antique pictures. for our play. scary huh?
sylvia thinks it looks very olden-ny and spooky.
like the kind where another extra person appears, or anpther hand, or anything else.


i swear i look like those kinda Blood Countess in the Count Dracula era. those days pple wear such attires.


SEE? i look like one rite. this top belongs to my mummy please.
the attire was the most obiang thing i see in my life.


:) Joan & Lis. (hahahha)
our on-stage name. shes my sister.

The play was a success! had lotsa fun during this period. all the laughing at the death scene. the trying-not-to-laugh-but-failed-miserably scene. the memorising. the FOOD.(wah cheebye,the fucking food is making me fantasize like the world's most horniest girl). the off the lights at lecture room to tell ghost stories/play catching. i love this period. its the funnest days of my life.

(just as when im at the downest of my life)

anyone wanna cheer me up! please get me food from Princess Elizabeth Pri.Sch, its sex and i totally am addicted to their food. its all fried. its CHEAP. i love it there. :)

SIGH, am still affected and sad and everything.
sorry girls for being all emo on you all in school.
sorry sylvia & purani. sorry to the power of 10.

thanks Deepak for the bottle of milk, thanks! that cheered me up.

Remember, Joei is without a heart now.
So now, I'm a living dead!
YAY! my wish for turning into a zombie is finally here!
:) Joei the undead. Joei the Zombie.
Joei doesn't sound like a Zombie name.
Can anyone help me think of a zombie name pleasE?
like a cool zombie name.
the zombie name must sound like i've no heart k.
and must sound like a zombie also.
like Zombie the Zombie kinda thing.

i miss you.
still.
fuck.

once again, ONCE AGAIN.
you will never have any idea how i'm feeling now.
(ok well, maybe you did in the past)
(feels like shit, but oh well)
as much as i FEEL like blaming you.
i know i'm in NO position to.



my heart hurts and i bloddy cannot breathe.
im in the worst state anyone can ever imagine.
no one will ever ever know how i feel.


life is so full of empty promises and broken dreams...
EMO-ing now sorry.


just as i was so happy during the first day of Aug cos its the seventh month and got alot of "eat-tables".. just as i was just ABOUT to move on from the past and forgive ourselves for our mistakes. THIS JUST HAVE TO HAPPEN. HAVE TO.


like wad dyan said, "don hold on to hopes, cos hopes will make you more disappointed than ever if the hopes are dashed." MAKES ALOT OF SENSE.

my heart has officially cease to exist anymore.
totally broke & disintegrated into thin thin air.
byebye, heart!

I hate Joei the gullible,
do you all hate Joei the gullible?
or Joei the Loser. Or Joei the Dumb.

i wanna kill pple now!

i am sick and tired of seeing your friendster comments.
i am sick and tired of 'discovering' your little secrets.
i am sick and tired of seeing you flirt with other girls.

(shit, now i totally feel for dyan, totally to the max.)

its fucking fucking fucking gross can.
yes yes, i noe we are not together.
BUT STILL, BUT STILL.
BUT STILL x 1000million times.

FUCK. x 1000000000000000000
CB. x 3
KNN x 4
NNB x 4

okay joei relax.
all guys are the same.
joei tan relax.

cmon, go play with kacang & stripey now.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A set of screwdrivers,A cordless drill, andA black lace bra..

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A feeling of control over Her destiny...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
One friend who Always makes her Laugh...And one Who lets her cry...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to fall in love Without losing herself...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to quit a Job/ Break up with a lover and confront a friend withoutruining the friendship

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
When to try harder... And WHEN TO WALK AWAY .

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
What she would and Wouldn'tDo for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to live alone... even ifShe doesn't like it...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Whom she can trust,Whom she can't,And why she shouldn'tTake it personally...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
Where to go...Be it to her best friend's kitchen table..Or a charming inn in the woods...When her soul needs soothing... !

LONG x 10 time since i ever blogged.
aaahhhh, it feels so good now.. ah, ah... ah...
yes, that was an orgasm, thanks.

i am happy! because, YAY!!
i finally went to "eat-table!"(direct translation from Hokkien)
BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I WENT TO ONE OK!
went with Eric, i cried cos he made me scared.
he didn't tell me this "eat-table" is not the outdoor kind but is inside a restaurant kind! FUCK. i was so wearing slippers. :( ugly loserish slippers. i was TERRIFIED. i was so afraid they would refuse my entry and POOF! goes all my yummy food!
so happy i can finally seee all the familiar faces again.
food was quite good, love the first dish, the one with SO MANY fried food! AAAA.
and Shark's Fin next! (i seem to forget im AGAINST killing sharks for their fins when the bloody food is in front of me.!) joei tan is a hypocrite! joei tan is a traitor to the animal world! hmm, and omg! theres YAM PASTE with coconut sauce with gingko nut for desert! YAY! not Potong ice-cream for the first time. and i love the KONG-BAH-PAO. i ate only the FATS. yumyum.
and some uncle fetched us home after that, it was 11plus already can! so late. was so afraid my dad would kill me, heng he never.

these 3 days of school have been fun, funner den i expected, and to think i didnt wanna go to school one. hahahaa. poor purani, cheer up! :) you are not gay k. haha. i buy you many dark chocolate k. and one of the main reason why school's so fun is cos, there is alot of things to talk about, which in our context, is called bitching. about the grossest couple ever(you all know who), about EVERYTHING la. :) and sylvia has a score to settle with me. and i have a score to settle with her too. she DOESN'T know how to write my Chinese name! and i called her a liar today. (hahaha) it was the funnest chinese lesson ever.

after school, was stuck doing English Compre test. with Nabila and Hilwa. we were going , SIAN man all the way. haha. the grossest thing to do when school ends early!

had the longest nap ever when i went home , and here i am, finally blogging.

and yes! i would love to watch the show 881 ! first time i love Singapore show okay, okay not first, its second, my first is the gangster show 15. heeheeheeeeeeee. am glad gheeting,meland xmark they all liked it too.

have a chalet on Friday! and Saturday gonna watch fireworks! HAHAHAHA.
siao liao. need to go clubbing real soon !

