I did not take this picture hor! >=(
hahahaha joke picture please and OK THANKS for the cookies and you're so gay cos you make the stupid heartshape and still purposely take such pics. loser x 1000 okay.


Xmark being a very very happy bday boy unwrapping his presents.


All very happy cos last day of school.


I wish I'm as talented as Eric (in drawing Stewie only)
Clever right that Eric Ng.


What I had before heading to Club Play with Purani on Thursday. NICE!! I like it alot!!


Love of my life: GheeGhee & NANA


HAHAHA.


:) YAY.


My boyfriend la. REALLY. look like right.
he looks like hes on drugs but hes not the main thing in the pic la so ignore him.



My favourite! :)
Not as fun as NewZealand's one though!

** Just realised some people in this world are seriously so kind can, and whats so sweet is that person is just a stranger to me, and a girl somemore, shes called Annabel and she bought me socks! OMG so sweet, even though is people ask her to help me buy, she also buy. so nice hor! I dunno who she is At all though. But I admire her for that lor, cos if people ask me to help ANOTHER person buy, and somemore i dunno the person one hor, SORRY ah, you go and buy yourself. OMG, im so selfish, it scares me terribly. hahahahahaahahahha. joei is so selfish im so disgusted eeee.

***OMG, I'll miss my hamsters so so much already!

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak.
Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

hahaha, joke.

So, which of it is true? You decide.

I've not blogged for 3 hundred years.

My previous week was a big fat joke okay. Hectic wild fun and very tired after that. A very brief summary of my week:
Monday-Ear Candling and slacking at Godmummy's place
Tuesday-Job training with Melanie+Gheeting! i had so much fun! + Steamboat
Wednesday-Highlighted my hair + Zouk with Dyan&Ziyan +stayover at Ziyan's place.
Thurday-Play(lesbian club) with Purani+Annitha+Priya+Rosh
Friday-Dinner at Winehouse + Dragonfly with Mummy, Auntie Kellyn, Auntie Carris, Auntie Jasmin & Denyse.
Saturday&Sunday-Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort, Butterfly Park, 4D show, Carlsberg Sky Tower, Luge and Skyride, Fort siloso with Parents and brother
Monday-Fish head steamboat at Boon Keng , yummy.

i clubbed 3 days in a row, the bomb already. but im a tad unhappy cos i didnt club with melanie and gheeting which is so unfair cos gheeting is having her projects and neverending essays now. yupp 3 of us will party like losers soon cos we HAVE and we NEED to. yes deal promise, swear upon my hamsters. (my hamsters!!!)

You know that day when 3 of us (me, gheeting &melanie) had the Job training at the Adecco there.. I had this nostalgic feeling of going back to the past with them. The days at school when we can see each other everyday, hang out at Plaza and eat KFC cheesefries, taking sneak peeks at The Fat, The Black, The Short, we laugh at every single things, when we sit at our Beggar Sect Place, Our lemon barley and fish fillet, when we are index number 1,2,3,4, and that we always get into trouble TOGETHER, when we ponteng class and got caught by the teacher(shit! gheeting whats her name!?!?! mystery!!) and got our parents down and we cried, when we go see people get tio-ed after school either at some carpark or school toilet, when we stole from the Art Room first aid box(haha), when we seriously can see each other EVERYDAY......

:( now we totally can't. and that day at the job training we scirbbled on each other's paper, writing ugly MELs everywhere and drew loser things all over, it really felt like secondary school days again.. :( i wish we were in sec sch forever and ever.... i love them you know. they made my school life so happy and everything. of cos we xmark,damark,ch,johnnie,dajie,rachel,4e4pple,and others also la. My resolution: Spend more time with Gheeting and Melanie so we wouldn't drift apart. Like more stayovers!:) since i can't thon cos i need sleep. And maybe we can have more job trainings forever. hahahahha. Or we can enrol in some cooking lessons, or some other classes so we can be in a class together? :) Good idea? SHALL WE DO IT? omg!! please reply!!

Yea, and that was dedicated to Melanie and Gheeting darling.HAHA,muacks.

