actually im having way lots of fun,
seriously! new clothes, money, my darling aloysious boyboy and my darling twins meimei, all the yummy food, everything.
in fact, im having a blast .
BUT YET, something is just missing. *sigh. (fancy me sighing on CNY) .its like so WTF okay.
despite melanie darling to go over to her house today, gheeting the idiot cant make it. cos she has something ON. (and i know wads on) hahaha.
i do not feel affected initially, as in, when im occupied with things to do, i totally do not care bout this emptiness, but when im alone, i start to think. the past HE would not leave me in the lurch.
WOULD NOT. he will bring me visiting to getmore angpaos. and we'll hang out till late at night at some random uncle&aunties house. SIGH. okay, time to be reasonable.
i've to really thank my Sharlene jiejie and Ronald korkor for bringing me out tomoro, they're gonna bring me out for a movie! OMG. im so excited! SEE?! i've become siao and retarded. im getting excited over an outing. im deprived of it. to the max.
might be going to the HePan (i think its near ... Esplanade), and last year, Me, Eric, Sharlene jiejie & Ronald korkor went. this year, it will be me alone with both of them. :( i've to be a lightbulb to them. sobsob. its as if im not attached.
Alone Alone Alone.
Lonely Lonely Lonely.
Solitude Solitude Solitude.
Isolated Isolated Isolated.
(joei tan xin yi, stop being EMO)
i just saw zhiwei's Vday card for me, so sweet, thank youuuu to the max.
and i saw ShiMing korkor yesterday at MacDonalds. bought my darling boiboi Aloysious to eat Supper. hang out till way late at night, and so korkor and Alan brought me home. i swear, he got me into trouble with my parents, cos he told my mummy hes gonna bring me and boiboi out to Vivocity to walk walk today, and obviously, my mummy didnt allow me to. Because...................................... i shall not elaborate.
have to catch up with my frens real soon. dajie, rachel, 4E4, gheeting darling, melanie darling, WNH gang, serene, joan, jason dage, zhiwei, glenn, and more.
and i swear, kacang&stripey is the cutest hammie alive, they are the world's most important darlings. i cannot CANNOT cannot live without them. and my mummy gave both of them an ang pao each, so so so cute.
Joei is feeling __________ again.
Somehow, i wish you were here with me tonight.
Spending CNY without you just doesnt seem right.
So, i look up and wish upon that starlight,
That probably next year you just might.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
computer broke down.
no time to update.
13th Feb was a splendid day,
and so was 14th Feb, Valentines Day! so many pressies ranging from pretty pretty daisies to balloons! and cookies and chocolates and alot of other things. and i especially love home delivery flowers! they totally made my day.
and 06A3 won the class decorations! we screamed like crazy and we were happy!
YAY! im happy too. everyone was happy.
Friday was sucha busy busy day, ahaha, had to shop, and had to atttend priya's darling bday chalet. that bungalow was huge, and we had fun. alot of fun, although i did not touch any alcohol, i am afraid to go through the terrible headache and vomitting that follows, or the unconscious state of mind that allows one to spout rubbish. totally not wad i want. and therefore, i will not drink any from now on.
Staying over was such fun! though i slept . ahaha. and went to OCH the next morning. wasn't scary, i wanna go there again! LETS GO! cant wait for the next chalet during March hols. gosh. it'll be a blast i swear.
just painted my nails red. looking forward to my ChineseNewYEar,
BUT, theres still a BUT.
its not the same this year anymore. yupyup.
i'll not be going to any lion dance's uncle and aunties houses anymore.
:( i cant see pretty pretty jiejies anymore.
and i cant get more ang paos.
this year, im all alone (in a sense ) .
for the past 2 years, i had companion.
this year, dunno who muz go to malaysia. and leave me all alone here.
ITS OKAY.
(im trying not to be unhappy!)hahahahaa.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.
i've lotsa pics to upload, but so little time.
will soon. very soon okay!
no time to update.
13th Feb was a splendid day,
and so was 14th Feb, Valentines Day! so many pressies ranging from pretty pretty daisies to balloons! and cookies and chocolates and alot of other things. and i especially love home delivery flowers! they totally made my day.
and 06A3 won the class decorations! we screamed like crazy and we were happy!
YAY! im happy too. everyone was happy.
Friday was sucha busy busy day, ahaha, had to shop, and had to atttend priya's darling bday chalet. that bungalow was huge, and we had fun. alot of fun, although i did not touch any alcohol, i am afraid to go through the terrible headache and vomitting that follows, or the unconscious state of mind that allows one to spout rubbish. totally not wad i want. and therefore, i will not drink any from now on.
Staying over was such fun! though i slept . ahaha. and went to OCH the next morning. wasn't scary, i wanna go there again! LETS GO! cant wait for the next chalet during March hols. gosh. it'll be a blast i swear.
just painted my nails red. looking forward to my ChineseNewYEar,
BUT, theres still a BUT.
its not the same this year anymore. yupyup.
i'll not be going to any lion dance's uncle and aunties houses anymore.
:( i cant see pretty pretty jiejies anymore.
and i cant get more ang paos.
this year, im all alone (in a sense ) .
for the past 2 years, i had companion.
this year, dunno who muz go to malaysia. and leave me all alone here.
ITS OKAY.
(im trying not to be unhappy!)hahahahaa.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.
i've lotsa pics to upload, but so little time.
will soon. very soon okay!
Saturday, February 10, 2007
FRIDAY.
had so much fun in the afternoon. shopping at town with Pu&Syl.
sorrrry for being late late late. i swear im the sorriest shit on earth.
but its so much fun hanging out with them. hahahaha.
the most unpleasant day can also turn out perfect.
PURANI DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
SYLVIA DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
yupp, and headed off to Dyan's partyyyyyyyy!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO.
fun describes it all.
and lotsa drinking.
i love the FOOD especially though.
me n sylvia ate like crazy.
the Prawns. woohoo. they drive us wild.
and yea, i had my FIRST EVER Tequila shots.
TEQUILA SHOTS. with salt & lemon! OMG SO COOL.
yea, although i drank bout maybe less than 5 shots.
i conked out and died.
i spouted the world's nonsensical nonsense.
:(
and i puked at 3.30am.
and i can't sleep because my head was spinning, throbbing, and everything.
and therefore, i Joei Tan Xin Yi, SWEAR never to touch or drink Tequila in my life.
Because i see no point in torturing my body. my head. and, yea, pple's feelings.
I will not drink again.
SATURDAY.
FUN-NESS.
HAPPY-NESS.
WEEEHEEEEE.
i totally enjoyedddddd myself.
The Asian Kitchen.
The Protege.
Just Noodle.
Esplanade.
and lastly, MY NICENICE GUESS? WALLET!
OMG. im gonna die of happiness.
IMPORTANT! **yupp, happy happy 1st year friendship!
hugs&kisses. to KalvinHoeZhiWei.
oh ya, to sandra waffles penguina(issit this way?), I MISS YOU.
gheeting darling, I MISS YOU. when are we gonna meet?
yup, and gonna meet purani&sylvia tomoro to go Chinatown to buy chinese new year decorations. and if we are going to skip school on Monday, we'll so be meeting again to go to Escape theme park or Sentosa. ahahahahahahaha.
we're already seeing each other EVERYDAY in school , and every other day of our lives.
we'll die of each other someday.
MR MIP. ;) hello.
had so much fun in the afternoon. shopping at town with Pu&Syl.
sorrrry for being late late late. i swear im the sorriest shit on earth.
but its so much fun hanging out with them. hahahaha.
the most unpleasant day can also turn out perfect.
PURANI DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
SYLVIA DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
yupp, and headed off to Dyan's partyyyyyyyy!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO.
fun describes it all.
and lotsa drinking.
i love the FOOD especially though.
me n sylvia ate like crazy.
the Prawns. woohoo. they drive us wild.
and yea, i had my FIRST EVER Tequila shots.
TEQUILA SHOTS. with salt & lemon! OMG SO COOL.
yea, although i drank bout maybe less than 5 shots.
i conked out and died.
i spouted the world's nonsensical nonsense.
:(
and i puked at 3.30am.
and i can't sleep because my head was spinning, throbbing, and everything.
and therefore, i Joei Tan Xin Yi, SWEAR never to touch or drink Tequila in my life.
Because i see no point in torturing my body. my head. and, yea, pple's feelings.
I will not drink again.
SATURDAY.
FUN-NESS.
HAPPY-NESS.
WEEEHEEEEE.
i totally enjoyedddddd myself.
The Asian Kitchen.
The Protege.
Just Noodle.
Esplanade.
and lastly, MY NICENICE GUESS? WALLET!
OMG. im gonna die of happiness.
IMPORTANT! **yupp, happy happy 1st year friendship!
hugs&kisses. to KalvinHoeZhiWei.
oh ya, to sandra waffles penguina(issit this way?), I MISS YOU.
gheeting darling, I MISS YOU. when are we gonna meet?
yup, and gonna meet purani&sylvia tomoro to go Chinatown to buy chinese new year decorations. and if we are going to skip school on Monday, we'll so be meeting again to go to Escape theme park or Sentosa. ahahahahahahaha.
we're already seeing each other EVERYDAY in school , and every other day of our lives.
we'll die of each other someday.
MR MIP. ;) hello.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Q1. Do you have a valentine ?
-NO I DONT. I AM FUCKING SERIOUS.
Q2. Do u want a valentine ?
- I USED TO WANT. BUT NOT NOW.
Q3. What if no one asked u out onValentine's day ?
- hahaha, pple already asked, so yea.
Q4.What if ur favourite guy/girl thatu've been crushed on for years asked u out on Valentine's day?
- no i've no crush on anyone for years.so that wouldn't really be possible.
Q5. If yes,what if u already haveanother date that u suddenly remember on that same day?
- den stay at home and cry lor.
Q6. What if ur bf/gf cannot go out with u on valentine's day ?
- oooh. nothing new for this year.
Q7. What will u do if u saw ur your bf/gf going out with another person on valentine's day instead of u?
- byebye loser. (but i probably might be doing that too)
Q8. Your parents locked you up in your room for the whole day at valentine'sday. Your all alone. How will you feel?
- my daddy and mummy wun do that.
Q9. Your parents insist of bringing you out on valentines day for the whole day and you can't spend the day with your lover,what will you do?
- Rhetorical Question : What if you LOVER can't spend it with you then? Are you gonna stick with him?
Q10. Where will you wish to have your valentine's day celebrated at?
- New Zealand! or just some animal animal place.
-NO I DONT. I AM FUCKING SERIOUS.
Q2. Do u want a valentine ?
- I USED TO WANT. BUT NOT NOW.
Q3. What if no one asked u out onValentine's day ?
- hahaha, pple already asked, so yea.
Q4.What if ur favourite guy/girl thatu've been crushed on for years asked u out on Valentine's day?
- no i've no crush on anyone for years.so that wouldn't really be possible.
Q5. If yes,what if u already haveanother date that u suddenly remember on that same day?
- den stay at home and cry lor.
Q6. What if ur bf/gf cannot go out with u on valentine's day ?
- oooh. nothing new for this year.
Q7. What will u do if u saw ur your bf/gf going out with another person on valentine's day instead of u?
- byebye loser. (but i probably might be doing that too)
Q8. Your parents locked you up in your room for the whole day at valentine'sday. Your all alone. How will you feel?
- my daddy and mummy wun do that.
Q9. Your parents insist of bringing you out on valentines day for the whole day and you can't spend the day with your lover,what will you do?
- Rhetorical Question : What if you LOVER can't spend it with you then? Are you gonna stick with him?
Q10. Where will you wish to have your valentine's day celebrated at?
- New Zealand! or just some animal animal place.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
HAHAHAHA.
common test is OVER.
byebye common test, byebye loser no life joei.
its very-full-of-life joei now.
woohoo.
i can finally shop without worries!
and go out like nobody's business.
yippeeee.
AND SLEEP. :)
oooh, i went for my spa facial with my mummy today.
9 more sessions to go! damn fun! i love it.
i like the person who did it for me, shes pretty and nice.
and we became frens. hahahaha.
now, my face is flawlessly flawless.
weeeheeeee.
double happiness.
and sorry purani & sylvia x 10000000 million times.promise will not let facial issue affect us from going out again. muacks.
and birthday party tomoro! cannot wait.
plus going out with purani&sylvia tomoro!
double cannot wait.
Saturday, PERFECT day for shopping.
wee, im so in the mood. YAY!
sigh, i swear i've grown so fat, i cant pass thru doors anymore. :(
but its okay, who cares?
hahahaa.
YAY! joei is very happy.
yay! i feel like jumping. i dunno why also.
common test is OVER.
byebye common test, byebye loser no life joei.
its very-full-of-life joei now.
woohoo.
i can finally shop without worries!
and go out like nobody's business.
yippeeee.
AND SLEEP. :)
oooh, i went for my spa facial with my mummy today.
9 more sessions to go! damn fun! i love it.
i like the person who did it for me, shes pretty and nice.
and we became frens. hahahaha.
now, my face is flawlessly flawless.
weeeheeeee.
double happiness.
and sorry purani & sylvia x 10000000 million times.promise will not let facial issue affect us from going out again. muacks.
and birthday party tomoro! cannot wait.
plus going out with purani&sylvia tomoro!
double cannot wait.
Saturday, PERFECT day for shopping.
wee, im so in the mood. YAY!
sigh, i swear i've grown so fat, i cant pass thru doors anymore. :(
but its okay, who cares?
hahahaa.
YAY! joei is very happy.
yay! i feel like jumping. i dunno why also.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
my all time good friend have evolved to my very good best friend on Saturday.
cos talking is bonding, dont u think?
:) i lovelovelovelovelove her. hugs&kisses.
and i got my new Fleshimp bag. haha. love my mummy. like alot.
and, its 69.90.
and with all the impulse shopping urges lately,
u'll soon hear me declaring blankruptcy.
and i'll vanish from the surface of the earth.
my common test is so not over, and here i am,
planning bout events AFTER my tests. :(
study mood please come quick.
4 more gay retarded dumb days to go!
upcoming cool events:
Science Centre, Jurong BirdPark, Sentosa, Booze birthday parties, lots and lots of shoppings, manicures&pedicures with dajie, Spa facial package[YAY!], Escape theme park, bikini swimming(i say say only la, i also wun wear, hahaha), VALENTINES DAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR, and lots more shoppings.
i think all these are the causes of why pple will go mad.
its been so so so long since i've seen you,
i've forgotten how it feels like to be with you.
make me wait no longer, will you?
cos talking is bonding, dont u think?
:) i lovelovelovelovelove her. hugs&kisses.
and i got my new Fleshimp bag. haha. love my mummy. like alot.
and, its 69.90.
and with all the impulse shopping urges lately,
u'll soon hear me declaring blankruptcy.
and i'll vanish from the surface of the earth.
my common test is so not over, and here i am,
planning bout events AFTER my tests. :(
study mood please come quick.
