My first picture, Deepak and Joei.(i look idiotic but ignore it okay)
Deepak says this is an illustration of Yin & Yang.
Then I died laughing. And he said, "you're so gonna put it on your blog right?"
I went like OMG HOW DID YOU KNOW!
Then he replied, "I've known you for 3 years...."


Fatty bom bom. I realise I rarely have pictures of myself in my blog.


=/ my face looks retarded, and the food was yummy!
Tepanyaki ROCKS.


Dyan & Renuka.


I really don't understand why my face always looks so spastic.
Dyan please tell me! Its like the theory of you and your friends smiling nicely and me grinning retardedly. HAHA.


The amazingly cutee doggy. RIRI !



So random but just a convo with me and Sherman. I've known him since I was sec 3. And he brought us out to eat, Gheeting I can let you see the pictures.

And my school friends..

Sylvia and ME!


My new friend, Oscar!


Renuka! Shes in that iPod screen.
Renuka said, "oh cool our very first picture together!!!!"


Anittha Thanabalan serving suspension, we accompanied her and left her notes!
:)

Okay and to that, I shall self proclaim a holiday tomorrow. And, its Friday! Friday means happyness! Lovely day!

Fucking stress.

Relax Joei.

Breathe in Breathe out.

Everything will be fine.

Yes, everything will be fine.

Bad day for everyone. I had to keep quiet cos I am like scared.

I was very sleepy the whole day. I kept thinking about Elvin.

I am trying my best to counsel my dear Dyan. Don't worry and must accept that things are in the past, love you still.

Purani made me very sad....... :( Sobsob......she doesn't love me anymore....
(but please try okay!!) haha. It was very funny in class when I gave her the stare. HAHA.

I ate alot.

I am happy and somehow I cannot wait for Saturday.

And Christian, hello to you if you are seeing this space! HELLO!

hello all!

Today was a neverending day. Like lessons were going on and on and on, and school ends so bloody cheebye late. And we had Pilates! Its fun but fucking tiring, we were like groaning in pain, but my daddy says the right way is to relax, which I didn't. So, must try to relax next week.

I am soo tired.

And oh ya, my birthday is like next Monday so I'm having a small little party at Zouk this Saturday, all close friends can come! :) YAY! Don't worry will definitely got drinks for you all, just bring presents can already, HAHA. Love ya! Hope I'll have a smashing time!

I can't wait now!

Joei: "Elvin, birthday girl REALLY must open bottle one meh?? I don't mind la but I've never done it before."
Elvin: "hmm, I think so lah, but you also never drink, you want open what bottle?"
Joei: "No lah, my birthday mah, my friends are all drinkers so I need to let them enjoy..."
Elvin: "Very ex one lor! So bo hua!"
Joei: "Ya lor, I rather use the money go shopping :( how ah?"
Elvin: "I agree with you.then don't go club lor, so easy."
Joei: "I disagree with that, bye"

Don't worry I am NOT stingy, I just DON'T drink. And I don't know why drinks are so grossly overpriced at clubs, and anyway, I have alot of bottles at home.. So... hahha.

See you guys there ! Hugs!

I'm back from my weekend!

This week was shopping week, so me and Elvin went on a shopping craze and bought anything we wanted, not needed. We went like, "Omg, this is nice, and buy it now!". Very bad for the wallet but its not all the time we both get to do that. Next week will be another shopping week hahaha. YAY! 5 more days to goooooo ! 5 more days 5 more days!

Had family buffet at Raffles City, I love the sashimis and the herbal chicken soup is soo nice! And I loveeeee the prawns! And the cheesecake is so yummy, cool! And went to watch midnight show, Hellboy II...... I fell asleep, and Elvin slept throughout.. And then Elvin stayover-ed and when I woke up, its bloody Sunday again! I hate Sundays, its gay and totally unnecessary.

Sunday is when you get those disgusting "Sian... tomorrow got school......" or "oh fuck, my boyfriend have to book in again", and just plain "KNNBCCB-fied" feelings lah.

Anyway, I am very happy with my weekend, now I must persevere this week, and be nice, and be positive, and be organised! :)

Next week is my birthday ! Yippeeedooopeeedooooooo !

Short update.

I had fun the whole of today cos I skipped school. (haha.) I love youuuuuuuu. Thanks for the nice time, and hope we can have more soooooon!

YAY! Same PE group and Dyan, Purani & Sylvia for PILATES! I can't wait! First time I am so excited about PE! hahahaha! Fun!

I am tired, byebye!

*Elvin is booking out tomorrow! & he says hes gonna pick me up from school on Friday! YAY! Cheap thrills for Joei!!!

Happyness! :) I was right to PMS yesterday cos I had my menses today. YAY! discovered it on time and no leaks AT ALL, yes i am very proud of that okay. HAHA.