And list of things that I need badly:

1. New handphone
2. Wallet
3. Bag
4. That Juicy Couture Watch! OMG i need to have it so badly.

And now i can't wait for my trip to Genting. 21st-24th November! Will miss all of you and i really love Genting!! :) YAY!!

I am so sad now.
I saw 2 dogs getting hit by 2 cars, and those 2 cars did not even bother to stop and take a look. And I watched one of it die right in front of my eyes.
I cried like a loser even though they are just stray dogs.

Seriously, im so affected by it. Terribly affected.

I.. watched it die. Like took its last breath and then die kinda thing. I shall kill myself now, that image of it taking its last breath is etched in my mind and it refuses to go away.

Why must those people be so cruel and not stop the fucking car!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those strays are innocent!!!!!!!!!!!!

:( :( :(

:)


Tastes as good as it looks man!
I LOVE IT.


BUNNEEE!


Gheeting giving me a ride, hahaha. I am damn terrified of driving this thing okay. She speeds and brakes and turns like a scary loser. And how sweet of melanie to take this picture. hahaha. Damark drove her on this and we overtook them i think! we overtook everyone! haahhaha.


Okay omg, i miss my Princess hair! :(
so unfair that all good things come to an end!
I WANT TO CURL MY HAIR NOW.
NOW. now. NOW.

I am highlighting it like now also.hahahaha.

I blame all my moodyness on PMS! PMS is sucha bitch, I hate PMS. PMS is a loser in life and therefore PMS wants to destroy us all. PMS ought to perish and burn in hell. Joei is officially now ANTI-PMS. I shall start a campaign soon. heh heh heh.

Highlighting my hair, LIKE LATERRRRRR!

I was the happiest girl in the world yesterday, not as happy as when I had 2 bowls of soup but yea,im still VERY happy BECAUSE my hair had beautiful curls yesterday!!!!!!! Me and Ziyan was totally slacking at work and we meet up to do some shopping and dropped by the RedKen something for FREE styling of the hair, and tadah! I had beautiful curls for the day. My all time wish since young was to have curly hair!(not the kind of CURLY CURLY kind, like only at the bottom have kind..) LIKE A PRINCESS KIND!!!! so i was a real princess for awhile yesterday. YAY!! but the curls are gone now, and its tempting me to do some real curls. :( BUT i promised myself the first thing i will do after A levels is to MAKE MY HAIR HAVE BEAUTIFUL CURLS!!! YIPPPEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway, I don't know if life is considered smooth sailing now or not..
I hope it will be..

Thanks to all who visited me when I was under torture of what you would call being a stupid promoter. I love all of you so much!

*Poor Gheeting is under examstress now! RELAX LOSER! if u don't relax, you are a loser okay, aiya just awhile more only! and after that is so partying time! please think of the partying ! love ya.

**Melanie REFUSE to blog about her birthday. REFUSE. anyway you are 18 and this calls for some pure fun ! like what you say, "TIME FOR SOME LADIES NIGHT OUT"

(what kinda friends are not worth having..? I NEED TO KNOW PLEASE)

looking at my archives when i came across this,
(yes i know im a loser, but i read my own blog ALL the time)

"What a lovely surprise to discover how unlonely being alone can be"

i want to put in a word about being single. its fine to be single!
beats going out with a lowlife or feeling like a vulnerable kid on an endless roller-coaster ride.

some pple aren't up for the whole relationship thing, they would rather focus on frens, sports, homework, shopping, wadever~. they like being able to do wadever they want, whenever they want. they like bein independent and able to flirt, they like having their options open, time free, and possibilities endless.no problem there. others jump from one love tangle to another and never take a moment to figure out who they really are and what they really want.

and that, my darlings, can be a BIG problem.

its nice to be loved, of cos ! but don't be afraid to be alone. bein alone doesnt mean u're unattractive, any more than bein part of a couple means u're attractive, thats total bullshit. and there's something kinda nice about not having your Friday nights booked up. besides, goin out with one person can sometimes be limiting and can lead to quarrels, jealousy, pressure, or hurt feelings. alone and unattached, you get to make your own schedule and keep yourself company. and who's better company than YOU?