FUCK. went to play the stupid addicting game that melanie says its SO for us. CHEEBYE. i only got till Qns 12. FUCK, how on earth she got to 45 man. wanna play?
Click HERE NOW.

note: that game makes pple kee siao one. so UNLESS, only UNLESS you guys are bored until you all can die kinda bored, den play it. PLAY IT. joei highly recommends the game. anyway just remember i gave up at Qns 12. NEENAABEH!

yay daddy just bought stamps for me. if i talk nonsense. it means i dunno wad to blog about anymore. hahahaha. byebye.

hmm.

heehee, shhh, Kacang darling is sleeping. sooo cute.


oooh big balls. my Stripey.


sweet sweet darling. loves her to the max.


hello all, im sleeping. im so cute even when im sleeping.


yay ! i love joei's table. my maze.

hmm.
spent my days ALL very EVENTFULLY.
indeed.
alot of money spent.yes,we are now officially broke.
somemore is not SHOPPING-broke.
is go-and-enjoy-life kinda broke.
K-box, eat&eat, watch movie, go pub and drink.
therefore, we end up lidat.
BECAUSE WE DIDNT CLUB THIS WEEKEND!
(first time!ever.)
we decided to make ourselves feel better& went to a pub to drink.
so gay. BUT FUN!
:) LOVE NIGHTS OUT.LOVE.

i need more PSP games leh. cheebye ok.
my brother says im gay cos all i know how to play is Sims2 & Tekken5.
:( i can't help it, its really fun.

OH YA! i wanna watch 881 ! OMG!
for pple who say,"eee,singapore show,gross"
AYE, LIMPEH TELL YOU NOW OK.
FUCK YOUUUUUUU.FUCK FUCKING YOU.
this Singapore show is by my MOST favourite director
IN THE WORLD alrite.
my ROYSTON TAN!
(not that hes really hot or wad)
but he directed the gangster show 15 wad!
i loveLOVELOVELOVe him for that.
so since this is a Roystan Tan film,
I SHALL SUPPORT HIM!

watched RushHour3 already, fucking funny,FUNNY. should watch if you wanna relieve some stress.

watched Secret already, JayChou is hot, yes. the amounts of ooh & aahs emitting from the person beside me ah, is 3zillion. the plot is very nice. the song is very nice. its a comedy/romance/fantasy/thriller/horror. (REALLY!)

watched Hostel 2, at home of cos. FUCKING NICE. the plot rocks please. i have the dvd, so if you guys want it, just tell me, i'll lend it to you. melanie&gheeting watched it already too.

need to catch 881. Skinwalkers. and more...

**love my mummy&daddy for my 18year old birthday pressie! SERIOUSLY, my life is complete. COMPLETE. complete. COMPLETE. i do not need anything more in my life. YES! I LOVE THEM! so guess what they got me! GUESS. yay!

(i've so many things not done. sigh. okay the sick thing is i went to Popular today to buy blades. seriously. for fuck, i also dunno. gheeting says in case i wanna die.. anyway its very cheap. $0.45 for 5 blades. hahahahha. i bought it cos its cheap. and, in times of emergency, i can use it too.)

ok i shall go iron clothes now. byebye.

joei has died. her nose died.
DIED. DIED. DIED.
i wish i hadn't a nose.
:
feeling terrible now. to the max.

AAA FUCK.
haha, funniest thing is i was watching Troy just now, and got reminded of gheeting about, "come girl,lets talk about Troy" hahaha, and coolest thing was gheeting msged me in msn telling me HER NOSE DIED too! and den she asked me,"is twins supposed to be like that?" HAHAHA. i died, but she went offline before i could reply. some telepathic fields huh.

and to melanie, THOSE ARE THE PICS! THERE ARE NO MORE OTHER PICS! hahaha, you & your "im sure there are much more other pics".

Joei says: "clubbing pictures time!"


:( omg look at how tanned i bloody am! i used to be not so tanned. :( anyway, my pretty girls! me, sabrina, janejie, melaniedarling. they are all so pretty. PRETTY. SLIM.
not fair! so happy to see them by the way, bump into them inside powerhouse.


my another group of PRETTY girls! me, gheeghee, weiling, melanie!
love themmmmm. SO FUN rite? so fun sneaking in to clubs rite.
we love St.James powerhouse rite?!


me & pretty girl DXO-ing.
love those longlong hair of hers.


yay, meeting gheeting. guess where are we going?
ZOUK! YAY!
quote zhiwei,"either your camera or the mirror got problem, cos you look quite slim,which is very unusual." FUCK you ok. but honestly, i think theres something wrong too.


hello sexy sexy sylvia!
in DXO toilet!


another day at DXO. :)
with sylvia, priya and purani!


Dragonfly day. LOVE IT THERE.


gheeghee says i must blog bout this picture.
hmm.


birthday boy, happy birthday!


fucking expensive. $680++.
at Dragonfly. so now Gilbert's an exclusive member.
i wanna be an exclusive member too!

yesterday was fun! at PowerHouse(free entry). though we intended to go Zouk initially. the queue was, 3ookm long, really. even when Dyan let us cut the queue, it was totally redundant! so headed to St.James instead. :) so funFUNfun. great music, BUT very packed. my poor foot was stepped on by this HUGE girl. she was dancing like a madfatslut. and totally kept banging against us. gross. saw many many pple yesterday ! so fun. chenghong's birthday cake was damn delicious, and that poor boy totally KNOCKED OUT. kept puking like a fucker, and den slept on the couch. and i declined every alcoholic drink offered to me yesterday, i drank coke and warm water,(how loserish and gay). danced the pussy outta me,and ya, i love all you pple. gheeting,you poor thing.

OMG, my neighbour saw me please.

ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
hey u at zouk yest ?
joei ❤s kacang&stripey always TOTHEMAX. yay! boo! yay! boo! fuck! says:
yupp
ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
not bad ar start clubbin already
joei ❤s kacang&stripey always TOTHEMAX. yay! boo! yay! boo! fuck! says:
how u noe ha?
ure andrewtau. i wan my mods! says:
saw u

so funny. dongdong was at zouk queuing too, so i let him cut the queue, (sorry&thanks dyan!) but he went to MOS at last.

:) yay love partying!
can't wait for the next round.

first,lemme rest for 2 weeks first.

SHIT! purani just called and said we need to be in school tomoro, and.. i need to go pray my ahgong tomoro! HOW?! shitshitshit. everyone in my family took leave to go , and i will not be going? GOSH. how?

back from hospital, poor granny hospitalised. sigh, at SGH (again) been the 10millionth time i been to SGH within 2 months. OMG.i broke the highest record, perfect. anyway, i dislike hospitals. not the dislike, dislike. like is not i dislike visiting my granny, auntie or wad. its... i cannot bear to see the patients there, some are old and frail, and sick and bedridden, it hurts me alot. ALOT. my heart will have this strange gnawing sensation, i wish that i can eradicate the world's sufferings. seeing all these patients suffer is torture to me. IT IS. thats why.

