ohhh. i chanced upon someone's blog today.
and therefore,decided to take a careful detailed read.
and omg la, i don't think i ever cared before.
and reading back, i reminisced a little bout the past.
don blame me la, memories ma, who don have it?
if any of you wants to access this particular blog, read it here
I cannot fucking believe he loved me so much la.
Ok, who doesn't make mistakes in one's life?

I've moved on(prettymuch), have you?

SICK.

yes,sick! and 1st time in my life doctor said i need to rest at home for 2 days.
2 whole days! weeee, u say i happy anot?
but also no use, might be going to school tomoro. haha.

oh ya, my current obsessions:
- CUPCAKES! [pretty pretty ones]
- browsing thru online stores
- watching serial shows.

i want a credit card, i want someone else's credit card and buybuybuybuybuybuybuy non-stop.

I WANT PRETTY CUPCAKES & COOKIES.
I will start a business on it soon, you all must support me okay?!
And will start an online business with dajie selling handmade hair accesories.
SUPPORT okay?

I wanna be driven around Singapore, please?
:)

stupid way to start my day.got screwed by TerenceFung. totally gross.yuck.

im made an artefact today.excessive history lessons.sigh.den got lost with ziyan,dyan and sylvia for our chinese lessons,we were walking all around school till johnathan called me.or we would still be searching for our chinese classroom NOW.

on a happy note, i came back home way early. yay. reached home at 4plus. so happy. i slept immediatly and woke up at 8 plus. shiok ah. i miss afternoon naps. used to have afternoon naps alot in the past, when i was in Bartley.sigh, now, afternoon naps is so rare, its like trying to find a hot guy in MI. probability is negative 10million.

i miss mapling in a sense. i miss the attention i used to get whenever i logged in, and how i used to go on adventures in high leveled monster place, or go mass defaming losers, or ks war.sigh. I miss my maple friends, my maple guild, my maple character[FATcookies], and my darling pet Husky[mookies]. I wanna start playing maple again, but NO TIME AT ALL. nabehhhhh.
I always think of maple when me & glenn starts messaging . ahahaha.

From this second onward, im embarking on a No-sugar lifestyle. To support the prevention of diabetes. Need to give all these poor patients our support. No sweet stuffs from now on! :( for me. but its okay, as long as i can still eat Fried stuffs, yumyum. ITS FINE WITH ME. I hope there is nosuch day where im forbidden to eat fried stuffs, i'll die of sufferings and miseries.

**thanks renqi,rachel they all for getting me a cow moomoo pencil case, so sweet to think of me when watching movie also,hahaha, they are so sweet la, they passed it to HsiangLin whos in the same school as me and she passed it to me. sweetness. love them. thanks. thats why i love my secondary school mates lots.

Ok, i love Kacang baby and Stripey boy. muacks.
Danson is gorgeous[in case u all dunno,Danson is the hottie on my blogskin]
HAHAHAHA.

AMAZING RACE DAY.
i love this day. because o6a3 rocks. so fun. we're the world's enthu-iest class.
we hitched a ride from a foreign worker! (thanks to my charms) KIDDING.
Relax la.
And guess what? We got the first place. (ya whats new bout that?)
running all around Changi, like siao ding dongs.. under the glaring hot sun, and walking uphill, with all the fierce competition, its not an easy feat to get FIRST place okay.
I think its cause Terence thinks that we so deserve to win, cos we hitched a lorry ride.
The lorry ride was exhilarating MAN. WE ALL SO LOVE IT LA.
super shiok. I shall hitch a ride wherever i go now. HAHA.

Speaking bout hitching rides, Gheetingdarling just forced me to watch The Hitcher with her. She says the show reminds her of me., ahahahaha. and tat the first person she thought of when she see the trailer is.. ME! YAY! and our Kbox till past midnight outing. I cannot wait. heeeheeee.

note to you: if you think trying to hard for a relationship is very the tiring, then its okay, i guess i shouldn't try to expect so much , since its tiring you out, den just stop trying okay. i don really enjoy seeing you so tired anyway. as in tired mentally. so, yea, take a break from this relationship k. YOU shall take a well-deserved break. ENJOY!

I wanna eat yuki-yaki ! hint hint!
I want a new bag!
I want new heels!
I want new ........... bag.
I want a new.........bag.
bag,bag,bag.

Oh actually, I want the latest Escada perfume that is just released in the market.
Fucking nice. And i've already got a sponsor for it! im NABEH-LY happy.
YAY!

I, and im sure there are pple who share the same sentiments as me, TOTALLY FIND THAT PPLE SIGNING OFF WITH THEIR LOSER NAMES ARE GROSS. Wtf right? sign off for fuck? Especially apparent in friendster testimonials or blog entries,
For example:
[testimonial]
hi~ii missh you so much also, catch up soon kaes?
we go shop shop wors!
hahas. you stop flirting nahs!

[insert loser's name here] <-- they always sign off with their pet/real/chinese name.

For what fuck you tell me. For simi lanjiao do they find it very interesting? Its not as though the person receiving the testi dunno who you are rite. They deprived of identity ha? Imagine next time I always end off my testimonials to pple with a "joeicookies/FATcookies/xiN(haha)/, or whatever-loserish-name-is-available". So so so so so typical and stupid and senseless and retarded and i forgot, ITS SO CUTE WORS. c0s ii niid tuu let pple see moii cute cute name marrhs, if n0rts pple f0rget moii name h0ws nahs?

Sorry for my very-discriminating mindset now, Im still affected over the bitch who used "TO THE MAX".
Relax Joei , its alrite, as long as you know shes a big big loser and that shes not really well-loved by him, she is totally worthless and insignificant to even be noticed by you. Relax. She doesnt have the qualities to say TO THE MAX!

Anyway, school's so fun today. hahahaha. endless talking + packing up.
But very sombre because leaving our o6a3 class. :(
No more sense of belonging cos the dumb school decided to implement the homeroom system.
have to walk here walk there. used to love it in Secondary school cos the school is not-so-big and i seem to know everyone everywhere. And i do not have to travel so far to school and therefore, isn't always so tired and lethargic.
BUT NOW!
Im always tired and moody, so i don like walking about.

Don worry everyone, I'll invent teleports SOON!
Promise! Just like The Sims!
Just go in, and *pooof!*
you're at ur destinationnnnn!
cool rite??!
Please let this invention be invented by the time i wake up tomoro.
*prays hard*

sleeping now bye.

hello folks(laughs at dyan)hahaha. okay sorry shall not start off this way.

hmm. first day of school was fun (because of all my frens)
but it was hell hectic for me. rushing to do all my homework.
and im very sure i'll get caught for skipping PE (again)
aiyo. never mind la, at most detention only.

thanks to someone who put in effort, thanks thanks thanks thanks.
i like the change, its so amazingly amazing.

and quote zhiwei, "i think shes not fugly, shes just normal looking"
OMG. no one thinks shes normal looking okay. all of my frens think shes the fugliest piece of dunno wad shit on earth lor. den u still purposely must agitate me. make me cry somemore. bitch leh you. even if shes not fugly, she speaks weirdly. and types weirdly as well. like "lehs" , or "hahas" and she types with TWO bloody fucking ii for each i.
example, a simple "i don like guys who flirt leh."
she must type "ii dunch like guys HU fliirt lehS"

ok tell me now,WTF is up with the II, the HU and the LEHS.
We, as normal human beings is trying very hard to minimise word/create shortcuts to SIMPLIFY our very hectic lives already. And you pranksters HAVE TO just add more alphabets to the poor little innocent word.
like the letter "I", "I" is sucha beautiful word on its own, like "I love you." , "I am a girl" , "I hate losers who type two iis".
Its NOT meant to be typed like "ii lubb euu" or "ii am a simple gurll".
And if your parents are kind enough to give you a name like "Xiaohui" (which to me is a pretty normal name for an ugly person)
Please respect it can? Don sign off with "xiiaohuii`` " lehS, very the typical and gross.

And CHEEBYEEEEE!!
she use "TO THE MAX!"
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Please. you are of NO, totally NO standard to even be close to the phrase,
"To The Max"
Kindly send yourself to hell and have your throat slit and may maggots fuck your wound.

GROSS.totally GROSS. i wanna die.
and god knows how old is she.shes probably fucking 19 or 20 la.
and shes been fucked okay.OMFG.

totally gross. turns me off totally. such loserish English scares me. if her English is not not good, never mind u noe. just speak normally. OR AT LEAST TYPE NORMALLY PLEASE. gosh. and pls don bloody use TO THE MAX,bitch.

Shall not ruin my mood for losers like her.


I am very happy. =)

Danson Tang is very hot! muackmuack.

Everybody say hello to my boyfriend.


MY Danson!


