Birthday gift from Gilbert: Waterfall


Best Friend Forever & Ever.


Gilbert, the nice guy.


My birthday cake!


GUESS which is me.
fine, the one with the small boobs.
:(

more pics coming right up,
till my camera gets back.

:)
:D
:DD

happy!

underage party yesterday!
so many underage pple, but still fun.
danced the whole whole night,
with many random random pple.
i think its perfectly fine to dance with pple,
although the guys can get abit, carried away at times.

a word of advice though,
girls who are attached should SHOULD, go clubbing with their boyfriend, and solely boyfriend and there should be no negotiations bout that. if not, i swear murders and assaults will occur, and lives will be gone.
(speaking from a true life experience of someone, who happens to be MY friend)

i didn't drink last night!
ok one sip only, and im feeling so good bout it!
compared to Friday's puking session,
yesterday was shiok.
gheeting doesn't allow me to dance if im not sober,
so in order to dance,
REMAIN SOBER!

thanks everyone who came, i know some of u need to work the next day, sorry! thanks so much for your time and all, Damark&Xmark korkor, Weiling, Melanie&Gheeting&Elyn darling, Chenghong&Raymond&Gilbert, and guess whos there too?! Sylvia&Dzul! &we saw pple like Chanel,Jacintha,& a girl who is Serene Tan's friend.

it was sooooo fun dancing!
(shit i think im very addicted.)
im like suffering from serious withdrawal symptoms now.
i can't get my mind off dancing totally.
its etched in my mind!
HOW?!?!
:(
turning 18 is like siao.
its like walking into a crazy journey of clubbing EVERYweek.
YAY for clubbing.

Thanks Gilbert&Gheeting! :)
for being a guide to clubs.
Gilbert is the nicest guy ever,
really. and of cos GT too.

anyway, my small lil present from sylvia was sweet.
and the card from Syl&Dzul is sweeter. :)
Love it to the max k.

AND,
my present from the gang was,
DA LI BAO
direct translation : Big Present Package
sounds nice rite? sounds big isn't it?!
ok theres ALOT of items inside pple,
and i shall list it all out now.

- Yu-Gi-Oh Starter Deck. (oh now i can go to Macdonalds and play Yu-Gi-Oh cards with the Primary school kids there!, how fun!!)
- Gundam stickers(robots stickers, looks like Transformers though)
- Digimon puzzle(i will figure out how to play it)
- a DIY Tank(those that comes out from Kinder Surprise)
- a COUPLE 4 leaf clover handphone accessory.(im not attached pls)
- A mashimaro keychain
- 3 whistles (WHY?!??!!)
- Glittery animal stickers.
- Pop-out assorted stickers.
- A fan
- Eraser(of animals like COWS,horses&lions)
- A Pencil case(sigh, forced to use it)
- 2 pencils (one of which is a SPONGEBOB one. which i MUST be proud of)
- 1 sharpener.
- A Chewing Gum Eraser
- Stickers (again.)

SEE?
the amount of nonsense inside DA LI BAO is 3hundred. According to gheeting, she says if anyone receives such gifts, namely ONLY the DA LI BAO, it is most lucky and fortunate, and they will stay lucky for the rest of their lives. i see. i am feeling lucky ALREADY! so many items. all of them are so useful! they can help in my life! JUST READ THE ITEMS.

**wanted to post pictures up, but MY DARLING CAMERA IS WITH CHENGHONG! that cheater! hes out to cheat my camera. pls gimme back soon. cos some loser was drunk, so he forget return me my camera.

yes, my friends are all nice people.

so reached home at 5plus,bathed and all.
slept till 12.20pm today.
surprising my mummy didnt wake me up.

You know what,
I am really addicted to clubbing,
ok maybe its bcos i just started out,
im still a noob.
BUT, gimme 2 months time.
and.... (muahahhaha)
i NEED to dance.
i think dancing relieves stress.
its so .... can-forget-your-troubles thing.
like shake ur troubles out.
heh heh.
happy also wanna dance, sad also wanna dance, stress also MUST dance, aiyo.
just like gheeting, happy,sad,stress, also need to DRINK.
shes totally an alcoholic, she prefers drinking to dancing.
i am a dancaholic(wadever),i like dancing to drinking.
melanie&yilin cant club yet... so...........

:) no wonder they say 18th birthday is the most memorable.
it indeed is.

HAHAHAHAHA.
yay Friday Dxo again.
Saturday, Double O!
I wanna go to Zouk on Wed, but Thurs need to go sch.
how about i skip sch ? :)
ok i shall not harbour such dirty thoughts!
byebye.

OKAY OMG.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!

:) i'm being too happy for my own good.


i feel like rain,when the words all sound the same, as the curtain closes on another day says:
hey dear, happy birthday

MoHaN.[.toothache.]. says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Rebirth of a devil says:
happy birthday to you

WhAt YoU FeEl~ExPeRiEnCe~UnDeRsTaNd~ArE ThEy NoT BuT JuSt A FaCaDe~Why~DwElL On SeNtImEnTaL~HoPe~ says:
happy BDAY to you Happy BDAY to you Happy BDAY to joei

yay! with additional sms/friendster/blog/personal wishes from Gheeting darling, Priya darling, Sylvia darling, Gilbert, Glenn, Carson, Jaron&friends, Thomas, MY MOTHER!(she smsed me when im clubbing can), some random person, Melanie darling, Annittha darling, Daryl, Eunice darling, Zhiwei, Samantha darling, Terrance, Dyan darling, Elyn darling, Waffle, Mohan,Johnathan, Tommy, Sammy, Doris,Meng, Dickson, Damark, Eric, Phylis, Winson, Gladys Xiaoyi, Joan my sweetie, Shihui, Tony, Shamiha, Jeffrey korkor, Guojie, Sinyee, Chenghong, Nadira, Valerie, Darling dajie, Denyse, Dongdong, Graeme, random pple, Deepak,Chong san, Jarael, Jason DAGE, Alan korkor, Jeffrey, Kaixuan, Amelia, Xueling, Joyce, Bryan, Huibing, Ziyan, Hilwa, LayTin Mummy.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! to the max, to the max.

i clubbed for the first time yesterday.
the amount of horny guys is, 3 million.
but i love my friends. they protected me to the max.

and according to my mum,
"your friends wun always be there to protect you ok!"