BUT, i love hospital food. not the hospital KOPITIAM. but the food which is provided, the mealtime kinda food. :) love those. and guess why i like to visit pple. cos when they are hospitalised, they kinda become sick of such food! AND THEN I CAN GET TO EAT THEM!!!!! YAY!!!! heeheehee. im so despicable.

tomoro my godmummy gotta go SGH again for followup on her Operation. then we will go see granny together. i gotta bring my godmummy go cos she doesn't really knoe english, imagine her lost and all. (heart winces)

joei the loser with a soft-heart.

i wish and pray for my granny and godma.
love you both. hugs.

purani and sylvia and priya,valerie,annita,reyy will all kill me i swear. not in school for 2 days! no bitching sessions! no laughing at losers! no "omg,look at that,THAT,that,NOW,now,NOW!". sorry my darlings, SORRY! family matters, please understand please.

gheeting & melanie, chill please and i love you. and relax. RELAX. sigh.

zhiwei, u also relax la. stop being a loser.

my dajie is so clever can, got full marks for my best friend test. my best fren indeed. love you please! yay meeting up real soon to do some clubbing! and waiting for our dear dear rachel. (we haven go find her YET!) i miss both of my best best best best friends please! Joei, Cheryl, Rachel! love the 3 of us.

thanks Eric for earpiece, ur bag, and i wan airbrush tattoo leh.

(i dislike the hospital! i don't wanna see any patients! i wish i can save them from their miseries! sobsob!!! )

what is happening to the world?
WHAT IS HAPPENING!?

firstly, i heard a very SCARY news in school today, as in WAY scary. like scary until i can vomit blood and die on the spot. i died a death. TO THE FUCKING MAX. ARGH. i wanna die, i SCREAMED LIKE A MAD SLUT. LIKE A TOTAL MAD SLUT!! the news is so horrifying, i wish, (just a wish), that my life would just end. when i HEARD THE NEWS, my life ENDED in fact. ENDED. i don't wanna live anymore. sobsobsob. :( i don't wanna go shopping anymore.. i don't wanna wear any clothes anymore. SO SAD! I AM DEPRESSED! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! yes, in case anyone can't see, im very very affected.

secondly, my friends ah, sigh, FUCK.
also dunno wads going on.
FUCK x 10 to the power of 10.

okay shall bath now and sleep for awhile.

;Dragonfly-ed yesterday. with gheeting,gilbert, 2 Eric Ng(s), sophie, and alot of random pple. thought it was some Uncle-Auntie place, but i was so wrong! ya there WERE uncle-aunties but it was still fun nevertheless. i LOVE the liveband, (first time) GUESS WHY.

because before i stepped into Dragonfly. some person(i forgot who, but i reckon it must be gheeting) said "Jo, you surely like this place, got chinese songs wan."

and true enough, really got chinese songs! the earlier part was EmoEmo chinese+english songs(damn nice), den slowly slowly R&B, the atmosphere is totally SEX. YAY! and we totally danced to the max can. :) with alot of women(yes women, they are all 20+, 30+), me and gheeting was the youngest. and we even heard a group walking past us and said "they look like kids hor." WTF. :( what losers.

made new friends too! but all very old.. so fun dancing with them, okay, and the drinks yesterday, was 10 hundred million. REALLY. its so much, and costs about 700 bucks, and maybe more! and now, Gilbert is an exclusive member of Dragonfly. i drank only Greentea and iced water, (so gay!) but this is to prevent me from being nonsensical.

okay, i love Dragonfly! :)

okay,new clubbing khaki is Eric Ng. Gilbert,Gheeting,Joei,Eric. i swear its the weirdest combination, cos 4 of us are all THE EX. :)

ok 1.43pm now. feel so bad for reaching home so late yesterday. and shit, tonight might be going MOS again. with BFF and the rest.

anyway DXO was quite, quite bored yesterday, but got VERY MUCH funner as time passes, went up on stage to dance! (haha) took me a LONGGGGGG time for me to go up, sylvia and priya went up first, i was.... scared. cos i am very *inserts wad joei always says about herself here* . drank alot of ribena and kept on shishi-ing. my BFF didn't go, yup.

my sunburn, is killing me to the max. the redness is REDDER than RED! gosh. the price to pay for being so "gian peng gian sai", for being so greedy and stupid to "make use" of the free 15 min. screams.

Thanks Charlene jiejie for everything, i miss you alot alot you know! :(

hahaha, ok im not gonna close down this blog.
yay so you pple got extra entertainment.

SHIT! i think im getting a sunburn NOW.
(whattt?! from an indoor artificial tan?)
really, the person warned me though,
but i JUST had to insist to have 5 more min.
:( its getting painful. very.
and i hope i do not GET so tan.
and i hope the tan will go away like real soon.
i don like being tanned,
the ONLY reason why i go is cos its FREE!
thanks sweetsweet CherYan for the voucher,
WE LOVE YOU LOTS!

haha, yay! purani decided to go!
:) i swear we'll be having alot of fun!
girls night out is like a page out of Playboy,
it will be SEX k!
DXO somemore(my favourite!), i don care wad others think.
i think DXO is the cosiest place ever.
Purani likes it there too, surprisingly.

heehee, shopping today.
:)

watched Vacancy and Captivity.
hahahaha. Captivity was...... HAHA.
me,syl and purani sat on the VIP seats.
comfortable shit can.
and we had so many food with us!!! NICE!
and they claimed i was scared,
NO IM NOT.

i miss my T100, my red cammie.
i want it BACK SOON!
SOON!

and im thirsty to the max.
lemme drink some water,bye!

(heard that alot of pple wanna see me and sylvia in school tomoro to see our newly tanned skin, hahahaha, if i purposely don go how ah?)

blog officially closed down.
:( very sad about it.
but, yupp, no choice.

not gonna tell anyone about my new blog.
maybe, just only maybe,
i will update this space,
so u guys may wanna take a sneak peek here every now and then.
sorry for this sudden decision.

i just feel so unwanted and all.
not everyone cares.
especially you and you.
i thought you would but too bad.
i was at my MOST crucial point, suicidal and all.
but, hah, i was wrong bout u !
so wrong. so wrong!

i feel so sorry for myself.
for everything.
for inflicting self-harm just to make myself feel better.
pathetic.
maybe i should get a new life.

yes, in my new blog maybe.
byebye readers.

contemplating closing down this blog.
should i?

some pple are just not worth it,
don't you think?
its a sad thing to realise someone is not worth being your friend after so long. just open your eyes bigbig next time joei. not everyone will be there for you when u need them. remember this COLD hard fact. just remember. because the one getting hurt and all will just be FUCKING ME. its alright.

ok would like to laugh at pple who took my quiz,
and dunno how many pri schools i attended, hahahaha.

and dunno my boobs size.
(they all think its huge)
whahahhaahahhahahaha.

and surprisingly,
they know wads Eric's full name, joke can.