"inside myself is a place where i live all alone" - Pearl S.Buck
"i never found the companion as companionable as solitude" - Henry David Thoreau

Alone, yes. Lonely, no.

**this is not a post discouraging love. of cos i encourage love~ i jus wanna let pple who are single have more confidence~ WOOHOO.

(hahahha, im sucha joke last time)

Current mood: PMS-sy

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See? Told you I'm PMS-sy.
I'm sucha loser.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TO..

MY DARLINGS:

MELANIE & VALERIE !

Happy 18th birthday!
Clubbing time!

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Working all day - killing me slowly, but surely.
ARGH. I feel like a patient in a hospital,
with people "visiting" me on a regular basis.
New people, surprise! people, family members.
And surprisingly, I'm like paid to sms and shop around.
JOKE.
I hate working ah!! very the fucking sian can!!

I want money, I want a doggy, I want new tops, I want my hamsters to never ever die, I want to highlight my hair red, I want to club everyday of the week, I want to STOP working but still have money coming in, I want to eat non stop and never get fat, I want to go on a holiday BADLY, I want to go everywhere in the car, I want to have free manicures & pedicures forever, I want to be able to fly and become invisible, I want to not be so gullible, I want a new branded wallet, I want an ATM machine as a boyfriend, I want to be able to sleep as long as I want, I want to be able to print money, I want to stay in Genting forever(haha), I want to migrate to New Zealand, I want to escape this cruel world, I want to stay in a HAPPYland where everyone is nice, I want to eat salmon every second of my life, I want the world to only have chicken skins, I want animal abuse to STOP, I want all kinds of sufferings to END, I want to be slim, I want to be a social worker, I want to be nice and smile to everyone, I want to be a tai-tai, I want to be a Princess, I want to be bestfriends with my bestfriends forever, .....and the list goes on.....

(humans are just never satisfied, don't they?)

Went to Purani's granny's house for dinner yesterday.
I had the world's most spicy meal of my life. I died.
DIED. so now im actually dead.
Its damn spicy but damn delicious. YUM.
Headed over to Orchard with Sylvia and Purani,
And I FUCKING DIED A DEATH (yes, AGAIN)
GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!?!
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)


I saw Elvin. ELVIN. e-l-v-i-n.
MY EX-BOYFRIEND that i loved like a loser.omg.
with pple like Kenneth,Leon,Wilson and i forgot still got who.

wah seriously my heart stopped.
and then after that it went into a frenzy.
purani&sylvia had a hard time calming me down.
in fact, im still suffering from shock now.
(okay, i know now melanie and gheeting are so itching to hear what i have to say, and they will so ask me to meet them at rivervale plaza's mac and slack. hahahaa. or just stayover at melanie's house la for some HTHT)

hhahahhahaha. melanie darling hope you enjoyed your birthday! LOVE YOU! HAPPY 18th and MUACKS! i uploaded all the pics into my com liao. i will upload in my blog or send u via msn soon! when im free. hughugggg!

*valerie darling! happy 18th! sorry not able to join u guys at Sentosa, im working! sorry sorry but i know u enjoyed yourself. LOTS OF LOVE! 18th but still a baby!! hahaha.

OMG, i had salmon belly sashimi and famous amos cookies today, thanks to DASH. whahaha joke. it tastes so good im dying thanks thanks to the maximum max.

And to loser hoe, you think its so funny giving me sneaky visits huh.. i slap u den u noe. haha joke thanks for the Orange Julius.

and yes , my leg hurts so badly. :(
Thank god i don't have to take PT back home all the time!
I'm sucha fortunate shit.
XIEXIE.:)


Sucha long posts, even I am about to fall asleep.
Good nitey everyone.
I love you all.....

i need help badly. im being spoilt to the bloody max and i can't help feeling happy about it. and at the same time, im feeling so bad about it. hahahahah tell me what to do please.

im so sad i missed Zouk yesterday but i had a funner night out cos i laughed so hard i died. melanie's bday was a joke, i like her present part, its sucha BIG FAT joke. and as usual, damark and johnathan made me died laughing. so happy to see all of them again! its beeen years since i've seen melanie and gheeting !!! but technically speaking, i just saw them on the chalet day which is just a month ago. hahahahaa.

i like the surprise yesterday, i like the Princess on Board thing, and the cupcakes. alot. so im feeling happy!

