July Babies have these personalities. lets see how many are true.

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

the BOLD ones are true. the rest, kinda RETARDED.

anyway , the quote for today is:
the right person always appear at the WRONGEST time of all.

agree?

yay! sick sick sick ! so i don hafta go to school, says my daddy.
woohoo. weehee. got medical certificate to prove my innocence!
in a great mood cos I'VE BLOODY GOT A NEW PHONE!
its my dream phone! my Samsung E-870. the phone in my wishlist~
HA! i've gotten it. and now i've got free 1000 smses.
OMG. i so cant take it anymore.
and i'll be getting my very very first brand new lappytoppy in a few months time.
my mummy is gonna get me one. woohoooooooo.
life is sooo sooo sooooooooooo exciting and wonderful.
despite my sickness. my sorethroat.

and im not in a nice mood because:
i cannot take it when i see pple suffer. currently, i need to save more money to give my godmummy and goddaddy cos they are suffering from financial crisis. i seriously need to help them. please help me think of ways how to earn and save more money. PLEASEEEEE.
i wanna give them money ! SCREAMS!

im sick ! yay !
i hope i do not need to go to school on monday.
whahaahahha.
YAY! im sick.
=( im suffering.
my throat is hurting to the maxxxxx.
i detest sore throat, its disgusting.
i totally hate FLU, its so flu-ishly annoying.

went to National Library for a local play yesterday, nice. i enjoyed it.
haha, before that went to Bugis for a walk with Syl, Diana, Nadd.
fun fun fun. likes shopping.

sorry dajie, missed a shopping date with u today, i can't go out today! and partly cos im sick too.. we'll do a super gorgeous manicure and buy clothes! WOOHOO. can't wait. and we are so going to the beach to show off our new bikinis. **did i mention to u fans of my blog that my dajie bought me a bikini for my bday present?** YES SHE DID. and i love her dearly for that.

stupid gheeting. you don love me anymore. humpf! u said u cant live without me! i cant live without u too ! :(

no one loves me, no one needs me, no one wants me, no one likes me, no one adores me, no one desire me, no one appreciates me, no one admires me, no one... no one.. no one..

and no one dislikes me. !! whahahahahahahahaha.
YAY! hurray!

did i ever mention that, i, am super happy.
cos i've accomplished something super good and i've waited 5 whole years for that?
and that is, last Friday, i've finally became..
AN SPCA VOLUNTEER WORKER!

omg to the max man! cos im 17! and only pple above 17 are eligible to sign up! woohoo.
i went there 5 years ago only to go back home crying like a retard.
but now, im grinning like an asshole. woohoooooooooooo.
its not any ordinary feat ok, its an SPCA Volunteer Worker.
Advantages are :
- i can be with animals for a long long longggggggggg time.
- i can walk dogs! i can feed them and wash their cages!
- i can kick animals. yay!
- i can play with the bunnies and hammies there. OMG.
- i can ask for pemission to fuck pple who torture animals, yay!
- i can take nail clippers and "kiap" pple who torture animals!

okay shut up, im getting nowhere. just know that, for fuckers who torture animals, i'll make sure i track u fuckers down to the end of your penises or vagina. i SWEAR to my boobs that i'll bloody do triple of wad u do to animals. i ABHOR motherfuckers who injure animals. ARGHHH.
i'll slit their throat and make maggots fuck their wounds, i PROMISE U THIS! and i swear u'll drown in your own horrible nightmare.

(in a world where me n my hammie kacang lives together happily, no troubles, no death, nothing except love, soft soft fur, lots of hugs, and i love my KACANG!) i wanna be in a happyhappyland where there is totally ZERO unhappiness. lots of nice hearted pple, NO backstabbing, lying, DEATHs, no stress or troubles, no sadness, nothing.. and all there would be is.. just all smiles and laughter, LOTS OF ANIMALS!, never ending supply of good food and pretty stuffs, magnificent sceneries and everything.. and most importantly, only pple who truly appreciates and love me will be able to BE ALIVE! woohoo.
* do you have wad it takes to BE ALIVE?

ahaha. =D i should smile more. and not frown. yupyup.
i'll do just that. sometimes, even when the whole world seems like its turning against you, think of ur darling hammie who wants u to smile. and u'll smile.

Emmanuel - Miss you, even if I was just with you. says:
you got a ton of people behind you
thanks Emm, Sandra's beau. u rox just like she do.

friends.

do i look un-trustworthy? do i seriously LOOK UNTRUSTWORTHY?
why issit that pple perceive me as an untrustworthy person ha?
im like the best person u tell ur secrets to. wadever.
im so dreading of everything now.

and sometimes, i rather have no friends.

joan, my neighbour, the sweetie who lives on the 8th floor of my block. my sister since the day we were born ! (haha.) my primary sch fren. my sister FOREVER. together with serene.
we are all the Tan-nies. joan tan. serene tan. joei tan.
and joan is being the most perfect sweetie, always always always standing by me. shes the prettiest and slimmest thing ever on earth man. she makes my day.
- said:
because u're joei tan xin yi
- said:
and joei tan's lovable and shld be loved.
so sweettttt. i loveee her.
of cos, shes not the only one who made me feel better when i was feeling the downest shit on earth.
nice souls like Purani dear made me feel better to the max. i love u!and waffles who did her very very cool post on me. i love u too! u all should go read it. and yup, small things that pple do makes u feel so blissed and blessed.
**i hope my girls Dyan & Sylvia feels better soon..always frowning over lovey dovey thingies. don frown la. cos i love u all always.-hugs-

the post for today is: Kacang is so cute.

list of things i bought for my darling kacang in 2 days:

1. a super cute sand bathing container! IT COMES WITH A SCOOPER!*grins at zhiwei*
2. a hamster leash. just made especially for hammies. kacang looks superultra CUTE!
3. a tunnel, made of two barrels.
4. a playground. damn nice! consists of artificial trees, ladder, fences, garden.
5. a hammie ball! so it can explore.
6. probably buying bedding from www.petmart.com.sg ..

heehee! im in a super good mood. cos my hammie is having a good life!

cookies is contented when she sees her hammie darling Kacang having a good life to the max.

because. i love you alot my darling kacang. hugs.

lemme go kiss u now. *grins at everyone!

i wish it would never ever ever leave me! woohoo.

my life seriously fuckin sucks to the maximum of the maximum of the maximum of the maximum of the maximum OF THE MAXIMUM.
i WILL NOT update my blog UNTIL my life doesn't sucks.

why can't anyone just die like that?
fufil my sorrows, make me dead by tomorrow..

if one day i migrate to other countries, do not blame me.
i wanna start life anew. alone.

im always unloved.
always.

right, i've got a boyfriend.his name is EricNgYongXiang. A BOYFRIEND TO THE MAX.
happy ?
i so do not wanna publicise this fucking relationship initially alrite.
okay, pursuers, do not wait okay!
DO NOT!
OKAY?
HAPPY!
URHHHHH.
why can't i bloody live a peaceful life?
WHERE EVERYONE IS LIKE A HAMSTER AND DO NOT SPEAK!
WHYY HA?
can you just relax? i noe u love me tothemax but if the torment is like getting over your head, i suggest you just give up and go find some other sluts alrite.
im so fucking sure this world is filled with pretty or cute or wadever shitty whores out there la.
just pick one that suits you okay.
and stop adding pressure on me!!
I DID NOT GO BACK TO ERIC TO BLOODY SEE U SUFFER.
GET IT?
motherfuckingcrap.
please, can i have a peaceful life?
make my phone stop ringing.
please..

fine fine. i update.
this post wun be of much info on my life recently. will do a more detailed one once im over my mourning period okay.
a summary on my life: here goes.

1. my beloved grandfather passed away; i miss and love him dearly.
2. i still miss n love him dearly.
3. i seriously miss my ah gong. :(
4. sighh, i miss my ahgong ALOT.. ;(
5. been to the NDP preview; fireworks nice to the max.
6. i love my hamster; my Kacang. my dearie dearie darling girl.
7. i feel my life suck sometimes. but yet, its like awesome at times.
8. dreamt bout my ahgong hugging me tightly.
9. i missed the 4E5 chalet, sorry to you guys who asked me to go.
10. i didnt run got the X-country. i guarded the bags. yay.
11. i eat alot recently.

IMPORTANT: i wanna have a bunny ! a small small bunny! a cute one ! omg, i just wanna have it. i feel their cages are soo cute. and i wan my hammie to live with my bunny! i wanna get a Netherland Dwarf Bunny. i seriously love love love love bunnies to the max. but it seems there is alot of work to do. like clearing their cages DAILY, and doing grooming for them like clipping their nails every 3 weeks. hmm. i have a few very disturbing questions on getting a bunny.

1. will my darling Kacang get super jealous?! (omg.that cant be happening)
2. will my bunny die ?!?!!?!?!!?!?!
3. wad if it stinks to the max and my family hates it?!
4. wad if my bunny gets sick?!?!
5. wad if i do not know how to trim its nail?
6. wad if my bunny attacks Kacang?!?!
7. OMFG. SHOULD I GET A BUNNY?

pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease. solve my queries. pleaseeeee. i cannot take such questions.

i want a bunny real badly..