HOTness.


i LOVE guys in specs. so cute.

I am obsessed with Danson Tang Yuzhe.
He is my love and i love him.
muack muack.

**thanks darling for teaching me. remember your promise hor. den u will get ur treat.

and im feeling so sicklyy. feverish. aiyo.

Yes. I have changed my blogskin and i am very very satisfied with it.
Because my boyfriend is up on it. *orgasm*

and more ORGASMS because i seriously think he is very super duper gorgeous.

i shall search for his pictures online and cover my whole room with it.
And i shall replace my existing Kacang wallpaper on my lappy with his picture.

OMG. he makes me go gaga-ish. like how schoolgirls got siao with what 5566 or F4 or Energy.
Gay boy bands, who knows what they do behind the scenes. tsk tsk.
BUT, i like Jerry Yen from F4 though, im very sure hes straight because hes so hot.

Why am i guy-crazy all of a sudden?
Because, i am retarded, and i feel no purpose in living.


Okay, and my parents brought me to dine at some Posh steakhouse.
Lawry's something at Paragon there. service very good.
Price very good as well, see already will make ur eyes pop out and die kind of pricing.
Because i died when i saw the menu.
96+++ for a Prime Rib????
Close to a hundred dollars can?!
thats siao. only pple who go out of their mind eat such expensive food.
A big No-No for me.
And my parents will be bringing me there next Friday again.
Sigh, my brother is sucha fortunate piece of slut.
14 years old go to so many of such expensive steakhouse.
Nabeh, kids nowadays ah, spoilt ah!!
no need do housework, got handphone, can surf net 25/8, can watch porn, got 40inch Samsung tv, got ten million basketball shoes[these shoes are fuckin expensive ok], can constantly go out.
Fuck.
very unfair u know. im sure many of u feel very fucked up when u compare urself then with ur siblings now.
The feeling is so gross ok. knowing in the past u are not allowed to do such things,
and then ur siblings can do all of those at sucha young age.
I hate kids who do not know how to do household chores.
ARGH. kids nowadays ah!
dunno how fortunate they are !!!!!!!!!!
I hate spoilt kids.

Period.

I FUCKING hate spoilt kids.

I promise i will not spoil my child. (but Kacang is spoilt too, butBUTbut, shes so sweet i can forgive her anytime)

will be heading to Queensway later.Byebye.

I would like to dedicate this post to..

an Albino Stick Insect.

for being there for me when i needed someone.
for offering to pay my course fees.
for helping think of ideas whenever i need one.
for .. everything.

Thanks Albino Stick Insect. You fucking rocks you know?

And wads so cool despite all my problems?

My blogskin. hahahahahahahaa.

I think he is so hot. he is so bloody gorgeous okay.
yumyum. i wanna gobble him up.
Im gonna make him my idol!

And hes very adorable in the show as well.
^^ love him, i wanna kisskiss himmmmm.

Sorry, im stressed and therefore is a little unwell up there.

Forgive me just for awhile.

My life is in a mess.

No wonder they say those born in the year of the snake will have a terrible year.

I think i need to make a trip to the temple again.
Make it two trips.
Make it three trips.
Ok fuck, i'll live in the temple for-fuckin-ever.
I'll be a nun, promise.

Just make my life a little better, PLEASE.

Because I might just go bonkers and end my life in a very tragic way.

Im very very unhappy, im so sorry to disappoint you mummy.
I love you but im sorry.

Baby darling Kacang


soooo cuteeee.


baby darling eating muffin.


Stripey baby boy.
grown boy with big balls liao.

joei hearts her hammies.
cannot live without them.
they're my oxygen, my life.
muack muack them.

Before.
Question: Do you believe in the thing called retribution?

Answer: Like no? whoever believes in such nonsense man.

After.
Question: Do you believe in the thing called retribution?

Answer: Yes i totally believe in it because its so happening to me NOW.


Yup. its wad they call karma. what comes around goes around, don't they?
And yet, the unfortunate part is that i cannot even ask myself, "hey,wad've i done to deserve all these man?" BECAUSE i jolly well know i fucking deserve it. right?
So, lets talk about choices, Syl&Pu says I actually DO have a choice, that i can actually avoid all these, that i don actually have to put up with such nonsense.
BUT, im positively sure, i'll be experiencing such shits for the REST OF MY FUCKING LIFE from now on.
be it any Tom,Dick and Harry who steps into my life, they'll treat me like shit :(
there will be no more guys in this world who will treat me like a princess anymore.
(zhiwei,STFU and stop raising ur hands wildly)
sighhh.

I am a girl afterall. I need a Guess bag. (HAHAHA.sorry unnecessary).
I really need an LV handbag badly. (OKAY SORRY.)

Lets try it again.

I am a girl afterall. All i need is a little more attention, love, care and concern, (and an LV bag).
I wanna be pampered and loved. I don't wanna be isolated and feeling all empty within me.
Such isolation scares me, I've never ever felt this way in my life before. Funny how i used to think receiving messages like "hello dear, i love you lots, you're so cute." or "good night sweetie pie" or "good morning baobei" IS SO FUCKING RETARDED AND REDUNDANT. thats in the past. and yet now hor, im so desperately needing it. :( im actually hoping to receive such gay sweet nothings. i really think im siao already.

Joei ah Joei, what the fuck has gotten into you man?

**im so happy! im actually using my laptop to blog! ahahaha. first time u noe! thanks mummy darling.

a myriad of poems and quotes~ my form of escapism when im feeling unhappy.

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me-
I’m going to smile.

At least be there to wipe away my tears
if you're going to make me cry.

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

The saddest love is to love someone,
to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them.
[neenabeh, this one very sad]


because i can see myself change,
and why can everyone see it,
except you.

im trying very hard not to self mutilate myself.
i am on the verge of doing so.
but please ok, its not fucking childish alrite.
it helps when it gets too hard for me to bear.
because when the pain goes over the limit,
it won't be that painful anymore.

feeling uber depressed,not goin to Kbox with gheeting tonite, changed to Friday.
i shall sing till i die then.

i shall catch a movie alone tomoro, and i shall shop alone tomoro.
funny how i wanted tomoro to come faster,
only to dread it when its nearer.

I AM VERY HUNGY BUT I SHALL OFFICIALLY NOT EAT FOR 6 DAYS AGAIN!

my darling girl is so cute


i've always been known as .. the-girl-who-doesn't-like-smoking.
yea, and if all my frens KNOW that, i don see why you don't.


>=(


just because u see me with a ciggy, doesnt mean i actually SMOKE.
because i NEVER and i DID NOT do it.
gosh. it was so hard trying to explain, i almost like died and walked off.
all the cold shoulders, treating me meanly, argh.
NOBODY treats me this way, i reiterate that.
ESPECIALLY when it isn't my fault, I DID NOT DO IT.



okay, so at least things got better, so yup.





and this morning. im bloody fucking knnbccb affected by just the gay sentence u said.
sorry, i very the serious wan. i cannot take jokes (oh and maybe u don really mean it as a joke afterall) i cannot get it outta my stupid brain. it continues playing over and over again like a deranged recorder. it just goes on and on and on.
CHEEBYE. [sorry for the immense profanity, readers pls understand that the emotional trauma im going thru now ain't easy to cope AT FUCKING ALL]
you wouldn't understand till you experienced it yourself.





yay! purani says shes gonna treat me n sylvia to kumalia[dunno how its spelt]
and i love school! cant wait! wangwangs, beehoons, mee and yummy EGGS.








i am very pleased with myself now.
because i just washed my toilet.
and my darling hammies cage.
YAY!





received a poem in wholivesnearyou.





beautiful is your smile
melt the heart of saddness
even the sun got burn by your pretty smile,
your eyes is the most beautiful stars i ever see
for swear that no shining stone
have a shine like yours.
to my heart that love till now
for swear inside or
i have never saw a true beauty
till i see you



i swear, any girls will melt and die instantly upon receiving this.





some inspirations today.
the way i walk,
the way i talk,
the way i smile,
does it appear in ur mind every once in a while?





** zhiwei ! thanks for dl-ing movies and songs for me, sorry im caught up with life lately, when im free-er, will watch movies ! promise.

OMG. i had the best and most enjoyable time of my life yesterday night! i wish time would like just stay there FORFUCKINGEVER! and do many many rounds of what we did yesterday. i love the thrill factor + excitement it gives me.

HAHAHA, sounds like i just had sex, but NO, its way more exciting and cool! its ........

SUPER SPEEED CAR RACING AT ORCHARD ROAD!