More pple do the quiz leh,
so fun to see the answers u put,
especially to the boobs size one.

:(
on the verge of crying really.
feeling so exasperated!
i think my granny threw away my things again!
:( first my hipopo, now my Ah Jan.
i put it away the previous time cos i don wanna see anything that reminds me of him, that was so in December please, its August now, and i want to see it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(ok i cried for a little while just now)

im getting too emotional for my own good.
sigh. sigh. sigh.

joei tan xin yi.
learn to let go of some things.
LEARN.
stop being some whiny slut who clings on to what you think is the last of your memories. STOP IT! you are getting on Joei's nerves! i will slap the shit outta you if you're not joei.

I am sad.

I can find Ah Jan No.2, but i can't find Ah Jan!!!
:(

I NEED to know where it is.
I NEED!

i can't possibly lose it,
or did i throw it away?
i couldn't possibly throw away something i loved rite...

back to finding darling Ah Jan again.
gonna cry if i can't find it.
search all my cupboard already...

You know how some pple have very sad past, and very hideous past identity, yes, joei is one of them. just look at the pics i take last time. i can just cringe and die on the spot. okay pple, be less critical please. i noe i look horrendously gay and stupid, but what to do? its been done, and sigh, looking back, i wish i could die. hahaha.



Yes i had short hair, i had braces.



Please be less critical, please.
Everyone has at least 1 sad past. right?

I think high school musical is a very good show.
i shall watch the part 2.

addicted to night life.
which i strongly feel is not good.

i love kacang alot.
stripey aka big balls(to gheeting&more pple) is very cute.

i feel sometimes we shouldn't judge things so easily.
or be so critical about somethings.
like how i first thought Transformers & High school Musical is pure bullshit,but look what happened, i think its the best shows ever(for me), ya so i've decided i should not "eeee" at things which im not really sure of in future, YES! we should all strive to not be so critical of things. UNLESS we really KNOW/EXPERIENCE it before, ya, den.. u've all the rights in the world to be critical about it.

and cheebye, was watching the news, and theres a rise in elderly theft, fuck la please, those old pple so poor thing, den those gay robbers still aim them, ARGH! WHERE IS JUSTICE?! wanna aim , aim rich pple la, must aim those helpless old pple anot~!!!!!!! MUST ANOT!!!!! I HOPE YOU LOSERS DIE YOUNG AND HAVE HERPES ! I HOPE YOU FUCKERS BURN AND DROWN IN HELL 15 TIMES a SECOND! I WISH YOU ASSHOLES HAVE CRABS COMING OUT FROM YOUR ASS AND KIAP THE SHIT OUTTA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*screams!*
sorry, me PMS-ing very badly. VERY.

Create your own Friend Test here

had alot of difficulty taking this pic.
haha, realised we are all wearing the same SPECS.
hahahahahahhahaahhahaha.


The clubbers(okay disgusting i noe)
How about, The clubbing khakis? hahahha.
yesyes i know, im wearing THE UNIVERSAL ATTIRE again.
wasn't in the mood to dress up so just wear something simple.
(i didnt noe i was going to Zouk ok!)

**aiyo, my entry on the LOVE thingy is for the general masses,
its not about anyone at all. hahaha. PLEASE read carefully darlings. i don't mean to offend anyone or upset anyone. its for myself, not directed at anyone at all. i swear upon my Kacang's life! KACANG OK! if i use KACANG as a tool, its very very serious..... i love Kacang! please to all individuals, don be affected by it! please x 10000million times.

(and i would love to thank everyone who wishes kacang a longg life. thanks purani who keep praying for her long life, hahaha. thanks for all who asked me to cheer up! i am cheering up already!)

and sorry gheeting i cannot go Zouk on WEDNESDAY! i've school on THURSDAY! don put dirty thoughts in my head bout skipping school, i will not do it!!!! can only do it on Friday & Saturdays.

right. so im back from another night of clubbing.
woke up at 12noon AGAIN.
(shit, i can't wake up late, remember?)
reached home bout 5plus in the morning.

so, we went to dbl O (the initial plan)
and guess what?
everyone else was above 21 EXCEPT the 2 jokes.
whichhappens to be me & gheeting.
funny cos when we reach dbl O,
me&gheeting's first reaction was,
"aye, why the pple here look so old ha? so different from the crowd at DXO."
"maybe here more high class lor"
"what if its above 21 den can go in?"
"aiya, cannot be la"

AND GUESS WHAT? when the person wanted to check our IC, we took it out SO PROUDLY(cos we're legal), and then... horror came when the person said "only 21 and above"

ok we died. died. died.
we were so embarrassed, and we just died.
:( we are rejects of the club. so sad.
and to think we are 18, we still so proud and all.
this is gonna scar me for the rest of my life.

the guys all tried to talk to some floor manager, or something,
STILL CANNOT GO IN !
its okay , its okay.
3 more years only.

so headed to the ever-so-famous Zouk.
i forgot the name of some of the guys.
theres Gilbert(of cos), Alfred?(yellow Alfred), Kelvin(loser kelvin), Eddie, and i dunno still got who, alot of random pple which i probably will never noe.
Gheeting refuses to dance!
Zouk was playing this weird sorta music the WHOLEEE night.
heard its called Trance.
and such music only reminds me of pple eating ecstacy and shaking their heads.
hahaha.

i needed R&B, so headed to Phuture. so fun!
(but i feel its not as fun as dxo, pple at dxo more fun)

my head hurts the whole time can.
the guys kept asking us to drink.
but theres this sweet drink called Apple Shooter, its quite nice.
and Ribena Vodka soooo nice.
Some LongIsland Tea, i dunno wads that.
theres Redbull Vodka, and some menthol drink that u can light up.,
Gheeting drank that, so brave!
really i think i drank too much.
cos they kept saying if we don drink, or if the drinks don finish(there was ALOT of drinks, ALOT) we cannot hit the dance floor. :( and so had to kept drinking. it was gross. gross and gross. i felt like puking after that.

yay! dancing time!

okay, clubbing next Friday and Saturday again.
Friday-DXO
Saturday-MOS(maybe got VIP room!)
i wanna go dxo with my girls please.

i wonder why does pple say dxo is so gay and all,
i think dxo is FUN.
so cosy.

*thanks gheeting for the dinner/supper treat. the fried mars bar was sex. the chicken was nice. the fish was nice. but too much very scary. but thanks, its damn nice can.

joei loves kacang&stripey always.

I don't feel like clubbing anymore.
I don't know why.
I shall just make it an exception and drink like shit today.
yes.

Kacang, i wish and pray you're fine.
Do you know many pple are praying for you too?