OMG. did all of you just see that?
that was a computerised birthday card from:
Sandra, Purani, Kacang, Zhiwei, Nadd, Emmanuel and Hazel n Nutty.
OMG.
with this, i can forgo all presents in the world..
with this, i can just smile 25/8..
with this, i know, that i have true friends that loves me.
and for this, i love u pple ALOT.
this is like, THE BEST THE BEST present EVER.
im so touched la.
its like, OMFG.
the pic is so sweet, plus its so cuteeeeee.
i like the cookie, and the hammie!
its my Kacang u know~!~!
and, the words are.. so.. comforting.
OMGGGG. its the best. sucha niceeee pic.
(EVEN MY DADDY AGREES)
i love u pple. dearly.
thanks,
Sandra, Purani, Kacang, Zhiwei, Nadd, Emmanuel and Hazel n Nutty.

i am so blessed.

my bday tomoro. im so sick to the max.
i can't think of anything else EXCEPT my bday.
currently, have lots of pressies already!
smiles sweetly.
and i know i'll be in for my surprises tomoro.
i love all of u who get me pressies.
LOVES DEARLY~~
and to those who gimme bday wishes. heehee.
wahaahahaha.
i can't wait.

and.. tomoro is Racial Harmony Day.
im so wearing a Sari, from Purani my darling.
shes so uber sweet.
i hope i look good in it.
=D
i guess there will be pictures.
i'll force Purani to take lotsa pictures of us, since she likes taking pics so much.
yippeee! i love frens who loves taking pics for us.
can't wait. gotta wake up at 4am tomoro.
need to meet syldarling at 5.45am.
please pray she will wake up. =)
lots of love.

cookies will be 17 soon.
happy birthday to myself..

just a simple sweet reminder.

MY BIRTHDAY IS ON FRIDAY!

21st July.

hahahahahahaahahahhahahahaa.

please remember the prezzies. thanks.

ouch. so this is life. so bleak, so painful, so melancholic?
no.. dat wasn't my past perspective of life. how did my view on life change so dramatically?
i have no idea. im starting to wonder.. wads my purpose in life. am i even alive inside me?
i feel so dead, so numb and so fake. everything seems so surreal to me.. maybe it would be a blessing in disguise to awake and find myself in a dream..
or probably, i should slash my wrist, to see the blood.. to noe im actually alive.. to noe im actually real..
well, maybe death or killing myself can't help much cos im already dead inside..
wads the difference?
all the tears every night, im so tired of it. and though laugh everyday and claims dat "life is wonderful..", wad does it shows? no one knows the sadness within..
no one knows im dead inside.
everyone thinks im a happy lil ger whos contented with her life..
she has frens, sisters, wadever, lots of them.... wad else matters? but. wad about the love?

LIFE IS FULL OF SHIT!!

fuck my life. lately, its becoming soooo miserable. arghh. so mani troubles. fuck every single human being in this fucked up world. its because of u fuck face humans dat im having all these problems. to hell with u all lah. i hope im the ONLY human left in this world. den im free from all motherfuckin bullshits! u sonofabitches have some mental problems izzit. leave me outta ur life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna be alone in my isolated world. yes. ALONE. get it? A-fuckin-LONE. annoy me again n u assholes are sooo dead. all of u who have pissed me off, may u all have ur throat slit and maggots shall fuck ur wounds. and i'll make sure u drown in ur own nightmares. or u shall get fucked by million of bees and die in a severe MRT crash. u bunch of retards dunno who u are dealing with yet huh.. fuck EVERYONE!!
U ALL OUGHT TO FUCKIN PERISH!!

to Nadira darling especially: we are best frens/sisters forever. i hope u know that, and misunderstandings are bound to occur sometimes. i hope it would not affect us. cos I, joei loves u to bits. i noe u do too. im sorry and yupp, hugs.

maybe. all he wanted is just LOVE from me.
but LOVE is not wad i can give him.
i can make him SMILE, LAUGH, CRY.
i can make him happy.
but i cant LOVE him, not yet.
because there is Eric, the guy
who i noe, will love me.
the guy, who is the prince.

do not frown cos i can't be with you,
i wish u would smile.
cos i love that cute dimpled smile of yours.
makes me smile too.
i don wanna hear u sobbing at the end of the line.
i do not want you to feel sad.
maybe yea, its inevitable.
but please okay.
i know you love me.
i know. who doesnt?
you'll be my knight rite?
u'll be my knight in the ULTRA shiny armour to the max.
so make me feel safe. OKAY!
and not be gay.
i like ur retarded dimpled smile to the max.

im terrified. very very scared.
i cannot take crisis. i CAN'T!
somebody save meeeeeeeeeee.
i cannot face you anymore.
ok, i cannot.
love hurts, seeing the one you love.. go to somebody else.
of cos it hurts.
but,
fuck.
i screw up big time. biggggg bloodddyyyyy timeeeee.
im sorry.
sorry doesn't help.
okay, theres nothing i can do.
ohmyfuckingod.
OHMYMOTHERFUCKINGOD.
lemme die. just lemme die.
OMGGGGG. i am sucha fucked up slut.

my night out with Jarael darling n Gheeting dearie. at some voiddecks.


hahahahaha. exams are over. now its the results. so far, i've only passed Chinese. =D
im happy with myself. at least pass one also happy! woohoo. and den, i got an A grade for Benny Lim's ASEAN thingy. WOOHOO. im more than happy. happier den happy.
even though i just lost $69. =(
its okay. for a bday prezzie. i guess. never give anyone sucha expensive prezzie before.

and i just met up with Xmark korkor, melanie darling, Jaraeldear, and GHEETING! my soulmate! woohoo.
we slacked around some blocks. talking and bullying some retards.
got scolded by some assholes. hahaha. and some pure heart-t0-heart talks.
me n gheeting made some cool plans to go out someday next week,
i can sense some happiness approaching.
life is just lovely with her~! i swear with my pubic hair.
we will never ever part, thats wad she worries most.
we'll go pubbing together. shop and bath together. sleep. have scandals and cheat on pple together.
we are always the same old joei n gheeting.
where pple see me and say "gheeting leh?" and pple see u and say "joei leh?"
do not worry bout me forgetting you, i should worry.
and darling, i really love you. -hugs u tightly-
i hope u will brace up .. do not feel stressed. cos there is always my smile. =) i love u..

and so gheeting is considered my SUPER UBER GOOD FREN. obviously good frens are just a few.
a few of my good frens are: serene, joan, gheeting, melanie, dajie, rachel, peiqi, jiemin, gladys, josephine, jean, jarael, xmark, damark, johnnie, shihui, priscilla, purani, sandra, nad, diana, sylvia,esther, blah blah blah blah.
-POST EDITTED- section on FRIENDS is all bullshit.

watched BOO! today. erm. quite scary. but yea.. SCARY. hahahahhahahaha.
wad a loser. i hate losers who cover or close their eyes while watching horror movies.

and im going to the zoo tomoro! damn cool. woohoo.
i LOVE the zoo. have i mentioned that? zoo is like so cool. so many animals
i wanna work there if i have the chance.
i LOVE animals. muahaha. yay!

**if u need help buying my birthday prezzie, kindly refer to a few posts back, where i posted my WISHLIST. or if u need further help, leave me a message at my tag board, and i'll post another wishlist.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHa.
MY BIRTHDAY IS APPROACHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
so excited.

yay finally can do this. Valerie tagged me to do it. so although abit late. im still doin it. yay!
exams over and i aint stressed anymore.
woohoo. promise to study beforehand next time. i swear.

okay , lets start.
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. im FAT n UGLY to the max
2. i love my hamsters ALOT. ALOT. ALOT.
3. i've got straight brown hair. NATURAL WAN U NOE!
4. my boobs are gorgeous. really. its like, WOW.
5. i love eating good food. ALOT. i'll die for it.
6. i love SMILING! and laughing loudly.
7. i am a shopaholic. a serious one at that too.

7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME
1. LIZARDS. BEETLES.
2. THUNDERS. *screams.
3. the thought of my hammie darling leaving me.
4. being forgotten by pple.
5. when pple says im fat.
6. being moneyless
7. being involved in any LOVE matters.

7 RANDOM THOUGHTS AT THE MOMENT
1. can my darling hamster be immortal? can it not die forever?
2. i hope to slim down, within a week.
3. i wanna be pretty. =(
4. i miss my soulmate Gheeting and Melanie darling alot. and my 4E4 darlings.like dajie,rach,peiqi,jean,jiemin,jo,xiaoyi
5. i am feeling happy now.
6. i want a Syrian hamster.
7. MY BIRTHDAY IS APPROACHING! yay! <everyone pls look here>

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. shut up loser
2. fuck off
3. hahahahahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahhahahaha
4. u're a bitch/slut/whore
5. retarded fucker
6. NEENAABEHH?
7. TO THE MAX!