And Purani made me a happy happy girl today! She turned my PMSy mood around! Firstly by bringing KALHONAAHO! & by promising me something which I so love. LOVE!! EXCITED!! HAPPY!!! *okay calm down calm down, you can't blog when you are excited.*

And, I must be positive! I must learn to forgive others, must be gracious and fuck the past, no denying the past, but accept that it happened and whats past is past. So, no point brooding over it hor? Just live life to the fullest and eat more buffets lah, just eat and eat and eat, enjoy, go travel, eat more, and song bo! you will die liao.
oh i forgot, i must have sex first before i die. hmm, but must have sex after 21 years old(if im still with elvin), if im not with elvin anymore means NO MORE SEX LIFE FOR JOEI TAN. But Elvin is like gross, he had sex with ____ before, OH FUCK WAIT, didn't I just mention that I've to learn to accept the past. Okay sorry sorry, Elvin is un-gross. He was dumb in the past, now he is wiser, he is abstaining from sex! Poor guy, hes gonna be deprived for 2 whole years but its alright, :) Patience is gold.

And I honestly think he is turning gay too, from facing guys all day, and no proper sex with the female species, he might stray.........................................

Okay nevertheless, still happy today! Even happier cos not going to school tomorrow! BUT after tomorrow, I must go on a DO-NOT-SKIP-SCHOOL-DIET plan!

Determination is the way to go man.

:( I am PMSing very badly, I'm having negative thoughts like now, like I'm friend-less! MY boyfriend doesn't love me! I'm a loser! I'm fat! blah blah blah. I abhor PMS. Makes me feel so alone in the world. oh no.. I'm all alone, I've no friends at all. :( Nobody likes me, everyone is looking at me in a strange way. ohmygod..........................

Anyway.

I am really a loser, but this helps. I googled "How to forget the past".
And tadah!

Steps:

1. Accept that it happened. It's not the easiest thing to do, but it will help you get on your way. The past is a part of your life now, but it is not the most important part. Accept the fact that it can no longer be changed in anyway.

2. Live in the present. This one is kind of hard, as well, since the present is easy to take for granted. Know that by constantly using your present time wisely, you are constantly making a better past for yourself.

3. Learn from it. Something good always comes out of anything, even if it is a very bad experience. Find the lesson involve and try not to make the same twice. Lousy-Lesson Example 1: "If I didn't get busted shoplifting, I would've moved on to armed robbery and get shot by cops."

4. Forgive. Yourself or the ones that have hurt you. Cut yourself, and others, some slack. Nobody asks to be given a bad memory. People are not perfect. Everyone is prone to make mistakes. That's how people are. And the only way to really move on from a bad experience is to forgive the people involved.

Tips:

• If it really bothers you, talk to someone you trust and feel comfortable with about it. Talking is good. Not talking about it makes you bottle it up, and the next thing you know, medication is involved. (fortunately, i like to talk to pple ah...)
• Compare it to another's bad experience. Think about it. I mean, you've had a bad day, but that other person may have had a bad year. You may have lost your cat, but that person across the street lost his mom. Everything's relative, even problems.

Warnings:

No denying the past. Because, no matter how hard you bury it, it will resurface time and again, like a bad zombie film.

(haha and to this, ziyan and dyan will go like "SEE? we told you living in denial is a big NO-NO so you must NOT live in denial okay!") okay okay i know i know.hahaha.

Yup, I mean, I told Elvin the only way for us to last is for me to accept his past, and love him for who he is now, and not the things that happened before. I am trying my best okay. Its not easy for me hor.. Its like, I am very very tormented by things he does with his ex okay, the images refuses to go away(stop laughing at me). But I am becoming better, I am googling stuffs and I am feeling better. :)

This whole weekend, I tortured Elvin with my abrupt moody-ness. When we both were like happy and laughing, I will go like, "I am disturbed by your past." or like "I am reminded of the things you've done." This is when you will see Elvin being very nervous and his face will change to a constipated one instantly.

And the usual Elvin would go "KNN la, can dont be stupid anot?" or something like "what you want now? aiya whatever lah you want to think then think lor" or maybe "everytime also my past my past, ya lah im a loser lor".

BUT, the changed Elvin dealt with this very professionally. He decided to be nice already. He said "baby you know i love you right.... you love me too right? and not my past right?" *and gives a nice sincere smile and a tight hug* and he said "okay baby everything is fine, i love you, =D"

Hmmm, I love Elvin like that, so nice. I must have more talks with him, cos I told him how to deal with me when I'm being unreasonable or PMSy. and he did it! Girls, try to try it out! Guys usually don't know the best way to deal with girls one lah, they are losers, all they need is a little encouragement and support from their girlfriend (according to Elvin).

Okay, school starts tomorrow! still in my holidaying mood. i wanna sleep till past noon and go out and stay up late but i can't anymore!! My new term resolution, go to school everyday UNLESS i've driving lessons. No skipping of school unnecessarily. I shall make this promise to my Kacang and everyone who loves me.

NO SKIPPING OF SCHOOOOOOOOL!!!!!!!!

*important!*

Hello hello hello, okay right I'm back from spending time with Elvin the guy I can only see on weekends for 2 whole years. :( Two whole years........................... Okay stop. If I stop thinking about the time, it might become faster. Like its Monday now, so its like 4 more cheebyefied days to go !! Weepeedooo!