Nothing matters more than Kacang.
Nothing.
I will give up EVERYTHING for her.
Sashimis, Fried Chicken Skins, Japanese Food, any of my favourite food just for her to be okay.. Please darling, be fine!!

yummy yummy donuts!
Thanks Auntie Cecilia for getting it for us.
Anyone who loves me, can consider getting it for me again.
I don't mind, really.

Just wondering.
I think i must be crazy to think this way.
but, is it really better to have someone there?
by someone there, i mean like your other half.
your boyfriend/girlfriend.

is it really better?

I don't know, most of the pple around me is attached.
and, I can't help but feel envious of them.
( i sound so deprived here, like i've never gotten into any relationship before lidat..hahahha, don worry im not desperate for any, its just a passing thought)

Really, i am envious. i am envious they are able to feel loved, taken care of, that their other half will "Joei, please help me take care of her.", "Joei, i want u to make sure shes home safely.". "Joei, keep a lookout on her, don let her be alone." or stuffs like dat. so loved and fortunate.

:( how come i don have one..

BUT, on second thoughts,
if my other half REALLY says such "__(fren's name)__, please take care of Joei." , i probably will quarrel with him till i die. cos i don really like to trouble my frens. imagine how dreary it is to receive such msg, (im not referring to MYSELF feeling dreary receiving such msg, im fine with it, but i don like my friends receiving it, its.. very.. i dunno how to say also..)

Irony right?
I am so contradicting myself. First im ENVIOUS of pple receiving such treatment, and secondly I DO NOT LIKE receiving such treatments.

Am i mad or mad?

Its been a long time since I've really really been single. Like single, single. Meaning, im not in love with anyone AT ALL. like no silent love, no loving your ex-boyfriend still kinda thing. This is one of the few times in my life i've really REALLY been single. Without any flings, affairs, etc. Its a very clearly stated, Joei-is-single thing. I tell myself I'm happy, I can do without guys, YA OBVIOUSLY, WHICH GIRLS CANNOT DO WITHOUT GUYS?!??!! (ok some girls can't, i noe im definitely not those loserish girls)

BUT, am I really happy? I don't know. Maybe I'll feel happier loving someone. Right? Like when Purani asked, "Would you rather have loved and be hurt, or to never love at all?" My immediate response was "TO LOVE AND BE HURT.", she then ask me to think very carefully again. Then i thought again carefully. The reason why i said TO LOVE AND BE HURT so readily and easily was because, I've never felt the kinda "hurt" from a heartbreak for a long long time.

(ok the last time my heart died was, Dec 2oo6. )

thats a long long time ago. I had a phobia of love then. I felt that love was a morbid issue. During the time when me & Eric broke up, I WAS CRAZY. i dare not LEAVE my house. I DARE NOT GO ANYWHERE ALONE. i was terrified of seeing couples, i was scared to be reminded of any memories. thinking back, i was dumb. DUMB.

There are so many fishes in the sea, so many trees in the forest, so many birds in the sky, so many pads in the supermarket, so many earthworms in the soil, so many fur on a hamster, so many hair on a human's head, so many ants when theres a sweet, so many sand in the desert (ok im straying away).

WHY LIMIT YOUR CHOICES?
WHY STAY TO ONE?

When Melanie said "My definition of love then was having 2/3/4/5/6 boyfriends, now my definition of love is.. having you. Just you."
OMG. when i read it, I was dumbfounded.
I am very proud of her for this, but at the same time,
I can't help but feel shes becoming one of the loserish girls.
(no dont worry darling, u are the exception k, u are never loserish, just an example. *biasness runs in us*)

Ok back to topic.
Now I am envious of pple being in love with pple.
I think being able to love someone silently is bliss.
Don't you think?
When me & gheeting used to go gaga over 2 guys from our sch,
namely Elvin & ZX respectively.
as much as we were hurt (and how we claimed we will LOVE them forever)
Crap.
we were happy. Right?
Gheeting, YES ANOT?!
her answer is yes cos we always talk bout it.
We were so retardedly happy even though it was unrequited love.
how dumb but surprisingly sweet.

You know whats sad?
Those days will never come again.

You know whats sad?
I feel I'll never be able to fall in love again.

Falling in love is said to be a beautiful process,
why is it so stained to me? why?!

For now, I love only Sweet Kacang & Stripey.
My babies and my darlings, always.

I just had a major crying session.
:( I practically cried out loud on the phone to Zhiwei please.
So gross and gay.
But its because of Kacang !
I am so sad, crying till theres no more tearssssssssss..
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

and im crying still.

and im still crying.

and still im crying.

shoutout of the day: CHEEBYE!

I am officially depressed.
My dear Kacang is... going to die. :(
The lump on her eye is getting bigger.
I am so depressed and i am bringing her to a vet tomorrow.
No one is stopping me. no one.
Shes my daughter please.
Don't say things like, "aiya the hammie so small, its also not a dog, why must it require a vet? die den die lor." SERIOUSLY. next time your kids fall sick, or got lumps on her eye, will you bring her go see doctor anot? YES RITE? irregardless of the amount rite. YES, thats why im willing to let kacang undergo an operation(if needed)
I hope she do not require any Operation that would endanger her small little life. Such a tiny cute thing, done nothing bad in her life, just being cute and soft, why must she die? I think god shouldn't let small, cute and soft things like Kacang die, its so unfair. I think they should let pple who do bad things die rite. Please everything in the world, don let Kacang die. I promise to be a nice and good girl, and..
I SWEAR I WILL GIVE UP CLUBBING IF KACANG WERE TO LIVE AS LONG AS I LIVE. OR IF THE THING ON HER EYE GO AWAY! I PROMISE I'LL NOT CLUB! I PROMISE!!!!!! SO PLEASE!!! DON LET MY BABY DIE!!!!!!!

(if she dies, my life ENDS at the very instant too)
im serious.

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

No mood to blog suddenly.
Going to Mount Pleasant Animal Clinic tomoro.
i wish i had someone who drives all of a sudden.
sobsob. feeling so emo now.......

Thursday, one of the most dreary day of the week,
school ends soooooo bloody late.
BUT, it was a fun day today, :)
bitching&bitching&laughing&SLEEPING.
and PE was surprisingly fun, hahaha.
enjoyed it totally.

had KFC with the girls, talking bout our Bartley past.
:( seems like just yesterday.
reminiscing the past in KFC is sex.

anyway, my brother just told me Eric called him,
and he sounded kinda sad. hmm, don't be sad.
we can always go clubbing together! yay!