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
1. Kacang
2. XiaoMing
3. Harman & Kardon (winks at Gheeting)
4. Zhiwei
5. Purani
6. Dyan
7. Tofuman

7 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME
1. i love smelling my pillow.
2. i love kissing and smelling and talking and biting my hamster.
3. i am in love with my soulmate gheeting.
4. i cannot live without shopping and eating good food.
5. i get orgasms easily, just by eating yummy yummy food.
6. i like melancholic things, although im a cheerful girl.
7. i love scary things. the scarier, the more i love. like zombies, cannibals, etc.

so did u all enjoy yourself? hahahaha.
miss ya all. muacks.

OMG. woohoo ! its like, my keyboard has been down for a week ! and i can't blog. but now, the HP computer man came and replace it with a BRAND NEW keyboard, which is like, OMG, damn chio la. and very non-seasoned. very un-soft. like, very brand new. hahahaahahahhahaa. shut up.

and hmmm. i shall blog more.. lemme go to my god mummy's house first.

a note.
JOEI'S BDAY IS APPROACHING.
PRESENTS ARE EXPECTED.
IMPORTANT.

21st july is my birthday.

jealous. =(

i don like zhiwei. bitch.

sigh. there are so many problems going thru my head now.
i don wish to live, but there are so many things holding me back.
friends, families, especially my hamsters, good food and all.
so wads this thought of dying doing in my head?
i noe i may sound exceptionally foolish and immature at this point of time.
any of you may kill me anytime you want.
but again, i wanna probe. wheres the positive attitude i have in the past?
i've let so many pple down, like mr benny lim. im so sorry ok.
and sigh, theres this controversy in me about whether can death solve anything or not.
feel free to join in the debate.
my heart and my mind is in a whirl.
whether to die or not to live.
am i just PMSing? or am i just "growing up" and having hormonal changes.
i've no idea anymore. im not even bein sensible here.
im feeling miserable and shattered.
maybe i should get help.. and get rid of suicidal thoughts now.
self-mutilation is painful.. =( it is..

a part of me wants to die, a part of me does not.

ok this is real, as in really real..

joei have officially gotten a fever.

a fever after so many days of telling pple im not okay.
and nobody wanna believe me.

an aching muscle,
a splitting headache,
heart palpitations,
lao-sai-ing.

and nobody believes me. no one. not one at all.

let me repeat this fact, no one believes me.

i'll be off to see the doctor tomorrow.
i will not be going for the exams.
its taken its toll on me.
sorry.

hurray! somebody replied me. muahahaha. u all dun hafta know who issit. lalalala.

exams in a few minutes. i hope i can die now.
and why am i always the one experiencing all the fake retards?
tell me please, why?
its always the same thing that pisses me off before and after an exam.
its like, SHUT THE FUCK UP pls all of you, YES, ALL OF U.
maybe its the stress level in me rising, but still.
if there is anyone who DID NOT study, it would be the fucked up bitch here typing out this entry.
if there is anyone who STUDIED, obviously it would be the rest of the civilians out there.
and if you retards say u did NOT studied, FAIL LET ME SEE! YA BLOODY HELL FAIL ok?
ironically, pple who often say they DID NOT study, pass with soaring high marks.
higher den the planes up there man. higher den the word higher.
the feeling is not pleasant for me AT ALL.
bcos i know, and i will flunk my Mid years.
so all of you, shut the bloody fuck up ok?

this post is not directed to anyone in particular. do not assume things.

in the mood for poems. so... yea. hahaha.
don worry all of you.
im just TRYING to be melancholic.
DO NOT ask me "wad happened to you" or wadever.
im fine. really. =D hugs everyone.
im just in a mood for poems.

Am i Alone

I get a funny feeling,it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm retarded,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.

-end-

and now, i hope you would not get hurt.
probably the hurt is inevitable.
but. your happiness is all that matters to me.
really. i want you to smile.
i want you to feel happy.
please, for the sake of u loving me so much,
stay happy, won't you? please?

hugs n kisses all.

yes hi everyone. everyone hi.
ya hi. when i say hi, i expect YOU ALL to say hi to in front of your computer.
NOW! say hi, and WAVE for extra effect. QUICK. i insist.
SAY HI AND WAVE.
okay, i see u are doing it now. lets proceed.
only pple who says hi and waves get to see wad i write.
really.
really lah.

okay, so i've done all holiday assignments. yay neenaabeh.
and den. laughed like a crazy horny fucker lately.
to THE MAX. its like, wadever kinda thing.
did not study at-fuckin-all.
which is like, WTF kinda thing.
den.. gave Sandra, ANTS-KILLER, HAMSTER CAGE, AND A HAMSTER CARRIER!
u waffles! better show me more love u idiot.
see how nice i treat u.
made purani laughed like a slut when i told her some dumb jokes.
and she still insists i have a nipple stand in class,
she doesnt get the fact that nipples erect when pple are cold to the max,
she insists im horny, horny in Chris Lee's class FOR WAD? u tell me. FOR WAD?
aiya, thats how simpletons thing. i cant blame her. dumbass.
and Nadira, Sylvia darlings, hahaha, laughed more. like retards to the max.
and its like, LAUGH ALOT. for the funniest thing alive.

and i miss my hongkong fren ALOT. its like, Stephanie is pretty to the max!
WTF! where can pple be so pretty?!?! its like, so neenaabehh. and she sleeps alot.
maybe i should sleep alot to make me look pretty too.

and .. i passed my 2.4. with alot of shortcuts. now suffering from muscle pains and all. i cant climb up and down stairs, wad a loser. argh. some painess in the thigh. my shoulders, my arms.
so cheebye? okok. so pussy hor?

and den .. wad else.. oh ya. i love my hamsters TO THE MAX.
and i've got no money to the max.
thanks to the nicest person on earth to gimme thirty bucks.
u're the nicest shit on earth man.

and hmmm. the previous entry, its like, so childish? TO THE MAX?
Eric the asshole called to say he loves me like a fucker.
ooo? and he misses me.
and that there are no other sluts in his life.
i see. i see. i see.
should i get back to him or not?
he asked me dat.
yupyup. still in the midst of considering.

by the way, i love sandra & Purani to the max la. the way they are so protective to me.. I LOVE THEM.
hugs n kisses to the max.
and of cos, all my darlings which laughed bout THE MASK thingy. ahahhaaha.

the worst thing can jus happen now.. i.. miss.. you.. and i bloody hate you.

=( sigh. its like. so. wadever. i tot matters of the heart would NOT bother me like ever again kinda thing. but its like. aiya wadever. sometimes when ur life is too hectic, filled with school, homeworks, studies, girlfrens, who cares about the boifren rite? and so, i tot i could live without him. i thought. i am sucha failure, a downright one at that too. im gonna be a disappointment to another particular person. theres this empty feeling in my heart. VERY EMPTY. DEN! an impact hit me. was browsing thru frenster, and WHATTHEFUCKINFUCK! GUESS WAD I SAW?!?!?!?! ITS SO BLOODYMOTHERFUCKINGGAY ok! im nt gonna mention wad pissed me off. but, wad the fuck ! i thought, we had a chance of reconcilation. i thought. theres this pang of pain rushing thru my heart right now. *OUCH! dies of excessive pain. PLEASE LA BART SIMPSON, my heart is just a small piece of muscle the size of my fist u noe, can spare it such pain anot? its like, WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
i hope that ugly slut dies, i don care if shes ur fren or wadever.
and ur frenster profile, u fuckin flirt.
u don mean wad u say.
U THIS CHEEBYE.
and to think i love u so.
u are jus a player, arent u?
screams!! BART SIMPSON IS A SUCKER!!

just as i wanted to hold u tight again,
u just let go of me, without any pain.

am i cute? or am i cute? or am i cute? or am i cute?

ok , i noe im supposed to be doing my history assignment right now.
my head is filling itself up with dumb facts on ASEAN.
ASEAN! why the fuck would i wanna noe about it!? and i gotta do roleplay.
roleplay myself as a Secretary-General of ASEAN.
do u noe. do u noe. do u noe. that i read it on the web that,
it takes ALOT, as in ALOT. just to be a Secretary-General of ASEAN.
and den, now, im not even contributing anything to the society,
and i can bloody be a Secretary-General of ASEAN.
its so cool. ya think on the positive side, cookies.
think positive. feel positive. positive things will go ur way den.
sigh......... im doin rush work now. hahaaaaa. hope i can finish it. hope. sighh.