So over the weekend, I've gotten myself a new handphone(yay like finally!!), and ate at Lawry's Prime Rib over at Paragon(nice steak!love it!), Elvin stayed over at my house, had yummy breakfast + lunch by my parents, went over to Elvin's house and said my byebye to him, and went over to my godmummy's house to see my RIRI. Okay, thats all I did for the weekend. Its youth day today so I went shopping with godmummy, bought bras and slippers! And lotsa storybooks. And 2 wallet! Okay done.

OMG, my cousin is the best man, Ronald korkor rocks! He is gonna give me his newly bought Lanyard from G____! :) YAY cool !! The design is niceness and I love it, hahahha. Thanks korkor. My birthday present!

Yup, Purani found her KALHONAAHO! YIPPPEEE! Time to watch it!

Okay, I miss all my friends already, so lets meet up sooooon!
Byebyebyebyebye.

hello this shall be a short post.

Firstly, Elvin won't be back today :( so.... I shall miss him till he comes back. Its like so sad right, like my life is all about "When is Elvin coming back?Hmmm, let me countdown the days.. Oh gosh! Its like 1 more night!" . Okay, this is not working out for me, yet.

On the other hand, ever since hes been enlisted, my dad says I'm acting more and more like a human. I'm like, WHY?!?!?! And he says, "Cos I see your face more at home and you don't go out early in the morning and come back late at night. Like a ghost sneaking around." HAHAHA, it makes sense.

Secondly, I've had lotsa fun these days. Waiting for Purani to find her DVD, I'm ready for the challenge but she refuses to gimme the KALHOONAAHOO show. And I'm down with serious sorethroat, I've a voice of a LADYBOY(transvetite, yea?). Cool.

I had yummy seafood at JUMBO Restaurant yesterday with parents&bro. Niceness, my fave seafood restaurant like ever. Love it.

And.......I had lotsa fun on Wednight....hehehe.

And, I am so sorry I lied about the short post.

I shall get my ass over to my godmummy's house and play with RIRI THE CUTEST DOGGY ON EARTH.
Byebye everyone, muacks!

I MUST WHINE NOW!

I am supposed to be at Bliss cafe with cool people like Menny,Gheeting,Christine, and I don't know if theres anymore. But its such a bloody pity I've Literature paper tomorrow... :( They are really cool people, that ice cubes are gonna be sooo jealous of them. HAHA. Really. Okay, never mind chances are aplenty. Next time next time okay. Cos I wanna see some lesbianism acts between Christine & Menny (oops?).

To Purani : Bring KAHONAHO tomorrow so I can CRYYYYY. Actually I don't believe I'll cry, cos you all always lie to me, say what the Kablahblah show with the girl being possessed is the scariest show on earth, and when I watched it, its like KUAKUAKUA, I felt so cheated. HAHA. Okay so remember to bring it thanks.

Day 2, 3 more days to go! :) I miss you already honeybaby!

(I'm becoming a nicer girlfriend lor...........hopefully lah.)

Talking to Dyan and Ziyan now on msn. And Gheeting too. I feel like a counsellor.

★ Starlet says:
dunno la just that the pain frm the past never goes away

You know what? I so agree with her about this. The pain from the past can never go away. I mean, I am trying to live with his past, and though it gets so hard sometimes, I will still try lah. I mean, I love him, not his past. The people in his past are redundant, like way redundant. Dyan and Ziyan says ex-es should burn in hell, I agree with that. Not all ex-es should die though, like we mustn't. HAHAHA. So unfair one hor?

But I guess all the girls also like that one. Everyone hates ex-es, cos they are gross, fugly, have sex before, blah blah. I am so mean! Okay but its true. Oh well. Accept it man.

:) Day 1, so 4 more days to go!

Back from my weekend with Elvin Si, coool ! I've not seen him in 2 weeks, and the next thing I know is... he looks like a monk. And because of his sorethroat, his voice is totally different. So... its very strange but I feel like I spent my weekend with someone new. (I am just joking). I love Elvin !

I'm like some loser now lor. You know, those kind that, "yay! 4 more days to go!". Omg. Now I understand how it feels to be actually counting down days.

Oh well, 2 years is the longest time ever. I hate the Sunday feeling of him booking in. Then the Monday and Tuesday will be very disgusting. Then Wednesday will be like neutral. Thursday will have the "1 more day to seeing my darling!" feeling. And Friday will be like happyness! Then Saturday more happpy !!!!! And the next thing you know, NABEH! Sunday night again. KNN kinda thing. And the whole process will continue....................... for 2 blooody motherfucking cheebye years......................................................... That means (4 weeksx12months)=48weeks x 2years of feeling that Sunday feeling..................................................................................Oh no! I am sooooo miserable.

Haha.

Sleepy. Bye.

Hello everyone, this shall be the pictures from my night at Phuture with my BFFs Gheeting(Rachel)(haha), and Weifang & her cuzzie.