4 more gay retarded dumb days to go!
upcoming cool events:
Science Centre, Jurong BirdPark, Sentosa, Booze birthday parties, lots and lots of shoppings, manicures&pedicures with dajie, Spa facial package[YAY!], Escape theme park, bikini swimming(i say say only la, i also wun wear, hahaha), VALENTINES DAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR, and lots more shoppings.
i think all these are the causes of why pple will go mad.
its been so so so long since i've seen you,
i've forgotten how it feels like to be with you.
make me wait no longer, will you?
Friday, February 02, 2007
when i was at the airport yesterday,
a myriad of memories flooded me.
and i have this undescribable urge to just run in the customs and board any random plane.
to any random country. (and to eat aeroplane food for the rest of my life) [because i fucking love aeroplane food, makes me very very super happy]
i really do not wanna stay here any longer.
yes, thats it. i DO NOT wanna stay in this fast-paced crazy life.
where i've to wake up at 5.30 every morning, and den sleep at insane hours in the wee morning.
and so many weird weird things i hafta face.
it gets quite tiring sometimes. and i don think i've any more energy to face any of them.
despite the long hours i've been zzz-ing.
REALLY! please let me just POOFFFFF! and appear in some very relaxing country..
like New Zealand! woohoo.
i'll just live in isolation FOREVER in a small cute farm, nono, make it LARGE cute farm , where lots and lots of animals will accompany me FOR LIFE.
and i'll bring Kacang & Stripey with me, yay!
i'll be the happiest person on earth if i face all the cute cute animals everyday!
or let me just live in a SPA RESORT forever.
and let me indulge in some SPA treatments for the rest of my entire life.
i swear, Joei will be the most RELAXED piece of muscle ever living in this universe.
i'll be so RELAXED, i'll just be a piece of useless muscle. hahahaha.
[my tongue ulcer is hurting, to the max]
i like to escape reality and the truth.
its my favourite hobby.
Doctor says im suffering from stress & tension headache & over-tiredness,
im starting to believe him.
:( i can't wait to go overseas!
please, bring me there somebody.
cos i'll go berserk if i continue being a deranged bitch.
**ohhhhh. i saw a Fleshimp bag at Plaza Sing, damn hot la. im so gonna get it. $69.90 . weehee. my dad says he'll get it for me. but im so not a Fleshimp-py person. i shall be a Poser. ahahahah, but seriously, the bag is so hot. im fantasizing bout it EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE*
a myriad of memories flooded me.
and i have this undescribable urge to just run in the customs and board any random plane.
to any random country. (and to eat aeroplane food for the rest of my life) [because i fucking love aeroplane food, makes me very very super happy]
i really do not wanna stay here any longer.
yes, thats it. i DO NOT wanna stay in this fast-paced crazy life.
where i've to wake up at 5.30 every morning, and den sleep at insane hours in the wee morning.
and so many weird weird things i hafta face.
it gets quite tiring sometimes. and i don think i've any more energy to face any of them.
despite the long hours i've been zzz-ing.
REALLY! please let me just POOFFFFF! and appear in some very relaxing country..
like New Zealand! woohoo.
i'll just live in isolation FOREVER in a small cute farm, nono, make it LARGE cute farm , where lots and lots of animals will accompany me FOR LIFE.
and i'll bring Kacang & Stripey with me, yay!
i'll be the happiest person on earth if i face all the cute cute animals everyday!
or let me just live in a SPA RESORT forever.
and let me indulge in some SPA treatments for the rest of my entire life.
i swear, Joei will be the most RELAXED piece of muscle ever living in this universe.
i'll be so RELAXED, i'll just be a piece of useless muscle. hahahaha.
[my tongue ulcer is hurting, to the max]
i like to escape reality and the truth.
its my favourite hobby.
Doctor says im suffering from stress & tension headache & over-tiredness,
im starting to believe him.
:( i can't wait to go overseas!
please, bring me there somebody.
cos i'll go berserk if i continue being a deranged bitch.
**ohhhhh. i saw a Fleshimp bag at Plaza Sing, damn hot la. im so gonna get it. $69.90 . weehee. my dad says he'll get it for me. but im so not a Fleshimp-py person. i shall be a Poser. ahahahah, but seriously, the bag is so hot. im fantasizing bout it EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE*
when i was still suffering from a broken heart.(but i still look very happy)
hahaha, my last day of 2006!
everyone except ME, tommy, jason dage, and the white colour shirt guy whose name is Jiaming looks weird here. either they are NOT smiling or keeping their eyes closed.
okay, sorry for random pics. i found it in My Received Files anyway.
i've not been in school for 2 days, sorry purani&sylvia! i know u both asked me to try to go school, but im really tried, and i need sleep badly! real real real badly. sorry darling, i love you both anyway.
THURSDAY. slept the whole day again. am happy cos i slept the whole day.
but woke up feeling real depressed, so i headed to town alone to shop.
and i came back a smiling girl, i got so many things!
4 shorts and some body scrub thingy from body shop.
i really love shopping ! and i refuse to see how much is left in my bank.
REFUSE TO.
and headed to airport to fecth my mummy, shes finally back after 3 weeks of abandoning me.
and she got the Vodka for Dyandarling. so happy!
i heard a happy news on the cab home! maybe its good news to me, but not good news to the someone.
meddle around with my darling hammies when i got home. and den, chatted on the phone with losers. and i went to sleep AGAIN.
tadah! lots of sleep makes me smile.
**by the way, my right eye is itching like crazy, for 4 consecutive days. and theres this ulcer on my tongue for 4 days already as well! and i've flu for 2 days. and sore throat(the on off on off kind) for a WEEK already!
IM SURE MURUKU IKAN IS THE CAUSE OF ALL THESE!
thanks for giving me the attention,
but its not you i want it from.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
I wish time would pass FASTER.
and now, i am positively sure the reason why im eating like a deranged shit is because i ain't feeling too good. hmm. im really outta my mind, im eating like a slut, like a slut who haven ate for 3727172 days. seriously, i dunno where did i get all my appetite from. omg. it scares me too.
im just continuously eating. after eating. and after eating. im scaring everyone else around me too. my new middle name is GREEDY.
yea, and i had Sakae Sushi Buffet Lunch with sylvia darling today, and as usual, did ALOT of illegal stuffs. laughed till we died. and i thought of how me n gheeting used to do all those nonsense too. haha.
Purani darling did not go to school today. :(
and, sleeping makes me smile. i shall make sleeping my no.1 love.
OMG NO. Kacang&Stripey ARE my NO.1 LOVE like, forever to the max kinda thing.
yes, i will not destroy any friendship okay. WILL NOT.
WILL NOT WILL NOT.
i wanna drink some booze and get wasted.
already have 2 booze parties ahead after my common test! (yippee yay!)
*ACTs EMO and feels that i should drown my sorrows in alcohol*
my daddy is so gonna get me my camera! HAPPY TO THE MAX.
and now, i am positively sure the reason why im eating like a deranged shit is because i ain't feeling too good. hmm. im really outta my mind, im eating like a slut, like a slut who haven ate for 3727172 days. seriously, i dunno where did i get all my appetite from. omg. it scares me too.
im just continuously eating. after eating. and after eating. im scaring everyone else around me too. my new middle name is GREEDY.
yea, and i had Sakae Sushi Buffet Lunch with sylvia darling today, and as usual, did ALOT of illegal stuffs. laughed till we died. and i thought of how me n gheeting used to do all those nonsense too. haha.
Purani darling did not go to school today. :(
and, sleeping makes me smile. i shall make sleeping my no.1 love.
OMG NO. Kacang&Stripey ARE my NO.1 LOVE like, forever to the max kinda thing.
yes, i will not destroy any friendship okay. WILL NOT.
WILL NOT WILL NOT.
i wanna drink some booze and get wasted.
already have 2 booze parties ahead after my common test! (yippee yay!)
*ACTs EMO and feels that i should drown my sorrows in alcohol*
my daddy is so gonna get me my camera! HAPPY TO THE MAX.
Monday, January 29, 2007
THE PAST. at Bartley Campus. i just really love it there, i miss everything there.
Food, People, Classroom, Teachers, EVERYTHING.
and look how young we look.
After PE, looking real haggard.
THE PAST, at Bartley Campus again! :) i really love it there with my girls.
i love you all.
AND THE PRESENT... !!
o6A3 girls.
my darlings!
yup, we're all happy pple!
and of cos, really happy pple.
and.. i really love school to the max.
(thanks dyan darling for pictures!) yay!
and thats why i love Monday for today. and that , i love school !
its just so so fun.
MONDAY.
and i thought i would have Monday Blues, turns out the total opposite.
it was a funfunfunfun day to the max.cos me n sylvia was binging on rubbish in class,
like MURUKU IKAN, and COCO CRUNCH. yummy yummy. and we laughed like crazy pple.
and i heard shes bringing more food for me n purani tomoro. muahaha.
today's PE was so scary la, kept running, and muz jump so high. im like so scared. :(
and today was really fun ! except i know i tried to be mean to somebody in school, not like i can help it though. considering that, well, forget it, im not gonna elaborate here. its so not me to be mean to pple unnecessarily. UNLESS there is a need to. but i just wouldn't.
and so, i headed to MacDonalds after school ! AND GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!
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GHEETING DARLING! and of cos nicholas and simin.
WOOHOO! we were like crazy ok. we cannot breathe, cos we never plan to meet but we see each other there, the feeling was, hahaa, ORGASM-IE. orgasmie. we practically died . and laughed till we died. on the spot. and she reminded me to blog bout it, so here i am doing it just for her. I LOVE U ANYWAY. and YOU ARE LIKE SOSO SO SO SO SO PRETTY. to the max.
PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY.
:)
yea, im FAT & UGLY, BYE.
and i thought i would have Monday Blues, turns out the total opposite.
it was a funfunfunfun day to the max.cos me n sylvia was binging on rubbish in class,
like MURUKU IKAN, and COCO CRUNCH. yummy yummy. and we laughed like crazy pple.
and i heard shes bringing more food for me n purani tomoro. muahaha.
today's PE was so scary la, kept running, and muz jump so high. im like so scared. :(
and today was really fun ! except i know i tried to be mean to somebody in school, not like i can help it though. considering that, well, forget it, im not gonna elaborate here. its so not me to be mean to pple unnecessarily. UNLESS there is a need to. but i just wouldn't.
and so, i headed to MacDonalds after school ! AND GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!
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GHEETING DARLING! and of cos nicholas and simin.
WOOHOO! we were like crazy ok. we cannot breathe, cos we never plan to meet but we see each other there, the feeling was, hahaa, ORGASM-IE. orgasmie. we practically died . and laughed till we died. on the spot. and she reminded me to blog bout it, so here i am doing it just for her. I LOVE U ANYWAY. and YOU ARE LIKE SOSO SO SO SO SO PRETTY. to the max.
PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY.
:)
yea, im FAT & UGLY, BYE.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
SUNDAY.
i spend my Saturday sleeping & eating non-stop.
and im quite pleased with that.
i SLEPT and SLEPT and SLEPT.
i practically hibernated to the max.
and im still very pleased with that. hahahaa.
accumulated tiredness man.
and i wasted a meal , with my darling. :(
never tell me earlier, ARGH.
so, im going to Plaza Sing later.
to study ! yay.
but i doubt i will la anyway.
Plaza Sing is just too filled with temptations.....
was browsing thru my old notebook of the past.
im writing my feelings down there again.
Seriously, im very immature last time,
i dun really know if i've grown up yet,
but the past of myself makes me grimace.
i can't believe i called eric laogong. WTF?
somebody please shoot me.
DYANdarling, FUGLY equates to HER. okay.
and im feeeling real real happy lately. YAY!
no stress. no troubles. no sadness!
if life continues this way, i'll live a hundred years more~
DARLING KACANG&STRIPEY, I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXMAXMAX.
i spend my Saturday sleeping & eating non-stop.
and im quite pleased with that.
i SLEPT and SLEPT and SLEPT.
i practically hibernated to the max.
and im still very pleased with that. hahahaa.
accumulated tiredness man.
and i wasted a meal , with my darling. :(
never tell me earlier, ARGH.
so, im going to Plaza Sing later.
to study ! yay.
but i doubt i will la anyway.
Plaza Sing is just too filled with temptations.....
was browsing thru my old notebook of the past.
im writing my feelings down there again.
Seriously, im very immature last time,
i dun really know if i've grown up yet,
but the past of myself makes me grimace.
i can't believe i called eric laogong. WTF?
somebody please shoot me.
DYANdarling, FUGLY equates to HER. okay.
and im feeeling real real happy lately. YAY!
no stress. no troubles. no sadness!
if life continues this way, i'll live a hundred years more~
DARLING KACANG&STRIPEY, I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXMAXMAX.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
=P
gosh ! my darling Stripey is like SO CUTE.
CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS IS A FUCKING BIRTHDAY CAKE?!
for a 1 year old kid?!?!?!!?
NO I BLOODY CAN'T!!!
why didnt i have it when i was 1 year old!?!
blowing bubble in the midst of a bubble, BUBBLE.
SPASTIC is our middle name.
Friday. very happy. went shopping with Kim & Syl.
bought a Sally Hansen RED nail poilish. FUCKING NICE.
i overslept on the train , did not alight at Khatib, alighted at AngMoKio instead.
den i took 136 home, and stupid 136 have to go pass Serangoon Gardens, which happens to be where a loser hangs out. i was like praying to the max i hope i won't bump into him la.
and.. yupp, i guess things are clearing up a little now, i love talks. talks makes me happy. and sad too of cos. i cannot believe i actually teared k. its so gay lor. gayingly gay to the max. but i hope things will really turn out as how u put it though. i just cannot stand empty promises, i cannot take the blow once more man. i'll probably go berserk and jump to my death. mahaha.
"If you don love me anymore, I'll commit suicide hor!" -quote someone.
Seriously, if i were to ever say that, shoot me, stab me, fuck me, wadever.
cos it'll never ever COME OUT FROM MY MOUTH MAN.
maybe it will, someday, BUT NOT NOW.
only LOSERS will say such bullshits.
This world isn't fair.
I've gained something,
but yet,
i've lost something in return too.
One can never ever be happily perfect in life.
I dunno why .
thanks for the Adidas wallet, damn hot to the max la. matches my Adidas shoes! AAAA. its RED. woohoo to the max. THANKSSSS. and yea, yea. yea, AIYA I DUNNO LA, THANKS K.
**dyan darling, smileee. i understand how u feel bout fugly girls. hahahaa.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
OKAY, this is like so true k.