anyway, i keep getting distracted by thoughts of my hamsters. WHY?!
i keep thinking bout it. non-stop.
i wish hammies will never die. i seriously wish it will never die.
i wanna spend the rest of my life with it.
my hammies are my oxygen !!
and i read it on the web that once hammies are gonna die,
there will be lumps on the body. screams.
i dowan that to happen to my darling Kacang!
SOBSOBs. i love my hammies too much.
i dowan to lose it.........................................
i wish i can eradicate all deaths in hammies, and i hope there are no illness or diseases in hammies.
i feel that if in any case, my hammies leave me, i'll most probably die with it too.
serious.
the pain would be too much to bear.
it would be even worst den ur most beloved boifren or wadever crushes rejecting you.
i do .. love .. my hamsters. alot. deeply.
my beloved hammies are pampered to the bloody max. its like, argh.
they are royalties in my household. =D
Kacang, sister of Eric's hammie Puteh. is one of the best hammie ever existed.
shes the most gentlest dumbest shit on earth. she never ever bites. NEVER EVER, NOT ONCE.
shes fluffy, soft, smooth, cuddly, sweet and OMG, she SMELLS GREAT!
and she gives the greatest fabulous kisses on earth, no one else comes close to it.
not even Cristiano Ronaldo.
she loves me alot, serious. im not lying.
i can squeeze her till her eyes pop out and she still doesnt squeak or anything.
i poke her as hard as i can, only to have her falling back asleep.
i place her inside my mouth , and she didnt bite or anything. SEE?
isn't my darling jus adorable? aaaaaaaaaaa.
SO IMAGINE WAD WILL HAPPEN TO MY LIFE IF SHE DIES?!!?!!?!!?
shes gonna be my best pet ever.
i play with her everyday of my life.
shes part of it.
shes more important den oxygen to me.
i love u, Kacang.

and of cos i love Hazel n Nutty too. if only Hazel would not run away each time i wanna hold her.
i think shes pregnant, cos she becomes so fat. but oh well, its jus an assumption.
if she really gives birth , i will consider keeping it for myself or giving it away. it all depends.
cos currently, i m thinking of keeping a SYRIAN HAMSTER! (those kind of hamsters that will grow big wan lor.) not Dwarf kind.

cookies & her hammie.

i LOVE my hamsters ! and im probably getting a doggy too. hopes*

Max Brenner's Chocolate Bar FONDUE. yumyum. in Dark Chocolate, Milk Choclate & White Chocolate. its like bloody delicious? with Marshmallows, some Banana Walnut Cake, Strawberries & Banana Slices! *drools.
BEFORE OUR MEAL! look how nice everything is. hehe.


U SURE WE FINISHED EVERY SINGLE THING? SURE?
YES WE DID.
AFTER THE FONDUE. SMILEEEEs.


when i get into my AFTER-MEAL destructive mode.


White Chocolate, but i claim its CUM. noe wad CUM is?
its okay if you don't. CUM looks like that anyway. ahahah, wad a yummy CUM.


My after-lunch ice cream today.
my favourite! Matcha Ice cream~ with my initials "JO" somemore. haahhaa.


okay, so i watched Scary Movie 4 today. xiaobai gotta pay his soccer debts to me.
so i watched the movie for freeeeee. yay!
can we bet more soccer matches pls?
den went to Kinokuniya to get some books, and headed to Orchard library.
den went to Esplanade.
headed to MAX BRENNER's CHOCOLATE BAR!
WOOHOO. yumyum.
and den saw some interesting things. (a gigolo!)
i swear, its a gigolo, and a very hot looking one at that too.
that fuckin taitai slut is rich to the max la.
NNB. can pay for a gigolo! so gorgeous wan somemore..
after their meal, THE TAITAI pay u noe.. WAHLAO.
i wanna be gigolo already! got sucha good life.
can eat good food for FREEEEEEEEEEEEE.
the route to the gigolo life, HERE I COMEEEEEEE.

i love chocolate Fonduess. yumyum. YUMYUM. aaaa.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i wanna be a GIGOLO !! SOMEONE PLEASE BUY ME! (provided u're rich n u can afford me)
im for sale~im officially a gigolo.
*searches for wad gigolo does. or the job requirements.

okiee, beeboo!

note: my darlings nadira & sandra are LOSERS. BECAUSE im a LVL 11 in KOL! ahahahaaha. YAY.
2nd note: i hope everything goes well for my melanie the slut darling, loves her. and i miss gheeting my soulmate alot..
3rd note: i miss my dajie & rachel. and my 4e4 girlfrens.
*weeps alot. MISSS ALL MY FRIENDS SUPER DEEPLY.

its seriously time to PRIORITISE.

sounds super easy rite. PRIORITISE. PRIORITISE=FUCK man.
im lying in the midst of a whole lump of mess.
no where to head to. i feel so blooody lost.
sooo miserable.
melancholic? u bet i am.
depressed. soon to be, my dears.
i wanna escape reality sometimes.
maybe jus for awhile?
reality sucks. whoever said reality was nice should jus get fucked by a million ants.
yes it does stinks.
Life doesn't sucks of cos. its reality that makes it soo awful.
why why why why why why why?

you see, i've always wanted to be a counsellor, a social worker.
all bcos i want to ease pple from their sufferings.
i don like sufferings.
i hate to see pple suffer.
i wish i can obliterate all sufferings, and eradicate all pains from humans.
i yearn to do all these.
and yet, i jolly well noe its beyond my means, way beyond it.
wad to do?
sigh.

sometimes when things in life go so bleak,
all i wanna do is just end my life again.

why issit so easy for me to console pple and tell them everything is gonna be okay for them.. telling them there is a solution to everything in life.. there is no unsolved problems around.. life is great.. don worry.. look on the bright side of life.. be positive.. don stressed. everyhing WILL be okay.
and yet, its sucha difficulty putting all these into my head?
WHY ha? WHY!!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
HURLS MORE PROFANITIES! HURLS!!!~~~~~~~~

okiee, beeboo!
*by the way, beeboo in my context means BYE.

things i really hate
1. pple drinking my YAKULT !!
2. when my YAKULT is gone.
3. when i've only 1 bottle of YAKULT left in my refrigerator.
4. and den, the next thing i noe, its gone.
5. when pple offter me Grape or Orange-flavoured YAKULT.
6. when i've got no YAKULT straw.
7. when i see my YAKULT spilling over anything. (ie. my clothing, table, ur mum's ass)
8. when i attempt to feed my hamster with YAKULT. (i really HATE this)
9. when YAKULTS become extinct.
10. when pple spell YAKULT as, YAAACOKEEE, YAKOKE, YARCODE, YATCOKE, YALKODE, YAYOURMOTHERSBOOBS man.

ya, so above mentioned are. things i really really hate.

Yakult is Live L.casei Shirota Strain Non fat Milk Solids 3.4g
Ingredients: Sucrose, Dried Skim Milk, Glucose, Fructose, Flavouring, L.casei
its a Fermented Milk Drink! its a Healthy Family Drink!
WAIT.
family drink?! NONONONONONONNO.
its the healthy JOEI's drink. NO ONE is to snatch my daily dose of YAKULT.
Yakult. =) 100ml a day makes me smile.

ON LOVE.

for one thing, cookies hates retards who constantly probes on "What is Love? haiz.." haiz your fuckface la haiz.. wads so nice to haiz about wad the fuck love is? find out ur mom's boob size and haiz even better. mom's with boob size like ur mom's have kids with retarded brains like yours. shut up.
my definition on LOVE is sophisticated to the max. max max max.
really!
see ah.
LOVE IS....
when u wake up, he is already on your mind.
when u see the truth in every of his lies.
when u want him to take care wherever he goes.
when u see him, I LOVE HIM, u silently utter.
when u hear ur heart breaks, when he held hands with HER.
when his happiness is wad matters to you.
when u'll still love him, and still, he'll never noe.
when u'll swallow the pain and slowly let go.
that's wad love is should be..

now now, isn't that alot better? like i said, make me ur role model, and things jus turn out all perfect. whahahahahahahahahhahaahahhahahahahahahahaa.

is my blog boring or boring ah? aiyo, now that i noe i've got many avid readers.. im becoming more blog-conscious. okok, i give u all something more EXCITING n INTERESTING TO READ OK?
and so..
next coming up..
would be..
something really exciting..
something really interesting..
something u all have been waiting for..
something u guys will never wanna miss..

READY.. ?
1, 2 , 3,
TADAH !!!
MY BIRTHDAY WISHLIST!
ahahahahahaha.

BIRTHDAY WISHLIST.

1. Adidas Jacket!
2. New Bras~ (my boobs size is 34B)
3. YAKULTS! to last me a lifetime.
4. any MOOMOO cow stuffs.
5. HEELs.
6. Spongebob merchandise!
7. slippers! (feet size 5-6)
8. new tops! (make sure get XXXXXXXXL, if not i confirm cant fit in)
9. nice nice glittery hair clips!
10. EARRINGS~~
11. A NEW HAMSTER CAGE!
12. make it 2 NEW HAMSTER CAGE!
13. bring my hammie to a vet! =)
14. a LAPTOP! (parents getting it for me already!) -ommited-
15. Samsung E870!!
16. New School Shoes.
17. Gimme a Chocolate Fondue treat!
18. Cristiano Ronaldo's Jersey~~~~~~~~~
19. colour markers! i really love these.
20. nice nice handbags!