Heading to Zouk, Menny is such a vainpot seriously. In the car also must make up.


While waiting for Menny so we can spring her a surprise attack. Cheebye, that idiot say she at toilet, then I say I'm at topshop. Den I go toilet find her, she go topshop find me. Dumb!! So our plan failed and Gheeting was panicky for no reason at all. HAHA.


Peekaboo 1 from Gheeeeeting!


Another peekaboo from Joei!


YAY! we love our drinks. I didn't know Gheeting hates Chivas, till yesterday............


BFA.
BFA stands for Biggest Face Award for pple who don't know yet.


Favourite spot for stoning/hanging out/see how pple dance at Mambo and get the shivers.


I love you my darlings! Always and always.


:D




Menny's ugly shot of us, she claims she don't know how to use my camera.
Dumb or dumb? OH oh oh, she explains that "its not my camera mahhhhh"
We believe you. ^^


Gheeting: "I like the smoke!!"
Joei: "I also I also!"
(then I remembered the time when we were at Zouk and this sudden cloud of thick smoke scared us to death, cos we totally couldn't see each other and its like scary. REALLY! We were holding each other but cannot see each other. Okay nobody knows what I'm saying but its just scary. HAHA.)


Our drinks for the night.Its enough to last forever.



Cheers people, hope you all had a great night too !
And hope you readers enjoy, byebye love you all !

:::

I'm totally at Macdonalds now using my lappy. Anyway, something embarassing, I was at Compass Point Macs with Edeline and Edwin the other time trying to study when I was bored and decided to try out the sms thingy that me & Gheeting so love alot. HAHA, so I sent something like "Hello Edeline & Edwin, must study hard okay, and I miss Elvin so much, love from Joei!" .. So its nothing embarrassing or what right...

Until I went to school and Shirin asked me, "Joei, did you do some sms thing in Macs the other day? I saw the Joei thing and I double confirmed it when I saw the Elvin thing..." AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! EMBARRASSINGGGGG!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA! So cool, but its very embarrassing. And then everyone kept laughing at me! :(

Purani smsed me this morning and told me she bought Donut Factory without any queue. HAHA. Okay. And she doesn't know who William Moseley is !! He is the Narnia guy okay, the King Peter! so hot. :) Love him.

Me wants to eat dimsum at that place again, lets go man!
Love you BluePeach. Have to go eat those orgasmic yumyums again!!!!!!

OMG! Phuture was the funnest thing on earth yesterday, we had lotssss of fun. The guys opened a Chivas bottle and ordered some juggies of Cranberry Vodka! COOL. Everyone was happy haha. Menny and Gheeting were having the time of their lives, while I was there mopping around missing Elvin. Anyway, went over to Mambo for awhile and stoned there while Gheeting was getting high, the amount of people noticing us stoning was a joke. HAHAA. They even came up to us and said "Enjoy yourselves man!!" (yesyes we were, we were just tired and having sore legs). And back to Phuture where all the good songs were played after 3 am. Danced till we died, Gheeting had blisters! Fuck blisters man. And, we took tons of pics, but seems very little now, so we gotta take more next time. Oh, and I LOVE partying with my BFFs, love you. And Gheeting is very happy cos got Caucasians dance with us to YMCA,the Caucasian that danced with me had a nice cologne on, me is captivated by him !! AAAA. No me is not as siao as Gheeting the slut.

And thanks Menny's Fulin for driving us to and fro, THANK YOU. F, U, (ck), no lah, L, I, N.

1 more day to seeing my honeybaby! HAHAHA! YAY! I'll be the world's emo-iest loser on Sunday when he has to go back lorrrrr. NeeNaaBeh.

I had some yummy dim sum yesterday, HAVE TO EAT IT AGAIN!! Its like damn nice, the carrot cake was so special and yummmmyyyy!! And the CheeCheongFun so nice, and the HARKAO was the sex.

So to conclude my Wednesday, the literature paper in the morning was disgusting, but after 12noon, the rest of my day was splendid man. (except when Elvin woke me up from my afternoon nap and decided to be very anal about me clubbing, but all is solved and we are very much in love again).

Oh shut up Joei.

My new lover. HOTNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I don't mind spending all day in bed with him man, HAHA.

Okay, I LOVE MY BLUEPEACH CAN!!!!!!

MUACKS YOU!

See you on Thursday! Steady ahhh!

YAY! I miss you man, time for some hot hot gossipssss.

Just 3 more days.

ITS DAY 10 ! Elvin just called me hahaha, he told me its only 5 more loserish days to gooo! YIPPEEEE! I miss you so much Elvin Si ! Okay, and I asked him a gay question in a very whiny tone. "Elvin, if people bully me how......." , And he gave me some funny answers. HAHA. I am sooo sick, like really sick. My nose is like so red, eee.

I must must must study man!

...