OMFG. seriously, thats uber way cool. i swear i'll die just to do that again.

so, yesterday after school, (school was pretty fun), we had an astronomy talk, interclass debate finals, japanese cultural lesson, and headed home! because im meeting gheeting darling for BBQ at Carson's place. on the way home, me sylvia and purani had the laugh of our lives. cos we were rushing to get MRT seats! WHAHAAHA. funny to the max. will die of laughing on the spot. we've mastered the arts of SNATCHING SEATS! yay!

and so me and gheeting headed to the BBQ at some Hougang Condominium, i ate lotsa beehoons, and i swear the guys were being very nice bcos me n gheeting literally sat down throughout and they had to serve us food! yumyum. i swear i'll lao sai very soon though! bcos the chicken wings is like BLACK in colour. im practically eating charcoal.

after that Albin called gheeting, went to some void deck to meet him in sengkang, and nicholas came along, slack around till like way past midnight. we had a few sticks!
AND I HAVE LIKE 4 CIGARETTE STICKS IN MY BAG! Albin gave it to me cos i find it cool. im not gonna smoke it though. ahahaha. just for the sake of cool-ness. nono, i wun kill myself in a delayed manner.

and den Albin's brother, named Jay(so cool rite!) called him! and says he wanna fetch us out for some fun with his frens, all above 21! its me & gheeting's virgin trip with them, and we were like excited, we knew its about some car thingy, but before that, we needed to pee badly so went up to nicholas house tto like pee. and HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA. me & gheeting died of laughter bcos we laughed from Sengkang to Serangoon. 20 mins. and more after, cos funny stuffs do happen when me n gheeting is present.

weehee! reached some random coffeeshop where lotsa guys AND LOTS OF CARS are there, Jay's friends are all around his age and of cos their girlfrens are also their age, so me & gheeting & albin & nicholas were like young retards, but me & gheeting were more noobish though. cos never go before mah. they meet up like every weekend, as in those group of guys aged around 20-24 to SPEED RACE ! omggggggggg. its so cool im gonna just die. and saw Isabel darling there as well, shes Fabian's sister, and Fabian is our driver (he is most known for the FASTEST and LIKE-TO-DO-STUNTS driver) and me n gheeting sat his car! so headed to some carparks in Orchard Road, i swear its like Tokyo Drift that kind. cos of different kind of groups there . and some have pretty pretty girls in the car. of cos la, its like cool guys usually have pretty girls in it. i think.

and so , Jay and Albin reminded me n gheeting to put on safety belts because our driver is very fast! and we are bound to get first! (and its a family car hes driving) , seriously, we are like stunned by the prowess of the car. its not a SPORTS CAR, but a FAMILY CAR. omg. its the fastest thing i sat on in my life. seriously, i didnt know one can speed race in Singapore lor, i thought it only can be done in like overseas.

SPEED RACING IS SHIOK TO THE MAX. few instances of the car almost colliding with other cars, and i pity the other civilian cars driving along Orchard cos we were like zooming past them to the max. and i love the engine sound! very nice to hear. like vroooom, ziiinnggg, eeeee, .. OMG. music to me & gheeting's ears. so we sped race in Orchard for about 1 plus AM in the morning to like bout 4am.

but seriously, being in the car when the car is speeeding is a super thriilling feeling. especially when the car suddenly accelerates and turns or tries to cut other drivers and overtakes them. its an exhilarating feeling that i reallly really like. i swear the whole of Orchard Road is filled with the fast fast cars sound. and all the passer bys were like staring. had many many rounds of Racing and then, headed to 401 for ... supper?breakfast? then Jay fetched all of us home, and i didnt know one of the guys, Shawn lived on my opposite block! 120C. so he walked me to near my house and den we went home! it was like near 5plus A.M already!

(they do SPEED RACING EVERY Friday & Saturday! and therefore, we are gonna join them from now onwards.)

actually its very dangerous, because later if suay suay lose control of the car, got car accident, den siao liao. but for the sake of the excitement and thrill, ITS OKAY! we only live life like once, so enjoy more man!

OMG. im so looking forward to next week! CANT WAIT! thanks gheeting darling, I LOVE YOU!
meeting her tonite again maybe, and maybe they'll be going there again! hahaha.

for now, i gotta bath and get prepared to go to Plaza Sing for 2 movies.

i am very very very very busy, sorry pple! to the max. sorry.
once im not busy, i promise iwill blog ten million times a day.
schools super fun lately, cos we keep eating non-stop in class.
we're like hoarding food in every corner, so fun! im so excited to go school each day!
hahahahaa. food is the main drive. and therefore, none of you will recognize me again.

lotsa nice pics to upload!! hahaha. sorrysorry.

and VOTE FOR PUNITHA. (some presidential election thingy)
and i promised to help her advertise.

** does my friends really give in to me alot? to nil, im directing this section to you, why do u say that? when u say friends, do u only mean like 1 person in particular? or like ALL of my friends? hmm, because i don really feel they give in to me alot, i mean, ya they do of cos, but its a 2 way thing rite.. i also give in to them mah.. but actually depends also i guess. anyway to your question if my fren really leaves me, i'll be the saddest person n earth. and i'll die.
so does that answer ur question, nil ? and mystic? by any chance, do i know you both? or are u both like of the same identity?

wadever i do, it just cant please pple, no not pple, its just you in particular.
why ha?
so i gotta be serious, i gotta be mature, i gotta not-act-like-a-kid, i gotta talk about very very very serious issues like cloning, abortion, xenotransplantation, enthanasia, stemcells, national envirounmental issues, and so on.
and i should not talk bout my personal life, cos its very-the-boring, and that u feel that i should not talk bout it cos u dun feel like knowing it.

ok fine. im the world's tired-est person.

anyway, this world is weird rite? pple break up when the communication aint there anymore, pple break up when the girlfren doesnt wanna meet and doesnt wanna spend time with the boyfren, pple break up when the girlfren decides to not be a funny person and joke with the boyfren cos she finds it unnecesary.
(ok at least thats wad happened to me and eric)

and it gets very very tiring to constantly try to make time for the fucking boyfren, trying to spend time with him, TRYING TO, and trying to make him laugh (apparently somebody doesnt find me funny) , trying to talk to him bout wads going on with my life (and APPARENTLY, somebody finds it BORING).

oh my god.

anybody got any MATURE, CONSTRUCTIVE, and SERIOUS conversation topics u wanna share? like wads going on in the TIMES magazine? wads up in NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC?

seriously. seriously seriously.
i should study humans, and find out why pple are the weirdest shit on earth.
lidat also cannot. like this also cannot.
wadever la.

keep don wanna meet bf also cannot. keep wanna meet also cannot.
don talk to bf bout MY probs also cannot. talk to bf bout MY probs also cannot.
don be funny to bf also cannot. be funny to bf also cannot.

FUCK.

i shall just play KongKong Online. heh heh. just created my account.
it seems so cute and fun. weehee.

actually im having way lots of fun,
seriously! new clothes, money, my darling aloysious boyboy and my darling twins meimei, all the yummy food, everything.
in fact, im having a blast .
BUT YET, something is just missing. *sigh. (fancy me sighing on CNY) .its like so WTF okay.
despite melanie darling to go over to her house today, gheeting the idiot cant make it. cos she has something ON. (and i know wads on) hahaha.

i do not feel affected initially, as in, when im occupied with things to do, i totally do not care bout this emptiness, but when im alone, i start to think. the past HE would not leave me in the lurch.
WOULD NOT. he will bring me visiting to getmore angpaos. and we'll hang out till late at night at some random uncle&aunties house. SIGH. okay, time to be reasonable.

i've to really thank my Sharlene jiejie and Ronald korkor for bringing me out tomoro, they're gonna bring me out for a movie! OMG. im so excited! SEE?! i've become siao and retarded. im getting excited over an outing. im deprived of it. to the max.

might be going to the HePan (i think its near ... Esplanade), and last year, Me, Eric, Sharlene jiejie & Ronald korkor went. this year, it will be me alone with both of them. :( i've to be a lightbulb to them. sobsob. its as if im not attached.

Alone Alone Alone.
Lonely Lonely Lonely.
Solitude Solitude Solitude.
Isolated Isolated Isolated.

(joei tan xin yi, stop being EMO)

i just saw zhiwei's Vday card for me, so sweet, thank youuuu to the max.

and i saw ShiMing korkor yesterday at MacDonalds. bought my darling boiboi Aloysious to eat Supper. hang out till way late at night, and so korkor and Alan brought me home. i swear, he got me into trouble with my parents, cos he told my mummy hes gonna bring me and boiboi out to Vivocity to walk walk today, and obviously, my mummy didnt allow me to. Because...................................... i shall not elaborate.

have to catch up with my frens real soon. dajie, rachel, 4E4, gheeting darling, melanie darling, WNH gang, serene, joan, jason dage, zhiwei, glenn, and more.

and i swear, kacang&stripey is the cutest hammie alive, they are the world's most important darlings. i cannot CANNOT cannot live without them. and my mummy gave both of them an ang pao each, so so so cute.