YAY! another happier thing, going purani's granny house for Deepavali dinner. YAY!!!! YIPPEEEE!!

i cannot wait to go Genting!

WORK YESTERDAY WAS A TORTURE! I CAN'T BELIEVE I NEED TO WORK THERE ON FRIDAY, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!! but its okay, for my debts, i will work till i die. :)

been so long since i play with kacang, kacang me love you okay. and stripey too, and bunnee as well. Bunnee is being naughty, but i will tame her slowly la.

(pics to be uploaded soon)

Happy because:
1. Just did facial with mummy at De Beauty. I still have lots more to go! yay! I love the package she signed up for me. (ahhahahaaha)
2. Work officially starts tomorrow. weehee.
3. YAY, i get to be fetched again!
4. My quote is recognised in Purani's blog.
5. Melanie's bday celebration is tomorrow!
6. Valerie's bday celebration is Friday!
7. I have 3 love of my life! Kacang, Stripey & Bunnee!
8. I can pay up my debt soon!
9. I am going to Genting on the 21 - 24th November! HAPPYNESS!
10. Mummy just brought me to eat Jappy food.

Unhappy because:
1. Stupid Zhiwei gave me sneaky attacks in Facebook, say your prayers NOW loser. i wanna watch you die slowly, but surely.
2. I've no money at all, as in, at all.
3. Getting fatter & fatter.
4. Whats gonna happen to the 3 love of my life when i go Genting?
5. I am quite stressed for no reason at all!!!


Okay, its 10 happy things over 5 unhappy things. so I should be happier. Okay yay! i am going to Genting! happy happy! YAY!! i'm gonna forget all my loser troubles and sit the rides 10 million times, with the cold weather! and everythinggggggggg. My dad wanna go India too, maybe I'll bump into Purani there. muahahaha so fun. and then i will see so many of my "friends" in India! India is always night time, is it? Its okay, I will be the mangen sunlight there.

I am so sad over the demise of my Godpa's mummy. He is so devastated.... and it totally killed me to see him being so depressed at the wake. OMG, papa please be okay soon, i love you.

My secret wish: I want everyone to understand me, from the inside out.

Do you think it would be difficult???

I miss Cambodia,
and my junior ZhiYang is the nicest most sensitive guy ever.
then&now. thanksthanks buddy.


Look at their classroom..
Treasure yours now okay!


Me miss Cambodia la!!!!


Miss my bimbo friends!


:) Why am i always with Indians? I wonder why.
hahahaha.


Guess who & who? GUESS PLEASE.
omg, the girl has short hair, and braces. OMG.
If you noticed, the fat one has a big spoon and a big bowl, and i have a smaller spoon and bowl.hahaha joke picture.


Granny's birthday.


I dunno why i took this.


What I wanna let you know for all the things you've done.
Since you don't want any thankyous.


OMFG so sweet.

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Moral of this post: I miss Cambodia soooo much, that I will be going to Vietnam at the end of this year(hopefully). Daddy is very keen on going there, I am keen too, but that means I can't go Malaysia! :( I wanna go both. And i miss Genting so so much too. I love the weather there, I have so many longsleeves to bring there! hahaha.

New baby in my family: A Pearl White hammie, cousin doesn't have the time to look after it so its under my care now, its so cute and white and tiny. I shall name it "Bunnee" cos it looks like a Bunny. so cute right. when i take pictures of it den i post here. Its exactly like KACANG except its totally white. Okay its so cute, playing with it now. BYEBYE.

Actually I'm not feeling too happy about things happening around me at the moment. The $140 debt is very much affecting me, no kidding. The stress level is like so tremendously increasing, and it doesn't help when someone just decides to continuously ANNOY the fuck outta me. (adding on to the fucking stress), and the amount of unfinished household chores calling out to me, the death of someone, financial crisis... etc etc.