Okay now I must help Dyan blog. (I must not stoop to their level, I must be nice, I must be nice.) So, sometimes unlucky things happen to people.. :( And we are one of the unlucky people on Wednesday night cos Phuture was full. Phuture is a much better/classier place to club than MOS, in our very honest opinion, cos MOS got alot of gross people which we wouldn't even care, really! BUT SEE. We were unlucky. We had no choice. So we had to go there. Then Dyan didn't even tried to act friendly leh, or maybe its Dyan's friendly nature or what. But please, don't anyhow anyhow say Dyan wanna step member with your boys ok? I am very disturbed cos Dyan have no intention in doing so! AAAA. Dyan likes to eat pork alot, how to step member with them?? And because they're YOUR boys, your hot soccer boys, she wouldn't dare to do so, cos you all bitch about her again.. But then she didn't. Why you all still bitch about her? So strange one leh. And is YOUR soccer boys say hi and acknowledged Dyan first, (I don't know who are these soccer boys still....), she didn't act friendly. Yea she said HI of course, but thats cos they said hi first.

Oh well. I guess you all are the same kind. YOUR soccer boys and you all like to spin weird tales about people. Oh well, maybe we should accept it this way. Its in your nature to do so. But please don't say Dyan wanna step member with your boys, cos really, I can swear upon anything in this world she really has no intention of doing so.

..

So unnecessary one. We go out party is to have fun one mah, why make it so big and retarded.. Aiyo. Alright, I miss Elvin again! I must prepare some stuffs for him, I love you babylove! I am so glad my boyfriend is a normal person, I shall decide to love him more!

Very very sick ah..

It would help if I don't get all the unnecessary temptations from people!!!!

khoo,keathwee. - said:
oie.
khoo,keathwee. - said:
ha go party! lol
khoo,keathwee. - says:
haha later go zouk laars!

:( this kinda sentence only makes me die a very slow painful death......
Its Friday night........ And I SHOULD be at Zouk.

Nuff said.

Fuck off stupid thoughts and emoness.

Me neeeds all my friends nowwwww! SOBSOBZXZXZ!

Coolness, I went for driving in the morning, it was fucking early I had to force myself out of the bed. And went to meet Edeline & Edwin to study, so fun, my first attempt at studying, but ended up camwhoring and talking talking, and not to forget, eating.

HAHA! Elvin just called me, and told me some happy stuffs. Its so funny! Okay ohmygod me miss you. I realised that its no point having an affair, since I love only Elvin, so BYEBYE DIRTY THOUGHTS!! I shall be nice and be like "Right here waiting" for you kinda thing. eeEeeeEee. Disgusting but who cares? I love you can already.

byEbyEszxszx.SIIANZXZXZ 1/2.Having stupid flu.And my body is so aching.

Those are not my legs at all, how could it be? HAHA, Dyan's conclusion is that this mirror makes us slim. I need such mirrors at home!!


Yummy CranberryVodka, the games we have to play just to finish it is a joke.


Not high yet.


TOILET!


Taking a break.


MY toilet.


"we both look so decent in this pic hor"


BFA.


:) YAY! Finally clubbed with my sweet babies!


oooOooo.


HAHA.HAHA.HAHA.ooops what have I done.
So many questions right? Like whos dancing with me?
Who the fuck is that in front of me?!
__
Think hard enough. :) __ Fuck you, haha.


I am so sorry if this pic is super obscene, thats why we call it THE WILDEST NIGHT. Just look at what I am wearing really. Ignore what your eyes leads you to, please. And such sights don't appear often in my blog so please don't lead your eyes to my neh neh pok thanks.


Dyan's place getting ready for the big night out. So last minute!!!


HEEHEEHEE.
Not telling what we are hiding.


:D


HAHA, not telling what we are hiding again.

...

Concluded that it was the wildest night ever, and I said I am not telling why. HAHA, and.. it was really wild lahhhhh, cheebye. Anyway, I had so much fun I think I might actually be addicted to clubbing again.. oh no. (Elvin just called to say I am allowed to club !!!!!) OH MY GOSHHHH!! Happyness. YAY! So its clubbing time from now onnnn. YAY, me love Elvin soooo much. I miss him all of a sudden.

I hope these pics are sufficient enough to keep you all entertained! :)
BYEE!

The wildest night.

Ever.

Like really.

ohmymotherfuckinggod.

Its Day 6. I've driving and I'm meeting up with my darlings today! :)

So yesterday I did alot of stuffs with Mummy. We went Lor Ah Soo to eat the ever famous KUAY CHAP! We loveeee it! Thanks Gheeting the darling for introducing me such wonderful dish. And we went to the dentist for polishing and cleaning, went back home to bath, and off we go to DhobyGhaut for our facial, and went to eat HOTPOT CULTURE at Marina Sq. Okay, I am eating way too much buffet lately, way too much. Alright, I miss Elvin already.

:( :( I've no more Elvin, I've no one else in this world I can rely on, I am friend-less, and I am so pathetic, SOBSXSZXZ.

I dreamt of Kacang yesterday! Soooo cute, I was totally holding her and shes sooooo soft!!! Oh my god I love you baby Kacang! I love you, I promisee.

