Sometimes I feel no one loves me.
18th birthday in 2 days time.
Excited, scared, happy, sad.
Mixture of emotions can.
As much as i think i love clubbing,
i swear i cannot dance SEXILY,SENSUALLY, or wadever dyan or sylvia or priya and annitha calls it.
I don't drink, ok maybe a few.
I can't dress up.
I don't put make up.
I am not sexy.
I thought girls at 18 are usually hot and slim and sexy.
why am i NOT any?
Im un-hot, fat, and un-sexy.

Although the present my parents getting for me is great,
and as much as i think my life is like quite fulfilled and shouldn't ask for more.
I AM FEELING SO ______.
dunno how to describe also.