I thought pple always go clubbing with frens,
got pple go club alone wan meh?

and thanks for the bday cake, gosh so sweet.
Thanks ALOT to the G guy, the G girl.
Thanks Purani, Sylvia, Priya.
(and the rest of the underage pple who can't come in)
Thanks DXO pple, they are so nice can!
But I would like to thanks the both Gs, the Gs are so sweet can.
I LOVELOVELOVE THEM.
the girls are so nice.
The G guy gave me a birthday treat, called WATERFALL.
or something close to that.
its the stacking up of cups,
den you light up the alcohol den pour it down.
hmm. they wanted me to drink it in one big gulp.
and i m so scared my hair will get burnt can.
and i died after just that one drink. DIED.
i couldnt finish it so sylvia finished it up.

i love you guys,
today DXO AGAIN.
hahah this time for underage pple.
to celebrate my bday!
happy.

I can't wait to hit the dance floor.
(i wish there wasn't any guys on it though)
I hate male clubbers.
THEY ARE GROSS.
to the highest max/peak/tip/core/hilt/farfarawayland

yay! im finally legal.
i can smoke, eat drugs, club all day, drink booze, watch M18 shows, have sex, eat SUBWAY
im sure theres alot more things i can do.
like dyan said,
"its a 18 year old kinda thing"
:)

yea, its an 18 year old kinda thing.

happy birthday joei tan xin yi!

im so glad everything is falling into place!
birthday celebrations and all. happy.
HAPPY!
and why does my mood change so fast nowadays?
hmm. i must be having a permanent PMS.

ok had a great sleep.
i slept all the way from 5am till 11 om today!
(my daddy is in China so i can sleep more)
i had a great night out.

King Lear play at Esplanade later,
Sylvia darling is coming over like NOW, haha.
and im still blogging.

AND AFTER THE PLAY,
GUESS WHAT.
:) weeee, my first clubbing experience EVER.ever.EVER.
with all my girlfriends of 06A3.
so sweeet.
i love all of you seriously, even those that can't attend.
i still LOVE you.

and on Saturday, it will be Melanie&gheeting darlings turn!
we're going to club too! YAY!

I LOVE BDAY CELEBRATIONS.
it'll be a blast.
and i love birthday presents too!
Please get me some!

Don't worry, I'll not get drunk.
mental note to self: Don't drink please.

OMG. this valz ah. HAVE TO tag me u noe.
yes and i'll kill you too.

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about themselves. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS!

haiyo ADER KAR DER VA LEH to the max.

1. I secretly wish i am slim & pretty, i think about it ALL THE TIME. it has become an obsession. scary huh?

2. I love birthday presents ALOT! ok not only birthdays but Valentines, Christmas, etc. I JUST LOVE PRESENTS! and surprises!

3. I buy clothes (those sexy sexy and i-can-never-wear-them-kind), and store them in my cupboard, with the wishful thinking that i MIGHT be slim one day, and i can actually wear them. hahaha.

4. I eat alot. (ok this is a known fact). BUT I REALLY CAN EAT WAY BEYOND ALOT. more den ALOT.

5. I am secretly in love with my hamsters. especially Kacang. (ok, isn't this another known fact?)

6. I do not have any guy friends at all. people just keep thinking my circle of guy friends is LIKE ALOT. but NO, i have none. ok yes i have ONLY ONE, zhiwei. wait. theres Chenghong, Xmark, Dmark, Johnathan, etc........ (alrite i take back what i just said)

7. I AM AGAINST ANIMAL SKINS TO THE MAX!! I am an animal lover, and therefore, feels that animals should not be killed for you guys to be parading about with it. NONONO, i don care if its fake or wad, WE SHOULD NOT SUPPORT ANIMAL SKINS. CANNOT!!

(sorry, no.7 is too emotional)

8. My signature in my passport, and my official signature, is in the form and name of cookies, with a smiley face behind.

9. I do all the household chores at home, ranging from sweeping, mopping, wash clothes, hang clothes, fold clothes, iron clothes, vacuum, WASH THE TOILETS(argh), tidying and all. Bet you guys don't know this fact!

10. Even though i say i do not like doing such "About me stuffs", I secretly enjoy doing it! hahahahahahaa. Like how i pretended to say "valz, i will kill you ah!" cos she tagged me to do it, actually, i wanna thank VALZ for the opportunity to allow me to ENJOY myself for this past 20 minutes. hahahaa.

So now, for the 6 losers.
1. Purani (ohhhh, Valz tagged her already)
2. Elyn (haha!)
3. Melanie. (do it hor!)
4. Gheeting (do it hor!)
5. Jeffrey korkor.
6. Thomas Chai

ok, i need to prepare for the grand arrival of the Queen of being late, Sylvia.

and i cant wait to meet purani and all later for the play!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAA!
yay ! can see Ian Mckellen. SO HAPPY.
:)

I wonder what birthday presents will i receive this year.
and I wonder who is bon .
so many things to wonder.
I wish i had an answering machine!

Sometimes I feel no one loves me.
18th birthday in 2 days time.
Excited, scared, happy, sad.
Mixture of emotions can.
As much as i think i love clubbing,
i swear i cannot dance SEXILY,SENSUALLY, or wadever dyan or sylvia or priya and annitha calls it.
I don't drink, ok maybe a few.
I can't dress up.
I don't put make up.
I am not sexy.
I thought girls at 18 are usually hot and slim and sexy.
why am i NOT any?
Im un-hot, fat, and un-sexy.

Although the present my parents getting for me is great,
and as much as i think my life is like quite fulfilled and shouldn't ask for more.
I AM FEELING SO ______.
dunno how to describe also.

How to handle stress?