Firstly, I don't know why my pics are all mixed up here and there, but here goes my Anlene Marathon Volunteer thing and my night out with Menny. So here we are camwhoring badly. It was fun and some camera man was filming us. hahhaa.


Now we can say the Orchard Road is our grandfather's road or something lah. HAHA.


RIRI-NESS!


HEHEHE.


The toilet was the coldest place ever. EVER.


AND THE WATER THING IS SO COOOOOL.


HERE WE ARE~!


:):):)

Right, so the following would be our time at THUMPER.


I loveeeee this picture can.HAHA.




LOVE YOU ALL!

(I am missing Elvin to the maxxxxxx.)
More pictures when I'm out with Dyan and Ziyan tomorrow!
And when I meet up with the BFFs like Gheeting and Menny again.
And when Purani gives me KAL HO NAA HOO, cos I overslept and skipped school today.
And when I meet up with Dajie and Rachel for some bitchings and shopping.
And when I am feeling better to blog about Malaysia trip. Meanwhile to know a little more, can take a look HERE at EDELINE'S BLOG.

DAY 5.

ELVIN SI DE ZHI. I MISSSSSSS YOU TO THE HIGHEST TO THE MAXEST POINT OF THE WORLD. OH MY GOD. I AM DYING A VERY SLOW TORTUROUS DEATH. I MIGHT BE ADMITTED TO THE BLOODY HOSPITAL SOON, I AM MISSING YOU SO MUCH I MIGHT JUST DIE.

I want to be an immature piece of shit now, and insist I cannot live without Elvin.

Sigh, so I went out with my parents the whole day yesterday. Spent one whole day with them, ate some buffet at Merchant Court, and today too. They know I'm terribly sad, so Mummy bought 3 LaSenza bras and 2 Mango tops for me. :( But I miss Elvin still. And we caught Chronicles of Narnia Prince Caspian again! WEEE! I love NARNIA!

Cheebye, I really didn't know it'll be soooo difficult can. I thought its like, "oh well, elvin is enlisted, i can be free and happy. blah blah". NO! I am like suffering. NABEH to the max.

:( I miss you Elvin alottt.

*haha, thanks to everyone who made me tagboard ALIVE! weee! Thanks so much for the support and understanding. LOVE each and everyone of you.

Day 3: WOOHOO, my honeybaby called me a million times today, happyness. And its getting real bad, I am missing him to the max and theres nothing I can do. AT ALL. I love that Elvin Si, although we had this major argument this afternoon, he was nice enough to apologise. HAHA, loveeeee youuuuu. & fuck la, just don't drink water lah, get yourself sick and have a fever and you can BOOK OUT! HAHAHAHHA!

I am just kidding.

Actually I don't want you to book out lor, it will make parting more difficult... Sobsob.

Maybe I can set up some women support group about their boyfriend being enlisted, I've never felt so much for them before, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. NOT USED TO IT AH!!!!!! I'VE NEVER BEEN SEPERATED FROM MY MOTHERFUCKING BOYFRIEND FOR SOOOO BLOOOODY LONG BEFORE LEHHHH!

Okay, so for me not to miss Elvin thaaat much, I have to occupy myself with many activities. I had much fun with Menny at some Thumper club, technically I did not club AT ALL. So haha, I kept to my promise, I DID NOT CLUB. I just accompanied Menny and she accompanied me, no drinking no dancing, really. I can swear upon Elvin's life man.

And at 5.30am, we had the Anlene womens run thing, hahaha Purani, Anittha, Priya, Rosh, Renuka, Cordelia, Jieyu were all there, FUNNESSS! At least when my mind is kept busy, I don't get that sad loserish gnawing feeling. And I was bugging my friends with "I miss Elvin/ I am Elvinless now/ I am one lonely girl", and they gave the funniest replies everrrrr. Anittha said, "Its okay, Elvin will be fitter with abs or muscles and you can see him and his nicer body". And I went into my orgasmic state of fantasizing, and they immediately regretted what they said. HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay , I love them a-fucking-lot. Thanks for being sooo nice can. Menny thanks. Gheeting will be nice too I know, so thanks in advance, all my MUNGAMAs thanks, ahhahahaaaaa. & random nice pple like Raymond, Jeffrey & some other random guys in msn.

Currently at my godmummy's house with RIRI. :) Love them all, heehee. I love RIRI.

Alright, I am missing Elvin real badly again, cos I'm over at Hougang and there is no Elvin ! Okay Joei, you can do it, you survived 2 years of seeing him but not being able to have him. Therefore, 2 weeks is nothing. BUT WHAT THE FUCK!!! 2 wEEEKSSS?!?! How to survive 2 bloody motherfucking weeks when every second seems like a bloooody century? I am being anal about this whole 2 weeks thing. And worst still, next time when hes able to book out, it will be worst lor. It will be hardcore difficult to part, oh gosh.

nabehcheebye I wanna go NS, I dont mind the gruelling exercises, or I can be their counsellor, I can be the medical officer too, I can be the welfare people, I can be the one who finishes up the food if it cant be finished, I can be their cleaner, I can be Elvin's companion(YAY!). Aiya just let me go in lah. I don't mind doing 5 B EX everyday............................ To which Purani says..."How to go NS when you don't even wanna go for PE?"...........................You see Purani.. This is what love can do, grossing people out again.