I'm very tired lately,
no strength at all.
each time i board a bus or train, i ZZZ all the way.
im so affected by my sleepiness.
i didnt use to be like that.

zhiwei says "ever since u start to club, i've never heard u mention bout ur hamsters again.."
WHERE GOT?!!
i love KAcang&Stripey okay.
TO THE MAX.
and forever!
please.
I love them and I will die if they do not exist.
*kisskiss my hammies*

OMG, the custom made nails i received from Shugar is fucking nice, costs bout $70-80+ if i were to purchase it myself, cos theres alot of diamonds and glitters, yay to blingblings. AAA. and because im a winner, i'll be getting a goodie bag worth $500 of nail products.
:D
and i'll be invited to their opening ceremony,
(got free food, drinks, nail products)
anyone wanna 'gian peng gian sai' with me?
dajie? rachel? gheeting? mel? syl? purani? anyone?

happyhappyhappy! :)

YES! DXO tomoro!
and DOUBLE O on Sat!
weehee.

I love my mummy.
She brought me to eat Japanese Food for 2 days already!
:)
finally can step into a Jap restaurant and order expensive food.
i had Sashimi and im in heaven now.
weehee.
Facial, eyelash extension, manicure(fake nails), photoshoot.
hmm.
Spice is over at my house now,
the husky.

trying to do Cold War now.
The Agree/Disagree wan.
No one wanna help me.
:(
Looking for alternatives now,
trying to withdraw from school.
yup.
imagine the class list no more Joei Tan. :(
If you all don't start treasuring me now ah,
next time no chance!
(ya joke ah joke)

made a new friend today.
Bertram. boss of Shugarz(some nail shop)
he is damn nice!
gimme alot of free things.
plus a lift to Orchard Road and free treat!
thanks!

byebyeee.

from Sylvia & Dzul?(i think he contributed too)


from Melanie&Gheeting&Gang
yes, the LEGENDARY DA LI BAO.
which supposedly brings good luck to pple...


its content. pencil case, 2 pencils, sharpener, eraser, with stickers to be exact.


its content. the fan, the Yu-Gi-Oh deck, the digimon thing, the DIY thing.

OMG. Rachel wished me happy birthday today and she sent me an MMS after that too, with this picture attached to it. gosh, im so touched can. with "you all will always be in my heart." this neoprint is taken years ago, with 3 of us in it. Me, Dajie & Rachel. love her so much, and me & dajie haven find her yet!! MUST go. this picture totally totally means alot to me. i love you Rachel & Dajie.

Birthday gift from Gilbert: Waterfall


Best Friend Forever & Ever.


Gilbert, the nice guy.


My birthday cake!


GUESS which is me.
fine, the one with the small boobs.
:(

more pics coming right up,
till my camera gets back.

:)
:D
:DD

happy!

underage party yesterday!
so many underage pple, but still fun.
danced the whole whole night,
with many random random pple.
i think its perfectly fine to dance with pple,
although the guys can get abit, carried away at times.

a word of advice though,
girls who are attached should SHOULD, go clubbing with their boyfriend, and solely boyfriend and there should be no negotiations bout that. if not, i swear murders and assaults will occur, and lives will be gone.
(speaking from a true life experience of someone, who happens to be MY friend)

i didn't drink last night!
ok one sip only, and im feeling so good bout it!
compared to Friday's puking session,
yesterday was shiok.
gheeting doesn't allow me to dance if im not sober,
so in order to dance,
REMAIN SOBER!

thanks everyone who came, i know some of u need to work the next day, sorry! thanks so much for your time and all, Damark&Xmark korkor, Weiling, Melanie&Gheeting&Elyn darling, Chenghong&Raymond&Gilbert, and guess whos there too?! Sylvia&Dzul! &we saw pple like Chanel,Jacintha,& a girl who is Serene Tan's friend.

it was sooooo fun dancing!
(shit i think im very addicted.)
im like suffering from serious withdrawal symptoms now.
i can't get my mind off dancing totally.
its etched in my mind!
HOW?!?!
:(
turning 18 is like siao.
its like walking into a crazy journey of clubbing EVERYweek.
YAY for clubbing.

Thanks Gilbert&Gheeting! :)
for being a guide to clubs.
Gilbert is the nicest guy ever,
really. and of cos GT too.

anyway, my small lil present from sylvia was sweet.
and the card from Syl&Dzul is sweeter. :)
Love it to the max k.

AND,
my present from the gang was,
DA LI BAO
direct translation : Big Present Package
sounds nice rite? sounds big isn't it?!
ok theres ALOT of items inside pple,
and i shall list it all out now.

- Yu-Gi-Oh Starter Deck. (oh now i can go to Macdonalds and play Yu-Gi-Oh cards with the Primary school kids there!, how fun!!)
- Gundam stickers(robots stickers, looks like Transformers though)
- Digimon puzzle(i will figure out how to play it)
- a DIY Tank(those that comes out from Kinder Surprise)
- a COUPLE 4 leaf clover handphone accessory.(im not attached pls)
- A mashimaro keychain
- 3 whistles (WHY?!??!!)
- Glittery animal stickers.
- Pop-out assorted stickers.
- A fan
- Eraser(of animals like COWS,horses&lions)
- A Pencil case(sigh, forced to use it)
- 2 pencils (one of which is a SPONGEBOB one. which i MUST be proud of)
- 1 sharpener.
- A Chewing Gum Eraser
- Stickers (again.)

SEE?
the amount of nonsense inside DA LI BAO is 3hundred. According to gheeting, she says if anyone receives such gifts, namely ONLY the DA LI BAO, it is most lucky and fortunate, and they will stay lucky for the rest of their lives. i see. i am feeling lucky ALREADY! so many items. all of them are so useful! they can help in my life! JUST READ THE ITEMS.

**wanted to post pictures up, but MY DARLING CAMERA IS WITH CHENGHONG! that cheater! hes out to cheat my camera. pls gimme back soon. cos some loser was drunk, so he forget return me my camera.

yes, my friends are all nice people.

so reached home at 5plus,bathed and all.
slept till 12.20pm today.
surprising my mummy didnt wake me up.

You know what,
I am really addicted to clubbing,
ok maybe its bcos i just started out,
im still a noob.
BUT, gimme 2 months time.
and.... (muahahhaha)
i NEED to dance.
i think dancing relieves stress.
its so .... can-forget-your-troubles thing.
like shake ur troubles out.
heh heh.
happy also wanna dance, sad also wanna dance, stress also MUST dance, aiyo.
just like gheeting, happy,sad,stress, also need to DRINK.
shes totally an alcoholic, she prefers drinking to dancing.
i am a dancaholic(wadever),i like dancing to drinking.
melanie&yilin cant club yet... so...........

:) no wonder they say 18th birthday is the most memorable.
it indeed is.