1. Jam 19 tiny marshmallows up your nose and try to sneeze them out.

2. Use your Mastercard to pay your Visa.

3. Pop some popcorn without putting the lid on.

4. When someone says "Have a nice day!" tell them you had other plans.

5. Forget the diet-center and send yourself a candy-gram.

6. Make a list of things that you have already done.

7. Put your toddler's clothes on backwards and send him to nursery school as if nothing was
wrong.

8. Leaf through National Geographic and draw clothes on the natives.

9. Go shopping, buy everything, sweat in it, and return it the next day.

10. Pay your electric bill in pennies.

11. Drive to work in reverse.

12. Dance naked in front of your pets.

13. Bill your doctor for time spent in the waiting room.

14. Tattoo "Out To Lunch" on your forehead.

15. Refresh yourself; put your tongue on a cold, steel guardrail.

16. Read the dictionary backwards and look for subliminal messages.

17. Start a nasty rumor and see if you recognize it when it gets back to you.

18. Write a short story using alphabet soup.

19. Stare at people through the lines of a fork and pretend they are in jail.

20. Make up a language and ask people for directions.

21. Retaliate for tax woes by filing your tax forms with Roman numerals.

my sisters of 5 years. love them to the max. finally met up with Elyn, pretty lil slut. hmm so envious of her can. and melanie too. and gheeting too. they all have somebody to love! so fortunate.. and now i've gone mad.


yes i noe they are very pretty. and ChengHong was there too! we totally had so much fun laughing and talking at my void deck. stayed up till 12 (its very late for me) but to them, its like wayyyy early. sigh. i like thonning but i can NEVER successfully thon. i've never stayed up all night once. why am i sucha failure? and chenghong is so nice................................. ahhhhhhhhhh.. i wanna have more of such slacking please. i need to relieve stress.


sigh, look at this, i feel like going to Max Brenner's Chocolate Bar to eat right now. RIGHT NOW. i'm so stressed and theres nothing anyone can do! the things i might do to destroy my life might be VERY destructive. sigh. somebody bring me go eat please. i need to eat full full and den go kill myself.


the chocolatey drinks of me & gheeting's. mine was yummy. gheeting's was strawberry something though, i m afraid of strawberries.


hey look at this cute pic of Kacang trying to be long. its trying to be a snake. its trying to be a stick. so cute can. loveloveloveloveloves kacang & stripey too!

i felt like shit today.
baddest mood of my life, bet no one noticed that.
cos im trying so so hard to smile and laugh,
but its so torturing.
i don wanna affect pple's mood!
i tried not to be grouchy. i tried to smile.
and now, all i wanna do is die.


do u feel the same.. says:
serious la
do u feel the same.. says:
if i earn alot
do u feel the same.. says:
i let u spend

this person is so sweet.sigh.
thanks for making me feel better.thanks a million.

you know what i feel like doing?
i bloody feel like quitting school.
yes, and i would love to mean wad i say.

back from my Laser Op! yippeee!
byebye Cold Sore!
hello friends!
i can actually feel the "seed" disintegrating in my lips.
whahahaa. and i dare not move my lips.
im so gay. went home, slept and here i am.
its not really painful pain, but uncomfortable,uncomfortable.

hahaha, its over. lalala.

ohya, RACHEL darling, please look here.
DON'T BE SAD anymore.
me & dajie will look for you real real soon.
we promise,remember we LOVE you lotslots k.
don be troubled please.
SMILE!

and hmmm, i had a bad dream about poor Kacang just now.
if anyone tries to kill it, i'll kill you back to the max.
or i'll kill the one you love most in the world.

whahahaha, glennglenn messaged me just now. he remembers my birthday! weehoo. and hes gonna gimme a birthday treat! yes! i love birthday treats. if im 18 now, that makes him.. 16. OMG. 16. time passes. 2 years back we were still having fun mapling. the good old days... he still calls me BB now. oh BB means baobei back then to us. and i'll call him GG which means glennglenn. so dumb but i like it! im so stupid.

k anyway, my whole body is aching, please don tell me its the side effects of the laser op. gosh its scaring me, aaaa.

what we could have been,
i would never know.

yay we finally met up! but wait, they spent a night at my house already.


me over at ghee's house. waiting for her to bath is like waiting for myself to be slim, it never happens.


YAY! darling Spice. i wanna board her again, but she requires TOO MUCH attention can. even 3 girls cant take care of it.


and Orange is sooo cuteeeeeeee.


me over at ghee's house. i tried to get orange in the shot but..


outside Plaza Sing where we were cam prostitutes.


and now, the Biggest Face Award goes to.. Joei Tan.
(we laughed till we died)


our YAMI yogurt.


our expensive dinner at Paragon. hahaha.
seriously and the service there sucks big time.


there, this is the place, expensive with gay service.

anyway had lotsa fun with the girls. hanged out at Rivervale Plaza's Macdonalds till 2am can. totally. i was so tired i could die. but im wondering why can we talk for so long, without stopping AT ALL. its really amazing how we can go on and on and on about topics which we've talked bout before. i love them. they are the kind that love me for who i am. i LOVE them. thanks for the laughters. Jo, Mel, Ting.

yay! going to do Laser Op later for my cold sore(oral herpes).
no its not an STD please.
its just a cold sore BRACKET oral herpes.
not the SEX herpes, herpes.
weeeeeee.
but i swear it will fucking hurt,
gosh im so scared can!!!!!!!!!!
hope my frens will discriminate me anymore!
hahahahaha.

am hearing to Emo Chinese songs.
Feeling so emo.
SIGH.

i love purani*sylvia too. they are so sweet, i like being with them too. yay! im a lesbian.

hahahahha. it was an uber fun day in school.


joei & sylvia


the pornstars. hahaha.


EMO.


the pornstars part 2.


i look most decent.


sylvia: "this is super pornish."


AAAA.


we HEART each other can.

credits to PURANI, for being such a wonderful and patient photographer. she gave us so many nice poses and patiently turn the thing here and there to make it "brighter", thanks a million dearie, and thanks to dyan and sylvia for being such fun pretty pple.


hehe, the Husky is at my house now, its super active can.
i've so many injuries! and its so huge.
im all alone at home now,
gheeting and melanie will come later.

sigh. im feeling EMO now.

I need to say this.
After much consideration.

I can't forgive you, I can't.
As much as i want to, i really cant bring myself to trust you again. yes i know you will say i did you wrong too, you are not TOTALLY in the wrong, i WAS wrong initially when i had small little flings here and there. BUT, i changed, totally. after our breakup, i bet you are damn envious of Thomas rite, cos i so did not cheat on him. Why? Because i fucking changed. I felt that flings were a big NO-NO in my life. and what bout you? you found yourself not only 1, but 2 girlfriends. Just as i was so about to go back to you, you were attached to TATTOO GALZXS. like i care, seriously. my heart so died that time. really. and whats with the excuse of "I THOUGHT i could forget you."

and den therefore you can use other girls to fill the VOID in your heart? wtf please? ok i admit those girls are fugly, but the least you can do is don hurt pple rite. so you think u are the most desirable thing on earth? gosh.