Joei is feeling __________ again.


Somehow, i wish you were here with me tonight.
Spending CNY without you just doesnt seem right.
So, i look up and wish upon that starlight,
That probably next year you just might.

computer broke down.
no time to update.

13th Feb was a splendid day,
and so was 14th Feb, Valentines Day! so many pressies ranging from pretty pretty daisies to balloons! and cookies and chocolates and alot of other things. and i especially love home delivery flowers! they totally made my day.

and 06A3 won the class decorations! we screamed like crazy and we were happy!
YAY! im happy too. everyone was happy.

Friday was sucha busy busy day, ahaha, had to shop, and had to atttend priya's darling bday chalet. that bungalow was huge, and we had fun. alot of fun, although i did not touch any alcohol, i am afraid to go through the terrible headache and vomitting that follows, or the unconscious state of mind that allows one to spout rubbish. totally not wad i want. and therefore, i will not drink any from now on.

Staying over was such fun! though i slept . ahaha. and went to OCH the next morning. wasn't scary, i wanna go there again! LETS GO! cant wait for the next chalet during March hols. gosh. it'll be a blast i swear.

just painted my nails red. looking forward to my ChineseNewYEar,
BUT, theres still a BUT.
its not the same this year anymore. yupyup.
i'll not be going to any lion dance's uncle and aunties houses anymore.
:( i cant see pretty pretty jiejies anymore.
and i cant get more ang paos.

this year, im all alone (in a sense ) .
for the past 2 years, i had companion.
this year, dunno who muz go to malaysia. and leave me all alone here.
ITS OKAY.
(im trying not to be unhappy!)hahahahaa.

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.

i've lotsa pics to upload, but so little time.
will soon. very soon okay!

i am feeling _______.

Fill in the blanks for me, thanks.

FRIDAY.
had so much fun in the afternoon. shopping at town with Pu&Syl.
sorrrry for being late late late. i swear im the sorriest shit on earth.
but its so much fun hanging out with them. hahahaha.
the most unpleasant day can also turn out perfect.
PURANI DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
SYLVIA DARLING, I LOVE YOU.

yupp, and headed off to Dyan's partyyyyyyyy!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO.
fun describes it all.
and lotsa drinking.
i love the FOOD especially though.
me n sylvia ate like crazy.
the Prawns. woohoo. they drive us wild.
and yea, i had my FIRST EVER Tequila shots.
TEQUILA SHOTS. with salt & lemon! OMG SO COOL.
yea, although i drank bout maybe less than 5 shots.
i conked out and died.
i spouted the world's nonsensical nonsense.
:(
and i puked at 3.30am.
and i can't sleep because my head was spinning, throbbing, and everything.

and therefore, i Joei Tan Xin Yi, SWEAR never to touch or drink Tequila in my life.
Because i see no point in torturing my body. my head. and, yea, pple's feelings.
I will not drink again.

SATURDAY.
FUN-NESS.
HAPPY-NESS.
WEEEHEEEEE.
i totally enjoyedddddd myself.
The Asian Kitchen.
The Protege.
Just Noodle.
Esplanade.
and lastly, MY NICENICE GUESS? WALLET!
OMG. im gonna die of happiness.

IMPORTANT! **yupp, happy happy 1st year friendship!
hugs&kisses. to KalvinHoeZhiWei.

oh ya, to sandra waffles penguina(issit this way?), I MISS YOU.
gheeting darling, I MISS YOU. when are we gonna meet?


yup, and gonna meet purani&sylvia tomoro to go Chinatown to buy chinese new year decorations. and if we are going to skip school on Monday, we'll so be meeting again to go to Escape theme park or Sentosa. ahahahahahahaha.
we're already seeing each other EVERYDAY in school , and every other day of our lives.
we'll die of each other someday.

MR MIP. ;) hello.

Q1. Do you have a valentine ?
-NO I DONT. I AM FUCKING SERIOUS.

Q2. Do u want a valentine ?
- I USED TO WANT. BUT NOT NOW.

Q3. What if no one asked u out onValentine's day ?
- hahaha, pple already asked, so yea.

Q4.What if ur favourite guy/girl thatu've been crushed on for years asked u out on Valentine's day?
- no i've no crush on anyone for years.so that wouldn't really be possible.

Q5. If yes,what if u already haveanother date that u suddenly remember on that same day?
- den stay at home and cry lor.

Q6. What if ur bf/gf cannot go out with u on valentine's day ?
- oooh. nothing new for this year.

Q7. What will u do if u saw ur your bf/gf going out with another person on valentine's day instead of u?
- byebye loser. (but i probably might be doing that too)

Q8. Your parents locked you up in your room for the whole day at valentine'sday. Your all alone. How will you feel?
- my daddy and mummy wun do that.

Q9. Your parents insist of bringing you out on valentines day for the whole day and you can't spend the day with your lover,what will you do?
- Rhetorical Question : What if you LOVER can't spend it with you then? Are you gonna stick with him?

Q10. Where will you wish to have your valentine's day celebrated at?
- New Zealand! or just some animal animal place.

i am sad.

and if you are the cause of it, you know why.

are you ashamed to be with me?

because if you are, i'll just let it be.

if its my beauty you can't see,

then by all means, set me free.

HAHAHAHA.
common test is OVER.
byebye common test, byebye loser no life joei.
its very-full-of-life joei now.
woohoo.

i can finally shop without worries!
and go out like nobody's business.
yippeeee.

AND SLEEP. :)

oooh, i went for my spa facial with my mummy today.
9 more sessions to go! damn fun! i love it.
i like the person who did it for me, shes pretty and nice.
and we became frens. hahahaha.
now, my face is flawlessly flawless.
weeeheeeee.

double happiness.

and sorry purani & sylvia x 10000000 million times.promise will not let facial issue affect us from going out again. muacks.

and birthday party tomoro! cannot wait.
plus going out with purani&sylvia tomoro!
double cannot wait.

Saturday, PERFECT day for shopping.
wee, im so in the mood. YAY!

sigh, i swear i've grown so fat, i cant pass thru doors anymore. :(
but its okay, who cares?
hahahaa.

YAY! joei is very happy.
yay! i feel like jumping. i dunno why also.

my all time good friend have evolved to my very good best friend on Saturday.
cos talking is bonding, dont u think?
:) i lovelovelovelovelove her. hugs&kisses.


and i got my new Fleshimp bag. haha. love my mummy. like alot.
and, its 69.90.

and with all the impulse shopping urges lately,
u'll soon hear me declaring blankruptcy.
and i'll vanish from the surface of the earth.

my common test is so not over, and here i am,
planning bout events AFTER my tests. :(
study mood please come quick.
4 more gay retarded dumb days to go!

upcoming cool events:
Science Centre, Jurong BirdPark, Sentosa, Booze birthday parties, lots and lots of shoppings, manicures&pedicures with dajie, Spa facial package[YAY!], Escape theme park, bikini swimming(i say say only la, i also wun wear, hahaha), VALENTINES DAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR, and lots more shoppings.

i think all these are the causes of why pple will go mad.

its been so so so long since i've seen you,
i've forgotten how it feels like to be with you.
make me wait no longer, will you?

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
sorry, no offence, but thats really the image of u in my head.
i can't help it either.
and i cant help but think my hair is quite nice in this shot.

when i was at the airport yesterday,
a myriad of memories flooded me.

and i have this undescribable urge to just run in the customs and board any random plane.
to any random country. (and to eat aeroplane food for the rest of my life) [because i fucking love aeroplane food, makes me very very super happy]

i really do not wanna stay here any longer.

yes, thats it. i DO NOT wanna stay in this fast-paced crazy life.
where i've to wake up at 5.30 every morning, and den sleep at insane hours in the wee morning.
and so many weird weird things i hafta face.
it gets quite tiring sometimes. and i don think i've any more energy to face any of them.
despite the long hours i've been zzz-ing.

REALLY! please let me just POOFFFFF! and appear in some very relaxing country..
like New Zealand! woohoo.
i'll just live in isolation FOREVER in a small cute farm, nono, make it LARGE cute farm , where lots and lots of animals will accompany me FOR LIFE.
and i'll bring Kacang & Stripey with me, yay!
i'll be the happiest person on earth if i face all the cute cute animals everyday!

or let me just live in a SPA RESORT forever.
and let me indulge in some SPA treatments for the rest of my entire life.
i swear, Joei will be the most RELAXED piece of muscle ever living in this universe.
i'll be so RELAXED, i'll just be a piece of useless muscle. hahahaha.