LACK OF SLEEP CAUSES PIMPLES .. TO THE MAX.
sigh, the pimples don seem to go away anymore. sobsob.
i .. am .. feeling .. quite.. happy .. today..
but .. den.. quite down in class cos of some stuffs.
BUT IM OVER IT NOW. yay!
and the worst thing is, i ate the whole day today.
i kept eating non stop to the max.
just keep munching and munching.
and anittha darling bought sandwiches to school for everyone.
LOVE HER to the max la. so sweet.
and .. to syl darling: I LOVE U OK.
anyway, i hope everyday would be fine for me!
joei needs to smile!
so pple around me will smile too!
*wishes hard* that i can stay positive.
and im like missing you to the max.
and thanks mengie for being the nice nice nice nice nice guy, though i know u always treat pple meanly. ALWAYS DISTURB PPLE. but thanks OKAY.
LACK OF SLEEP CAUSES PIMPLES .. TO THE MAX.
sigh, the pimples don seem to go away anymore. sobsob.
i .. am .. feeling .. quite.. happy .. today..
but .. den.. quite down in class cos of some stuffs.
BUT IM OVER IT NOW. yay!
and the worst thing is, i ate the whole day today.
i kept eating non stop to the max.
just keep munching and munching.
and anittha darling bought sandwiches to school for everyone.
LOVE HER to the max la. so sweet.
and .. to syl darling: I LOVE U OK.
anyway, i hope everyday would be fine for me!
joei needs to smile!
so pple around me will smile too!
*wishes hard* that i can stay positive.
and im like missing you to the max.
and thanks mengie for being the nice nice nice nice nice guy, though i know u always treat pple meanly. ALWAYS DISTURB PPLE. but thanks OKAY.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
i am .. feeling .. i dunno also.
hahah. i dunno why, but yea, im not really happy.
neither am i really sad. im just feeling very numb.
i think its the exhaustion. the journey to and fro school.
the homeworks, and seriously, everything is tiring me out.
sometimes i wish i can put down everything, any single thing in my life, except my darling hamsters. and den escape to a SPA RESORT! woohoo. i want a SPA RESORT !!
i shall escape there as soon as i can, and i'll never ever come back to the real world.
i will continue escaping till the day i die.
I think Purani&Sylvia doesnt love me anymore, they are constantly laughing at me.
:(
i am officially tired of trying to please everybody.
wads the point anyway?
Why must i act like a slut?
Why must i act icy cool?
Why must i act like im-not-joei ?
Seriously, I SHALL NOT EMBARK ON THIS STUPID PROCESS ANY LONGER.
i shall just,sleep more.and hope things turn out well the next day.as usual.hahahaha.
hahah. i dunno why, but yea, im not really happy.
neither am i really sad. im just feeling very numb.
i think its the exhaustion. the journey to and fro school.
the homeworks, and seriously, everything is tiring me out.
sometimes i wish i can put down everything, any single thing in my life, except my darling hamsters. and den escape to a SPA RESORT! woohoo. i want a SPA RESORT !!
i shall escape there as soon as i can, and i'll never ever come back to the real world.
i will continue escaping till the day i die.
I think Purani&Sylvia doesnt love me anymore, they are constantly laughing at me.
:(
i am officially tired of trying to please everybody.
wads the point anyway?
Why must i act like a slut?
Why must i act icy cool?
Why must i act like im-not-joei ?
Seriously, I SHALL NOT EMBARK ON THIS STUPID PROCESS ANY LONGER.
i shall just,sleep more.and hope things turn out well the next day.as usual.hahahaha.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
MY OBSESSION WITH KOTEX. hahahaa. $80 worth of it hor, i won it in some contest.
SYL, JO, PUR.
best friends ah. hahahahaa.
we're in a bobble. barbbleee. bubble.
my darling loves me, yay! YAY!
SYL darling & ME. love you~
know why i love SYL? cos she everyday help me tie this nice nice BUNNY hair.
and makes me look like a slut. haha.
Joei is stressed when she has to copy homework in the morning.
dyan is touching my boobs. hahaha. LOVE YOU. smile more pls.
DYANdarling & ME smooching.
4 in a toilet cubicle. no joke.
ACT handsome BROTHER & ME.
i swear we do not look alike in any way.
alritey, i hope my darling girl Dyan would not be so sad.
and i hope all my teachers will decide to be nice and not give anymore stupid homework.
and i wish that, hmmm. YOU will love me more and treat me nicer!
FUN day in school yesterday and today.
LOVELOVE IT.
love my frens, my sweeties never fails to make me smile and laugh each and everyday.
but im tired, MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY.
will die soon.
JOEI, please hang on!
for Kacang&Stripey darlling, and for my darlinggg.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Seriously i do not understand guys.
And after all that had happened, i do not want to anymore.
Seriously, they are just a bunch of un-decipherable shits rite.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
save me from my miseries.
im feeeeeeeling ultra vulnerable yet things around me are not helping one bit.
they either do not understand or they are trying to make things worsen.
I officially hate my life. over here. at this very spot in Sengkang.
aiya, i shall just become a whore okay.
den lidat can fuck without worries ma, rite.
den no need study also.
den still can earn money.
den still no need care bout any troubles.
just lie on the fucking bed and open my fucking leg.
den PROBLEM SOLVED.
got money take, still can get pleasure.
THIS KIND OF JOB STILL GOT WHERE ELSE CAN FIND?!
(sorry im just feeeling really down now, pardon my excessive use of FUCKs)
Love = Sex
No Sex = No Love
no? yes?
seriously, i dun know anymore.
And after all that had happened, i do not want to anymore.
Seriously, they are just a bunch of un-decipherable shits rite.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
save me from my miseries.
im feeeeeeeling ultra vulnerable yet things around me are not helping one bit.
they either do not understand or they are trying to make things worsen.
I officially hate my life. over here. at this very spot in Sengkang.
aiya, i shall just become a whore okay.
den lidat can fuck without worries ma, rite.
den no need study also.
den still can earn money.
den still no need care bout any troubles.
just lie on the fucking bed and open my fucking leg.
den PROBLEM SOLVED.
got money take, still can get pleasure.
THIS KIND OF JOB STILL GOT WHERE ELSE CAN FIND?!
(sorry im just feeeling really down now, pardon my excessive use of FUCKs)
Love = Sex
No Sex = No Love
no? yes?
seriously, i dun know anymore.
Because i miss you, because i need you.
i officially detest Sundays.
because today is Sunday , and im feeeling real real..
two words: FUCKED UP. (to the fucking max)
Seriously, i do not like going home when there are strangers k. (strangers=granny's fren)
but what to do. i dunno wads got into me recently. *double sighs*
i wish i can hurl profanities NON-STOP. 25 hours and 8 days a weeek.
Anyway, why can't things turn out smoothly ha?
If turning into an adult, or growing older means all these troubles,
seriously, i rather be a loserish kid all my life.
At least i do not have to worry bout exams, i do not have to worry bout my partner's exams, i do not have to face any relationships problems, and because of zhiwei, im facing friendship problems for like, the first time in my life? FUCK k. seriously. FUCK.
Love is so complicated.
and so is, ERR, pple loving you.
Love = pussy.
so,if theres a chance, DO NOT be in LOVE.seriously.brings nothing but troubles.gone are the times when love defines SWEET,HONEY,RAINBOWS,BLUE SKIES,BUTTERFLIES,CANDY,LOLLIPOP,MARSHMELLOW,HEART-SHAPED CHOCOLATES. NO!
its like ugly. LOVE is UGLY. its GARBAGE,PANGSAI,PIMPLES,FATS, ERIC(HAHAHA!im so evil) , ERIC's GF,BODY ODOUR, wadever la. add all the gross things here and you will have the definition of love.
and like wad Meng says, the spelling of DISAPPOINTMENT is spelt as J-O-E-I.
seriously k, if all i give pple is disappointment, den FUCK k, i shall have nothing to do with ANYBODY. BYEBYE.
**darling,seriously,study for your exams k.study hard.so we shall like not meet for like 341242476786786 days. alrite.okay, yea you are pressured by many many factors, so i shall not add on to it, you can have all the time you wan to yourself, i'll take a big step back. and, i can't really say im feeling fine or anything. but aiya, life is full of troubles anyway. just get your exams done and over with, get good grades and yay! you can like go US or something. yupp. so, just focus on your work and studies k. FOCUS. and PRIORITISE. shall not bother you ! BYE.
all i wanted was just to spend time with you.
maybe i can, if i were to dream a little more.
i officially detest Sundays.
because today is Sunday , and im feeeling real real..
two words: FUCKED UP. (to the fucking max)
Seriously, i do not like going home when there are strangers k. (strangers=granny's fren)
but what to do. i dunno wads got into me recently. *double sighs*
i wish i can hurl profanities NON-STOP. 25 hours and 8 days a weeek.
Anyway, why can't things turn out smoothly ha?
If turning into an adult, or growing older means all these troubles,
seriously, i rather be a loserish kid all my life.
At least i do not have to worry bout exams, i do not have to worry bout my partner's exams, i do not have to face any relationships problems, and because of zhiwei, im facing friendship problems for like, the first time in my life? FUCK k. seriously. FUCK.
Love is so complicated.
and so is, ERR, pple loving you.
Love = pussy.
so,if theres a chance, DO NOT be in LOVE.seriously.brings nothing but troubles.gone are the times when love defines SWEET,HONEY,RAINBOWS,BLUE SKIES,BUTTERFLIES,CANDY,LOLLIPOP,MARSHMELLOW,HEART-SHAPED CHOCOLATES. NO!
its like ugly. LOVE is UGLY. its GARBAGE,PANGSAI,PIMPLES,FATS, ERIC(HAHAHA!im so evil) , ERIC's GF,BODY ODOUR, wadever la. add all the gross things here and you will have the definition of love.
and like wad Meng says, the spelling of DISAPPOINTMENT is spelt as J-O-E-I.
seriously k, if all i give pple is disappointment, den FUCK k, i shall have nothing to do with ANYBODY. BYEBYE.
**darling,seriously,study for your exams k.study hard.so we shall like not meet for like 341242476786786 days. alrite.okay, yea you are pressured by many many factors, so i shall not add on to it, you can have all the time you wan to yourself, i'll take a big step back. and, i can't really say im feeling fine or anything. but aiya, life is full of troubles anyway. just get your exams done and over with, get good grades and yay! you can like go US or something. yupp. so, just focus on your work and studies k. FOCUS. and PRIORITISE. shall not bother you ! BYE.
all i wanted was just to spend time with you.
maybe i can, if i were to dream a little more.
Friday, January 19, 2007
seriously. this is a very very serious post to the max.
SERIOUSLY .
some questions are just the cannot-be-answered and cannot-be-deciphered kind in my head.
its like, PLEASE CAN?
we are like over to the max.
OVER. O-V-E-R t o t h e m a x
get it? and when i mean we're over,
it means YOUR ugly name is NOT on my handphone contact list.
AND YOUR FUGLY PROFILE is not on my FRIENDSTER FRIEND LIST.
and ur loser msn is also NOT on my msn list.
ARGHH. wads the purpose of me deleting you from my frenster ha?
SO THAT U CANT SEE ME UPDATING MY PROFILE OR ADDING NEW PICS OR RECEIVING ANY NEW TESTIMONAILS RITE. so that your hand wun itchy itchy come click ME rite? and u fucking bitchass motherfucker HAVE TO come look at my profile u noe.
IT ANNOYS ME GREATLY.seriously.
why are some pple so so so annoying?
seeing your fugly name, eric-NG- just disgusts me greatly.
actually, you don really disgusts me dear, its just,
your current girlfren is like really FUGLISH, that i really cant help but feel disgusted for you.
yea, when u tell me things bout couple being frens after a relationship.
i feel totally okay bout it.
BUT, because u are like associated with somebody so FAT & UGLY & WORTHLESS.
SORRY BUT YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.
i don associate with pple who mixes with fugly pple. anyway, shes your type of girl. so yea, go screw her and get Aids , and den hope both of u die together also la.
and motherfucking piece of retarded shit, stop fucking viewing my profile la.
KNNBCCB, U GOT NO LIFE WAN IZZIT?!?!
so free go and view your that fugly girlfren's profile la.
(i swear she looks like a deformed twilight zone creature, and a huge enormous one at that too)
ok moving on..
i LOVE my hammies. and of cos, my darling.
SERIOUSLY .
some questions are just the cannot-be-answered and cannot-be-deciphered kind in my head.
its like, PLEASE CAN?
we are like over to the max.
OVER. O-V-E-R t o t h e m a x
get it? and when i mean we're over,
it means YOUR ugly name is NOT on my handphone contact list.
AND YOUR FUGLY PROFILE is not on my FRIENDSTER FRIEND LIST.
and ur loser msn is also NOT on my msn list.
ARGHH. wads the purpose of me deleting you from my frenster ha?
SO THAT U CANT SEE ME UPDATING MY PROFILE OR ADDING NEW PICS OR RECEIVING ANY NEW TESTIMONAILS RITE. so that your hand wun itchy itchy come click ME rite? and u fucking bitchass motherfucker HAVE TO come look at my profile u noe.
IT ANNOYS ME GREATLY.seriously.
why are some pple so so so annoying?
seeing your fugly name, eric-NG- just disgusts me greatly.
actually, you don really disgusts me dear, its just,
your current girlfren is like really FUGLISH, that i really cant help but feel disgusted for you.
yea, when u tell me things bout couple being frens after a relationship.
i feel totally okay bout it.
BUT, because u are like associated with somebody so FAT & UGLY & WORTHLESS.
SORRY BUT YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN.
i don associate with pple who mixes with fugly pple. anyway, shes your type of girl. so yea, go screw her and get Aids , and den hope both of u die together also la.
and motherfucking piece of retarded shit, stop fucking viewing my profile la.
KNNBCCB, U GOT NO LIFE WAN IZZIT?!?!
so free go and view your that fugly girlfren's profile la.
(i swear she looks like a deformed twilight zone creature, and a huge enormous one at that too)
ok moving on..
i LOVE my hammies. and of cos, my darling.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
because im feeling down, my frens are like trying to cheer me up, and hahahaha, they let me see this thingy. i swear i died of laughing. on the spot. when i was still siao over maple last time, i swear i did all these man. AHAHAHAHA. i go around F2-ing to the max. and some of it is like true. it cheered me up for awhile though. thanks thanks. hahahaa. its so late and im not asleep yet! AND MY TUMMY HURTS TO THE BLOODY MAX. DYING SOON LIKE NOW.
When u play too much MapleStory
1)When you try to smile but instead say "F2"
2)When you go out in the public parks and pretend to jump like maplestory characters
3)When you ask direction to balrog
4)When you dont know where ur friend is u say "/find *user*"
5)When you kill snails for money
6)When you take a stick and poke a snail
7)When someone walked past you and you are thinking about right clicking him.