HAHAHAHAHA.
yay Friday Dxo again.
Saturday, Double O!
I wanna go to Zouk on Wed, but Thurs need to go sch.
how about i skip sch ? :)
ok i shall not harbour such dirty thoughts!
byebye.

OKAY OMG.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!

:) i'm being too happy for my own good.


i feel like rain,when the words all sound the same, as the curtain closes on another day says:
hey dear, happy birthday

MoHaN.[.toothache.]. says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Rebirth of a devil says:
happy birthday to you

WhAt YoU FeEl~ExPeRiEnCe~UnDeRsTaNd~ArE ThEy NoT BuT JuSt A FaCaDe~Why~DwElL On SeNtImEnTaL~HoPe~ says:
happy BDAY to you Happy BDAY to you Happy BDAY to joei

yay! with additional sms/friendster/blog/personal wishes from Gheeting darling, Priya darling, Sylvia darling, Gilbert, Glenn, Carson, Jaron&friends, Thomas, MY MOTHER!(she smsed me when im clubbing can), some random person, Melanie darling, Annittha darling, Daryl, Eunice darling, Zhiwei, Samantha darling, Terrance, Dyan darling, Elyn darling, Waffle, Mohan,Johnathan, Tommy, Sammy, Doris,Meng, Dickson, Damark, Eric, Phylis, Winson, Gladys Xiaoyi, Joan my sweetie, Shihui, Tony, Shamiha, Jeffrey korkor, Guojie, Sinyee, Chenghong, Nadira, Valerie, Darling dajie, Denyse, Dongdong, Graeme, random pple, Deepak,Chong san, Jarael, Jason DAGE, Alan korkor, Jeffrey, Kaixuan, Amelia, Xueling, Joyce, Bryan, Huibing, Ziyan, Hilwa, LayTin Mummy.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! to the max, to the max.

i clubbed for the first time yesterday.
the amount of horny guys is, 3 million.
but i love my friends. they protected me to the max.

and according to my mum,
"your friends wun always be there to protect you ok!"

I thought pple always go clubbing with frens,
got pple go club alone wan meh?

and thanks for the bday cake, gosh so sweet.
Thanks ALOT to the G guy, the G girl.
Thanks Purani, Sylvia, Priya.
(and the rest of the underage pple who can't come in)
Thanks DXO pple, they are so nice can!
But I would like to thanks the both Gs, the Gs are so sweet can.
I LOVELOVELOVE THEM.
the girls are so nice.
The G guy gave me a birthday treat, called WATERFALL.
or something close to that.
its the stacking up of cups,
den you light up the alcohol den pour it down.
hmm. they wanted me to drink it in one big gulp.
and i m so scared my hair will get burnt can.
and i died after just that one drink. DIED.
i couldnt finish it so sylvia finished it up.

i love you guys,
today DXO AGAIN.
hahah this time for underage pple.
to celebrate my bday!
happy.

I can't wait to hit the dance floor.
(i wish there wasn't any guys on it though)
I hate male clubbers.
THEY ARE GROSS.
to the highest max/peak/tip/core/hilt/farfarawayland

yay! im finally legal.
i can smoke, eat drugs, club all day, drink booze, watch M18 shows, have sex, eat SUBWAY
im sure theres alot more things i can do.
like dyan said,
"its a 18 year old kinda thing"
:)

yea, its an 18 year old kinda thing.

happy birthday joei tan xin yi!

im so glad everything is falling into place!
birthday celebrations and all. happy.
HAPPY!
and why does my mood change so fast nowadays?
hmm. i must be having a permanent PMS.

ok had a great sleep.
i slept all the way from 5am till 11 om today!
(my daddy is in China so i can sleep more)
i had a great night out.

King Lear play at Esplanade later,
Sylvia darling is coming over like NOW, haha.
and im still blogging.

AND AFTER THE PLAY,
GUESS WHAT.
:) weeee, my first clubbing experience EVER.ever.EVER.
with all my girlfriends of 06A3.
so sweeet.
i love all of you seriously, even those that can't attend.
i still LOVE you.

and on Saturday, it will be Melanie&gheeting darlings turn!
we're going to club too! YAY!

I LOVE BDAY CELEBRATIONS.
it'll be a blast.
and i love birthday presents too!
Please get me some!

Don't worry, I'll not get drunk.
mental note to self: Don't drink please.

OMG. this valz ah. HAVE TO tag me u noe.
yes and i'll kill you too.

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about themselves. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS!

haiyo ADER KAR DER VA LEH to the max.

1. I secretly wish i am slim & pretty, i think about it ALL THE TIME. it has become an obsession. scary huh?

2. I love birthday presents ALOT! ok not only birthdays but Valentines, Christmas, etc. I JUST LOVE PRESENTS! and surprises!

3. I buy clothes (those sexy sexy and i-can-never-wear-them-kind), and store them in my cupboard, with the wishful thinking that i MIGHT be slim one day, and i can actually wear them. hahaha.

4. I eat alot. (ok this is a known fact). BUT I REALLY CAN EAT WAY BEYOND ALOT. more den ALOT.

5. I am secretly in love with my hamsters. especially Kacang. (ok, isn't this another known fact?)

6. I do not have any guy friends at all. people just keep thinking my circle of guy friends is LIKE ALOT. but NO, i have none. ok yes i have ONLY ONE, zhiwei. wait. theres Chenghong, Xmark, Dmark, Johnathan, etc........ (alrite i take back what i just said)

7. I AM AGAINST ANIMAL SKINS TO THE MAX!! I am an animal lover, and therefore, feels that animals should not be killed for you guys to be parading about with it. NONONO, i don care if its fake or wad, WE SHOULD NOT SUPPORT ANIMAL SKINS. CANNOT!!

(sorry, no.7 is too emotional)

8. My signature in my passport, and my official signature, is in the form and name of cookies, with a smiley face behind.

9. I do all the household chores at home, ranging from sweeping, mopping, wash clothes, hang clothes, fold clothes, iron clothes, vacuum, WASH THE TOILETS(argh), tidying and all. Bet you guys don't know this fact!

10. Even though i say i do not like doing such "About me stuffs", I secretly enjoy doing it! hahahahahahaa. Like how i pretended to say "valz, i will kill you ah!" cos she tagged me to do it, actually, i wanna thank VALZ for the opportunity to allow me to ENJOY myself for this past 20 minutes. hahahaa.