And to think u told someone that "I was holding on to you, i don wanna let you go"

And now, I need to tell you, you WERE the one i loved, the one i cried for, the one who fuckingly broke my heart, and den i was OKAY, and you had to make your APPEARANCE in my life again. and just as i was bout to go back to you, YAY! you had TATTOO GALXZS as your girlfriend. so sweetttttt.

I know you will say i had my faults too and all, but thats all in the past right? after our breakup i totally HAD ZERO AFFAIRS MAN. ZERO! ZERO can! but you..... sigh wadever.

Ya la ya la, i noe u very desirable. very hot, tattoo artist, so cool wad rite.
alot of girls like wan rite. den just fucking GO.

Zhiwei is my friend, and i will ALWAYS be talking to him.

So what if we get back together?
I will still be very affected by the past.
I will be very disgusted with you because you totally had 2 girlfriends ALREADY, and you probably fucked them already too.
I will still be hanging out with Zhiwei.
I will still not show you care&concern (LIKE YOU ALWAYS SAY)

Whats the point then?

Please, i did not hold you back, i wouldn't want to anyway.
Just move on with your life and go flirt around more k.

I loved you, i know i did.
too bad your chance is now over.

i wish we could be like robson korkor and joyce jiejie, back together after 7 years maybe? hahahahaa. 7 years! ya 7 years but definitely not now.

So move on k. Lets not get stuck in the past.
Be wise and stop wasting time and money on girls.
Focus on ur education and career.
You have a bright future if you can stop all your flirting.

I know we'll still be friends. always and always.

hahahahaha i realised those two gay bitches have blogged bout our night together at melanie's house. whahahahaha, i swear it was the funnest day of my life, (ok not life, it was the funnest day of my week)

firstly, i need to say, i love Melanie & Gheeting
TO THE MAX.

and i would love to add that i hate HATE LongJohn.
so FROSS. FrOSS!

so they met up first and i reached later,
and, they forced me to eat LJS.
but its quite nice.
considering i keep opening up my mouth and letting them see whats inside my mo0uth and claiming that our salivary amylase and enzymes work wonders. and stealing both of their fries. and BURPING out loudly. yay! i didnt say Excuse Me. im so proud of myself.

heeheehee.

den headed to NTUC, both of those losers love NTUC, they always buy potato chips and scare me. i swear its gross. anyway we played Find-the-word game, gheeting started it by asking us to find the word "LOR MEE", ahahaha, i found it first. den i asked them to find the word "URBAN VISUAL", hahahha, they are LOSERS. took 3 years to find it. and guess where URBAN VISUAL IS? guesssss! its on my bag. whahahahahha.

losers.

so they bought potato chips and went to melanie's house,
talked and talked for a long timeee.
to the max.
about everything.
thats why i love them, cos i can just talk bout anything,
without worrying about anything at all.
although the amount of FUCKs, SLUTs, BITCHs, WHOREs, NABEHs, CHEEBYEs we use is enough to generate a tsunami, its still so fun.
i loveeeee you girls.

and guess wad, they are so coming over to sleepover tonight!
yay! so happy! love sleepvers at my house.
so happy .

and guess wad they are gonna get me for my bday pressie.
WTF. its like a super cool present, gheeting says it will be the most luckiest present if i receive it. whahahhahahaa, if i get it, i will blog bout it till you all die!

ok im not free now, if u wanna see wad melanie and gheeting write bout me, please kindly go to their blog,
GHEETING

and if u all wanna read melanie's blog, go to gheeting's blog, she got link her.

i swear both of their posts on "The day we met, Wednesday"
IS FUCKING HILARIOUSLY HILARIOUS.
go read, go on.

hahaha now for the post everyone's been waiting for.
(ok i noe u all hate it)

Joei's birthday wishlist!

1. Transformers merchandise (anything will do!)
2. Stewie's stuffs (i love Stewie to the max!) *hello dyan. HAHA.
3. Spongebob stuffs.
4. Bird's nest, (hahahha)
5. a lifetime supply of CHICKEN SKINS! (yay!)
6. a bigBIGbig hug & kiss from everyone.

okay, easier for you guys rite, ESPECIALLY PURANI. she forced me to do it.

okay, actually i should be satisfied with my life, yupp. i should! i have everything i need, and the present my parents gimme is like way awesome, GOSH! can anyone guess what they are gonna gimme? heehee, no its not a doggy, im only getting one at the end of this year. so guess wad awesome present did they get for me? omg! its truly an 18th birthday pressie to the max.

this is zhiwei's maple char.
this is ugly, he looks better in game.
when i have a better pic of him wearing the dark galaxy
den i put it up again.
LVL 10x. FINALLY.
iuvjoei, in game Iuvjoei.
okay congrats, sorry never MEGA you.
i dowan waste my cash.


FUCK.
when i start out a post with FUCK, it means im stressed.
im so troubled!
really troubled!
the amount of household chores i have to do is 3zillion.
i wanna die, i dread going home each day.
im faced with so many chores, i think i can quit bein a student.
and be a full-time maid.
sigh, my life sucks, doesn't it?
how come others can enjoy life not doing household chores,
and why the fuck must i do household chores.
why why why.
i hate my life.
its so fucking gay.

i wish i could die. like now. like i don give a flying cheebye fuck wad i leave behind in this motherfucking world anymore. i just wanna die and disappear and live life in some other universe. i just hateHATEhate this fucked up place. get it?


and i so need to fucking do something to make myself feel better.
i noe some pple are gonna get very anal bout wad im gonna do.
but i just fuckingly need to fucking do it.

and to the CHIJ girl who stared at purani & sniggered,
fuck you whoever you are and i hope your eyes rot by tomoro.
and i hope ur nipples grow maggots and they munch on ur breasts.
stare stare stare, stare ur mother's eyes out la, loser.
what a total bitchy gross piece of shit. eee.

anyway, sylvia i love you no matter what k. :)
BFF. hahaha.

and yay gheeting is so back. fromhongkong. yay!
presents time.

and melanie, oko i will try to meet u guys, love you pretty.

sigh, when will i have the time to put up my wishlist?

OMG. this fucking gaybar bitch is a STALKER.
and when i say STALKER, i mean STALKER.
totally to the fucking highest max.
its like WTF can.

love_is_chemical_romance@hotmail.com
97476823

he is gay. please call him and scold him can eric!
eric is like good at doing such stuffs.