8)When you try to pluck feathers from pigs and cats
When u play too much MapleStory
1)When you try to smile but instead say "F2"
2)When you go out in the public parks and pretend to jump like maplestory characters
3)When you ask direction to balrog
4)When you dont know where ur friend is u say "/find *user*"
5)When you kill snails for money
6)When you take a stick and poke a snail
7)When someone walked past you and you are thinking about right clicking him.
8)When you try to pluck feathers from pigs and cats
SIGH. aiyo.
i do not like to start any post so emo. BUT, AAAAAA. never mind la.
school's super fun lately, except for the exhaustion. i think it rocks to the max.
hahaha. got so many best best bestest frens! LOVE U ALL.
i laugh like constantly to the max. i swear.
and my history teacher is like so cute, i love him.
REALLY. hes super adorable to the maxmaxmax.
he totally made my day fine.
hahaha.
BUT. things turned for the worst! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
FUCK. ok should not swear, but sighhhh to the max.
its times like now, that i wish a SALESMAN would just appear at my doorstep.
yea, as much as how annoying salesperson are, i kinda wish they would appear like NOW.
so that they can advertise, a product like....
A HEARTACHE PILL ! where it can cure a heartache, of cos.
so the conversation would be like. between me and the salesman.
(ding dong ding dong)
SALESMAN : HELLO ! can i talk to anybody please?
ME : yes? can i help u? im not in a very nice mood now, and if u annoy me, i'll bring u in and fuck you.
SALESMAN : okay, u look really nice, but u look so so so sad. BUT RELAX! i've just the thing to make u smile. and to introduce myself first, u may call me MR CHAI.
ME : and what the fuck is that, MR CHAI?
SALESMAN : (took out a box) TADAH! its this box of HEARTACHE PAIN KILLER!
ME : (opens my eyes BIG BIG) OMG! that is like way cool. you mean my heart will not ache after i eat it? as in, seriously?
SALESMAN : OF COS LA! i bluff u for wad, really, just a pill and no more heartache.!
ME : OKAY, IM SO HAVING ONE OF IT! HOW MUCH?!?!?!!?
SALESMAN : darling, this pill is priceless, in exchange for it, u need to learn to trust and love. and once you learn how to trust and love, and learn to give in sometimes, YOUR heartache is the cause of YOUR own stubborn-ness and your unwillingness to give in. Loving means finding something perfect out of an imperfect person. (quote:syl darling) , so in exchange for this pill, are u willing to put in more love and try to give in more in a relationship?
ME : (thinks bout it for awhile) (den cry a few drops of loserish tears) i'll try, good nitey.
(closes my door)
how nice if there really is sucha pill. EAT LIAO DEN HEART WILL NOT ACHE!
MUAHAHAHAA. im gonna be the first to invent it. and yay! i'll be the richest slut on earth.
=( SIGH ...
i wish i can mutilate myself..................
*** OMG. my favourite korkor in the world just gave me a friendster testimonial ! muahahaha. YAY !! ****
i do not like to start any post so emo. BUT, AAAAAA. never mind la.
school's super fun lately, except for the exhaustion. i think it rocks to the max.
hahaha. got so many best best bestest frens! LOVE U ALL.
i laugh like constantly to the max. i swear.
and my history teacher is like so cute, i love him.
REALLY. hes super adorable to the maxmaxmax.
he totally made my day fine.
hahaha.
BUT. things turned for the worst! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
FUCK. ok should not swear, but sighhhh to the max.
its times like now, that i wish a SALESMAN would just appear at my doorstep.
yea, as much as how annoying salesperson are, i kinda wish they would appear like NOW.
so that they can advertise, a product like....
A HEARTACHE PILL ! where it can cure a heartache, of cos.
so the conversation would be like. between me and the salesman.
(ding dong ding dong)
SALESMAN : HELLO ! can i talk to anybody please?
ME : yes? can i help u? im not in a very nice mood now, and if u annoy me, i'll bring u in and fuck you.
SALESMAN : okay, u look really nice, but u look so so so sad. BUT RELAX! i've just the thing to make u smile. and to introduce myself first, u may call me MR CHAI.
ME : and what the fuck is that, MR CHAI?
SALESMAN : (took out a box) TADAH! its this box of HEARTACHE PAIN KILLER!
ME : (opens my eyes BIG BIG) OMG! that is like way cool. you mean my heart will not ache after i eat it? as in, seriously?
SALESMAN : OF COS LA! i bluff u for wad, really, just a pill and no more heartache.!
ME : OKAY, IM SO HAVING ONE OF IT! HOW MUCH?!?!?!!?
SALESMAN : darling, this pill is priceless, in exchange for it, u need to learn to trust and love. and once you learn how to trust and love, and learn to give in sometimes, YOUR heartache is the cause of YOUR own stubborn-ness and your unwillingness to give in. Loving means finding something perfect out of an imperfect person. (quote:syl darling) , so in exchange for this pill, are u willing to put in more love and try to give in more in a relationship?
ME : (thinks bout it for awhile) (den cry a few drops of loserish tears) i'll try, good nitey.
(closes my door)
how nice if there really is sucha pill. EAT LIAO DEN HEART WILL NOT ACHE!
MUAHAHAHAA. im gonna be the first to invent it. and yay! i'll be the richest slut on earth.
=( SIGH ...
i wish i can mutilate myself..................
*** OMG. my favourite korkor in the world just gave me a friendster testimonial ! muahahaha. YAY !! ****
Sunday, January 14, 2007
When a GUY is quiet and is alone,
He is thinking how good you're and he miss you!!!
(when a guy is quiet , he misses me? NO THATS NOT TRUE. some pple just like to stay quiet for no apparent reason.)
When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
( and im very sure its cos of my boobs or something)
When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.
When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after awhile,
He is not and feels hurts.
When a GUY keep asking you the same question,
He is wondering why you are lying.
When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you belongs to him forever.
( he is horny. if he does that)
When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.
When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and want to know how are you today.
When a GUY sms's u everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.
When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.
When a GUY says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.
When a GUY says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immeditely.
i got that from an email like today. i feel that , some of it are so not true. why on earth does pple come up with sucha nonsensical email ha? i don really understand, but still, maybe some of it are true to a certain extent, cos im not really a guy, i don really know.
okay, lately im a chiongster to the max. i keep doing so many projects and all my homework and everything. i wanna die . but at least i completed lotsa things. but there are still SUPER BLOODY LOTS of things to be done. :( im so depressed . sobsobs. BUT NO CHOICE! i will persevere.
13th january ! :) muz smile on this very day. cos im just like happy to the max.
was an awesome day, had lotsa fun.
shopping&shopping&more shopping.
and yumyum food.
and of cos, the great companion! hahahahaa.
and i had a new necklace which is like gorgeous. and a new handbag.
double yay!
thanks sweets.
and..... of cos. gheeting is staying at my house, we talked like for 13223 days before we slept. and den we made ONEH-ONEH which is like yummy, seriously yummy. not ROCK HARD like the one made the previous day. i loveeee her. and now we're eating HOME DELIVERY MACDONALD. heh heh. and LOVE IS LIKE A MALT CANDY :) we ROcks to the max. yippeee.
and my brother n gheeting is engaging in sex talks, i dunno wad they talking bout but they wan me to blog bout it. siao.
im goin to eat now! BYE!
I LOVE YOU.
He is thinking how good you're and he miss you!!!
(when a guy is quiet , he misses me? NO THATS NOT TRUE. some pple just like to stay quiet for no apparent reason.)
When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
( and im very sure its cos of my boobs or something)
When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.
When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after awhile,
He is not and feels hurts.
When a GUY keep asking you the same question,
He is wondering why you are lying.
When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you belongs to him forever.
( he is horny. if he does that)
When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.
When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and want to know how are you today.
When a GUY sms's u everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.
When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.
When a GUY says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.
When a GUY says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immeditely.
i got that from an email like today. i feel that , some of it are so not true. why on earth does pple come up with sucha nonsensical email ha? i don really understand, but still, maybe some of it are true to a certain extent, cos im not really a guy, i don really know.
okay, lately im a chiongster to the max. i keep doing so many projects and all my homework and everything. i wanna die . but at least i completed lotsa things. but there are still SUPER BLOODY LOTS of things to be done. :( im so depressed . sobsobs. BUT NO CHOICE! i will persevere.
13th january ! :) muz smile on this very day. cos im just like happy to the max.
was an awesome day, had lotsa fun.
shopping&shopping&more shopping.
and yumyum food.
and of cos, the great companion! hahahahaa.
and i had a new necklace which is like gorgeous. and a new handbag.
double yay!
thanks sweets.
and..... of cos. gheeting is staying at my house, we talked like for 13223 days before we slept. and den we made ONEH-ONEH which is like yummy, seriously yummy. not ROCK HARD like the one made the previous day. i loveeee her. and now we're eating HOME DELIVERY MACDONALD. heh heh. and LOVE IS LIKE A MALT CANDY :) we ROcks to the max. yippeee.
and my brother n gheeting is engaging in sex talks, i dunno wad they talking bout but they wan me to blog bout it. siao.
im goin to eat now! BYE!
I LOVE YOU.
Friday, January 12, 2007
i think im either the most cheerful-iest girl, or the most heartless girl like ever.
okay fine, i dunno which but for a relationship of 2 years and 2 months, i took like 6 days to get over it. 6 DAYS. 6 DAYS !!!!
and FUCk, 6 DAYS IS BLOODY FAST TO THE MAX!!!!
i think im heartless.
if not den im siao.
cos i took 2 years to get over a relationship of 2 months and 2 weeks.
im seriously siao.
BUT STILL, i've moved on.
YAY! (:
i've found someone WAY WAY WAY BETTER.
as in seriously way better den the word way better.
smooches.
Thats why I said 2007 would be a much much better year, dont u think?
okay fine, i dunno which but for a relationship of 2 years and 2 months, i took like 6 days to get over it. 6 DAYS. 6 DAYS !!!!
and FUCk, 6 DAYS IS BLOODY FAST TO THE MAX!!!!
i think im heartless.
if not den im siao.
cos i took 2 years to get over a relationship of 2 months and 2 weeks.
im seriously siao.
BUT STILL, i've moved on.
YAY! (:
i've found someone WAY WAY WAY BETTER.
as in seriously way better den the word way better.
smooches.
Thats why I said 2007 would be a much much better year, dont u think?
Thursday, January 11, 2007
YAY! i was so EMO today. i cried and cried. for awhile. ahaha. cos my parents throw away my nice nice smell pillows. so sad. no more nice smells. im fucking sad. and i know my parents DO NOT love me anymore. so i send an sms to my mum tellin her shes cruel and she hates me. and i called home to say im not going home today.
and i received a call from my mummy! she asked me not to act like a pathetic loser, and so, shes gonna gimme a SPA FACIAL PACKAGE TREATMENT! OHMYGOSH.
im fucking happy. i can die like now. GOSH.
loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
and i received a call from my mummy! she asked me not to act like a pathetic loser, and so, shes gonna gimme a SPA FACIAL PACKAGE TREATMENT! OHMYGOSH.
im fucking happy. i can die like now. GOSH.
loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Monday, January 01, 2007
happy happy happy happy new year, EVERYONE!
its year 2oo7, and we should all be very very happy bout it!
i had the funnest day of my year on the last day of 2oo6. :)
went to Marina Square & to Esplanade, and to see fireworks.
it was supposedly a many many pple thing, but network wasn't good,
so end up didnt meet alot of other pple.
but im glad got zhiwei! tommy! Jason Da ge! WeiQiang! Jiaming! another Zhiwei! and saw a few pple i noe on the way. like Mengie&co. . and some other losers which i have no idea wad are their names.
and i tell you, the fireworks is like so nice~ lovelovelove it. spectaculars sight.
and im never gonna forget it. its so squeezy though, and im like so short.
im being blocked by so many losers.
all in all, i had lotsa lotsa fun.
i missed out going to a disco with Dickson.
i missed a getaway with gheeting & melanie darling.
i missed a meeting with Glenn.
just for going to Marina Square to Countdown. HAHAHA.
though i think it would be alot more fun with darling gheeting, melanie dearie, and all my WeHaveNoHope pple.
wads more fun is the LATE NIGHT MOVIE with zhiwei & his sister, Doris.
HAHAHA, im so sick, i like Night at the Museum so much that i watched it again !
at 11.40pm . hahaha. the show is really nice. i wanna watch it for the 3rd time. HAHHAHAHA.
(pictures of Countdown 2oo6 will be out real soon, i promise)
and since its the New Year, let me do something really really mean, but im not gonna care la, of cos. its the first n last bad thing i will do.
Because seriously, im very annoyed at the fact that my ex-boyfriend's current girlfren viewed my frenster profile, SERIOUSLY, shes revolting. i swear. not lying. im like, CAN U LIKE KEEP UR EYES TO YOURSELF ANOT? must u view me? MUST U? its so annoying to see somebody so fat & hideous viewing you. makes me wanna delete my frenster account for good.
its not that i wanna make a BIG BIG fuss outta it, but u gotta understand the feeling of somebody so disgusting viewing you., totally makes me wanna die. REALLY.
so if i had a chance, i really wanna write this letter and send it to her.
Dear (FATBITCH) XiaoHui,
I do not know you at all, and i do not want to. And i would like to ask, you got nothing better to do wan ah? Oh ya, you are equally as NO LIFE as your boyfriend, who constantly SURF FRIENDSTER and anyhow anyhow view people. Please lor, you can do that and kill other pple, but don do that to me can?
And i would really like to ask, do you have any twin sister by any chance? Cos i just came back from Thailand and i saw this really really really grosteque-looking transvetite hooker. You know how some transvetite hooker are really chio, slim and all? Well, that particular transvetite who looks exactly like you, is really UGLY, FAT, and those failure failure kind. those no money to do Botox , and inject more female hormones kind. and seriously, she looks like you. As fat n ugly. And wads more, you are a whore , just like her. except i think u are uglier, and fatter, and much more disgusting of cos.
Please do not think i've no life, like why i go look at ugly pple, its because she looks soo ugly(like you, NO U ARE UGLIER) , that she got my attention immediatly. But despite how YUCKY she is, at least i respect her. FOR NOT BEING A BUSYBODY!
Seriously, you ugly is already quite bad liao u know. DEN U STILL MUST PURPOSELY BE so KPO ah. i cannot tahan you. its alrite to be Fat & Ugly & not well-liked by pple. but please leh, don anyhow anyhow view ME, if u pretty still never mind. BUT WITH A FACE LIKE YOURS, i wish u would just die. seriously.
And no, im so NOT jealous with u and my Ex-Boyfriend. Im so over him like to the max. and both of you may spend the rest of your lives together and be road/toilet cleaner as your future career as well. YAY! den both of u can be happy forever! HOW SWEET?