So now, for the 6 losers.
1. Purani (ohhhh, Valz tagged her already)
2. Elyn (haha!)
3. Melanie. (do it hor!)
4. Gheeting (do it hor!)
5. Jeffrey korkor.
6. Thomas Chai

ok, i need to prepare for the grand arrival of the Queen of being late, Sylvia.

and i cant wait to meet purani and all later for the play!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAA!
yay ! can see Ian Mckellen. SO HAPPY.
:)

I wonder what birthday presents will i receive this year.
and I wonder who is bon .
so many things to wonder.
I wish i had an answering machine!

Sometimes I feel no one loves me.
18th birthday in 2 days time.
Excited, scared, happy, sad.
Mixture of emotions can.
As much as i think i love clubbing,
i swear i cannot dance SEXILY,SENSUALLY, or wadever dyan or sylvia or priya and annitha calls it.
I don't drink, ok maybe a few.
I can't dress up.
I don't put make up.
I am not sexy.
I thought girls at 18 are usually hot and slim and sexy.
why am i NOT any?
Im un-hot, fat, and un-sexy.

Although the present my parents getting for me is great,
and as much as i think my life is like quite fulfilled and shouldn't ask for more.
I AM FEELING SO ______.
dunno how to describe also.

How to handle stress?

1. Jam 19 tiny marshmallows up your nose and try to sneeze them out.

2. Use your Mastercard to pay your Visa.

3. Pop some popcorn without putting the lid on.

4. When someone says "Have a nice day!" tell them you had other plans.

5. Forget the diet-center and send yourself a candy-gram.

6. Make a list of things that you have already done.

7. Put your toddler's clothes on backwards and send him to nursery school as if nothing was
wrong.

8. Leaf through National Geographic and draw clothes on the natives.

9. Go shopping, buy everything, sweat in it, and return it the next day.

10. Pay your electric bill in pennies.

11. Drive to work in reverse.

12. Dance naked in front of your pets.

13. Bill your doctor for time spent in the waiting room.

14. Tattoo "Out To Lunch" on your forehead.

15. Refresh yourself; put your tongue on a cold, steel guardrail.

16. Read the dictionary backwards and look for subliminal messages.

17. Start a nasty rumor and see if you recognize it when it gets back to you.

18. Write a short story using alphabet soup.

19. Stare at people through the lines of a fork and pretend they are in jail.

20. Make up a language and ask people for directions.

21. Retaliate for tax woes by filing your tax forms with Roman numerals.

my sisters of 5 years. love them to the max. finally met up with Elyn, pretty lil slut. hmm so envious of her can. and melanie too. and gheeting too. they all have somebody to love! so fortunate.. and now i've gone mad.


yes i noe they are very pretty. and ChengHong was there too! we totally had so much fun laughing and talking at my void deck. stayed up till 12 (its very late for me) but to them, its like wayyyy early. sigh. i like thonning but i can NEVER successfully thon. i've never stayed up all night once. why am i sucha failure? and chenghong is so nice................................. ahhhhhhhhhh.. i wanna have more of such slacking please. i need to relieve stress.


sigh, look at this, i feel like going to Max Brenner's Chocolate Bar to eat right now. RIGHT NOW. i'm so stressed and theres nothing anyone can do! the things i might do to destroy my life might be VERY destructive. sigh. somebody bring me go eat please. i need to eat full full and den go kill myself.


the chocolatey drinks of me & gheeting's. mine was yummy. gheeting's was strawberry something though, i m afraid of strawberries.


hey look at this cute pic of Kacang trying to be long. its trying to be a snake. its trying to be a stick. so cute can. loveloveloveloveloves kacang & stripey too!

i felt like shit today.
baddest mood of my life, bet no one noticed that.
cos im trying so so hard to smile and laugh,
but its so torturing.
i don wanna affect pple's mood!
i tried not to be grouchy. i tried to smile.
and now, all i wanna do is die.


do u feel the same.. says:
serious la
do u feel the same.. says:
if i earn alot
do u feel the same.. says:
i let u spend

this person is so sweet.sigh.
thanks for making me feel better.thanks a million.

you know what i feel like doing?
i bloody feel like quitting school.
yes, and i would love to mean wad i say.

back from my Laser Op! yippeee!
byebye Cold Sore!
hello friends!
i can actually feel the "seed" disintegrating in my lips.
whahahaa. and i dare not move my lips.
im so gay. went home, slept and here i am.
its not really painful pain, but uncomfortable,uncomfortable.

hahaha, its over. lalala.

ohya, RACHEL darling, please look here.
DON'T BE SAD anymore.
me & dajie will look for you real real soon.
we promise,remember we LOVE you lotslots k.
don be troubled please.
SMILE!

and hmmm, i had a bad dream about poor Kacang just now.
if anyone tries to kill it, i'll kill you back to the max.
or i'll kill the one you love most in the world.

whahahaha, glennglenn messaged me just now. he remembers my birthday! weehoo. and hes gonna gimme a birthday treat! yes! i love birthday treats. if im 18 now, that makes him.. 16. OMG. 16. time passes. 2 years back we were still having fun mapling. the good old days... he still calls me BB now. oh BB means baobei back then to us. and i'll call him GG which means glennglenn. so dumb but i like it! im so stupid.

k anyway, my whole body is aching, please don tell me its the side effects of the laser op. gosh its scaring me, aaaa.

what we could have been,
i would never know.

yay we finally met up! but wait, they spent a night at my house already.


me over at ghee's house. waiting for her to bath is like waiting for myself to be slim, it never happens.


YAY! darling Spice. i wanna board her again, but she requires TOO MUCH attention can. even 3 girls cant take care of it.


and Orange is sooo cuteeeeeeee.


me over at ghee's house. i tried to get orange in the shot but..


outside Plaza Sing where we were cam prostitutes.


and now, the Biggest Face Award goes to.. Joei Tan.
(we laughed till we died)


our YAMI yogurt.


our expensive dinner at Paragon. hahaha.
seriously and the service there sucks big time.


there, this is the place, expensive with gay service.

anyway had lotsa fun with the girls. hanged out at Rivervale Plaza's Macdonalds till 2am can. totally. i was so tired i could die. but im wondering why can we talk for so long, without stopping AT ALL. its really amazing how we can go on and on and on about topics which we've talked bout before. i love them. they are the kind that love me for who i am. i LOVE them. thanks for the laughters. Jo, Mel, Ting.

yay! going to do Laser Op later for my cold sore(oral herpes).
no its not an STD please.
its just a cold sore BRACKET oral herpes.
not the SEX herpes, herpes.
weeeeeee.
but i swear it will fucking hurt,
gosh im so scared can!!!!!!!!!!
hope my frens will discriminate me anymore!
hahahahaha.

am hearing to Emo Chinese songs.
Feeling so emo.
SIGH.

i love purani*sylvia too. they are so sweet, i like being with them too. yay! im a lesbian.