The HaRd KnoCKz Of LifE sAys: who want to play mahjong jio me!!~~ says:
FUCK YOU BITCH

The HaRd KnoCKz Of LifE sAys: who want to play mahjong jio me!!~~ says:
SUCK MY DICK

The HaRd KnoCKz Of LifE sAys: who want to play mahjong jio me!!~~ says:
SUCK MY DICK 10 HUNDRED TIMES

how many times will my heart beat before it stops? says:
wow, you don have any.

argh hes so gay, wads his problem
just bcos he asked me out and i REJECTED him and den he MUST lidat scold, so gross. gross grosssssssss. just bcos i asked zhiwei to tell him i dowan talk to him he must message me "Fuck you bitch" so gross and gay can.


anyway, my transvetite voice is alrite already, went to the hospital for 2 fucking jabs. i died. yes everybody i died a death. i am resting in peace now. and something unfortunate is that im allergic ALL painkiller. ALL. so next time after any operation like giving birth or sewing up any parts of my body, if its painful, i don't have any PAINKILLER to eat! whahahahaha. siao liao la, i will pain until i die can. last time is eye swollen, now is THROAT swollen. i wanna die man.

sigh, i cried bcos Kacang have a small little lump pimple on the top of her eye. i cried like a fucker. like as though theres no tomoro. gosh. i need to spend more time with her now bye bye.

yay! im lvl 60! finally can wear nice clothes!

i look so nice with my new nice clothes!

thanks x 10 million , Hoe Zhi Wei

yes i noe u are reaching lvl 100 soon.

and i'll definitely NOT mega you.

i dowan waste my money.

shit, i can't breathe well lately.

i dunno why but i just can't breathe.

and my menses is here.

its hurting my tummy badly.

how to study for history lidat.

ok meeting sylvia & purani later.

OH YA! had so much fun with the girls yesterday.

sylvia,purani,priya&annittha.

ate Turkish food, it was sex.

and took neoprints at FarEast.

so now u can proudly say.

you: "yay! i had so much fun at a Club!"

some other pple: "which club?"

you: "The Print Club!"

ok i apologise for not being funny,

it was funny to me yesterday.

must see my face when i do it,

it'll be funnier.

OMG, I LOVE MELANIE TO THE MAX.

SHES SO PRETTY!!!

bcos she got me a Transformer poster!

see? thats why i love her.

i cant wait to give her a French Kiss and strip her!

oooohh.. yea...

(yes and i still cant breathe and my heart area hurts!!!!)

hahhaa its so cute, i love Stewie so so much. gosh.
Some pple are just so fucking talented.
i'll never have the talent to draw Stewie.

i would like to say that i love melanie too! like alot. shes pretty, slim, sexy, ahlian-nish, wads there not to love about her? since i was sec 2, been telling her shes pretty and i love her ONLY for that fact. whahaha, i'll always love u too darling!





anyway, i watched Transformers for the second time !
yay! at marina Square.
again ! and i'll be watching it the 3rd time too. gosh.


im so into Transformers.
im gonna buy the figurines.
i love them sooooo much.
im becoming to tomboy-ish.
but Transformers is sucha nice movie!


its the SEX.


really.


I LOVE AUTOBOTS!
LOVE!!!!!!!!!!


FUCK!!!! I AM MISSING IT ALREADY!
I CANT WAIT FOR MY EXAMS TO FINISH TO WATCH IT THE 3RD TIME!!
AND MAYBE 4th TOO!!!!
NEEENAAABEHHHHHHHHH.

i'm an Autobot.
Please call me Joei the Autobot.
My transformer name is..... BOTTY cookies.
does it sound robotty in any way?
BOTTYcookies.
cookies the BOTTY.


i.am.crazy
i.am.actaully.in.love.with.Transformers.
i.am.crazily.in.love.with Transformers.


sorry purani & sylvia for "vangadeh mangama-ing" u guys.
but im not embarrased bout saying i LOVE Transformers.


(oh ya i just watched the cartoon version)
(oh ya im going to buy the Transformer toy bcos i just saw the advertisement on Kids Central (birthday hint!))

okay OMG.
watched Transformers and i SWEAR its the bestest show on earth!
i've never liked any movie like that before.
im thinking bout it day and night,
im having sleepless nights just by thinking bout it.
(okay its only been a night)
but omg! i miss it so much.
im gonna catch it again! and maybe the 3rd time!
and 4th.. 5th.. 6th..
it will just go on and on!
i really really love it alot!!
i can memorise wad they say even can.
"Autobots, roll out"
"Decepticons attack"

OMG! its really nice,
please go watch it.

i tot it was gross initially, cos i hate robots,
but after realising robots were so sweet,
now i love them.

okay im going to the Toy department and look at those robots.
i wanna buy an Optimus Prime or any other Transformers robots!
(birthday hint!)
omg i lovelovelove Transformers so much.
yay im gonna watch it again.
and im gonna download it and watch AGAIN.
and im gonna get the dvd and WATCH AGAIN.
OMGGGGG.

** we're not called best friends forever for nothing sweetie, joei&gheeting don come easily you know. pple don call us lesbians for nothing also. haha, omg! u are going to hongkong soon. and u will be back before my birthday! hurray!

The Psychiatrist is in says:
joei no one is born hideous, everyone's beautiful, it's their character and personality that determines whether they're beautiful or not, and you are, never say they're hideous cause you're not.

so sweet. im gonna melt and die in a car crash.
melts & die.. ohh yea.
okay that sounds more like an orgasm.

this is before i lvled.

after i lvled.
i'll change my hat to some Seraphis or i dunno wad.
when i've enough lvl to do so.

hahahaha. im so gay with my gayness!
thanks Doris! thanks for helping me lvl.
:)

i didn't play maple AT ALL man, really.
is Doris help me lvl wan.
thanks a million.

blog next time! byebye!

**gheeting, i suddenly found our chinese garden pics in my mummy's lappy. OMG. i swear we look like the grossest piece of shit on earth. and my daddy & his fren stall, if u want, tell me, i send you.