Oh By the way, out of a poll of 20 pple, 4362 pple thinks you are really hideous, and really Fat & Ugly. and that you have no life. (no personal feelings, im not even included in the 4362 pple!)
and they too agree you & him looks like a total circus freak when together.
its just so LOL-able sometimes.
Bye FUGLY whore! See you not!(cos i dowan to die young)
I really hope you die like now, together with him.
Joei`cookies. :)
its year 2oo7, and we should all be very very happy bout it!
i had the funnest day of my year on the last day of 2oo6. :)
went to Marina Square & to Esplanade, and to see fireworks.
it was supposedly a many many pple thing, but network wasn't good,
so end up didnt meet alot of other pple.
but im glad got zhiwei! tommy! Jason Da ge! WeiQiang! Jiaming! another Zhiwei! and saw a few pple i noe on the way. like Mengie&co. . and some other losers which i have no idea wad are their names.
and i tell you, the fireworks is like so nice~ lovelovelove it. spectaculars sight.
and im never gonna forget it. its so squeezy though, and im like so short.
im being blocked by so many losers.
all in all, i had lotsa lotsa fun.
i missed out going to a disco with Dickson.
i missed a getaway with gheeting & melanie darling.
i missed a meeting with Glenn.
just for going to Marina Square to Countdown. HAHAHA.
though i think it would be alot more fun with darling gheeting, melanie dearie, and all my WeHaveNoHope pple.
wads more fun is the LATE NIGHT MOVIE with zhiwei & his sister, Doris.
HAHAHA, im so sick, i like Night at the Museum so much that i watched it again !
at 11.40pm . hahaha. the show is really nice. i wanna watch it for the 3rd time. HAHHAHAHA.
(pictures of Countdown 2oo6 will be out real soon, i promise)
and since its the New Year, let me do something really really mean, but im not gonna care la, of cos. its the first n last bad thing i will do.
Because seriously, im very annoyed at the fact that my ex-boyfriend's current girlfren viewed my frenster profile, SERIOUSLY, shes revolting. i swear. not lying. im like, CAN U LIKE KEEP UR EYES TO YOURSELF ANOT? must u view me? MUST U? its so annoying to see somebody so fat & hideous viewing you. makes me wanna delete my frenster account for good.
its not that i wanna make a BIG BIG fuss outta it, but u gotta understand the feeling of somebody so disgusting viewing you., totally makes me wanna die. REALLY.
so if i had a chance, i really wanna write this letter and send it to her.
Dear (FATBITCH) XiaoHui,
I do not know you at all, and i do not want to. And i would like to ask, you got nothing better to do wan ah? Oh ya, you are equally as NO LIFE as your boyfriend, who constantly SURF FRIENDSTER and anyhow anyhow view people. Please lor, you can do that and kill other pple, but don do that to me can?
And i would really like to ask, do you have any twin sister by any chance? Cos i just came back from Thailand and i saw this really really really grosteque-looking transvetite hooker. You know how some transvetite hooker are really chio, slim and all? Well, that particular transvetite who looks exactly like you, is really UGLY, FAT, and those failure failure kind. those no money to do Botox , and inject more female hormones kind. and seriously, she looks like you. As fat n ugly. And wads more, you are a whore , just like her. except i think u are uglier, and fatter, and much more disgusting of cos.
Please do not think i've no life, like why i go look at ugly pple, its because she looks soo ugly(like you, NO U ARE UGLIER) , that she got my attention immediatly. But despite how YUCKY she is, at least i respect her. FOR NOT BEING A BUSYBODY!
Seriously, you ugly is already quite bad liao u know. DEN U STILL MUST PURPOSELY BE so KPO ah. i cannot tahan you. its alrite to be Fat & Ugly & not well-liked by pple. but please leh, don anyhow anyhow view ME, if u pretty still never mind. BUT WITH A FACE LIKE YOURS, i wish u would just die. seriously.
And no, im so NOT jealous with u and my Ex-Boyfriend. Im so over him like to the max. and both of you may spend the rest of your lives together and be road/toilet cleaner as your future career as well. YAY! den both of u can be happy forever! HOW SWEET?
Oh By the way, out of a poll of 20 pple, 4362 pple thinks you are really hideous, and really Fat & Ugly. and that you have no life. (no personal feelings, im not even included in the 4362 pple!)
and they too agree you & him looks like a total circus freak when together.
its just so LOL-able sometimes.
Bye FUGLY whore! See you not!(cos i dowan to die young)
I really hope you die like now, together with him.
Joei`cookies. :)
Saturday, December 30, 2006
i am crazy recently. i am hyper partying to the max. i am officially losing my mind!
HAHAHAHA! and im SUPER ULTRA HAPPY~!
thursday was SISTERS DAY for me & gheeting. we spent the WHOLEEEE day together. and its soo soo soo fun. fun fun. we watched Curse of the Golden Flower, the nehnehpok show, its full of overflowing boobs, i swear. and jay looks very very funny, really. and after that , we went to FarEast and walked around and decided to go K-box in Hougang! OMG! ITS THE FUNNEST DAY OF OUR LIVES. we totally sang from 9pm to 2am. TOTALLY. goshh. all the songs we sang are superb. i love singing with her alone! hahaha. and we smuggled food in , and got "said" by the annoying guy, but we did not give a fuck. HEH HEH HEH. and i REALLY do feeel alot alot better just by spending 3 whole days with my darling gheeting. *muacks* darling, i love you so, thanks for being here when i need u. HUGS HUGS!
and Friday , was Millenia Institute's opening day. the Bukit Batok Campus opening day, zhiwei was irresponsible cos he fell asleep and did not wake me up, that ass. and i had to take a cab to Bartley campus! ASSHOLE! i wasted 10bucks just like that.... just like that....... =( sobbies. HAHA. and when i reach school, was greeted by familiar faces that i love! PURANI & SYLVIA! i simply loveeeee u both. we laughed like siao as usual. den sylvia kept stealing glances at me n purani when she was standing at the doorway, !! hahaa.
den we headed to the new campus and me n dyan was bitching so so so much bout guys and love and its SUPER funny ! cos we share the same sentiments for certain things. hahaha. and poor darling purani was nauseous. cos the retarded bus was jerky to the max. anyway, the new campus is SUPERFUCKINGSUPER big. serious. and throughout, annitha, valerie,renuka,priya, dyan, me, purani we were fooling around! its so so fun. and when the dumb Amazing Race Millenia starts, we decided to fuck off from the school and went to West Mall instead. GOOD CHOICE!
COS I WATCHED NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM WITH PURANI! ITS SUPER NICE! PLEASE WATCH IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! its the BEST BEST BEST show on earth. =)
and went to watch Death Note 2 with zhiwei after that. (yay i finally can write zhiwei's name here CLEARLY AND BIGLY!) woohoo. ZHIWEI ZHIWEI ZHIWEI. i was so tempted to eat my Salmon Sashimi with Rice. BUT i resisted my temptations. heh heh heh. bought 3 door thingy. soo soo soo cute . =) so all in all, i had a fun fun fun day !
LOVE U ALL!
3 movies in 2 days. im siao. really..
and ONE MORE THING! i've nothing to do with him anymore! YAY!
cos i returned him the PSP like finally!! and now, we owe each other nothing no more!
YiPPEE! adds on to my already happiness! cannot take it man!
and please stop stalking my frenster and blog. i cannot take it.
your partner has aids and shes ugly and fat and it disgusts me like totally.
and she disgusts ALL my frens too. so please, don stalk me...(im scared k?)
HAHAHAHA! and im SUPER ULTRA HAPPY~!
thursday was SISTERS DAY for me & gheeting. we spent the WHOLEEEE day together. and its soo soo soo fun. fun fun. we watched Curse of the Golden Flower, the nehnehpok show, its full of overflowing boobs, i swear. and jay looks very very funny, really. and after that , we went to FarEast and walked around and decided to go K-box in Hougang! OMG! ITS THE FUNNEST DAY OF OUR LIVES. we totally sang from 9pm to 2am. TOTALLY. goshh. all the songs we sang are superb. i love singing with her alone! hahaha. and we smuggled food in , and got "said" by the annoying guy, but we did not give a fuck. HEH HEH HEH. and i REALLY do feeel alot alot better just by spending 3 whole days with my darling gheeting. *muacks* darling, i love you so, thanks for being here when i need u. HUGS HUGS!
and Friday , was Millenia Institute's opening day. the Bukit Batok Campus opening day, zhiwei was irresponsible cos he fell asleep and did not wake me up, that ass. and i had to take a cab to Bartley campus! ASSHOLE! i wasted 10bucks just like that.... just like that....... =( sobbies. HAHA. and when i reach school, was greeted by familiar faces that i love! PURANI & SYLVIA! i simply loveeeee u both. we laughed like siao as usual. den sylvia kept stealing glances at me n purani when she was standing at the doorway, !! hahaa.
den we headed to the new campus and me n dyan was bitching so so so much bout guys and love and its SUPER funny ! cos we share the same sentiments for certain things. hahaha. and poor darling purani was nauseous. cos the retarded bus was jerky to the max. anyway, the new campus is SUPERFUCKINGSUPER big. serious. and throughout, annitha, valerie,renuka,priya, dyan, me, purani we were fooling around! its so so fun. and when the dumb Amazing Race Millenia starts, we decided to fuck off from the school and went to West Mall instead. GOOD CHOICE!
COS I WATCHED NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM WITH PURANI! ITS SUPER NICE! PLEASE WATCH IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! its the BEST BEST BEST show on earth. =)
and went to watch Death Note 2 with zhiwei after that. (yay i finally can write zhiwei's name here CLEARLY AND BIGLY!) woohoo. ZHIWEI ZHIWEI ZHIWEI. i was so tempted to eat my Salmon Sashimi with Rice. BUT i resisted my temptations. heh heh heh. bought 3 door thingy. soo soo soo cute . =) so all in all, i had a fun fun fun day !
LOVE U ALL!
3 movies in 2 days. im siao. really..
and ONE MORE THING! i've nothing to do with him anymore! YAY!
cos i returned him the PSP like finally!! and now, we owe each other nothing no more!
YiPPEE! adds on to my already happiness! cannot take it man!
and please stop stalking my frenster and blog. i cannot take it.
your partner has aids and shes ugly and fat and it disgusts me like totally.
and she disgusts ALL my frens too. so please, don stalk me...(im scared k?)
Thursday, December 28, 2006
heh heh. i've somewhat recovered. SOMEHOW. thanks to my darling gheeting ! i spent like 3 days with her already. hahahaa. its soo soo soo fun without a boyfriend. GOSH! i can't believe im actually enjoying myself and not indulging in loneliness instead. =D YAY! so so happy. and i really must thank gheeting AGAIN!
cos we had so much fun. we ate maggi noodles with eggs, and luncheon meat. GOSH! its heavenly~~ i LOVE it. den we watched gangster movie and laugh our asses off. and watched megapoden/megalopon some shark show la..
and today we're going out again! to watch Curse of the golden Flower! yay! can see neh neh and jay! hahahahaa.
and im becoming VERY irresponsible. BUT! its the last few days of the year, so its okay, when the new year comes, I WILL BE RESPONSIBLE AGAIN! i promise REALLY.
and thanks to a guy called SongFeng or something(i don really know), thanks for telling me theres a book warehouse sales at Expo. hugs. so nice of you!
all in all, im moving on! MOVING ON TO THE MAX.
**SORRY I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG ADD. SOME GAY SHIT LOSERS KEEP STALKING IT, IM GETTING REALLY SCARED U KNOW**
(but i must be brave, i will change it back to fatcookies.blogspot.com again soon)
cos we had so much fun. we ate maggi noodles with eggs, and luncheon meat. GOSH! its heavenly~~ i LOVE it. den we watched gangster movie and laugh our asses off. and watched megapoden/megalopon some shark show la..
and today we're going out again! to watch Curse of the golden Flower! yay! can see neh neh and jay! hahahahaa.
and im becoming VERY irresponsible. BUT! its the last few days of the year, so its okay, when the new year comes, I WILL BE RESPONSIBLE AGAIN! i promise REALLY.
and thanks to a guy called SongFeng or something(i don really know), thanks for telling me theres a book warehouse sales at Expo. hugs. so nice of you!
all in all, im moving on! MOVING ON TO THE MAX.
**SORRY I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOG ADD. SOME GAY SHIT LOSERS KEEP STALKING IT, IM GETTING REALLY SCARED U KNOW**
(but i must be brave, i will change it back to fatcookies.blogspot.com again soon)
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
jason dage called me yesterday at 1.48am! and we were discussing bout the countdown party. and after which lead to BEING SINGLE. hahaha, we are super thrilled bout it. and we are not feeling sorry for ourselves at all. heh heh. cos we are still young ma! den we must enjoy enjoy! our night time philosophy.
why brood over unhappy things when we only live life once?
and why choose someone who isn't choosing you?
right right right? i think i make some sense.
and i would love to thank:
Roo Peiru
Isabel&co.
Jason dage
Kacang&Stripey
for making my day. =)
why brood over unhappy things when we only live life once?
and why choose someone who isn't choosing you?
right right right? i think i make some sense.
and i would love to thank:
Roo Peiru
Isabel&co.
Jason dage
Kacang&Stripey
for making my day. =)
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
If you two come together because you're both lonely and needy and desperate to kiss someone (anyone! ANYONE!! ANYONE!!!). your relationship probabply won't last long.
But if u get along, care about each other, root for each other, and enjoy each other's strengths while also accepting each other's short comings, you just may have something there.
But if u get along, care about each other, root for each other, and enjoy each other's strengths while also accepting each other's short comings, you just may have something there.
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
- Edna St. Vincent Millay
Whether u're the one leaving or the one being left, its undeniably sad when the ove of love becomes the ove of over.
But just as the relationshop didnt last forever, the misery won't either. and while pain stinks, it isn't permanent. so plod along, and if u feel like crying, cry.
BUT THEN!! change the channel ! go for a swim, meet frens for pizza, cook something. build something. play music. VOLUNTEER. keep a journam. pet ur cat/hamster/dog. plan a getaway weekend. rent a movie. read a book.
When love makes an exit, let a flurry of activities sweep in to take its space. Staying busy and involved, even when ur smashed-up heart isnt in it, is the surest way to start feeling good again. that and having someone to talk to - like a best fren, (in fact, many best frens!).
"Patience, my heart: Night's length will pass." -Faiz Ahmed Faiz
Can you take 3 giant steps back? Can you see all the good things that are still in your life? Can you use your hurt to become more passionate?
"Do you believe in life after love?" someone asked. I do. And as k.d. lang pointed out, "Theres nothing like a good heartbreak to get a good song."
Yes, i've been hurt. i've suffered. but that's not what makes me me.
What makes me me is getting through all that stuff, pushing it aside, moving forward.