[my tongue ulcer is hurting, to the max]

i like to escape reality and the truth.
its my favourite hobby.
Doctor says im suffering from stress & tension headache & over-tiredness,
im starting to believe him.

:( i can't wait to go overseas!
please, bring me there somebody.
cos i'll go berserk if i continue being a deranged bitch.

**ohhhhh. i saw a Fleshimp bag at Plaza Sing, damn hot la. im so gonna get it. $69.90 . weehee. my dad says he'll get it for me. but im so not a Fleshimp-py person. i shall be a Poser. ahahahah, but seriously, the bag is so hot. im fantasizing bout it EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE*

when i was still suffering from a broken heart.(but i still look very happy)
hahaha, my last day of 2006!
everyone except ME, tommy, jason dage, and the white colour shirt guy whose name is Jiaming looks weird here. either they are NOT smiling or keeping their eyes closed.

okay, sorry for random pics. i found it in My Received Files anyway.

i've not been in school for 2 days, sorry purani&sylvia! i know u both asked me to try to go school, but im really tried, and i need sleep badly! real real real badly. sorry darling, i love you both anyway.

THURSDAY. slept the whole day again. am happy cos i slept the whole day.
but woke up feeling real depressed, so i headed to town alone to shop.
and i came back a smiling girl, i got so many things!
4 shorts and some body scrub thingy from body shop.
i really love shopping ! and i refuse to see how much is left in my bank.
REFUSE TO.
and headed to airport to fecth my mummy, shes finally back after 3 weeks of abandoning me.
and she got the Vodka for Dyandarling. so happy!
i heard a happy news on the cab home! maybe its good news to me, but not good news to the someone.

meddle around with my darling hammies when i got home. and den, chatted on the phone with losers. and i went to sleep AGAIN.

tadah! lots of sleep makes me smile.

**by the way, my right eye is itching like crazy, for 4 consecutive days. and theres this ulcer on my tongue for 4 days already as well! and i've flu for 2 days. and sore throat(the on off on off kind) for a WEEK already!

IM SURE MURUKU IKAN IS THE CAUSE OF ALL THESE!

thanks for giving me the attention,
but its not you i want it from.

I wish time would pass FASTER.

and now, i am positively sure the reason why im eating like a deranged shit is because i ain't feeling too good. hmm. im really outta my mind, im eating like a slut, like a slut who haven ate for 3727172 days. seriously, i dunno where did i get all my appetite from. omg. it scares me too.
im just continuously eating. after eating. and after eating. im scaring everyone else around me too. my new middle name is GREEDY.

yea, and i had Sakae Sushi Buffet Lunch with sylvia darling today, and as usual, did ALOT of illegal stuffs. laughed till we died. and i thought of how me n gheeting used to do all those nonsense too. haha.

Purani darling did not go to school today. :(

and, sleeping makes me smile. i shall make sleeping my no.1 love.
OMG NO. Kacang&Stripey ARE my NO.1 LOVE like, forever to the max kinda thing.

yes, i will not destroy any friendship okay. WILL NOT.
WILL NOT WILL NOT.

i wanna drink some booze and get wasted.
already have 2 booze parties ahead after my common test! (yippee yay!)
*ACTs EMO and feels that i should drown my sorrows in alcohol*

my daddy is so gonna get me my camera! HAPPY TO THE MAX.

THE PAST. at Bartley Campus. i just really love it there, i miss everything there.
Food, People, Classroom, Teachers, EVERYTHING.
and look how young we look.


After PE, looking real haggard.


THE PAST, at Bartley Campus again! :) i really love it there with my girls.
i love you all.


AND THE PRESENT... !!

o6A3 girls.


my darlings!


yup, we're all happy pple!


and of cos, really happy pple.


and.. i really love school to the max.

(thanks dyan darling for pictures!) yay!

and thats why i love Monday for today. and that , i love school !
its just so so fun.

MONDAY.

and i thought i would have Monday Blues, turns out the total opposite.
it was a funfunfunfun day to the max.cos me n sylvia was binging on rubbish in class,
like MURUKU IKAN, and COCO CRUNCH. yummy yummy. and we laughed like crazy pple.
and i heard shes bringing more food for me n purani tomoro. muahaha.

today's PE was so scary la, kept running, and muz jump so high. im like so scared. :(

and today was really fun ! except i know i tried to be mean to somebody in school, not like i can help it though. considering that, well, forget it, im not gonna elaborate here. its so not me to be mean to pple unnecessarily. UNLESS there is a need to. but i just wouldn't.

and so, i headed to MacDonalds after school ! AND GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!

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GHEETING DARLING! and of cos nicholas and simin.
WOOHOO! we were like crazy ok. we cannot breathe, cos we never plan to meet but we see each other there, the feeling was, hahaa, ORGASM-IE. orgasmie. we practically died . and laughed till we died. on the spot. and she reminded me to blog bout it, so here i am doing it just for her. I LOVE U ANYWAY. and YOU ARE LIKE SOSO SO SO SO SO PRETTY. to the max.
PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY.
:)

yea, im FAT & UGLY, BYE.

SUNDAY.

i spend my Saturday sleeping & eating non-stop.
and im quite pleased with that.
i SLEPT and SLEPT and SLEPT.
i practically hibernated to the max.
and im still very pleased with that. hahahaa.
accumulated tiredness man.
and i wasted a meal , with my darling. :(
never tell me earlier, ARGH.

so, im going to Plaza Sing later.
to study ! yay.
but i doubt i will la anyway.
Plaza Sing is just too filled with temptations.....


was browsing thru my old notebook of the past.
im writing my feelings down there again.
Seriously, im very immature last time,
i dun really know if i've grown up yet,
but the past of myself makes me grimace.
i can't believe i called eric laogong. WTF?
somebody please shoot me.

DYANdarling, FUGLY equates to HER. okay.



and im feeeling real real happy lately. YAY!
no stress. no troubles. no sadness!
if life continues this way, i'll live a hundred years more~

DARLING KACANG&STRIPEY, I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXMAXMAX.

=P


gosh ! my darling Stripey is like SO CUTE.


CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS IS A FUCKING BIRTHDAY CAKE?!
for a 1 year old kid?!?!?!!?
NO I BLOODY CAN'T!!!
why didnt i have it when i was 1 year old!?!


blowing bubble in the midst of a bubble, BUBBLE.


SPASTIC is our middle name.


Friday. very happy. went shopping with Kim & Syl.
bought a Sally Hansen RED nail poilish. FUCKING NICE.
i overslept on the train , did not alight at Khatib, alighted at AngMoKio instead.
den i took 136 home, and stupid 136 have to go pass Serangoon Gardens, which happens to be where a loser hangs out. i was like praying to the max i hope i won't bump into him la.

and.. yupp, i guess things are clearing up a little now, i love talks. talks makes me happy. and sad too of cos. i cannot believe i actually teared k. its so gay lor. gayingly gay to the max. but i hope things will really turn out as how u put it though. i just cannot stand empty promises, i cannot take the blow once more man. i'll probably go berserk and jump to my death. mahaha.

"If you don love me anymore, I'll commit suicide hor!" -quote someone.

Seriously, if i were to ever say that, shoot me, stab me, fuck me, wadever.
cos it'll never ever COME OUT FROM MY MOUTH MAN.
maybe it will, someday, BUT NOT NOW.
only LOSERS will say such bullshits.

This world isn't fair.
I've gained something,
but yet,
i've lost something in return too.
One can never ever be happily perfect in life.
I dunno why .

thanks for the Adidas wallet, damn hot to the max la. matches my Adidas shoes! AAAA. its RED. woohoo to the max. THANKSSSS. and yea, yea. yea, AIYA I DUNNO LA, THANKS K.

**dyan darling, smileee. i understand how u feel bout fugly girls. hahahaa.

OKAY, this is like so true k.

LACK OF SLEEP CAUSES PIMPLES .. TO THE MAX.

sigh, the pimples don seem to go away anymore. sobsob.

i .. am .. feeling .. quite.. happy .. today..
but .. den.. quite down in class cos of some stuffs.
BUT IM OVER IT NOW. yay!

and the worst thing is, i ate the whole day today.
i kept eating non stop to the max.
just keep munching and munching.
and anittha darling bought sandwiches to school for everyone.
LOVE HER to the max la. so sweet.
and .. to syl darling: I LOVE U OK.

anyway, i hope everyday would be fine for me!
joei needs to smile!
so pple around me will smile too!
*wishes hard* that i can stay positive.
and im like missing you to the max.

and thanks mengie for being the nice nice nice nice nice guy, though i know u always treat pple meanly. ALWAYS DISTURB PPLE. but thanks OKAY.

i am .. feeling .. i dunno also.

hahah. i dunno why, but yea, im not really happy.
neither am i really sad. im just feeling very numb.

i think its the exhaustion. the journey to and fro school.
the homeworks, and seriously, everything is tiring me out.

sometimes i wish i can put down everything, any single thing in my life, except my darling hamsters. and den escape to a SPA RESORT! woohoo. i want a SPA RESORT !!
i shall escape there as soon as i can, and i'll never ever come back to the real world.
i will continue escaping till the day i die.