**melanie, after my exams we'll meet and play find-the-word games in ur rooms okay.

yay! :)
i've finally a brand new e-mail addy.
and its a gmail account, do not know how to use it yet.
BUT, at LAST!! at LAST.......
pple will not laugh at me for my gay email addy,
which i used since PRIMARY 4.
whenever i say or write out cutie_joei@hotmail.com,
pple just laugh and tease me bout the CUTIE.
its getting gross.
therefore, its joei.cookies@gmail.com
is it gmail.com? i think so.
SOUNDS PROFESSIONAL rite?!?!
joei.cookies@gmail.com ..
OMG!
no more laughters and teasings from pple!!

:)

i dislike pple who think their maple acc is VERY precious.
and refuse to share!
ITS OKAY.
>=(
gosh, just as i thought u were like nice.
damn you!

i do not like to associate myself with SELFISH pple.
bye.

hahahaha, :)
im so happy i've great friends.
who reads my blog entry and den commenting
its really funny and all.
i love them. this shows that , my entries are funny.
(okay not THAT funny, but funnier den....
the 14-year-old-loser-who-likes-to-find-KORs-in-maple)
hahaha.
no, you don see her frens writing bout
how her blog makes them laugh their ass off.
OH I FORGOT, one of my "friend" is her no.1 blog supporter,
how can i ever forget that.

ok so u guys gotta take a look at gheeting's latest entry.
its so funny.
bcos its bout me. hahaha.i'll provide u guys with the link.
JUST CLICK ON HER NAME.
GHEETING DARLING

yea. and.. im laosai-ing like a motherfucker now.
like as though i've never laosai in my life before.
its as watery as water.
its gross.

okay my birthday is coming in a month's time.
its time for me to put up a birthday wishlist.
my dajie says i never fail to put up one on my blog always.
AHHAHA.

alritey, talk to you guys soon.
hmm, why don't i "CHOING maple" now.
opps, i forgot, i can't play maple
cos i haven download the patch.
yay gonna be lvl 75 soon!
LEVEL 75 OKAY!
CHEEBYEEEE!!
fucking excited.
sorry for being too overly excited.
sorry for the CHEEBYE.
SORRY!

oh shit, haven blog bout my day
with my class helping out the elderly!
met up with purani at BukitBatok
and laughed when i saw her with SHORT hair.
funny to the max la, i missed her like mad! finally saw her!
:D yay.
saw sylvia at the busstop with __
and den headed off to eat MACs.
(see? when i say i eat MACs,
and when loser-14-year-old-girl says she eats MACs,
the impact is that, pple do not care wad she eats,
BUT pple will more likely care bout wad I eat.
thats the BIG difference between a loser who goes to maple to find KORS,
and a girl who plays maple and DO NOT FIND KORS,which is me)
ok back to topic
its like so fun can.
i learnt how to make BA ZHANG.
and me&sylvia get to take our own ba zhang home!
it was fun. we gave them deserts and all.
they love us alot! i can see that.
hahahaa, and we'll be going back there again soon.

me,sylvia,purani,annitha,valerie,deepak,shirin,jana,nabiHALA
went to Little India to eat Komalas fastfood.
fucking expensive.
the Lassi so expensive. :( den so small cup.
and i would love to praise purani for her bravery!
i found a hair in the Vadeh me n sylvia was eating and..
i found a HAIR in it.
so i just wanted to take it out and put it away
but purani went to ask for a change!
and we got a new set! GOSH!
so cool, shes so nice. so brave.
i'll nvr have the courage to do that.
and me and sylvia decided to be bimbotic for the day.
so fun. to see the annoyed faces of everyone.
hahah LIKE TOTALLY. LIKE WADEVER. LIKE OhMyGod.
i love my friends. alot. way alot. till i wanna die.

:) okay see u guys soon. hugs&kisses.

in a dumbsite in Cambodia.


The HUGE fried cricket i tried to eat. its huge. gosh.

ok hello everybody, im in a splendid mood.
and therefore, would like to share a little something to you readers.
in any case if you are a first time reader to my blog,
please note that i do not BITCH bout pple in my blog,
okay, i RARELY bitch bout pple in my blog.
so, just to spice up my blog a little,
lemme share with u all a little interesting discovery.

hmm, bloggers.
i think if you wanna have a blog, the minimum requirement is that, it should be AT LEAST a little teeny bit interesting. like, so if pple read, they will wanna continue reading, and not just visit ur gay blog once, and leave and never ever read it again. AWW SO SAD. this is wad i call a failure blog. which comprises of mostly, wad i call worthless entries.

example of worthless entries include.. like wad type of FAST FOOD u eat for the day, [WTF??!?!!], if u eat some nice exotic food, like maybe oyster or yada yada, u blog bout it, its totally fine. if u blog bout u eating MACs, seriously, u can just go shut down ur blog immediatly la. another example would be, like the amount of steps u take just to reach ur gay door, or the amount of energy u take to bring ur ugly body to the toilet and stuffs like that. SERIOUSLY, i doubt anyone wanna know bout ur pathetic life u know. its like, why would pple wanna waste their precious time and strain their eyes? I WONDER.

OH OH OH! another thing, about the standard of English. GOSH. i mean, i know i do not have Perfect English, but the least i can do is make pple understand me. and i do not use SPASTIC words like "le lor", "de lor", "sian", "de mah", "think dao jiu sian", etc etc etc.
ITS GROSS! perfectly gross!
her sentences is like ..
"sleep bout 5+ hours NIA.."
"eat mac mah -.-" (wtf is with the gay face? i'll nvr know)
"*yawn* tmr fridae le lor"
"GIB so mani medicine wan faint GIB mi MC"
"___korkor,u big lamer^^,always bully me hor?!i =Pppp" (notice an "i" there?)
"ROAR!" [yes yes i know WTF.]

before i forget, shes grossingly CHEENA, no i've nothing against being CHEENA, im very CHEENA too, i listen to Chinese Emo Songs! BUT, if u speak in alien language in ur blog ah, SERIOUSLY, u gross me out totally. like type in chinese? like what the fuck is wrong with you?