YES JOEI TAN XIN YI! U CAN! =D
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
- Edna St. Vincent Millay
Whether u're the one leaving or the one being left, its undeniably sad when the ove of love becomes the ove of over.
But just as the relationshop didnt last forever, the misery won't either. and while pain stinks, it isn't permanent. so plod along, and if u feel like crying, cry.
BUT THEN!! change the channel ! go for a swim, meet frens for pizza, cook something. build something. play music. VOLUNTEER. keep a journam. pet ur cat/hamster/dog. plan a getaway weekend. rent a movie. read a book.
When love makes an exit, let a flurry of activities sweep in to take its space. Staying busy and involved, even when ur smashed-up heart isnt in it, is the surest way to start feeling good again. that and having someone to talk to - like a best fren, (in fact, many best frens!).
"Patience, my heart: Night's length will pass." -Faiz Ahmed Faiz
Can you take 3 giant steps back? Can you see all the good things that are still in your life? Can you use your hurt to become more passionate?
"Do you believe in life after love?" someone asked. I do. And as k.d. lang pointed out, "Theres nothing like a good heartbreak to get a good song."
Yes, i've been hurt. i've suffered. but that's not what makes me me.
What makes me me is getting through all that stuff, pushing it aside, moving forward.
YES JOEI TAN XIN YI! U CAN! =D
its 26th of Dec liao! im moving on, im still alive. and this shows i can CAN can live without him. in fact, very well indeed. i had so much fun!
yesterday went to meet gheeting and talked like siao, den we went to meet Melanie & Jarael at rivervale mall. i was like, "sigh, i've been here with him before" , and gheeting will be like, "shut up la u whore" .. but she made me smile though. and i had my first proper meal in like forever. Long John's! gheeting darling was so sweet to treat me eat. hahahaa.
den we went to melanie's house. =D BIG SMILE. it was fun, AND AND AND gosh! me n gheeting did something we never ever tried before! and this time, its not just one or two puffs but the whole whole whole thingy! i was like so happy, cos its my first ever time kinda thing. =)
hmmm, some pple says doing that will relieve u off troubles temporarily.. so , i might wanna carry on doing it . but i don feel like getting throat cancer, lung cancer or wadever shit so early leh..
and we went back to mel's house to drink ! we are losers lor, we can't take alchohol.. we had vodka with green tea. we talked & talked & talked all night. but once we switch off the lights, all of us fell into a deep slumber! the next time i woke up was 7.30.. and i did melanie's SUDOKU. im considering getting one. =) time to work my brains.
the weather is PERFECT for sleeping. =) LOVE IT.
and i really would like to thank gheeting darling & melanie darling & jarael darling for being such sweet companions, helps alot. cos when we were sleeping, i slept in the middle of gheeting & melanie, and for once in so many days, i did NOT felt empty n lost, in fact, i felt protected and loved by my frens!
I LOVE MY FRENS ! ALOT ! more den YOU. ^^
and sorry , i take back my words, i CANNOT LIVE without my darling hammieS!
YOU will never ever in be more important den my darling hammies in my life!
oh ya, hmm. i hope there will not be any more FUGLY pple viewing my frenster profile. scares the fuck outta me. SERIOUSLY. wad XiaoHui or dunno wad sai. EEEE. why so ugly de. and im like, TRAUMATISED. so pLEASE. don view me leh. don dirty my frenster k? FAT BITCH. i realise shes got a ZHENG ZHONG PIG FACE. (Original Pig Face). goes to show how Birds of the Same Feathers Flock Together. They look exactly like clowns together! HAHAHA!
(the above is not only MY opinion, but a mixture of ALOT of pple's opinion)
thanks. bcos i don give a flying fuck bout u anymore.
Enjoying every moment of my life~ and im looking forward a much better 2oo7 !
yesterday went to meet gheeting and talked like siao, den we went to meet Melanie & Jarael at rivervale mall. i was like, "sigh, i've been here with him before" , and gheeting will be like, "shut up la u whore" .. but she made me smile though. and i had my first proper meal in like forever. Long John's! gheeting darling was so sweet to treat me eat. hahahaa.
den we went to melanie's house. =D BIG SMILE. it was fun, AND AND AND gosh! me n gheeting did something we never ever tried before! and this time, its not just one or two puffs but the whole whole whole thingy! i was like so happy, cos its my first ever time kinda thing. =)
hmmm, some pple says doing that will relieve u off troubles temporarily.. so , i might wanna carry on doing it . but i don feel like getting throat cancer, lung cancer or wadever shit so early leh..
and we went back to mel's house to drink ! we are losers lor, we can't take alchohol.. we had vodka with green tea. we talked & talked & talked all night. but once we switch off the lights, all of us fell into a deep slumber! the next time i woke up was 7.30.. and i did melanie's SUDOKU. im considering getting one. =) time to work my brains.
the weather is PERFECT for sleeping. =) LOVE IT.
and i really would like to thank gheeting darling & melanie darling & jarael darling for being such sweet companions, helps alot. cos when we were sleeping, i slept in the middle of gheeting & melanie, and for once in so many days, i did NOT felt empty n lost, in fact, i felt protected and loved by my frens!
I LOVE MY FRENS ! ALOT ! more den YOU. ^^
and sorry , i take back my words, i CANNOT LIVE without my darling hammieS!
YOU will never ever in be more important den my darling hammies in my life!
oh ya, hmm. i hope there will not be any more FUGLY pple viewing my frenster profile. scares the fuck outta me. SERIOUSLY. wad XiaoHui or dunno wad sai. EEEE. why so ugly de. and im like, TRAUMATISED. so pLEASE. don view me leh. don dirty my frenster k? FAT BITCH. i realise shes got a ZHENG ZHONG PIG FACE. (Original Pig Face). goes to show how Birds of the Same Feathers Flock Together. They look exactly like clowns together! HAHAHA!
(the above is not only MY opinion, but a mixture of ALOT of pple's opinion)
thanks. bcos i don give a flying fuck bout u anymore.
Enjoying every moment of my life~ and im looking forward a much better 2oo7 !
Monday, December 25, 2006
darling joei, why are u crying?
Me & my dajie! =D this is the time when all my frens stand by me! yay!
Fiona, Bel & Me!
My Xmas Cake! tell u its story soon. ahahhaa.
Nita & Me.
Xmark korkor & Me! thanks korkor for advice and all! LOVE U!
and johnathan korkor that shit too!
Fiona & Me.
Me, Jacq & Cher.
Bel, Nita, & ME!
Cher dearie & me!
US on the escalator! MERRY XMAS!
Merry Merry Xmas to Everyone ! (:
after work yesterday, i had lotsa fun. walked over to Cinieleisure to find my frens. Xmark korkor, Johnnie korkor, Isabel, Fiona, Nita, Jacqueline, Cheralyn darlings & Victoria, and some Xiaopang guy, Aik San, Ah Gong, and a few pple which i don really noe their names. haha. its fun, with all the foam spray and everything.
and while walkin past Orchard, i tot of the first year of Xmas me n him spent together. we were at Orchard.. he made me cry at McCafe, and this evoked such deep emotions in me. Its den i realised that i feel empty without him by my side. Everyone was pushing and spraying the foam thingy, and although my darling frens did protect me from those pushings and spraying. (thanks alot!) .. Its just feels different, cos its usually him who does this for me..
In a way, i feel so safe with him.. i do not have to worry about anything, as in anything. Walking down Orchard Road without him seems so different, its like, im not a whole person anymore. im left stranded without a heart, all bcos my stupid heart fled with him. :( I must admit, I fucking love him more den anything. I can give up ANYTHING just to be with him. my mahjongg game, all my food, sashimis and all, all my sleeping, all my high heels, all my manicure & pedicure, my darling baby hamster, all my bags, EVERYTHING LA! knn..
But still, things have changed and we can never change a person's heart. I am a cruel murderer cos i killed his heart with my bare hands. *screams*
And i shall self-punish myself. never mind how i do it, i'll just punish myself.
but anyway, i've learnt 2 of the most important lessons in life! Regret & Cherish.
and im happy cos gheeting darling is back, and we're gonna meet melanie like now, we're gonna drink and talk! im so happy !
i can never smile like before without you..
**oh ya, this Chinese song on my blog is VERY meaningful. plsplspls listen to the lyrics carefully.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
someone told me: we cant control love but life is fullfilled without love. love is totally a waste of time . it jus gives us tearz N nothing more than that if u both love each other then also their will B a problem . The name of love is "problem" .Cuz there is never a happy ending in love stories. every one has 2 sacrifice in this stupid Love . Every body has to break itz heart in love . LOVE gives us nothing it just spoil us... So0o the better way is do not love and im sure life is much much better with out love. LOVE is just a waste of time and nothing more then that....
POEM
Two years of pain and tears
my love for you was always true
The things I’ve done I know not why
I see the hurt well up in your eyes
When you're not here a part of my soul does die
Each night in bed alone I cry
Soulmates once but now no more
My heart bleeds for you right to the core
I love you so and always will
Regret is always the bitterest pill
POEM
If you only knew how I feel
If you only knew what I think
Every time I look at you
My heart just seems to shrink
You took your love away
Like it didnt hurt to say
That you didn't love me anymore
And you wanted to get away
It's like my life was over
And it hurt to face the truth
Why was this happening
What did I do to make you change your feelings
Which were once so very deep
And looking back at the memories I can't help but weep.
sigh. sigh.
i should be happy, for having really fabulous frens who stand by me,
who ask me out on XMAS eve cos they noe im without a bf!
im so touched. really. for asking me out to countdown!
thanks johnnie korkor & xmark korkor and the rest,
i might be finding melanie dear at night too.
Christmas, 2 years i spend it with him,
and yet now, im all alone,
stranded alone in the streets of Singapore.
i miss you and i always will. sighhhh.
If i have 60 seconds per minute, i'll spend 398 seconds with u per minute.
If i have 60 minute per hours, i'll spend 90 minutes with u per hour.
If i have 24 hours a day, i'll spend 54 hours with u a day.
If i have 365 days a year, i'll spend 500 days with u a year.
If only, you would turn back, and look at me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me and would never let me go again...
POEM
how could you say you love me but you go and leave me
how could you say you care if your not going to stay
I wish it always rain so you could not seethe hurt, pain and tears you gave to me
how could you say you love me when you love someone else
how could you say I can find somebody else when all I want is you and all I need is you
how could you say i'll be fine when you made me blue
i don wanna see your face or anything reminds me of you
i don wanna be your friend though that’s what I am to you
how could you hurt me so bad when all I want is to love and be loved by you
POEM
Two years of pain and tears
my love for you was always true
The things I’ve done I know not why
I see the hurt well up in your eyes
When you're not here a part of my soul does die
Each night in bed alone I cry
Soulmates once but now no more
My heart bleeds for you right to the core
I love you so and always will
Regret is always the bitterest pill
POEM
If you only knew how I feel
If you only knew what I think
Every time I look at you
My heart just seems to shrink
You took your love away
Like it didnt hurt to say
That you didn't love me anymore
And you wanted to get away
It's like my life was over
And it hurt to face the truth
Why was this happening
What did I do to make you change your feelings
Which were once so very deep
And looking back at the memories I can't help but weep.
sigh. sigh.
i should be happy, for having really fabulous frens who stand by me,
who ask me out on XMAS eve cos they noe im without a bf!
im so touched. really. for asking me out to countdown!
thanks johnnie korkor & xmark korkor and the rest,
i might be finding melanie dear at night too.
Christmas, 2 years i spend it with him,
and yet now, im all alone,
stranded alone in the streets of Singapore.
i miss you and i always will. sighhhh.
If i have 60 seconds per minute, i'll spend 398 seconds with u per minute.
If i have 60 minute per hours, i'll spend 90 minutes with u per hour.
If i have 24 hours a day, i'll spend 54 hours with u a day.
If i have 365 days a year, i'll spend 500 days with u a year.
If only, you would turn back, and look at me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me and would never let me go again...
POEM
how could you say you love me but you go and leave me
how could you say you care if your not going to stay
I wish it always rain so you could not seethe hurt, pain and tears you gave to me
how could you say you love me when you love someone else
how could you say I can find somebody else when all I want is you and all I need is you
how could you say i'll be fine when you made me blue
i don wanna see your face or anything reminds me of you
i don wanna be your friend though that’s what I am to you
how could you hurt me so bad when all I want is to love and be loved by you
direct translation just for Purani! cos she dunno chinese, and for non-chinese frens.
好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
(very regret, very sad, feel like starting over, can anot?)
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
(i wouldnt walk to such an ending given one more chance)
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
(very regret, very sad, who will put me back to the past)
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机
(im willing to exchange everything i have for a time changing machine)
hehehe. my favourite song! by MAYDAY! my Wu Yue Tian.
this song is nice really.
some songs are just beautiful; bcos u can relate to them thru real life experiences. and poems too. i've alot more poems! hahaha. when im sad, inspiration attacks like crazy.
YAY! im meeting dajie to Bugis to buy a new bag, heels, Rahcel's present, and ... do a pedicure. HAHAHAA. sigh, i hope i wun be too sad when i get there. cos.. thats where most of our memories lies.. it used to be me in her place, thats wad hurts the mosts. OK SHUT UP JOEI ! lets shop to the max!!
好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
(very regret, very sad, feel like starting over, can anot?)
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
(i wouldnt walk to such an ending given one more chance)
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
(very regret, very sad, who will put me back to the past)
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机
(im willing to exchange everything i have for a time changing machine)
hehehe. my favourite song! by MAYDAY! my Wu Yue Tian.
this song is nice really.
some songs are just beautiful; bcos u can relate to them thru real life experiences. and poems too. i've alot more poems! hahaha. when im sad, inspiration attacks like crazy.
YAY! im meeting dajie to Bugis to buy a new bag, heels, Rahcel's present, and ... do a pedicure. HAHAHAA. sigh, i hope i wun be too sad when i get there. cos.. thats where most of our memories lies.. it used to be me in her place, thats wad hurts the mosts. OK SHUT UP JOEI ! lets shop to the max!!
MY LOVE WILL NO LONGER EXIST
Before I knew I loved him,
before I even cared,
before I felt so lonely,
before he wasn't there.
I took it all for granted,
the love he had for me,
I never knew I loved him,
until he ceased to be.
My one, my love, my all
will no longer exist.
I lost him,he's no more,
The only thing that's left,
is his deteriorating soul.
i made him feel like nothing,
I made him feel like shit,
this heart is oh so broken,
my own grave i have digged.
With his death my soul has parted,
no more reson to exist.
Without him I am nothing,
in my death I will be missed.
IT HURTS
It hurt so very bad,
No one sees that I am sad,
I long for arms to hold me,
Is it too hard to see?
I need you here today,
But that will never be,
At least I can think back on the days,
When you belonged to me.