You know theres this guy on msn who told me something,
"At this point of time, there is only 2 things you can do.
1. Provide him the support he needs and give him all the emotional support and stand by him.
OR
2. This is the best time to leave him and move on in life. Do not waste his time."

You see, I think no.2 is a good choice, BUT TOO BAD, The princess LOVES Elvin. ALOT. So I guess I must be a nice girlfriend and give him support.

Sigh, Elvin I am going bonkers. I am typing nonsense. I am like some kinda despo girl, you know those kind that cannot live without the boyfriend kind??? See? I am going crazy. :(

I love you, honeybabylove.

At about 1pm, Elvin calledddddd! WEEHEEE! I am a loser indeed. Fancy getting all excited and everything over a stupid phone call. I hateeeee myself. Oh well, I love Elvin. HAHAHA.

Thanks everyone for being nice to me.

And one more thing, its either I've many things on in 1 day, or nothing on at all.
Fuck.

YAY! That RED SonyCybershot T300 is a birthday present from my daddy! And to think I was so so so depressed and disturbed when my T100 got stolen. I am damn unlucky, me and Elvin had to go Sunway Lagoon so we placed our belongings in the hotel room INSIDE my bag, and when we returned, my bag was opened and his handphone and my beloved hot sexy red camera is GONE. I died. Then had to waste time(meant for shopping) to go police station, but also no use one lah, its Msia what. But I love my that Cybershot camera leh, but this one also not bad, its touch screen, alot of free gifts too, yippee. I love free gifts. Very worth it. I am soooooooo glad my parents didn't scold me lor, I was still crying like some loser at Msia cos I'm so scared, but hurray, new better camera instead. :) But cheebye, all my sweet sweet pictures with Elvin all inside my previous camera. RETURN ME MY MEMORY CARD PLEASE.please.

Anyway, sent Elvin to his camp today, nope I did not cry at all. HAHA. Alot of mummys and girlfriends were crying till their eyes gonna drop out, I really dunno why. Ya la, of course I am feeling a little sad and not used to it, but like what Purani said, he also not going to die, so yuppppp, I shall be positive, so I can live longer and not get old faster. I must stay happy.

And I just heard some gross news! :( I hate ex-girlfriends!! Annoy the shit out of me only. EEE GROSS GROSS GROSS. Elvin Si is an idiot! STUPID. Aiya fuck ittttt. FUCK IT JOEI TAN. "Don't bother about the people in his past, theres a reason why they didn't make it to his future.." Okay okay, relax joei calm down, you are always asking Dyan not to stress her boyfriend, please kindly do the same too. I mustn't stress Elvin. I am okay, :) I shall not dwell about his ugly gruesome disgusting past that is affecting me badly in all ways.

Like I said, I must be positive! :) Must be happy and not be easily annoyed or disgusted. HEEHEE. :)

Oh ya and I went to the PC Fair and bought a new printer as well, yay!

Haha, and then I realised I am easily contented also. HAHA.

Okay lah, its DAY 1, and I miss you already sweetheartttt! Hugsss. I love you! You totally just called me, and you said you look nice in your botak head.......... HAHA, can't wait to see you.

I miss everyoneeeeeee. Feeling beter already. Thanks for those who asked am i feeling okay. hahhaa, and jeffrey, we did not cry. Stop insisting that me and Elvin cried cos we did not. Byeee!!!!

BYEBYEEEEE. I LOVE YOUUUU.


Elvin says we must look fierce so people will be scared of us.
Riiiiiiight.


Then he says must act kawaii also, so people will think we are friendly.
Yes, of course.

Oh gosh, I am like some loserish deranged shit, I am acting as though my boyfriend like going to die or something. Somebody please, just tell me he is just going to NS and he will be out like sooon. And stop acting as though you can't live without him cos you were NEVER like that. Somebody please reiterate all these to me everyday. Please. Me is dying to the max already. I am dying a very slow torturous death. AIYA!!!!! No one understands how I feel lahhhh!! Unless their boyfriend inside camp also lah!!!!!!! HUMPFFFF!!!

Good night all.

I apologise for me being a loser.
But, I miss Elvin already.
And hes not even gone yet, he has another 7 more hours before he will be totally away.
Since when has Joei Tan become such a fulltime loser?
Menny says I'M A CHANGED WOMEN.(and a gross women too)
YES, see what love can do!
I am the living example of how loveee can do wonders!
:)

I love you, honeybabylove.
Sleep tight good night.

(I shall go over to Elvin's house and steal his bolster! The smell is Elvin-ish and I love it..)

*Note:
Saturday - Meeting with BFFs, Marks and all. :D

I will miss my Elvin Si a-fucking-lot.
He will be botak as of 13th June.
And I will be a poor old lonely virgin joei.
I LOVE YOU MOTHERFUCKERRRRR.
And, 2 weeks without seeing you is a joke.
Its alright, I love you honeybaby always and always.