OOPPPS! i forgot, poor girl is only like .. 14? aww, can't blame her for the lack of intelligence den. OH WAIT, do me and gheeting or melanie speak like that when we were 14? i highly doubt so. because we WOULD not and DO not blog bout our GAY loser lives. we lead exciting lives mentioning boon lian and all. hahhahaha.

hmmm, and would like to comment on her spelling errors. very serious. bcos when one wanna play maple crazily, in maple terms, we call it "chionging' maple. means just play like a fucker all day. like u have no life kinda thing. apparently, miss weirdo here spells it as CHOING maple. CHOING. "today no mood CHOING maple". WTF? please. such spelling errors should be obliterated. its fucking an eye sore. WAD THE FUCK IS CHOING! i need to know!

and hmmm, u know theres something called GODBROTHER, or in CHEENA terms called GAN KORKOR. wow. this girl is one hell of a loser. she goes to maple, and finds some random guy, and ask him like, "harlowzxxz hmmm, u wan be my kor?" I AM NOT LYING BOUT THIS! i called up the guy and asked him personally. i just wanna make sure ma. i don wanna make false claims in my blog. later she hurt how. :( pple 14 years old only u know. pple got GAN KORKOR wan u noe. me scared scared. shit im talking like her ALREADY. I mean, GAN KORKOR or godbrothers is SO yesterday. and i thought it should be a natural thing, why would anyone wanna have a korkor she never ever seen in her life before? GROSS. this is wad we call despo. hmm, and of cos, to the guy who accepted her as a MEIMEI(god sister), apparently, hes gotta be a despo too rite? because if i happen to be walking around maple and someone just come up to me and say "hey, wanna be my mei? wanna be my jie?" , i will show him/her my finger and walk away. or maybe, i'll just walk away. why would i wanna waste my time? why would i wanna be a loser and disgrace myself? why would i wanna be associated with NO LIFERS?

ok, because im joei and im not really DESPERATE to have godsisters/brothers.
and to the guy who actually accepted her as a godsis, TRIPLE YUCKS TO YOU.
i despise her loserish blogging skills, which apparently doesn't attract anyone, HEY WAIT, i beg to differ, someone actually tagged "halo mei! gd luck with ur blog, i be no.1 supporter!" WOW. hes so excited bout her blog. hmmm, wads there to support when shes not even up to a mediocre standard of a blogger. I WONDER. some pple just like to leave me wondering.

Sigh, i'll leave up her blog addy for you guys to take a sneak peek,
but i advise u not to, cos ur English will DETERIORIATE as how fast u can even say "WTF am i doing at this gay gross blog?!?!"

hahaha. seeing how dumb and how a person can have no life at all totally brightens up my day, makes me realised im so fortunate not to be like her. and of cos to the guy who is SUPPOSEDLY my friend, knowing he actually wanna be a no.1 supporter of her no-standard-at-all blog, makes me feels very ashamed of having him as a friend. and he actually called her "MEI" and they have not seem each other at all, and they know each other from maple, WTF x 1oo. I refuse to associate myself with someone who associates himself with someone so grossingly gross. I feel so horribly sad for my 'FRIEND'. eeew.
JOKE man JOKE!
Clap Clap Clap.

tsktsk. Be a blogger only also must be so loserish.
LOSER! _l_
please fucking die and rot under a decayed mushroom.
no one will give a fuck bcos u're like worthless.

hahahha sorry for this bitchy post!
but be glad u only get to see such posts once in every red moon.

yay my nails and new bag.
i am a very happy person when i've nice manicured nails.


hahaha capturing happy moments of my hands.


Prissy dear and me at some buffet thingy. the baby is so cute.


my darling fascinated with that thing.


so cuteeee.

its a really cute formation of i-dunno-what.


Me & Dajie - i love her ALOT can.


me & dajie AGAIN.


:)


Random. i see my Stripey's balls. ahahaha.


On the bus.


ooooh..


3 Aunties making drinks.


Daniel and me.


MY darling dajie and ME AGAIN.

BBQ pics. :)

just got back from 4E4's BBQ at Pasir Ris. realised that im always going to Pasir Ris for BBQs. just went there before my cambodia trip. and now im back there again with a different group of pple. anyway it was like so fun. hahaha. :) i love gatherings. i think gatherings are super cute. i love dajie and rachel. they are such nice friends i have. sometimes i think im really fortunate, to be blessed with special friends everywhere. sweet frens like joan, serene, priscilla, shihui, gheeting, melanie, sylvia, purani, o6a3 pple, 4E4 pple, 2E4 pple like xmark,and all. i love them all can. yupp.. and im still very tired to blog bout cambodia though i seriously want to. and, im going for a Ear Candling thingy tomoro, its said to relieve stress, cos im too stressed lately. therefore need to relieve it. makes perfect sense. yea..

and, my mummy just bought me Chivas Regal Whisky or whatever u call that. and i've like 5 Absolut Vodka at home. its like crazy. its like ididn't know i had so many gay alcohol at home. considering the fact that i do not like drinking. i think gheeting will go crazy at the fact that i have the latest Absolut Vodka 100. its like totally black, its like so expensive even though its at DFS. and my daddy n mummy bought me Vodkas when they came back from China too. I think Vodkas are the only alcohol i know of.. at the moment. other den wad Chivas, Tequila, i think the nicest bottles are Vodkas. agree rite gheeting. secret** i didnt know my daddy had a secret collection of SO MANY LIQUORS! omg. the amount of it in his collection is enough to fill the world's population of ocean. there is alot of Absolut Vodka la, gosh i didn't even know. I shall steal some next time. Till then.

I am going to sleep with my parents tonite. I hope they do not have sex.
Nitey.

thats the sweet guy who...... waited for me.......so sweeeet...
the other couple by the side is, is Sopheak and Zhiyang.

YAY! went for the aromatherapy seasalt wadever pedicure just now! my legs are happy, so happy they can complete a 21km marathon in 2 minutes. heehee. den headed over to godmummy's house to teach aloysious boiboi his English homework. poor kid. so many homework to do. primary 1 only can. i still haven got the mood to blog bout my cambodia trip. hahaha. sorry! and i realised im a bigbigbigBIGbigbig loser. i've not watched Spiderman 3, Pirates of the Carribean, Shrek 3 YET. omfg. im always the first to watch movies! :( and all these are no ordinary movies okay! they are blockbusters! and i still haven watched it!!!!! watch me jump to my death. yea and anyway, i bought Hostel 2 from Cambodia, anyone wants to watch, tell me i'll lend it to you. :) and, i cannot wait for my 4E4's BBQ tomoro! or is it the next day. not quite sure. yay! can bitch with dajie and rachel ! wooohoo. and a mental note to self is that i gotta meet up with melaniedarling and gheetingdearie before school starts.