You think that you're so funny,
Wait till the cold hands grab your throat,
you start to choke,
you will not cope,
you will be buried in the lies you have told.
I cant believe you,
What you did was so wrong,
But i still love you,
And i will forever long.
IM REALLY SORRY
I guess it is too late.
You weren't lying at all.
Now that I'm replaced.
No reason to stand tall.
I wish this didn't happen.
You found another one.
I didn't mean to get in the way.
Im really sorry.
Guess you and me are done.
COS LOVE HURTS.
y are u doing this? uu breaking my heart,
u left me here to cry in the dark.
u told me u loved me but u told her too,
u left me here all sad and blue.
I want to cry,and cry a lot,
u say love me, yea I think not!
im getting my razor and im gonna cut real deep,
on my shirt the blood will seep..
ouch this hurts, but not as bad as wad u did to me,
all this cutting is making me bleed.
but ur love kills me more and more as the days go by,
I should jus end this now,
slit my throat and then die.
im so EMO.cannot tahan myself.aiyo.sigh.
love poems. they are my lifee. heehee.
Before I knew I loved him,
before I even cared,
before I felt so lonely,
before he wasn't there.
I took it all for granted,
the love he had for me,
I never knew I loved him,
until he ceased to be.
My one, my love, my all
will no longer exist.
I lost him,he's no more,
The only thing that's left,
is his deteriorating soul.
i made him feel like nothing,
I made him feel like shit,
this heart is oh so broken,
my own grave i have digged.
With his death my soul has parted,
no more reson to exist.
Without him I am nothing,
in my death I will be missed.
IT HURTS
It hurt so very bad,
No one sees that I am sad,
I long for arms to hold me,
Is it too hard to see?
I need you here today,
But that will never be,
At least I can think back on the days,
When you belonged to me.
You think that you're so funny,
Wait till the cold hands grab your throat,
you start to choke,
you will not cope,
you will be buried in the lies you have told.
I cant believe you,
What you did was so wrong,
But i still love you,
And i will forever long.
IM REALLY SORRY
I guess it is too late.
You weren't lying at all.
Now that I'm replaced.
No reason to stand tall.
I wish this didn't happen.
You found another one.
I didn't mean to get in the way.
Im really sorry.
Guess you and me are done.
COS LOVE HURTS.
y are u doing this? uu breaking my heart,
u left me here to cry in the dark.
u told me u loved me but u told her too,
u left me here all sad and blue.
I want to cry,and cry a lot,
u say love me, yea I think not!
im getting my razor and im gonna cut real deep,
on my shirt the blood will seep..
ouch this hurts, but not as bad as wad u did to me,
all this cutting is making me bleed.
but ur love kills me more and more as the days go by,
I should jus end this now,
slit my throat and then die.
im so EMO.cannot tahan myself.aiyo.sigh.
love poems. they are my lifee. heehee.
Just because someone does not love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you. (this is so super sad)
and a happy news,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KALVIN HOE ZHI WEI! :)
hope u will not be skinny and that u'll pass all Maths exam! hahaha.
U MAKE ME SMILE!
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you. (this is so super sad)
and a happy news,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KALVIN HOE ZHI WEI! :)
hope u will not be skinny and that u'll pass all Maths exam! hahaha.
U MAKE ME SMILE!
Friday, December 22, 2006
although im super sad bout this unfortunate event,
but from this thingy, i finally realised i've many many good frens who will stand by me. gosh, im damn touched like seriously.. all of you are really nice. each and everyone of you.
WALL OF FAME
Ghee Ting darling
Melanie darling
Yeecher dajie
Rachel darling
Sylvia darling
Purani darling
Sandra darling
Jarael darling
Joan darling
Serene darling
Kaixuan darling
Cheng Hong
Johnnie korkor
Xmark korkor
Dickson
Hoe Zhiwei
Zhiwei (its a different zhiwei pls)
Glenn
Mengie
Shashita
Gaya
Minzi
My mummy&daddy
you know wad? im so glad i've so many nice pple around me.
johnnie korkor wanna have a gathering for xmas! woohoo! with gheeting! gosh! our whole group. can u imagine it? i cant wait for gheeting to come back !! cos it'll be a blast! i need to have HTHT with her. misss my WE HAVE NO HOPE gang!
its hard to breathe without him around, but i'll try.
TRY TRY TRY!
so many pple is behind me! all supporting me!!
A BREAKUP IS NOTHING LOR PLEASE..
though my heart hurts and i cant breathe, i shall just live with this pain in my heart. forever.
i got a lot of poems i wrote myself. hahaha, but i very lazy take out from my bag..
anyway, i've not eaten for 5 days! im so proud of myself, hope i'll be really skinny soon, but i've got no strength.. gosh. i can do it! I CAN!
I CANT WAIT FOR XMAS TO COME! AND FOR SCHOOL TO START!! I MISS MI FRENS AND SYLVIA AND PURANI LIKE CRAZY!!
since the day you left me, you took my heart away and leave..
and so now, im nothing more than a living dead without a heart..
a thousand words wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've tried
a thousand tears wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've cried..
but from this thingy, i finally realised i've many many good frens who will stand by me. gosh, im damn touched like seriously.. all of you are really nice. each and everyone of you.
WALL OF FAME
Ghee Ting darling
Melanie darling
Yeecher dajie
Rachel darling
Sylvia darling
Purani darling
Sandra darling
Jarael darling
Joan darling
Serene darling
Kaixuan darling
Cheng Hong
Johnnie korkor
Xmark korkor
Dickson
Hoe Zhiwei
Zhiwei (its a different zhiwei pls)
Glenn
Mengie
Shashita
Gaya
Minzi
My mummy&daddy
you know wad? im so glad i've so many nice pple around me.
johnnie korkor wanna have a gathering for xmas! woohoo! with gheeting! gosh! our whole group. can u imagine it? i cant wait for gheeting to come back !! cos it'll be a blast! i need to have HTHT with her. misss my WE HAVE NO HOPE gang!
its hard to breathe without him around, but i'll try.
TRY TRY TRY!
so many pple is behind me! all supporting me!!
A BREAKUP IS NOTHING LOR PLEASE..
though my heart hurts and i cant breathe, i shall just live with this pain in my heart. forever.
i got a lot of poems i wrote myself. hahaha, but i very lazy take out from my bag..
anyway, i've not eaten for 5 days! im so proud of myself, hope i'll be really skinny soon, but i've got no strength.. gosh. i can do it! I CAN!
I CANT WAIT FOR XMAS TO COME! AND FOR SCHOOL TO START!! I MISS MI FRENS AND SYLVIA AND PURANI LIKE CRAZY!!
since the day you left me, you took my heart away and leave..
and so now, im nothing more than a living dead without a heart..
a thousand words wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've tried
a thousand tears wouldn't bring u back, i noe cos i've cried..
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
walking all alone under the rain..
my thoughts never once stopped..
it was all about us, everything we went thru together..
how i like the rain..
because no one can see the tears falling from my face then.
im so EMO.
BUT, im in the healing process.
kindly forgive me.
it was fun in diploma class today!
we agreed on doing a petition together.
its a Say-No-To-Affairs and Treasure-Your-Partner petition.
hahaha, im gonna do it, they are gonna just VOTE an agree.
working was tough today! the first opening day!
gosh i was so busy.
but yet, i still have time to think bout some sad stuffs.
SIGH. my brain defies me constantly.
asssholic brain i have.
i MUST stop all the incessant crying, its getting on my own nerves.
lol, poor zhiwei muz always listen to me .. LOL! so poor thing.
and i hope i can get over it soon! i dunno why im acting lidat!
but its so not me!
I WILL GET OVER IT~
i love u allllll.
SORRY- by BuckCherry
Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all you're sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
why am i feeling so empty..
so lost.. so isolated..
my thoughts never once stopped..
it was all about us, everything we went thru together..
how i like the rain..
because no one can see the tears falling from my face then.
im so EMO.
BUT, im in the healing process.
kindly forgive me.
it was fun in diploma class today!
we agreed on doing a petition together.
its a Say-No-To-Affairs and Treasure-Your-Partner petition.
hahaha, im gonna do it, they are gonna just VOTE an agree.
working was tough today! the first opening day!
gosh i was so busy.
but yet, i still have time to think bout some sad stuffs.
SIGH. my brain defies me constantly.
asssholic brain i have.
i MUST stop all the incessant crying, its getting on my own nerves.
lol, poor zhiwei muz always listen to me .. LOL! so poor thing.
and i hope i can get over it soon! i dunno why im acting lidat!
but its so not me!
I WILL GET OVER IT~
i love u allllll.
SORRY- by BuckCherry
Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all you're sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:
This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
why am i feeling so empty..
so lost.. so isolated..
Monday, December 18, 2006
heh heh. although i felt empty the whole day, im glad i've absolutely nice nice frens. yay to myself. i love gheeting,melanie,mengie,dajie,rachel,zhiwei,shashita,gaya and of cos some other nice pple. thanks thanks thanks. melanie wanted to meet me but due to time constrain it was cancelled!
im going thru a rough rough rough patch of life, but i'll get over it REAL SOON! really! thats wad gheeting says though.
"god made me leave him cos he wanted me to find someone better" -huili jiejie
"treat him like dust and blow him away!" -shashita ( i like this quote~~~)
"the ones who truly loves you never makes u cry" - i heard it somewhere.
anyway, despite the suffocating pain, I SHALL TRY TO SURVIVE AND BREATHE UNDERWATER. i say underwater cos my TEARS is enough to fill The UnderWater World. hahaha.
and i shall go drinking, cos Gaya says the best way to forget ur sorrows is to drink ! yay! i promise to be an alcoholic, sounds lame, but still. who cares?
a song that i think is soooo perfect.
So now I have lost everything
Cause now you say
You are gone forever more
So who will I
Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
And who will I turn to
Now that you are not here
In my life
You were the one I took for granted all those years
And you were the one I should have known
It was so clear
How could I be so blind
Not to see whats before my eyes
I will get you back here with me
If it takes the rest of my life
Cause I would do anything
Cause I want you back forever more
nice rite? this song is stuck in my fucking head. aaa. lol.
got another 2 songs that makes me cry, which is Cry on my Shoulder and Sorry.
byebyebyebyebye pple!
im sure the happy joei will be back soon! just gimme time! heh heh heh.
im going thru a rough rough rough patch of life, but i'll get over it REAL SOON! really! thats wad gheeting says though.
"god made me leave him cos he wanted me to find someone better" -huili jiejie
"treat him like dust and blow him away!" -shashita ( i like this quote~~~)
"the ones who truly loves you never makes u cry" - i heard it somewhere.
anyway, despite the suffocating pain, I SHALL TRY TO SURVIVE AND BREATHE UNDERWATER. i say underwater cos my TEARS is enough to fill The UnderWater World. hahaha.
and i shall go drinking, cos Gaya says the best way to forget ur sorrows is to drink ! yay! i promise to be an alcoholic, sounds lame, but still. who cares?
a song that i think is soooo perfect.
So now I have lost everything
Cause now you say
You are gone forever more
So who will I
Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
And who will I turn to
Now that you are not here
In my life
You were the one I took for granted all those years
And you were the one I should have known
It was so clear
How could I be so blind
Not to see whats before my eyes
I will get you back here with me
If it takes the rest of my life
Cause I would do anything
Cause I want you back forever more
nice rite? this song is stuck in my fucking head. aaa. lol.
got another 2 songs that makes me cry, which is Cry on my Shoulder and Sorry.
byebyebyebyebye pple!
im sure the happy joei will be back soon! just gimme time! heh heh heh.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
its 2.41 am now, its too late yet too early, im feeling as confused as the time now..
2am when it all started. well, im at a loss of what to do . it came too sudden, too surprising, and im taken aback by the impact it has on me, im overwhelmed by emotions i can't even explain. i guess its because its beeen a long long time since i've felt this way. this pain in my heart is almost familiar, i can't describe how it feels though, it bleeds.. its like a knife coated with salt slicing me up slowly. yes, i can feel myself dying and drowning in pain, slowly. its torturing, i cannot take sucha pain in my heart, i doubt anyone can..
we're all humans anyway, we all suffer pain, hurt, heartache, whatever..
omg, i wish i can just fucking fucking fucking die. DIE. die.
i hope he is happy with the other party now, i mean, its not like i'll give u both my blessings, i hope both of u would disappear and die instantly in a car crash, but still, before u both die, i sincerely hope u both are happy. hahahahahhaahhahaa. im so idiotic.
is it my fault?
if it is, why should it be mine?
is it cos i do not loveu enough? show u enough concern? spend time with u?
but if its u who is in love with another girl,
why is it my fault?
im drowning in tears.. and i wish so much for a tight big hug from anybody please.
this is so surreal, am i in a dream actually?
Reality hurts, don't they?
please please please do not say u love me still, please.
cos i probably would not care.
im gonna erase u from my memory.
everything will be gone.
im very sure i can do it.
You have just destroyed my world within 15 mins. Thanks.
**i wish u could gimme my present for Aloysious boiboi and the 2 meimei , BUT, i do not wish to see u neither do i wish to hear ur voice neither do i wanna have ANYTHING to do with u**
this pain is too much to bear..
i am devatasted. seriously.
2am when it all started. well, im at a loss of what to do . it came too sudden, too surprising, and im taken aback by the impact it has on me, im overwhelmed by emotions i can't even explain. i guess its because its beeen a long long time since i've felt this way. this pain in my heart is almost familiar, i can't describe how it feels though, it bleeds.. its like a knife coated with salt slicing me up slowly. yes, i can feel myself dying and drowning in pain, slowly. its torturing, i cannot take sucha pain in my heart, i doubt anyone can..
we're all humans anyway, we all suffer pain, hurt, heartache, whatever..
omg, i wish i can just fucking fucking fucking die. DIE. die.
i hope he is happy with the other party now, i mean, its not like i'll give u both my blessings, i hope both of u would disappear and die instantly in a car crash, but still, before u both die, i sincerely hope u both are happy. hahahahahhaahhahaa. im so idiotic.
is it my fault?
if it is, why should it be mine?
is it cos i do not loveu enough? show u enough concern? spend time with u?
but if its u who is in love with another girl,
why is it my fault?
im drowning in tears.. and i wish so much for a tight big hug from anybody please.
this is so surreal, am i in a dream actually?
Reality hurts, don't they?
please please please do not say u love me still, please.
cos i probably would not care.
im gonna erase u from my memory.
everything will be gone.
im very sure i can do it.
You have just destroyed my world within 15 mins. Thanks.
**i wish u could gimme my present for Aloysious boiboi and the 2 meimei , BUT, i do not wish to see u neither do i wish to hear ur voice neither do i wanna have ANYTHING to do with u**
this pain is too much to bear..
i am devatasted. seriously.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
again, one late night, gheeting was online, and as usual, some nonsensical talks soon rises.
