos never go before mah. they meet up like every weekend, as in those group of guys aged around 20-24 to SPEED RACE ! omggggggggg. its so cool im gonna just die. and saw Isabel darling there as well, shes Fabian's sister, and Fabian is our driver (he is most known for the FASTEST and LIKE-TO-DO-STUNTS driver) and me n gheeting sat his car! so headed to some carparks in Orchard Road, i swear its like Tokyo Drift that kind. cos of different kind of groups there . and some have pretty pretty girls in the car. of cos la, its like cool guys usually have pretty girls in it. i think.

and so , Jay and Albin reminded me n gheeting to put on safety belts because our driver is very fast! and we are bound to get first! (and its a family car hes driving) , seriously, we are like stunned by the prowess of the car. its not a SPORTS CAR, but a FAMILY CAR. omg. its the fastest thing i sat on in my life. seriously, i didnt know one can speed race in Singapore lor, i thought it only can be done in like overseas.

SPEED RACING IS SHIOK TO THE MAX. few instances of the car almost colliding with other cars, and i pity the other civilian cars driving along Orchard cos we were like zooming past them to the max. and i love the engine sound! very nice to hear. like vroooom, ziiinnggg, eeeee, .. OMG. music to me & gheeting's ears. so we sped race in Orchard for about 1 plus AM in the morning to like bout 4am.

but seriously, being in the car when the car is speeeding is a super thriilling feeling. especially when the car suddenly accelerates and turns or tries to cut other drivers and overtakes them. its an exhilarating feeling that i reallly really like. i swear the whole of Orchard Road is filled with the fast fast cars sound. and all the passer bys were like staring. had many many rounds of Racing and then, headed to 401 for ... supper?breakfast? then Jay fetched all of us home, and i didnt know one of the guys, Shawn lived on my opposite block! 120C. so he walked me to near my house and den we went home! it was like near 5plus A.M already!

(they do SPEED RACING EVERY Friday & Saturday! and therefore, we are gonna join them from now onwards.)

actually its very dangerous, because later if suay suay lose control of the car, got car accident, den siao liao. but for the sake of the excitement and thrill, ITS OKAY! we only live life like once, so enjoy more man!

OMG. im so looking forward to next week! CANT WAIT! thanks gheeting darling, I LOVE YOU!
meeting her tonite again maybe, and maybe they'll be going there again! hahaha.

for now, i gotta bath and get prepared to go to Plaza Sing for 2 movies.

i am very very very very busy, sorry pple! to the max. sorry.
once im not busy, i promise iwill blog ten million times a day.
schools super fun lately, cos we keep eating non-stop in class.
we're like hoarding food in every corner, so fun! im so excited to go school each day!
hahahahaa. food is the main drive. and therefore, none of you will recognize me again.

lotsa nice pics to upload!! hahaha. sorrysorry.

and VOTE FOR PUNITHA. (some presidential election thingy)
and i promised to help her advertise.

** does my friends really give in to me alot? to nil, im directing this section to you, why do u say that? when u say friends, do u only mean like 1 person in particular? or like ALL of my friends? hmm, because i don really feel they give in to me alot, i mean, ya they do of cos, but its a 2 way thing rite.. i also give in to them mah.. but actually depends also i guess. anyway to your question if my fren really leaves me, i'll be the saddest person n earth. and i'll die.
so does that answer ur question, nil ? and mystic? by any chance, do i know you both? or are u both like of the same identity?