♡ Kacang & Stripey.

i am back from cambodia.
i totally missed Kacang & Stripey till i wanna die.
i totally missed my dear sweet friends.
i totally missed my parents like hell.
i totally missed my bed.

&.. i totally missed Eang Chhan.
Cambodian guys are totally hot. heehee.

ok im too tired to blog, will blog soon alrite.
NEED to go for a spa pedicure soon.
i need to pamper my feet.

its 1.25pm now. its gonna be 4 soon, and i've to leave home to go to school. i'm very very very sad that i've to leave everything behind for 10 whole fucking days. cried when my mummy & daddy went out just now. :( all alone at home. i'll miss my hammies ALOT, one main thing i cannot and can never leave behind, oh no! i'm gonna die of missing them.. sigh. i love them lots.

and another thing, im not staying in a hotel when im in cambodia, it will be some random place where when u wake up, u'll see 3 frogs beside you, together with companion of lizards, beetles, bugs that no one ever seen before. i bet no one even come up with a name for these unknown bugs. sobs. i HATE insects. and THERE WILL BE MOSQUITOS! for frens that know me, they know i DETEST & DESPISE mosquitos, (i wish im black so they can't see me in the dark!) [hahah, sorry purani&the rest of my co.WILL MISS YOU!]

it will be a hot sunny place, yes hotter den singapore, the YMCA pple said there is ALOT of insects, like BIG locusts. FROGS, SCORPIONS, and spiders!(lots of them!), i'm gonna cry. seriously. I'm gonna coat and smear myself with lots and lots of INSECT REPELLENT! yay! if you happen to smell insect repellent in singapore, its me. don worry, its just joei in cambodia drowning in her 3 different kinds of insect repellent she brought there.

There will be no proper toilet facilities, there will be dirty toilets(i think!), and we've to wash them ourselves. i hope they have clean toilets (insect-free i hope!) BUTBUTBUT, know wad? the YMCA pple said frogs will jump out from the toilet hole sometimes. AAAAA. WHAT?! WHAT?! FROGS IN THE FUCKING TOILET? i tell you, if u feel singapore shaking at any time, don worry, its just joei screaming and jumping like a deranged motherfucker over at the cambodia toilet bcos some random frog or insect is inside it.

First time going abroad without close friends, without someone to depend on. I shall try to be independent for once then. I've Damark & Xiaomark & ShiHui during my NewZealand trip, now i've no one really really close. :( Its okay. some pple even go with strangers! so i shall relax.

My daddy asked me, "Will you get homesick?" hmmm. I will get hamster-sick. MY KACANG AND STRIPEY ah.. i lovelovelovelovelove you all. please be soft, healthy and cute during my demise to cambodia for 10 days. i promise to shower you with 324499 times of love that i've neglected you all. I miss my hammie darlings, my bed, my lappy, my phone!, my friends, my families. . . EH JOEI TAN! cmon la, you going for 10 days only. can stop acting like u going for 10 years anot?.

:(
Its hard parting. so so so hard.
I'll be all alone at night, all alone and cold......(might be hot&stuffy!)
No music for 10 days..
No proper baths.
SHIT! No grooming sessions.
When im back, i will go for my manicure & pedicure sessions IMMEDIATLY!
I don wanna get tanned! aaaaaa.

BUT, for the sake of volunteering, for the sake of the poor kids there, I WILL SURVIVE. I WILL SURVIVE. WILL. hey, and we're supposed to dance some hiphop dance there. how the fuck am i gonna ever learn? i seriously dunno how to shake sexily. i noe how to shake retardedly though. not sensually, sexually or sexily. only retardedly.

Yes, it will be fun there! really, to be able to help the kids, make them happy. such happiness comes from deep within the heart, the contentment is different. i like such happiness, its simple and sweet. maybe i'll be a changed person when i come back, i'll realise the beauty of simplicity.. i'll feel a simple life can be as happy too. YAY!

Okay, so.. I'll be back real soon. its only 10 days, 10 days.. joei tan, stop acting like u will be going for 10 years. 10 days will zoom past in a blink of 321847348 eyes. at least i've my PSP to tide over my sadness. My Sims 2!

Everyone take care alright. I miss all of you.
Hugs & Kisses.
Kacang & Stripey, i love you both.
My friends, see you all soon.

15th June- 4e4's chalet.
18th June- SG30 gathering at sentosa!

I've a strong feeling that despite me whining bout leaving singapore now, im very very sure i'll cannot bear to leave cambodia when the leaving time comes. The irony and contradiction of my life. Tsk tsk tsk. I will confirm cry when leaving there too. hahahahaha. really. Sentimental emotions. so gay. Hi, i'm so gay with my gayness.

alritey, gotta do a last round of checking. :)
BYE! see u all on the 12th.

I envy pple with pple to love them unconditionally.
with pple to love them wholeheartedly; AND NOT FLIRT.
I envy them!
=(

sorry gheeting darling!
i know u're at sengkang
but i've far too many things to do!
will meet up once i get back!
and please pass melanie her earpiece IF possible.
thanks sweetie. i love you.and her too.

HAHA, Pre-U Sem pple, remember the pervertic photographer.
I wonder why I've sucha face sometimes.
It makes me wonder why.
No one knows why either.
Makes me feel like a mutant.
But I can't help but keep doing it.
I think I'm gay. Shit.

So..
I'll be at CAMBODIA from the 3rd June to 12th June.
YESYES, i know u guys miss me.
(hahaha)
i'll be back in a jiffy, i promise.
I loveLOVElove doing Volunteer Work.
makes me feeeeeel goooood.
yea.... soooooo gooooooooodddd.
(kinky kinky)

hmmm, and oh ya.
The BBQ was a blast!
I slept! in the tent!
Sorry for the rest who didn't get a place. :(
I was tired.
It was FUN to the max though.
Then went to school and saw Renuka & Annitha AGAIN.
HAHA.
The food was fucking yummy.
LOVE it.
yayYAYyay for it.

:) :) :)

Ok, i love you all.

And i mustMUST tell u all that i loveLOVE missMISSSmiss my hammies,
Kacang&Stripey ALOT! love them loads.

I named my Sims 2 character "JoKa"
Guess why?
Because its a mixture of Joei + Kacang!
Jo Ka.
HAHAHAHA.
I'm so gay with my gayness.

(i love FAMILY GUY!! PLEASE go yutube to take a sneak peek)