I think Purani&Sylvia doesnt love me anymore, they are constantly laughing at me.
:(

i am officially tired of trying to please everybody.
wads the point anyway?
Why must i act like a slut?
Why must i act icy cool?
Why must i act like im-not-joei ?
Seriously, I SHALL NOT EMBARK ON THIS STUPID PROCESS ANY LONGER.

i shall just,sleep more.and hope things turn out well the next day.as usual.hahahaha.

MY OBSESSION WITH KOTEX. hahahaa. $80 worth of it hor, i won it in some contest.


SYL, JO, PUR.
best friends ah. hahahahaa.


we're in a bobble. barbbleee. bubble.


my darling loves me, yay! YAY!


SYL darling & ME. love you~


know why i love SYL? cos she everyday help me tie this nice nice BUNNY hair.
and makes me look like a slut. haha.


Joei is stressed when she has to copy homework in the morning.


dyan is touching my boobs. hahaha. LOVE YOU. smile more pls.


DYANdarling & ME smooching.


4 in a toilet cubicle. no joke.


ACT handsome BROTHER & ME.
i swear we do not look alike in any way.





alritey, i hope my darling girl Dyan would not be so sad.
and i hope all my teachers will decide to be nice and not give anymore stupid homework.
and i wish that, hmmm. YOU will love me more and treat me nicer!

FUN day in school yesterday and today.
LOVELOVE IT.
love my frens, my sweeties never fails to make me smile and laugh each and everyday.
but im tired, MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY.
will die soon.
JOEI, please hang on!

for Kacang&Stripey darlling, and for my darlinggg.

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Seriously i do not understand guys.
And after all that had happened, i do not want to anymore.
Seriously, they are just a bunch of un-decipherable shits rite.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
save me from my miseries.

im feeeeeeeling ultra vulnerable yet things around me are not helping one bit.
they either do not understand or they are trying to make things worsen.

I officially hate my life. over here. at this very spot in Sengkang.


aiya, i shall just become a whore okay.
den lidat can fuck without worries ma, rite.
den no need study also.
den still can earn money.
den still no need care bout any troubles.
just lie on the fucking bed and open my fucking leg.
den PROBLEM SOLVED.
got money take, still can get pleasure.

THIS KIND OF JOB STILL GOT WHERE ELSE CAN FIND?!

(sorry im just feeeling really down now, pardon my excessive use of FUCKs)





Love = Sex
No Sex = No Love
no? yes?
seriously, i dun know anymore.

Because i miss you, because i need you.

i officially detest Sundays.
because today is Sunday , and im feeeling real real..

two words: FUCKED UP. (to the fucking max)

Seriously, i do not like going home when there are strangers k. (strangers=granny's fren)
but what to do. i dunno wads got into me recently. *double sighs*

i wish i can hurl profanities NON-STOP. 25 hours and 8 days a weeek.

Anyway, why can't things turn out smoothly ha?
If turning into an adult, or growing older means all these troubles,
seriously, i rather be a loserish kid all my life.
At least i do not have to worry bout exams, i do not have to worry bout my partner's exams, i do not have to face any relationships problems, and because of zhiwei, im facing friendship problems for like, the first time in my life? FUCK k. seriously. FUCK.

Love is so complicated.
and so is, ERR, pple loving you.
Love = pussy.

so,if theres a chance, DO NOT be in LOVE.seriously.brings nothing but troubles.gone are the times when love defines SWEET,HONEY,RAINBOWS,BLUE SKIES,BUTTERFLIES,CANDY,LOLLIPOP,MARSHMELLOW,HEART-SHAPED CHOCOLATES. NO!

its like ugly. LOVE is UGLY. its GARBAGE,PANGSAI,PIMPLES,FATS, ERIC(HAHAHA!im so evil) , ERIC's GF,BODY ODOUR, wadever la. add all the gross things here and you will have the definition of love.

and like wad Meng says, the spelling of DISAPPOINTMENT is spelt as J-O-E-I.

seriously k, if all i give pple is disappointment, den FUCK k, i shall have nothing to do with ANYBODY. BYEBYE.


**darling,seriously,study for your exams k.study hard.so we shall like not meet for like 341242476786786 days. alrite.okay, yea you are pressured by many many factors, so i shall not add on to it, you can have all the time you wan to yourself, i'll take a big step back. and, i can't really say im feeling fine or anything. but aiya, life is full of troubles anyway. just get your exams done and over with, get good grades and yay! you can like go US or something. yupp. so, just focus on your work and studies k. FOCUS. and PRIORITISE. shall not bother you ! BYE.




all i wanted was just to spend time with you.
maybe i can, if i were to dream a little more.

seriously. this is a very very serious post to the max.
SERIOUSLY .
some questions are just the cannot-be-answered and cannot-be-deciphered kind in my head.

its like, PLEASE CAN?
we are like over to the max.
OVER. O-V-E-R t o t h e m a x

get it? and when i mean we're over,
it means YOUR ugly name is NOT on my handphone contact list.
AND YOUR FUGLY PROFILE is not on my FRIENDSTER FRIEND LIST.
and ur loser msn is also NOT on my msn list.

ARGHH. wads the purpose of me deleting you from my frenster ha?
SO THAT U CANT SEE ME UPDATING MY PROFILE OR ADDING NEW PICS OR RECEIVING ANY NEW TESTIMONAILS RITE. so that your hand wun itchy itchy come click ME rite? and u fucking bitchass motherfucker HAVE TO come look at my profile u noe.

IT ANNOYS ME GREATLY.seriously.
why are some pple so so so annoying?

seeing your fugly name, eric-NG- just disgusts me greatly.
actually, you don really disgusts me dear, its just,
your current girlfren is like really FUGLISH, that i really cant help but feel disgusted for you.
yea, when u tell me things bout couple being frens after a relationship.
i feel totally okay bout it.
BUT, because u are like associated with somebody so FAT & UGLY & WORTHLESS.

SORRY BUT YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.

i don associate with pple who mixes with fugly pple. anyway, shes your type of girl. so yea, go screw her and get Aids , and den hope both of u die together also la.

and motherfucking piece of retarded shit, stop fucking viewing my profile la.

KNNBCCB, U GOT NO LIFE WAN IZZIT?!?!
so free go and view your that fugly girlfren's profile la.

(i swear she looks like a deformed twilight zone creature, and a huge enormous one at that too)



ok moving on..

i LOVE my hammies. and of cos, my darling.

because im feeling down, my frens are like trying to cheer me up, and hahahaha, they let me see this thingy. i swear i died of laughing. on the spot. when i was still siao over maple last time, i swear i did all these man. AHAHAHAHA. i go around F2-ing to the max. and some of it is like true. it cheered me up for awhile though. thanks thanks. hahahaa. its so late and im not asleep yet! AND MY TUMMY HURTS TO THE BLOODY MAX. DYING SOON LIKE NOW.


When u play too much MapleStory

1)When you try to smile but instead say "F2"
2)When you go out in the public parks and pretend to jump like maplestory characters
3)When you ask direction to balrog
4)When you dont know where ur friend is u say "/find *user*"
5)When you kill snails for money
6)When you take a stick and poke a snail
7)When someone walked past you and you are thinking about right clicking him.
8)When you try to pluck feathers from pigs and cats

SIGH. aiyo.

i do not like to start any post so emo. BUT, AAAAAA. never mind la.

school's super fun lately, except for the exhaustion. i think it rocks to the max.
hahaha. got so many best best bestest frens! LOVE U ALL.
i laugh like constantly to the max. i swear.
and my history teacher is like so cute, i love him.
REALLY. hes super adorable to the maxmaxmax.
he totally made my day fine.
hahaha.

BUT. things turned for the worst! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
FUCK. ok should not swear, but sighhhh to the max.

its times like now, that i wish a SALESMAN would just appear at my doorstep.
yea, as much as how annoying salesperson are, i kinda wish they would appear like NOW.

so that they can advertise, a product like....
A HEARTACHE PILL ! where it can cure a heartache, of cos.
so the conversation would be like. between me and the salesman.

(ding dong ding dong)

SALESMAN : HELLO ! can i talk to anybody please?

ME : yes? can i help u? im not in a very nice mood now, and if u annoy me, i'll bring u in and fuck you.

SALESMAN : okay, u look really nice, but u look so so so sad. BUT RELAX! i've just the thing to make u smile. and to introduce myself first, u may call me MR CHAI.