OK, thats where it ends. will end on more if necessary. and if u really intend to get me any of these, kindly lemme know, so i can strike it off, so as to prevent pple getting me repetitive prezzies. muahahhaa. whahahaha. ahahahahaha. 21st July is the day! im gonna make a movie 210789 when i grow up.. who cares about 060606? 210789 more complicated and nicer. heeeheeeeheee.

happy fathers day to all fathers.

happy happy happy fathers day. *muacks all fathers.

and i would like to put in a word dat xiaobai is a very gay name but i like it.

xiaobai is bullshit, xiaobai had sex, xiaobai sucks cocks, xiaobai eats banana skins for a living
xiaobai is gay. xiaobai is xiaobai. XIAOBAI!!

i've watched:
1. The Nun.
2. X-men 3.
3. The Omen.
4. Silent Hill.

WHY ISN'T ANY OF THESE MOVIES SCARY?! i wan scary movies. i like scary movies. why aren't there any movies with the AAAAAA factor kinda thing? sigh. fuck la. thanks zeewee for paying ur soccer debts. hahahahahaahahahahahaha.

COME COME, LETS BET SOCCER WORLD CUP MATCHES WITH MOVIE TICKETS N MEALS TREATS.
*profitable*.. heehee.

sigh, sometimes things get pretty complicated. wad i thought was so simple and easy, turned out to be something so complicating. i tot things would turn out well.. but i felt so entrapped. so trapped by this invisible disgusting wall of wadever. i thought lah. sigh. sorry. sorry. sorryyyyyy.

i feel so bloody fat,as in fat to the max kinda thing. i wanna slim down.. NEED TO. why im so fat, i also dunno. actually i noe. its cos ieat alot. WADEVER. why am i blogging nonsense? sigh.. yay menses over woohoo..

tomoro goin to eat with zeewee's family. muahahaha. EXPENSIVE LEH. my daddy encouraged me to go wan.. cool hor. hahaha. yay can wear nice nice. woohoo.

your smile is worth a million to me.

note: my bday wishlist will be coming up soon.maybe u would like to purchase a printer and some papers to print out JOEI's wishlist and get her all the things she wants for her bday.. or the grim reaper will come n eat ur nipples.

cut my hair again.

yupyup. i noe. 2nd time this week. COOL HOR? i got it cut at Toni&Guy. cool rite? expensive hor.. not as if u all dunno.. Me n Sylvia went to Toni&Guy to get it cut today. same kinda hairstyle.. only our fringe is different. they washed my hair with some super nice smelling shampoo, now i don wanna bath already. my fringe is less den 1cm short. REALLY. im fringeless now. i look like a bloody baby. aiya. i dowan to look cute la. im getting sick of it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. =D yup, went to Bugis with darling Syl today, supposd to study wan, dunno why ended up shopping the whole time. ate Sakae Sushi buffet till we died. and now im broke to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

lately, im PMSing. PMSING to the max. but now, i think im fine. heehee. thanks to my new look.. makes me feel good. heehee. den i finished the China project. happier to the max. and, i got myself new 'going out' peep toes wedges. nicenice. now happpiness increasing. and i got 2 new tops. 1 ultra mini short skirt(which i doubt i'll ever wear). hahahaaaa. happy happy.

but sad to the max. my hammie is sick i think. its balding.. haiz. anyone wanna sponsor me go vet? cos im really broke now. i promise to be ur darling forever if anyone brings my hammie to the vet. promise.

oh ya, my birthday is 21st July. SAVE IT IN UR HP NOW! NOW! NOW!
cos once u read this and do not save it, a ESUFHGIWM monster will turn out above u wherever u go.
and someone will poke a knife into ur butt once u seat on the tolilet bowl..
SO SAVE YOURSELF! SAVE MY BIRTHDAY INTO UR HP CALENDER.
21st JULY ! 21st JuLY!
* and prezzies are seriously expected.
REALLY. if not the ur worst nightmare will happen, like.. hmm. ur hp bill will explode, ur crush will order u to do a doggy style with him, u'll suffer 1 min of death. thats all. really.
HEEHEE.

lotsa loves all. i jus realised i've many avid readers reading my blog like some loyal fans. i really love u pple alot, but why dowan tag? at least lemme noe ur presence. =) muacks !

my korkor, Shiming is back finally~ WOOHOO. its like, so its like man. HAHA. wooooohooooo. he gave me a Tigger u noe. sweet like some crazy ass. i am so ........ so.........so............ *shut up la* (melanie u slut, better stop giving me stupid looks) . and i miss gheeeeetinnggggggg. tat bloody darling soulmate of mine so pretty! i love her bloody straightened hair. not fair!! CCB, now i wanna straighten it already. cant wait to go to the e5 chalet make some pure noises.. miss all those bitchasses so much la. jus yesterday, Fabian, Damark korkor, Jonnie korkor n Melanie darling came to my house make alot of noises. eat my food, play my maple..

Ending note*:$(@%$*@%&#@&!% i loveeeee Portugal! Cristiano Ronaldo had sex with me yesterday!

haiz. short hair. why is everyone like this. all must pretend to act concern and all.. and in the end, all they wanna do is jus smirk at me and ask for my picture of my short hair. its like so fucked up rite? so wad if i have short hair? see for wad? go and die la u assholes.

an exception would be gheeting darling. see our convo.

world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
SLUT
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
ur hair
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
why
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
cut it
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
WHY
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
WHY U WHORE
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
jus felt like itworld cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
i wanna see a pic
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
wah u all all sadist
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
all wanna see
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
i had more den 10 pple asking me
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
eh, lemme see a pic for u leh
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
wat u mean
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
im concern
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
u whore
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
im so sad
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
ur hair so nice
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
so long
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
so brown
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
im more sad man
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
u cut kum lan
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
YA LOR
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
den why?
my hair is short to the max now.. no more the pretty pretty long hair.. says:
maybe cos i pmsing now
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
so ur body is only healthy when not pmsing, den when pmsing, u'll do smth funny to urself right
world cup is gay, go to sleep. says:
lOL

apparently, im not the only one sad bout my loss of hair, my soulmate is too. no wonder we are soulmates. that explains it all. love u anyway.

sometimes, all i wanna do is jus die.

maybe im PMSing now. thus causing this very disgusting feeling.
i don like it one bit. its sooo annoying. i can't enjoy life that way man.
makes my world so fucked up. so idiotic. so CB. ya, so CB.
chill chill chill ~ don let my mood affect the rest. i dunno y pple's mood jus plunge down when my mood goes down too. hmm.. so maintain happiness, cookies!
kill yourself and smile in hell!

*sigh. im sick of everything. sooo sick...
reality sucksssssssssss to the max..
i rarely bitch bout my life. rarely.
why do i seem to have the galaxy's most sucky life lately? =(
have i not been doin enough good deeds?
but i just allow my seats to 2 grannies and 1 pregnant ladies on the MRT yesterday.
im becoming an emotional whore again ! like my past. the past who hates her life.
NOOOOOOOOOO. this CANNOT happen. i need to smile.
gimme the courage to smileeeeeeeeeee. PLEASE?

ok lets think of reasons to smile..
- AHA! im a level 9 in Kingdom Of Loathing now. woohoo!!!! LEVEL 9 U NOE!! its not easy. muahaha. im super happy to the maximum. and im sucha genius at it.. LEVEL 9. and i have 3 pets already. the lastest one is a Ghoul. so cuteeeee. yes, i have a sick addiction to the game.
- next reason, bcos im a LEVEL 9, Caribou Smacker! woohoo.
- cos i've got hamsters! weehee.

reasons to frown.
- i've got no frens. =( REALLY. im a frenless soul.
- no money at all. AT ALL.
- lots of things left undone.
- my life is in a big mess.
- im feeling the above mentioned cos of my PMS.
- i yearn to be forgotten and die. =(

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

and very important day today~
happy birthday to my darling Nadira!
smooches* u're the most gorgeous piece of shit ever. huggggs.
17th bday! u WILL get ur present honey. and smile~
lotsa love from me. muacksss! =D u're still a lvl 7. =)

yaya, wad the fuck.. i got these from some dumb webby. named it "a hammie named hammie." muahahaha.

adopt'>http://bunnyherolabs.com/adopt/">adopt your own virtual pet!

Xuelian, me, Tallie jiejie .. dining at our restaurant, Ten-Jyaku Japanese Sushi.. aaaaaa. love them.
lets start today's post with something as BIMBOTIC as this pic above. yes, i noe. wad the fuck is wrong with us and all, it jus occur to us suddenly that the pathway dat links us to CityLink from Esplanade is a RUNWAY for models. so we decided to fool around. and Puranidear was jus laughing like a crazy ass. and i got another thing to say, i noe i look flawless, perfect in the pic.. AND NOTE** if u all noticed, Nadira my darling looked like shes worth a million dollars from the top........ and less den 1 cent in the bottom. HER SLIPPERS. she bloody wore PLASTIC slippers there.. WTF! yes. rite. i wore heels that beautifully accentuated my perfectly painted toenails, and SHE! can actually wore slippers, as in those very-go-to-market kind of slippers. eeew. LOL. she was made the laughing stock of the night, of cos.