THE ZEE GAME.
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zello. zow zre zou?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zi zam zine
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zhank zou
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou'ze zezzome
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou zeant zou zanna zlog zout zhis zight?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zight
and this is not all,
we came up with names for everyone!
joei is ZOZI
gheeting is ZEEZING
melanie is ZEZANIE
johnathan is ZOHZAZHAN
mark wong is ZARK ZONG (hahahahha)
eric is ZEZIC
zhiwei is ZHIZEI
purani is ZUZAZI
sylvia is ZYLZIA
chenghong is ZHENGZONG
and the list goes on..
yes, and we can even ask each other "OMG, why are we doing such things?! it so does not help in our future."
YAYAYAYA, and we continued..
hahahahhahahahahahahahaha. can't stop laughing; tummy hurts.gheeting's dying of laughter too.
love you!
i love gheeting BECAUSE:
joei the ____ girl said:
muz let u know, i'll always love u till the end of time
i am waiting says:
you said it, bitch. i love you too. till time has got no time no more, or we have no money no more, ainta gonna say more ainta, solve no mysteries no more, den i wont love u.
joei the ____ girl says:
lol, u made my day everyday
i am waiting says:
some nice shoppingggg
i am waiting says:
and we'll keep talking, and murmurs in the coffin
i wonder why we do this too, cant help but wonder.
THE ZEE GAME.
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zello. zow zre zou?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zi zam zine
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zhank zou
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou'ze zezzome
this is the game of the zees. u need the zest. fuck the bees and be the best. says:
zou zeant zou zanna zlog zout zhis zight?
joei the ____ girl; zozi, zezazie, zeezing, zohzazhan, zezic, zark zong, zuzazi, zylzia, zhizei says:
zight
and this is not all,
we came up with names for everyone!
joei is ZOZI
gheeting is ZEEZING
melanie is ZEZANIE
johnathan is ZOHZAZHAN
mark wong is ZARK ZONG (hahahahha)
eric is ZEZIC
zhiwei is ZHIZEI
purani is ZUZAZI
sylvia is ZYLZIA
chenghong is ZHENGZONG
and the list goes on..
yes, and we can even ask each other "OMG, why are we doing such things?! it so does not help in our future."
YAYAYAYA, and we continued..
hahahahhahahahahahahahaha. can't stop laughing; tummy hurts.gheeting's dying of laughter too.
love you!
i love gheeting BECAUSE:
joei the ____ girl said:
muz let u know, i'll always love u till the end of time
i am waiting says:
you said it, bitch. i love you too. till time has got no time no more, or we have no money no more, ainta gonna say more ainta, solve no mysteries no more, den i wont love u.
joei the ____ girl says:
lol, u made my day everyday
i am waiting says:
some nice shoppingggg
i am waiting says:
and we'll keep talking, and murmurs in the coffin
i wonder why we do this too, cant help but wonder.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
heh heh. came back from NTUC with granny. bought 10billion things.
gave up my Pedicure session just to wash toilet, and go NTUC with granny.
shall go for Pedicure session tomoro ! yay x 1000000 .
and i gotta go Orchard for my meeting with my new manager as well.
will be working in a Japanese restaurant AGAIN.
LOVE IT! can eat Jappy food like siao ~ YUMYUM.
YAY x 10000000.
talked to Chengie Hongie & Johnnie korkor on MSN just .
hahahahah i laughed behind my computer for 20 minutes.
johnathan promised me a trip to Sentosa , cos we are gonna wreck that place, together with Gheeting, Melanie, Damark, Xmark , etc..
CAN'T FUCKING WAIT !
we used to destroy that place. on the MRT, on the beach, hahahah.
KOTEX floating in the sea.
gheeting drowning me. (oops!)
hahahhahaha. and johnnie korkor is a loser !
he asked me to call someone, and den scream loudly den laugh hysterically.
LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
imagine receiving a call den someone SCREAM loudly, will die lor.
I MISS ALL MY FRENS! ALOT!
FOREVER!
KAcang&Stripey is sooo cute..
gave up my Pedicure session just to wash toilet, and go NTUC with granny.
shall go for Pedicure session tomoro ! yay x 1000000 .
and i gotta go Orchard for my meeting with my new manager as well.
will be working in a Japanese restaurant AGAIN.
LOVE IT! can eat Jappy food like siao ~ YUMYUM.
YAY x 10000000.
talked to Chengie Hongie & Johnnie korkor on MSN just .
hahahahah i laughed behind my computer for 20 minutes.
johnathan promised me a trip to Sentosa , cos we are gonna wreck that place, together with Gheeting, Melanie, Damark, Xmark , etc..
CAN'T FUCKING WAIT !
we used to destroy that place. on the MRT, on the beach, hahahah.
KOTEX floating in the sea.
gheeting drowning me. (oops!)
hahahhahaha. and johnnie korkor is a loser !
he asked me to call someone, and den scream loudly den laugh hysterically.
LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
imagine receiving a call den someone SCREAM loudly, will die lor.
I MISS ALL MY FRENS! ALOT!
FOREVER!
KAcang&Stripey is sooo cute..
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Evidence of a 21.1 km MARATHON.
hahahaha, i feel this is funny and it quite make sense.
Translated: "If you do not work hard at work today, you work hard the next day to get another job."
i stayed at home today, simply cos my whole body aches like crazy and i can't really make any drastic moves. supposed to meet gheeting & melanie but gheeting has school and i was busy at home so i can't meet melanie. aww, i miss them both so so much. its been 2 hundred days since we see each other.
but tomoro, im gonna meet my fellow brave comrades who braved through rain, blisters, 100plus, water, miles of distance and TONS OF WALKING with me. Purani & Sylvia.
yes, they suffered the same way i did and they are asking me out tomoro , to go to our new campus and after that, shopping ~ wee. shopping sounds happy but at the rate my body is hurting, i doubt i can walk, or even move. i hope we have a fun time though, we ALWAYS have a fun time together rite, hahahaha.
and im going to malaysia on Friday ! woohoo~ yumyum food awaits me there, i can almost here them beckoning to me.
**Eric just got me a new hamster cage, Stripey is SO NOT accustomed to it at all, he is panicky and he keeps making the wheel fall off! i was so angry, but i know he is scared as he lived in a tank since he was a baby, and the sudden change makes him so panicky. sorry Stripey boiboi. i loveee u k. and i love my honey bunny Kacang baby girl too.
:) more love quotes anyone? Joei the Emo. :(
hahahahahahaha.
Joei the Emo. hahahaha.
addicted to sharing quotes.
There are moments in life when you really miss someone so much that you want to pick them up from your dreams and hug them for real.
One day I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain I've caused. One day I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand. One day I'll get over you. I'm sorry that day hasn't come yet.
Most people don't realize that while we sit and moon and pine and wish for the love of someone unattainable, there is often someone wishing and praying for and pining for us.
I dropped a tear in the ocean for you. The day you find it is the day I stop loving you.
Missing you isn't the hardest part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.
Loving someone who doesn't love you back, it's like reaching for a star, you know you'll never make it but you keep trying.
Why is it that you wish and cry to get over that someone special, then when that day comes you cry because you wish you were in love with them again?
(hey gheeting darling, this is for ME & YOU, winks)
You're been cold to me so long I'm crying icicles instead of tears.
Don't be the cause of someone else's tears, for next time it may be you that's crying.
The worst way to miss someone is to have them standing right next to you and knowing you can't have them.
Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back...but yet, loved them so much, you knew you'd die if they did?
How could something that seemed so right turn out to be so wrong?
How come you have enough time to go out and make other guys fall in love with you, but you don't have enough time to pay attention to the guy who already does?
Sometimes I look at you, and I wonder...do you ever sit here and look at me too?
Love that we cannot have lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest.
hope u pple enjoyed it. i just wanna be EMO. cos some pple just refuse to believe im an EMO kid, does anyone of u believe me? hmm?
anyway, i've officially got a huge phobia of marathons. so please, stop asking me go marathon with u all k. ever since pple know i completed it, they keep asking me join them go wad Army Half Marathon, HK Marathon, wahlao. they wanna kill me lor. 21km is pangsai to the max. still wan me join so many.
SORRY BUT I'VE GOT A HUGE PHOBIA FOR MARATHONS!
they are horribly nightmarish! :(
addicted to sharing quotes.
There are moments in life when you really miss someone so much that you want to pick them up from your dreams and hug them for real.
One day I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain I've caused. One day I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand. One day I'll get over you. I'm sorry that day hasn't come yet.
Most people don't realize that while we sit and moon and pine and wish for the love of someone unattainable, there is often someone wishing and praying for and pining for us.
I dropped a tear in the ocean for you. The day you find it is the day I stop loving you.
Missing you isn't the hardest part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.
Loving someone who doesn't love you back, it's like reaching for a star, you know you'll never make it but you keep trying.
Why is it that you wish and cry to get over that someone special, then when that day comes you cry because you wish you were in love with them again?
(hey gheeting darling, this is for ME & YOU, winks)
You're been cold to me so long I'm crying icicles instead of tears.
Don't be the cause of someone else's tears, for next time it may be you that's crying.
The worst way to miss someone is to have them standing right next to you and knowing you can't have them.
Have you ever hated somebody so much that you wish they would just leave and never come back...but yet, loved them so much, you knew you'd die if they did?
How could something that seemed so right turn out to be so wrong?
How come you have enough time to go out and make other guys fall in love with you, but you don't have enough time to pay attention to the guy who already does?
Sometimes I look at you, and I wonder...do you ever sit here and look at me too?
Love that we cannot have lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest.
hope u pple enjoyed it. i just wanna be EMO. cos some pple just refuse to believe im an EMO kid, does anyone of u believe me? hmm?
anyway, i've officially got a huge phobia of marathons. so please, stop asking me go marathon with u all k. ever since pple know i completed it, they keep asking me join them go wad Army Half Marathon, HK Marathon, wahlao. they wanna kill me lor. 21km is pangsai to the max. still wan me join so many.
SORRY BUT I'VE GOT A HUGE PHOBIA FOR MARATHONS!
they are horribly nightmarish! :(
Monday, December 04, 2006
=D *GRINS WIDELY*
i did it.
we did it.
i completed the 21 km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.
we completed the 21km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.
and, we are so freaking proud of ourselves.
DESPITE the fact that we did not train for it AT ALL, the fact that we HATE RUNNING & PE!, and we have absolutely ZERO stamina, and considering how enormously FAT i am..
we still did it.
The journey was .. a torture. our legs hurt, cramped, sored, blistered, numbed and name all the bad things, we got it. we so much wanted to give up the whole thing at about 13km. we were dying and we had no more determination left. BUT WE PERSEVERED. we encouraged each other, pushing ourselves forward.
we laughed our whole 21km, dunno where we can get the enery from when our legs are crying out for help. though it was tiring, we overcame it by entertaining each other with funny antics. hahaha.
so next time, go marathon with ur frens okay?! it helps like ALOT! serious!
i finished 21km! so happy! and of cos, with the help of the 2 great ones, PURANI & SYLVIA.
applause please.
yupp, and i saw Samantha, Kaixuan & Weicheng. and thanks to all the participants % supporters who cheered us on. thanks.
and how on earth did the commendator know my name? hmm? but i SWEAR the last moment of the marathon was the most embarrassing yet happy part of our lives. HAHAHA.
saw some good reasons on why they went for the marathon.
"whats 21km after all the distances we have travelled in life?" (some woman)
"if I can do it, so can YOU" (by a woman who has a hunchback)
"because my BEST FRENS JOEI&SYLVIA is running!" (Purani)
"because my BEST FRENS PURANI&JOEI is running!" (Sylvia)
i am so proud of us. cos we did it. we did not give up! though most of the pple thinks we comfirm halfway give up, we did not! hahahahahahaha. but it was a super challenging task.
NOW MY WHOLE BODY ACHES LIKE CRAZY! i can't fucking move! AT ALL. i have difficulty walking, sleeping, standing, sitting, EVEYRTHING! im gonna die. OMG.
i wonder if Sylvia& Purani is suffering like i do, hmmm. tell me k girls.
alrite, i love my hammies alot, and i shall go sleep now!
i did it.
we did it.
i completed the 21 km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.
we completed the 21km Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2oo6.
and, we are so freaking proud of ourselves.
DESPITE the fact that we did not train for it AT ALL, the fact that we HATE RUNNING & PE!, and we have absolutely ZERO stamina, and considering how enormously FAT i am..
we still did it.
The journey was .. a torture. our legs hurt, cramped, sored, blistered, numbed and name all the bad things, we got it. we so much wanted to give up the whole thing at about 13km. we were dying and we had no more determination left. BUT WE PERSEVERED. we encouraged each other, pushing ourselves forward.
we laughed our whole 21km, dunno where we can get the enery from when our legs are crying out for help. though it was tiring, we overcame it by entertaining each other with funny antics. hahaha.
so next time, go marathon with ur frens okay?! it helps like ALOT! serious!
i finished 21km! so happy! and of cos, with the help of the 2 great ones, PURANI & SYLVIA.
applause please.
yupp, and i saw Samantha, Kaixuan & Weicheng. and thanks to all the participants % supporters who cheered us on. thanks.
and how on earth did the commendator know my name? hmm? but i SWEAR the last moment of the marathon was the most embarrassing yet happy part of our lives. HAHAHA.
saw some good reasons on why they went for the marathon.
"whats 21km after all the distances we have travelled in life?" (some woman)
"if I can do it, so can YOU" (by a woman who has a hunchback)
"because my BEST FRENS JOEI&SYLVIA is running!" (Purani)
"because my BEST FRENS PURANI&JOEI is running!" (Sylvia)
i am so proud of us. cos we did it. we did not give up! though most of the pple thinks we comfirm halfway give up, we did not! hahahahahahaha. but it was a super challenging task.
NOW MY WHOLE BODY ACHES LIKE CRAZY! i can't fucking move! AT ALL. i have difficulty walking, sleeping, standing, sitting, EVEYRTHING! im gonna die. OMG.
i wonder if Sylvia& Purani is suffering like i do, hmmm. tell me k girls.
alrite, i love my hammies alot, and i shall go sleep now!
Friday, December 01, 2006
gosh! i love her.
OMG! just look at her! just look at my little dearie.
baby i need u so.
hahaha. darling KACANG!
yay. just did my nails, and its so pretty. like it alot alot. clear base with gold tips. nice hor?
tomoro i have 2 weddings to go to. and i have to be 'sister' for one of them.
can wear my dress liao! woohoo.
omg. my hamster is so cute!!
take a look. please!
YAY! hurray finally my diploma exam is like OVER! to the max. no more nonsense ! yay!
so happy .
and thanks meng for collecting the marathon shirt for me. but i hate L! i hate size L !! hate it!!
i want size M when school starts! i insist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its true love that you don't know about
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