ME : and what the fuck is that, MR CHAI?

SALESMAN : (took out a box) TADAH! its this box of HEARTACHE PAIN KILLER!

ME : (opens my eyes BIG BIG) OMG! that is like way cool. you mean my heart will not ache after i eat it? as in, seriously?

SALESMAN : OF COS LA! i bluff u for wad, really, just a pill and no more heartache.!

ME : OKAY, IM SO HAVING ONE OF IT! HOW MUCH?!?!?!!?

SALESMAN : darling, this pill is priceless, in exchange for it, u need to learn to trust and love. and once you learn how to trust and love, and learn to give in sometimes, YOUR heartache is the cause of YOUR own stubborn-ness and your unwillingness to give in. Loving means finding something perfect out of an imperfect person. (quote:syl darling) , so in exchange for this pill, are u willing to put in more love and try to give in more in a relationship?

ME : (thinks bout it for awhile) (den cry a few drops of loserish tears) i'll try, good nitey.

(closes my door)


how nice if there really is sucha pill. EAT LIAO DEN HEART WILL NOT ACHE!
MUAHAHAHAA. im gonna be the first to invent it. and yay! i'll be the richest slut on earth.

=( SIGH ...
i wish i can mutilate myself..................






*** OMG. my favourite korkor in the world just gave me a friendster testimonial ! muahahaha. YAY !! ****

When a GUY is quiet and is alone,
He is thinking how good you're and he miss you!!!
(when a guy is quiet , he misses me? NO THATS NOT TRUE. some pple just like to stay quiet for no apparent reason.)

When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
( and im very sure its cos of my boobs or something)

When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.

When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after awhile,
He is not and feels hurts.

When a GUY keep asking you the same question,
He is wondering why you are lying.

When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you belongs to him forever.
( he is horny. if he does that)

When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.

When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and want to know how are you today.

When a GUY sms's u everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.

When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.

When a GUY says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.

When a GUY says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immeditely.


i got that from an email like today. i feel that , some of it are so not true. why on earth does pple come up with sucha nonsensical email ha? i don really understand, but still, maybe some of it are true to a certain extent, cos im not really a guy, i don really know.

okay, lately im a chiongster to the max. i keep doing so many projects and all my homework and everything. i wanna die . but at least i completed lotsa things. but there are still SUPER BLOODY LOTS of things to be done. :( im so depressed . sobsobs. BUT NO CHOICE! i will persevere.

13th january ! :) muz smile on this very day. cos im just like happy to the max.
was an awesome day, had lotsa fun.
shopping&shopping&more shopping.
and yumyum food.
and of cos, the great companion! hahahahaa.
and i had a new necklace which is like gorgeous. and a new handbag.
double yay!
thanks sweets.

and..... of cos. gheeting is staying at my house, we talked like for 13223 days before we slept. and den we made ONEH-ONEH which is like yummy, seriously yummy. not ROCK HARD like the one made the previous day. i loveeee her. and now we're eating HOME DELIVERY MACDONALD. heh heh. and LOVE IS LIKE A MALT CANDY :) we ROcks to the max. yippeee.

and my brother n gheeting is engaging in sex talks, i dunno wad they talking bout but they wan me to blog bout it. siao.

im goin to eat now! BYE!
I LOVE YOU.

i think im either the most cheerful-iest girl, or the most heartless girl like ever.

okay fine, i dunno which but for a relationship of 2 years and 2 months, i took like 6 days to get over it. 6 DAYS. 6 DAYS !!!!

and FUCk, 6 DAYS IS BLOODY FAST TO THE MAX!!!!

i think im heartless.
if not den im siao.

cos i took 2 years to get over a relationship of 2 months and 2 weeks.
im seriously siao.

BUT STILL, i've moved on.
YAY! (:
i've found someone WAY WAY WAY BETTER.
as in seriously way better den the word way better.
smooches.



Thats why I said 2007 would be a much much better year, dont u think?

YAY! i was so EMO today. i cried and cried. for awhile. ahaha. cos my parents throw away my nice nice smell pillows. so sad. no more nice smells. im fucking sad. and i know my parents DO NOT love me anymore. so i send an sms to my mum tellin her shes cruel and she hates me. and i called home to say im not going home today.

and i received a call from my mummy! she asked me not to act like a pathetic loser, and so, shes gonna gimme a SPA FACIAL PACKAGE TREATMENT! OHMYGOSH.

im fucking happy. i can die like now. GOSH.

loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

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i'll be away from the blogging world for awhile.

so, i even change my blog addy.

love all of u . hugs.

im really happy on the 7th Jan. heehee. *blushes*

gosh. i cannot stand it anymore.

happy happy happy happy new year, EVERYONE!

its year 2oo7, and we should all be very very happy bout it!

i had the funnest day of my year on the last day of 2oo6. :)
went to Marina Square & to Esplanade, and to see fireworks.
it was supposedly a many many pple thing, but network wasn't good,
so end up didnt meet alot of other pple.

but im glad got zhiwei! tommy! Jason Da ge! WeiQiang! Jiaming! another Zhiwei! and saw a few pple i noe on the way. like Mengie&co. . and some other losers which i have no idea wad are their names.

and i tell you, the fireworks is like so nice~ lovelovelove it. spectaculars sight.
and im never gonna forget it. its so squeezy though, and im like so short.
im being blocked by so many losers.

all in all, i had lotsa lotsa fun.
i missed out going to a disco with Dickson.
i missed a getaway with gheeting & melanie darling.
i missed a meeting with Glenn.
just for going to Marina Square to Countdown. HAHAHA.
though i think it would be alot more fun with darling gheeting, melanie dearie, and all my WeHaveNoHope pple.

wads more fun is the LATE NIGHT MOVIE with zhiwei & his sister, Doris.
HAHAHA, im so sick, i like Night at the Museum so much that i watched it again !
at 11.40pm . hahaha. the show is really nice. i wanna watch it for the 3rd time. HAHHAHAHA.

(pictures of Countdown 2oo6 will be out real soon, i promise)


and since its the New Year, let me do something really really mean, but im not gonna care la, of cos. its the first n last bad thing i will do.

Because seriously, im very annoyed at the fact that my ex-boyfriend's current girlfren viewed my frenster profile, SERIOUSLY, shes revolting. i swear. not lying. im like, CAN U LIKE KEEP UR EYES TO YOURSELF ANOT? must u view me? MUST U? its so annoying to see somebody so fat & hideous viewing you. makes me wanna delete my frenster account for good.

its not that i wanna make a BIG BIG fuss outta it, but u gotta understand the feeling of somebody so disgusting viewing you., totally makes me wanna die. REALLY.

so if i had a chance, i really wanna write this letter and send it to her.


Dear (FATBITCH) XiaoHui,

I do not know you at all, and i do not want to. And i would like to ask, you got nothing better to do wan ah? Oh ya, you are equally as NO LIFE as your boyfriend, who constantly SURF FRIENDSTER and anyhow anyhow view people. Please lor, you can do that and kill other pple, but don do that to me can?

And i would really like to ask, do you have any twin sister by any chance? Cos i just came back from Thailand and i saw this really really really grosteque-looking transvetite hooker. You know how some transvetite hooker are really chio, slim and all? Well, that particular transvetite who looks exactly like you, is really UGLY, FAT, and those failure failure kind. those no money to do Botox , and inject more female hormones kind. and seriously, she looks like you. As fat n ugly. And wads more, you are a whore , just like her. except i think u are uglier, and fatter, and much more disgusting of cos.

Please do not think i've no life, like why i go look at ugly pple, its because she looks soo ugly(like you, NO U ARE UGLIER) , that she got my attention immediatly. But despite how YUCKY she is, at least i respect her. FOR NOT BEING A BUSYBODY!

Seriously, you ugly is already quite bad liao u know. DEN U STILL MUST PURPOSELY BE so KPO ah. i cannot tahan you. its alrite to be Fat & Ugly & not well-liked by pple. but please leh, don anyhow anyhow view ME, if u pretty still never mind. BUT WITH A FACE LIKE YOURS, i wish u would just die. seriously.

And no, im so NOT jealous with u and my Ex-Boyfriend. Im so over him like to the max. and both of you may spend the rest of your lives together and be road/toilet cleaner as your future career as well. YAY! den both of u can be happy forever! HOW SWEET?

Oh By the way, out of a poll of 20 pple, 4362 pple thinks you are really hideous, and really Fat & Ugly. and that you have no life. (no personal feelings, im not even included in the 4362 pple!)
and they too agree you & him looks like a total circus freak when together.

its just so LOL-able sometimes.

Bye FUGLY whore! See you not!(cos i dowan to die young)

I really hope you die like now, together with him.