LOOK! aaaaa. bloody Sashimis, bloody Sashimi Sushis, and the Meat cooked in orange n Half Grilled Salmon is jus HEAVENLYYYYYYYYYYY. i got a right on orgasm jus by eating it. ate it in Ten-Jyaku, my previous workplace. very high class and all. the food, none of u can afford it man. =D serious. ok jus kidding, maybe after a meal, u gotta eat grass for 2 centuries. expensive like crazy. but bcos im Jandy's Jie little baobei~ i got a whole lot of discounts! everyone there adores me, cos im the youngest, obviously they would, with a character like mine. *grins.
and LOOK whos here! my favourite chef of the century! my Kenneth korkor. hes soooo MANLY. i loveeeee him. hes 35 yrs old and i love him to the max. very very gorgeous and he cooks the most fabulous dishes for me ALWAYS. i have a hugeeeeeeee crush on him. wo ai ni ! muahahahaha. relax all. relax. i jus love him thats all.
The Solitary Isolated Outcast. (i insist on bein an outcast, i insist on bein an isolationist, i insist my life is filled with solitude. i insist. ) **twitting time, ii hate moii lyffe. it sarkks. noburdii lykkes miie, iim a faiilure. moii lyffe iish shho lonelii without hiim by moii sidee. ger miish boii. haiis~ ii wanch tuu diie!! lyffe siimply sarkks narhhs!!** twitting time ended. WTF man, i took 10 years to complete jus these few sentences, den hor, if these twits blog, wun they take a millenium?
my lil new darlings. the white wan is Nutty. the smaller shit is Hazel. my Hazel-nutty. eating spinach. muahaha. i love them. sooooo cute.. but damn ball-less. useless asshole. Kacang hates them to the max, dunno why, jealousy. heehee.

HELLO ALL, the exclusive colour pics event is back now.
haha, my diploma course is starting soon.
will be super busy.
aaaa.
and den, and den, and den..
i've decided......
TO GIVE UP MY PURSUIT OF THE CHECHE BAG.
yupyup, u didnt see it wrongly.
i am gonna give it up.
during this period of time, i 'll feel grouchy like a whore..
so i expect to be treated like a princess.
i realised, too much lives will be lost if i continue having desires for the bag.
including MY dear own's life.
so, byebye CheChe Bag~~~~~
hello to new other thingsssss!

bye all ~ lotsa loves to u all. hugs n kisses.

"What a lovely surprise to discover how unlonely being alone can be"

i want to put in a word about being single. its fine to be single!
beats going out with a lowlife or feeling like a vulnerable kid on an endless roller-coaster ride.

some pple aren't up for the whole relationship thing, they would rather focus on frens, sports, homework, shopping, wadever~. they like being able to do wadever they want, whenever they want. they like bein independent and able to flirt, they like having their options opne, time free, and possibilities endless.

no problem there.

others jump from one love tangle to another and never take a moment to figure out who they really are and what they really want.

and that, my darlings, can be a BIG problem.

its nice to be love, of cos ! but don be afraid to be alone. bein alone doesnt mean u're unattractive, any more than bein part of a couple means u're attractive, thats total bullshit. and there's something kinda nice about not having your Friday nights booked up. besides, goin out with one person can sometimes be limiting and can lead to quarrels, jealousy, pressure, or hurt feelings. alone and unattached, you get to make your own schedule and keep yourself company. and who's better company than YOU?

"inside myself is a place where i live all alone" - Pearl S.Buck
"i never found the companion as companionable as solitude" - Henry David Thoreau

Alone, yes. Lonely, no.

**this is not a post discouraging love. of cos i encourage love~ i jus wanna let pple who are single have more confidence~ WOOHOO.

this is the coolest pic of the century. its taken without any planning. and its taken in a lecture hall. and 3 of these dumbass are sleeping in the coolest position like ever. i feel very sad for the lecturer, to have students like them, and zhiwei can actually tell me, "we're not the only one sleeping" .. now i really feel super sad for the teacher. wad kinda students are evolving nowadays man, can't they jus be role models like ME, THE GREAT COOKIES, will it kill jus to be as nice as studious as intellectual as ME? will it? THINK OVER UR BEHAVIOURS MAN.

the saga over the missing hamster is officially over.

yupyup, tat dumbass apparently escaped from the container i put it in. its name is Nutty. its a male. a bloody white hammie. it was missing for a whole night. caused me a restless night. and obviously i felt helpless and all. to the extent that i called Nadira at about 2am to sell the widow, Hazel, cos i tot its ByeBye to Nutty forever. this morning, i shifted my cupboard, and tadah! i saw that piece of white shit staring back at me with those, please-do-not-kill-me expression. nothing can ever decribe how relieved i felt at the very moment. AAAA. finally its back to my arms again~ i love u darling.. and suddenly, i do not wanna sell Hazel anymore.. and THANKs WADEVER that Nadira's dad do not allow the hamster in her house! woohoo. yay! i mean, yay for me not yay for her. shes depressed, cos her brothers and her all want it.. its ok darling, we all love you.

hmm. its been a month or so since we are seperated, sometimes the pain seems too much to bear, sometimes your presence still lingers and it won't go away, yupp, there is jus too much tat time cannot erase.. its perfectly normal, i reckon. although its been a long time since i've been feeling this way. sometimes u jus wan someone to be dependent on, and i realised all these while, its him thats been taking such good care of me. sometimes when u sit back and reminisce, u realised its the past that keeps u going.. im not gonna probe so much into such things, its jus a phase of my life~ jus a phase.

happiness ~ weee.

reason: 1. not goin for Econs tomoro.
2. got 2 new baby hammies. bought it myself today. very very cute. but very afraid of me.
3. going to be lvl 7 in KOL soon, need 3 more muscles ONLY.
4. me & zhiwei just owned some bloody dumb cheena noobass in Gunbound.

i love my new hammies. they are called Hazel-nut. the male one is ALOT bigger sized den the female one. and yes, i wan them to bloody mate. gimme some cute offsprings. the male is a Winter White PEARL, so its white in colour, so cuteee. the female is a normal grey, black dorsal striped one, its only 2 weeks old, damn tiny, and retarded, and cute, and very very got NO BALLS(cowardly)., runs away each time i attempt to squeeze it. the female hammie is called HAZEL. the male is called NUT.

anyway, KACANG my darling hammie attempted to attack HAZEL-NUT. but KACANG is very very very gentle towards me...... hmm, she is probably jealous. and wants them dead. so i'll focus more on her. ITS OK HONEY, i still love u alot kacang. i'll let u see my blog when i bring u out to the computer table later k.. i love u!

im soooooooo depressed. its my June holidays, supposedly. but, i aint got no holidays at all. i don like it one bit. arghhh. and a whole lot of dumb assignments to do.. =( and i've still got no signs of any CheChe Bag yet. maybe i should jus steal it. =D im gonna call for a whole load of us to go in, and den im gonna sneak off with that dumb bag. =) THAT DUMB BAG. THAT DUMB GAYINGLY GAY BAG THAT MAKES ME HAVE REPEATED OCCURENCE OF WET DREAMS EACH NIGHT. aaaaaaaaa.

sighh, why do some pple jus go on n on n on about guys guys n guys................ i cant take it...................... sorry but i jus couldn't........................its so..dumb..dumb..dumb..dumb.. and to the extent of doin the most senseless and worthless thing on earth.. its like, argh. might as well use the time to go look at my Che Che Bag lor. =) im sorry but i jus got no interest in doing certain things u pple like to do.

i miss my bisexual lunatic alot. hes so hot. aaaaaa. can i not name him a bisexual lunatic. can i. can i name him something like, the gorgeous man or something. i can't believe i have a thing for my te***er.

to Naddear: that dumb dickhead is a dumb dickhead. so no point, see the point? his bitch is a bitch. so lets all accept the fact. and u are better off without a dumbass like him. and pls do not continuously change ur mind bout giving up or not, its confusing me. but no matter wad, u'll always have our support! REALLY. =D smooches. u ugly ancestor of the burnt vagina fuckface.

**i plan to marry anyone who gets me the CheChe bag. and i'll screw that kind old soul 20784327840 times a second.. i solemnly promise i'll do that.

COOKIES'S WISHLIST.

1. that CheChe Bag - $209
2. that CheChe Bag - $209
3. that CheChe Bag - $209
4. Adidas Jacket - $139
5. Samsung SGH-E870 - $unknown yet.
6. CheChe Bag
7. CheChe Bag
8. CheChe Bag
9. CheChe Bag
10. FUCK ! i said CHECHE BAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghh.

im obsessed with that shitty bag k. that bloody dumb bag tat cost $209 . gayingly gay ! *yells.

anyway, im not gonna smile unless i get that bag. i insist........

went out alot lately, with syl dear to go mass shopping n all.. with dage, tommy n zhiwei to watch X-men. super nice like crazy. i like storm.. and plus. i did a manicure n pedicure yesterday ~! mood increasing.. mood increasing.. but at the thought of me now owning that dumb cheche bag, my mood jus dropped to bloody negative 1 million. muahahhaa.

although its the dumb holidays now. i've got totally NO holiday at all. none. jus none. all filled with extra lessons n all.. sighhhhhh.

did i ever mention how much i love my bloody hamster, Kacang? shes Kacang my hammie. heehee. i like her to the max. cos shes very tame lately. she lets me strokes her to sleep.. i like her. shes so soft. one day, i'll squuze the fuck outta her. *squueeeezeeeee.kisses her. i like biting her lately too.. dunno why..