:) I promise to be a good girl.
No clubbing, and partying. Just counting down the days to see you again!
HAHA.
Really.

Fuck la, really la.

Haha.

I refer to Menny's post on whats happening in her life recently.
I pity some people, I really do.

In my very honest opinion, I feel that if *you have no self-esteem, please do not blame it on people. Its like, GET A LIFE LOR kinda thing. Yes yes of course of course, *you own that shopping mall, in case I forgot. People can't go there as and when they wish. Like my poor friend Menny, unfortunately, she step in to that shopping mall only then give people criticise, OF COURSE. I think Menny very poor thing lor, but not as poor thing as *you. So sad. Yes I can imagine your anguish really.

Like if my ex-boyfriend brings his NEW CURRENT SIBEI CHIO girlfriend come to my workplace(with no evil intentions!,I must add), I will be very very anal about it as well. I will also kick up a big big fuss. I will be like, "EEEE look at her, she is so ugly and gross! omg!" & it will continue with my friends cos we'll be bitching about the ugly girlfriend ALL DAY LONG. I will be so so ANNOYED with my ex-boyfriend and I will FLAME him on my blog, claiming how immature he is, I will hate him and his new girlfriend! I will go and flame her on her tagboard claiming how UGLY she is! But the least I will do is PUT MY NAME DOWN.

Yes, really I will do exactly what *you are doing now. So I wouldn't blame *you. I mean, with someone as pathetic as you, who can bring themselves to blame you? But the ONLY reason I will do all those above is...... IF I CAN'T BLOODY GET OVER MY FUCKING EX-BOYFRIEND. OKAY?!?

Because to me,
1. ALL EX-BOYF'S CURRENT GIRLF IS FUGLY.
2. ALL BOYF'S EX-GIRLF ARE FUGLY.

Sigh, you are not ugly really. I've read your blog yadda yadda. Menny is not ugly either, she is NOT. So why don't you and your friends stop it and you know guys are NOT worth such attention right. Please do something to give girls something to be proud of? Thanks alright.

After about a month in MIA-ing, I've decided to come back a better person.
:) I miss my friends. HAHAHAAHHAHAHA.
Now I've to go MIA (again) cos 2 persons will be on the loose trying to murder me for posting this picture. HEHE, I shall go to their blog and tag them, so other people can see it too.
YAY!

(this picture is taken in some camp where we learnt how to play all the pussyfied games like Mr Fuzzy Wuzzy, Black MAgic, Around the world in 80 days, and more.)

From left to right, Joei, Menny, Gheeting.

HEEHEEHEE.

BABY I'M SORRY.







ILOVEU

Thanks darling Ziyan, thats me donating blood.
:) I gave my blood away for a good cause, happy.
"I donate blood, the gahmen sell away my blood!"
WHO is the one gaining from blood donation drives?!

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Joei Tan Xin Yi is officially dead. Like I am a zombie now, a living dead walking around. Really. Whats more, I am a zombie bounded by chains and everything. I have no freedom, they say if you die, you will definitely find your freedom and peace, but I am dead and I am more bounded than ever. Why is this so? Why is it that living has become such a chore and dying is much more of a chore. They say if you die, god will lift your burdens and allow you to go to heaven. Liars. I have more burdens than ever. Why is there no peace here.. why is it all I hear is your constant scoldings. They have ceased, but it still echoes constantly in my head and it refuses to stop. I will remember every single word you say, they are like needles poking through my heart. It is so painful. I shall be one unique living dead that is able to feel pain. Pain is shooting throughout my body. :( Such a depressing thing.

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"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smiles or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end, Love doesn't."
-the five people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom

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Me will not blog here from now on.
Sorry, but I am serious.
I will not blog, so don't bother coming back.
Byebye everyone, thanks for dropping by.
This blog is dedicated in memory of my beloved Kacang, my bestest sweetest hamster ever alive, so I am not allowed to delete it. I love you Kacang, you are the only one that would always be there for me, I could lie to you, I could neglect you, but you would always still be there & woulldn't scold me as well. Just like how I will always be here for you. I love you Kacang, I miss you alot, and life is a bitch without you! Please let me seeeeee you again. I can't wait. :) Hugs.

Sleepy day =/

When I take over the world one day, I shall implement many many public holidays for sleeping & resting. And I will make going to school a 2 days a week thing, so we have 5 days to rest and relax. So shiok. So when I take over the world, this world will be a happy place. I will allow school to start late so we can all sleep in a little more, and school to end eay much earlier so we have more time to go home and sleep.

I will force all buffets to provide us freeflow salmon sashimis, oysters, escargots, Negitoro(tuna belly), lobsters, shark'sfin, and more la. I will not allow poverty to happen, so that a child wouldn't die every 3 seconds.

And the best is we have so much time to sleep! :D
YAY! I can't wait to take over the world.

Time to sleep and dream about it.
BYEEE.