Joei`cookies. :)

i am crazy recently. i am hyper partying to the max. i am officially losing my mind!

HAHAHAHA! and im SUPER ULTRA HAPPY~!

thursday was SISTERS DAY for me & gheeting. we spent the WHOLEEEE day together. and its soo soo soo fun. fun fun. we watched Curse of the Golden Flower, the nehnehpok show, its full of overflowing boobs, i swear. and jay looks very very funny, really. and after that , we went to FarEast and walked around and decided to go K-box in Hougang! OMG! ITS THE FUNNEST DAY OF OUR LIVES. we totally sang from 9pm to 2am. TOTALLY. goshh. all the songs we sang are superb. i love singing with her alone! hahaha. and we smuggled food in , and got "said" by the annoying guy, but we did not give a fuck. HEH HEH HEH. and i REALLY do feeel alot alot better just by spending 3 whole days with my darling gheeting. *muacks* darling, i love you so, thanks for being here when i need u. HUGS HUGS!

and Friday , was Millenia Institute's opening day. the Bukit Batok Campus opening day, zhiwei was irresponsible cos he fell asleep and did not wake me up, that ass. and i had to take a cab to Bartley campus! ASSHOLE! i wasted 10bucks just like that.... just like that....... =( sobbies. HAHA. and when i reach school, was greeted by familiar faces that i love! PURANI & SYLVIA! i simply loveeeee u both. we laughed like siao as usual. den sylvia kept stealing glances at me n purani when she was standing at the doorway, !! hahaa.

den we headed to the new campus and me n dyan was bitching so so so much bout guys and love and its SUPER funny ! cos we share the same sentiments for certain things. hahaha. and poor darling purani was nauseous. cos the retarded bus was jerky to the max. anyway, the new campus is SUPERFUCKINGSUPER big. serious. and throughout, annitha, valerie,renuka,priya, dyan, me, purani we were fooling around! its so so fun. and when the dumb Amazing Race Millenia starts, we decided to fuck off from the school and went to West Mall instead. GOOD CHOICE!

COS I WATCHED NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM WITH PURANI! ITS SUPER NICE! PLEASE WATCH IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! its the BEST BEST BEST show on earth. =)

and went to watch Death Note 2 with zhiwei after that. (yay i finally can write zhiwei's name here CLEARLY AND BIGLY!) woohoo. ZHIWEI ZHIWEI ZHIWEI. i was so tempted to eat my Salmon Sashimi with Rice. BUT i resisted my temptations. heh heh heh. bought 3 door thingy. soo soo soo cute . =) so all in all, i had a fun fun fun day !

LOVE U ALL!

3 movies in 2 days. im siao. really..

and ONE MORE THING! i've nothing to do with him anymore! YAY!
cos i returned him the PSP like finally!! and now, we owe each other nothing no more!
YiPPEE! adds on to my already happiness! cannot take it man!
and please stop stalking my frenster and blog. i cannot take it.
your partner has aids and shes ugly and fat and it disgusts me like totally.
and she disgusts ALL my frens too. so please, don stalk me...(im scared k?)

heh heh. i've somewhat recovered. SOMEHOW. thanks to my darling gheeting ! i spent like 3 days with her already. hahahaa. its soo soo soo fun without a boyfriend. GOSH! i can't believe im actually enjoying myself and not indulging in loneliness instead. =D YAY! so so happy. and i really must thank gheeting AGAIN!

cos we had so much fun. we ate maggi noodles with eggs, and luncheon meat. GOSH! its heavenly~~ i LOVE it. den we watched gangster movie and laugh our asses off. and watched megapoden/megalopon some shark show la..

and today we're going out again! to watch Curse of the golden Flower! yay! can see neh neh and jay! hahahahaa.

and im becoming VERY irresponsible. BUT! its the last few days of the year, so its okay, when the new year comes, I WILL BE RESPONSIBLE AGAIN! i promise REALLY.

and thanks to a guy called SongFeng or something(i don really know), thanks for telling me theres a book warehouse sales at Expo. hugs. so nice of you!

all in all, im moving on! MOVING ON TO THE MAX.



**SORRY I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG ADD. SOME GAY SHIT LOSERS KEEP STALKING IT, IM GETTING REALLY SCARED U KNOW**
(but i must be brave, i will change it back to fatcookies.blogspot.com again soon)

jason dage called me yesterday at 1.48am! and we were discussing bout the countdown party. and after which lead to BEING SINGLE. hahaha, we are super thrilled bout it. and we are not feeling sorry for ourselves at all. heh heh. cos we are still young ma! den we must enjoy enjoy! our night time philosophy.

why brood over unhappy things when we only live life once?

and why choose someone who isn't choosing you?

right right right? i think i make some sense.

and i would love to thank:
Roo Peiru
Isabel&co.
Jason dage
Kacang&Stripey

for making my day. =)

If you two come together because you're both lonely and needy and desperate to kiss someone (anyone! ANYONE!! ANYONE!!!). your relationship probabply won't last long.

But if u get along, care about each other, root for each other, and enjoy each other's strengths while also accepting each other's short comings, you just may have something there.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
- Edna St. Vincent Millay


Whether u're the one leaving or the one being left, its undeniably sad when the ove of love becomes the ove of over.

But just as the relationshop didnt last forever, the misery won't either. and while pain stinks, it isn't permanent. so plod along, and if u feel like crying, cry.

BUT THEN!! change the channel ! go for a swim, meet frens for pizza, cook something. build something. play music. VOLUNTEER. keep a journam. pet ur cat/hamster/dog. plan a getaway weekend. rent a movie. read a book.

When love makes an exit, let a flurry of activities sweep in to take its space. Staying busy and involved, even when ur smashed-up heart isnt in it, is the surest way to start feeling good again. that and having someone to talk to - like a best fren, (in fact, many best frens!).

"Patience, my heart: Night's length will pass." -Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Can you take 3 giant steps back? Can you see all the good things that are still in your life? Can you use your hurt to become more passionate?

"Do you believe in life after love?" someone asked. I do. And as k.d. lang pointed out, "Theres nothing like a good heartbreak to get a good song."

Yes, i've been hurt. i've suffered. but that's not what makes me me.
What makes me me is getting through all that stuff, pushing it aside, moving forward.



YES JOEI TAN XIN YI! U CAN! =D

its 26th of Dec liao! im moving on, im still alive. and this shows i can CAN can live without him. in fact, very well indeed. i had so much fun!

yesterday went to meet gheeting and talked like siao, den we went to meet Melanie & Jarael at rivervale mall. i was like, "sigh, i've been here with him before" , and gheeting will be like, "shut up la u whore" .. but she made me smile though. and i had my first proper meal in like forever. Long John's! gheeting darling was so sweet to treat me eat. hahahaa.

den we went to melanie's house. =D BIG SMILE. it was fun, AND AND AND gosh! me n gheeting did something we never ever tried before! and this time, its not just one or two puffs but the whole whole whole thingy! i was like so happy, cos its my first ever time kinda thing. =)

hmmm, some pple says doing that will relieve u off troubles temporarily.. so , i might wanna carry on doing it . but i don feel like getting throat cancer, lung cancer or wadever shit so early leh..

and we went back to mel's house to drink ! we are losers lor, we can't take alchohol.. we had vodka with green tea. we talked & talked & talked all night. but once we switch off the lights, all of us fell into a deep slumber! the next time i woke up was 7.30.. and i did melanie's SUDOKU. im considering getting one. =) time to work my brains.

the weather is PERFECT for sleeping. =) LOVE IT.

and i really would like to thank gheeting darling & melanie darling & jarael darling for being such sweet companions, helps alot. cos when we were sleeping, i slept in the middle of gheeting & melanie, and for once in so many days, i did NOT felt empty n lost, in fact, i felt protected and loved by my frens!

I LOVE MY FRENS ! ALOT ! more den YOU. ^^
and sorry , i take back my words, i CANNOT LIVE without my darling hammieS!
YOU will never ever in be more important den my darling hammies in my life!



oh ya, hmm. i hope there will not be any more FUGLY pple viewing my frenster profile. scares the fuck outta me. SERIOUSLY. wad XiaoHui or dunno wad sai. EEEE. why so ugly de. and im like, TRAUMATISED. so pLEASE. don view me leh. don dirty my frenster k? FAT BITCH. i realise shes got a ZHENG ZHONG PIG FACE. (Original Pig Face). goes to show how Birds of the Same Feathers Flock Together. They look exactly like clowns together! HAHAHA!
(the above is not only MY opinion, but a mixture of ALOT of pple's opinion)
thanks. bcos i don give a flying fuck bout u anymore.


Enjoying every moment of my life~ and im looking forward a much better 2oo7 !