P.S: * will someone get me a Cheche Bag plsssssssssssssssssssssssssss?! pls. i need it. pls. its my life. pls. its my oxygen. plssssssss. i cant live without it..

fucked up. KNNBPCB~ _l_

sorry for that profanity. im jus so sorry. but im currently jus mother fuckin pissed. pissed by the fact that some pple are jus bloody free with alot of free time to waste. and things that they do are so unconstructive. they ruin up happy moods like mine. they act like they are some bloody transvetite hookers whoring about. they should jus die in some bloody major BODY explosion. means the body jus explodes for no apparent reason. i dun care. its call Spontaneous Combustion. ur body jus go up in a flame, and poof! u're bloody gone. yay.

humans, they are all like this, aren't they? sometimes i wonder why on earth do we have a mouth for? i mean , we could jus jolly well use our fucking mouth to EAT, EAT all sorts of nice delicacies and all, why the fuck do we use it for talking? WHY? some dickheads apparently have the biggest mouth ever. i swear if we really can't talk, and the only way of communication is sign language, _l_ i'll be communicating with them thru _l_ only. yup. jus thru the middle finger. fuckers!

i don see why pple should care wad i do with my life. its my life. its not ur motherfucking loser life. i noe ur life is as pathetic as how an insect tries to destroy a HDB flat, but then again, its ur life. so don assume my life is as LOSERISH as urs. stop acting like a deranged whore trying to SAVE my life or SAVE ME from anything. i seriously don need tat. and if u seriously have a alot of free time to spare, u may try filling up ur deflated balls with motherfuckin helium gas. and maybe u'll have bigger balls. but then again. who cares rite? cos u're being very very worthless, no one cares bout cranky pedophiles like u . so u decide to turn ur attention to me? i have one very sweet thing to say to u, a super sweet thing. JUST BLOODY DIE OF FUCKIN DIABETES NOW. and i hope ur next worthless generations all suffer from diabetes as well.. worthless piece of trash. do the world a favour and jump down to ur death. the world will celebrate ur bloody downfall. serious. im not lying. or at least, i'll celebrate. =D _l_

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i like bein materialistic. i like it. try stopping me? worthless impotent bitchass.

P.S: i want that Che Che bag, that costs $214 . =) i want it.

NOW, I REALLY LOVE ALL MY FRENS. really real.

okay, so yesterday was the MI CARNIVAL. the longly awaited carnival which brought about many blood, chickens, tears, pains, sorrows, disputes, fun, laughter, happiness. its a success though. sold all the things. yupyup. i hope everyone enjoyed themselves. cos i did. =D

special thanks to Zhiwei, Eric, Jason dage, Gheetingdarling, Dajie, Dajie's bf(my jiefu), Rachel, Rachel's bf(MIKE), Tommy, Jolie, my Mummy & Daddy for comingggg. i love u all for that k. and for dumping 70 bucks in jus lidat. either u all love me alot, or u all love me alot. its either one. seriously man.

and additional super thanks to MOST of the 06b2 pple. =) u all roxxxxx. hugs&kisses k.

but im super exhausted, jus super exhasuted to the max. i need to rest. i think im coming down with a flu. *weeps. now im gonna be weak.. so im not goin to school on monday. woohoo? alrite.. so im gonna sleep now. love ya all.

P.S: thanks Jerome for giving me a lift there. THANKS. and i noe im ur princess. in fact, im THE princess. (shut up, no more arguments)
**********IMPT.. Sandra&Purani, i wan my Bisexual Lunatic pic in ur camera!! SEND IT TO ME!

i really love ALL my frens. seriously serious.

haha. went out with my lovely primary sch sisters on tuesday ~ very enjoyable EVEN though its only at Rivervale Plaza. lol. went to Macdonalds n den to food court. and we were like "yak yak yak yabba yabba yabba dooda dooda dooda blablabla eee uuu owowoa yak bak eeyorh" all the way . Girls bitching about the past. about some retarded pple around us and all. its jus so enjoyable la. i <3>

Cookies: Of cos, I won't forget about you! :) You've got a nice blog also~ I missed those times we had in primary school. Haha. Remember that we used to say when we grow up, we wanna buy a house and we shall live together! Haha. Time really flies and thinking back, we had so much fun. Haha. Don't get stressed in your new school. Cheers. Don't forget that I'm always here, just a sms or phone call away. Call/sms me when you need me. You can even come to my house to find me, if there's a need. Haha. See ya some other time! Loves. Takecare. *Hugs. Oh yeah, you're a good, terrific friend, sister, girlfriend. Don't get depressed. You're great, seriously.

to Joan dear: yupyup i love u too. sisters for life. and we'll never be apart cos. u live below me. MUAHAHA. love ya ~ u are jus like SUPER SLIM N PRETTY !!! >=( !!

yups, anyway. went to Nadira's house to marinate the chickens for my Saturday's school carnival yesterday.. me n sandra both rreached home at close to 12 midnight. it was a fun experience though. like we saw either some gigantic grandfather chickens and even some dumb noob chicken which have not even reach puberty yet. its jus so hilarious. and i tell u, the chicken is jus marvellously delicious. WOOHOO. u'll get 10 orgasms right on after eating it. YUMYUM. and i would like to give my thanks to MY DEAREST TEACHER MR NG, cos he fetched me, Sylvia n Nadira all the way from sch to Bedok to do our shopping, and hes so sweet. and another double thanks to sandra n purani who comes all the way fromTOh TUck to Bedok jus to help. thanks hunnies. anyway, PLS BUY FROM MY STALL K, its called BURGER BEARS. plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspslpsls... i give u all 4382174814712846 kisses each if u all buy from my stall.. heehee.

(there will be pics uploaded soon, currently starving , so i eat first hor) hahahaha. dumbass. love ya all

P.S: i love all my FRENS ALOT !!! aaaaaaaaa.
2nd note ** i love that Bisexual Lunatic. i love him, i do !!

friends.

hmm. okay.. so this is about friendships and all.
firstly, friends should not argue over minor issues.
secondly, in my opinion, i feel frens are more impt den LOVE.
thirdly, frens are important. really. they are not jus there for u, they are ALWAYS with u, spiritually, mentally, physically, wadevercally kinda thing.

so sighh. the first issue.. my best frens are having a fight kinda thing. so its like. yea.. maybe cos im not a 'conflict' kinda person, i dunno how to exactly face it. but i feel that, you guys should talk to each other on a face to face basis kinda thing. cos if u don't, many many misunderstandings occur and the hatred jus continues plunging.. if u guys talk it out, u might probably be like, "ohmygod, i didnt say dat.. lol wad makes u think so?" kinda thing.. so u never noe.. i hope u darlings try talking to each other k. jus wanna say im jus so affected by this whole event that i refused to talk .. lol. even to dearie syl. thats the worst thing that happened..

until.. something bigger came up..

SANDRA WANTS TO GO TO PUERTO RICO NEXT YEAR AND SPEND HER LIFE FOREVER THERE!!! SHE WANNA LEAVE ME AND PURANI STRANDED HERE, WITH NO ONE TO GIVE ME HELP WHEN I NEED IT. =(

bcos u see, sandra is obliged, i repeat, she is OBLIGED to take care of me and treat me nicely for the rest of her life.. and now, she has to go. HEY no, not she HAS to go, she WANTS to go. against all odds, she jus HAS to go. okay but as u can see, it is a very sweet thing to begin with. like her n her beau Emm, two diff pple, two diff core language, two different sides of the earth. two different time zone, two different this n that.. and they are in love. SEE , IN LOVE. <3 but i think my dear sandra is taking it a little too seriously to a large extent. to the extent that, she feels that frens aint important anymore. i tell u , my heart jus simply shattered when she told me n purani that.. i mean, cmon, frens stick by u no matter wad.. we are not even the kinda shallow frens, or acquaintance, we are SLEEPING buddies or even darlings~ we don even share a shallow frenship.. right? how could u say u didnt care how we felt? im jus so totally devastated to the max. *sigh. u need to spare a thought for us u noe.. sandra said she didnt care if we are sad or we miss her anot. she claims that we would forget her after half a year.. okay, maybe some pple are like dat.. but im not. really. i treasure frens like super lots. im not even kidding. maybe this Puerto Rico thing is jus a phase she is goin thru now.. cos they are at the TRULY MADLY DEEPLY in love stage.. so irrational thoughts will randomly come like dat.. but i wish sandra could treasure our frenship more.. and not jus 'heckcare' our feelings. she said to us " u think i care?" when we said we would be totally sad if she leaves. =( im jus so sad...............

but actually, all of us have such thoughts too, it might only be a dream but.. who doesnt think of escaping? like i wanna escape to New Zealand and have sex with the cows. ok kidding. i wanna have a farm there.. rear animals.. LOTs of animals and all. thats my dream.. so Sand's dream is to be with her loved one in Puerto Rico. its not wrong, so i do not think we should stop her, but jus hope she thinks rationally, like the cost of living, the adapting.. it isn't easy living with jus anyone in a foreign land.. it jusnt isn't.. till then, there will be many things u cannot leave behind. serious. and i need to get it across to my dearie sands head that, pls do not think of ur frens as sucha light thing.. or shallow creatures that forgets u after half a year. for one thing, im sure, positively sure, taht purani n i are NOT such pple, we are loyal frens. cant u even tell that? i noe u are mature enough to even noe this tiny fact rite? darling pls say yes.

so i hope i made my point. that i treasure all my frens alot. ALL frenships jus WILL NOT be forgotten. and don treat frenships so lightly.. its frens thats wad keeps us going... really..

**sands dear, im not stopping u from flying there, but PLSPLSPLS u gotta plan nicely ~ and pls don ever say "so? who cares whether u are sad anot?" again, its a BIg blow to me.

hi pple ! Joei the Cookies is here again !! weehee. and spot 2 hotties up there? me n my dearie Syl.
It says on the note, " Sandra, Hi its me, Nadira!" -retarded.
dats when she did it. she pasted 3 sticky yellow notes on sandra's head.
Thats our darling Sandra. listening to her iProck n writing to Emm as usual. AS USUAL. tat face.
me n Nad's hand ! shes trying to show us the logic of our fist the size of our heart. apparently my heart is tiny?
The Princess of our class. the poshie elegant pretty slim mirror addicted Diana~
okay. this is Choco Yanyan with STORBELI[sorry for this twittish speeling] pocky. guess which is my pocky!
WEE. tats me looking so haggard cos i didnt sleep last night. and showing off my nice MILK mirror from zhiwei. i look slim.. hmm..
PURANI ~ PUNARI ~ i took her pic and she wanna sue me.. do i sound scared in the least?
My TABLE. my pencil case, File, my billabong bag with my SPONGEBOB keychain, mirror n comb. i like it~

there are more pictures actually. i cant upload it. dunno why. today was an orgy day.. me, syl n nad kept humping each other. as in. HUMp HUMP HUMP. very lesbiany. but i like it.
i need to touch on a few topics. about FRIENDSHIP. shall do it later.. =) enjoy the pics. shall upload more. the humping pics and all.

WALL OF FAME

1. Sherman Low, u ROX la. help me so much.
2. Rachel Teo HuiFang, my darling! helped me ALOT.
3. Kalvin Hoe Zhiwei, thanks for the links.
4. Jerome, haha told me how to write cocks in the essay.
5. Sandra dear, thanks for letting me see ur essay n staying up with me.
6. Purani dear, for letting me noe i should write an essay with a pen.
7. Sylvia darling, for motivating me to do. and for me to go sch. haha.
8. SweeWei, for teling me more bout the cold war, n how to get bout doin it.
9. Elvin! the 23 yr old wan, [not the EX i have]. thx for motivation~
10. AND GHEETING darling! she JUST, at this very seceond sent me an sms. omg she made ten years of my life happy. she wanna treat me to eat DESSERTS. cos she says im STRESSED. spelt backwards? lol. haha. i<3>

yupyup. i really would like to give all these pple my great THANKS. as in totally ! ohmygod. u pple jus helped me accomplish one of my major setbacks in life. THE ESSAY. thanks !! although i have not completed it. i still would like to thank u all alot. in some way or other, u all helped me. im sooo touched~ didn't noe tat many pple would wanna help me.. MUAHAHAHA. anyway, really thanks k. hugs n kisses to u pple. u all are jus sucha sweetie. *kisses* and look! u're all cookies's very own WALL OF FAMEEEEE.

okay . currently in my god mummy's house as im doin this post.

first of all, this is the list of things i'll be touching on today.
1. im stressed.
2. im very stressed..
3. im seriously stressed.
4. im seriously super stressed.
5. im stressed to the extent that if u get near me, u'll die of stress instead.
6. im REALLY stressed.
7. REALLY REALLY STRESSED.
8. S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D.
9. bloody stressed.
10. KNNBCCB STRESSED. to the extent of hurling UGLY profanities.

so, thats the topic. STRESS. currently, the great one joei, is suffering from major setbacks in life.
which is, HOW TO DO THE USA AND USSR ARGUMENT ESSAY!?
its like, yea, wtf? wad bullshit kinda thing.
The Dumb Question is, 'The USA n the USSR were equally aggressive towards each other and thus equally responsible for the outbreak of the cold war.' How far do u agree with this view of the period 1945-1950?
so... see how a very small harmless question can cause a massive destruction to my brain?
im feeling dumb right now.
dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb to the max.
i went to wikipedia.. went to this n that.. that n this.. and TADAH!
i still know nothing. ok, im hurling profanities now. FUCKKKKKKKKKKK....
FUCKIN FUCK FUCK FUCK. MOTHERFUCKIN GAY PIECE OF SHIT.
for all u clever shitheads out there, don gimme shits like.. its simple actually.. jus noe bout the cold war bla blah blah. i'll jus stuff a dildo in ur mouth and force u to do this eassay shit for me. and don gimme nonsense like, quite simple actually ma.. u nvr take history before meh? YES U BITCHASSES, i NVR TAKE HISTORY BEFORE. geddit? and ya la ya la, im not as talented or capable as u dumbasses, cos dumbasses like u cleverfucks have NO life, u jus spend ur whole dumb life doin clever things. which is dumb. DUMB to the max. so jus go eat burnt encyclopedias to make u die younger. NO-LIFERS.

oo wee yay ~ now i realised i've got a life. A LIFE. and im so happy. they are insignificant. yupyup. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa. today's my 3rd day of menses. yay!

***anyone feel like helping me in the history thingy? i promise i'll love u all my life. PROMISE. and i'll promise u'll be top of my SIGNIFICANT pple list. okay?

hi Peek-a-Boo! im sharing my life with u pple today. My name is Kacang. and i love JOEI alot! shes so nice.
BOO!! im trying to scare off dumbass trying to woo my owner. BOO! RAH RAH RAH! scareD? u should.
hi im a sweetie. i mess up my own cage! today MY CUTE owner jus made the bathing powder for me in the house, but i kicked it all up. and she said "u bloody honey bitch." but i noe she still loves me because i don even care.. in fact, the next thing i did was..
TO SLEEP! haahahahhaa. like sleeping in my wheel. cos its smelly n cosy. i like it. im sleepin soundly.
TA DAH! spot me there? isnt my cage jus adorable? its a brand new one. hee i like it. my owner jus rox, doesnt she?

i have a sister. shes PUTEH. shes at Eric's house. Eric's my daddy! hes nice too. he makes my sister becomes as FAT as double the size of me. i don like bein fat.. cos my owner is FAT. but i like her, shes cute. anyway, im a happy hamster bcos i got a greatest owner on earth. shes superb! i never wanna leave her. she smells me all day long, strokes me, loves me.. AND DEN SHE SQUEEZES ME LIKE HELL, and bites me. i like that feeling. im a horny lil hammie. OK KIDDING.

so this is also an exclusive colour picture entry. of KACANG the 2nd great one compared to JOEI!

Hi all, this is Tommy.
the man.
he makes ice cream like Chai Tau Kuay.
or carrot cake. isn't it cool?
it was jus a super hilarious moment,
where u can jus sit n die there of laughing.
hahahahahaha.
=)










The First Step: Pour the liquid wadever FLAVOUR ice cream into the cold thingy. (as u can see, its still liquid )
Next, we leave it longer with alot of scrapings and it hardened. i like it ! =D its alot of flavours mixed.
And then, TADAH! we tried to make it into a rectangular shape. so cool. guess which is my hand.

hi all. today will be an exclusive colour picture episode.
Me, Jason dage, Tommy & Zhiwei went out on Saturday!~
to do wad?
we went to east coast to ride some dumb bicycles. damn fun. love it.
AND OH MY GOD.
we went to eat YUKI YAKI after that at cineleisure. omFg.
i <3>love it.
AND.. the best was the last part.
the DIY ice cream. i like it !~
ice cream had flavours like Almond, Choc, Rum&Raisin, Champagne, OrangeSherbet, Grape, and alot of kinky flavours. very nice ..
and so, many interesting things we can see.

and we all noe now.. dat TOMMY the man is a CARROT CAKE MAN!
look! heehee.

after that, we watched Mission Impossible III, nice show. rate it 4.789324893274324 stars out of 5 stars. very recommendable. even i, who hates action flicks, like it. why wud u not? =D

**pss. secret. first time i noe how to put pics into blog. yay!