Have I ever ever mentioned that Life is a motherfucker ?
Well, it fucking is, and seriously I don't mind ending it.
(if not for my Kacang&Stripey& now with Bunnee around)

Thanks hammie for keeping my sanity.
I love you hammie darlings.

Alot of catching up with my friends!
Miss all of my friends!

Over at granny's house!
And that means MIA-ing time!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Byebye world!

I can sense a fun night out,
(no its not clubbing, i promised someone i will not club unless the person is there)
:) pasir ris, laughing, talking, drinking(no,i don't drink), and more laughings.

Haha, and another funner thing,
Meng is gonna fetch me again! YAY!
I am so so happy.
Fine,they are uncomfy.

I'm feeling uber happy now,
its almost like i'm floating.

Exams over, so much activities going on, fun ride outs to nowhere or everywhere, birthday celebrations, work starting soon, highlighting my hair RED(song bo!!!), and more.

If only everything stays the way it is now.....

ATTENTION!

My darling Melanie is organising a spree for David&Goliath and NoiseBot.
Kindly support alright!

I chose 2 items there already! A rainbow tote and a cow lip balm! I hope the spree is successful cos I love those 2 items very very much. PLEASE HELP!

Click HERE for the webby.

SUPPORT OKAY!
THANKS.hugs.

Your favourite pictures. HAHAHAHAHAA.


Love this chalet.


My boyfriend.

I appreciate every single thing you have done, or will do. But still, thanks for the ride here and there la!! And the "I'll make her swallow her throat" shit is funny. And don't tell me the history of BMWs cos 1. I'll never understand 2. I probably will not be listening intently. 3. I really will not remember anything. hahahahaa. :) (but the car is very fun & cool, i like the automatic screen and the thing where u can control the screen. OMFG so cool, i've never seen anything like it before. and that it will kaopeh when i REFUSE to wear the safety belt. joke.)

PW IS OVER! OMG! MY PW IS OVER! and our group will be video-ed next Tuesday! :) so happppppy that finally everything has come to an end. OMG FINALLY ! The pw road has been long and torturous, and now finally everything is over. HAHAHAH! HAPPY!!

Time to party!!!!! (oh wait, theres still Maths paper on Friday).
triple fuck.

"Remind me to remind you to watch a show tonight"
Thanks darling, i love you.

And thanks Purani for reminding to watch High School Musical Concert at Channel 5, 8.30pm. so nice thank you!

*I will wait for my BFF to finish her exams before I start partying, promise!*

***I cannot wait for the upcoming 18th birthdays of Melanie darling & Valerie darling. Both fall on the 9th November! I think people with the name ending with "ie" all have same birthdays.. Love you both!

Kacang is soooo cute, been staring at her for hours.

You know you're under stress when...

• the sun is too loud.
• trees begin to chase you.
• you begin to explore the possibilities of setting up an IV drip solution of espresso.
• you wonder if brewing is really a necessary step for the consumption of coffee.
• you can hear mimes.
• you say the same sentence over and over again, not realising that you have said it before.
• you believe that if you think hard enough, you can fly.
• things become "very clear"
• you ask the drive-thru attendant if you can get your order to go.
• Losing your mind was okay, but when the voices in your head quietened down it was like losing your best friend

Dedicated to all the stressed pple like me out there.

DON'T STRESS! THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY OUT!!

A level Chinese is down.
PW Oral Presentation tomorrow morning.
Joei is dying man!
After Maths on Friday will be havoc time for me., HAHAH.

Thanks Meng for fetching me home, THANKS to the power of 100. haha, and the yongtaufoo is gross. our school's one is better. Ya thanks for being so nice la okay. always say im ungrateful, i am very very grateful,i swear upon kacang. (kacang i love youuuuuuuu)

To:2bestfriend
I love the talk after school, do it again then. yea and please im not being selfish, haha.

To:2bestfriend
Melanie&Gheeting, im deeply disturbed by ur blogs. hahaha.WHY must you all do this? WHY. pple scold you all "cheebye" u all very happy issit. the amount of pple who scold me "cheebye" is 10 million. hahaha. i can see everyone hates you both, like how they hate me now.

To:2bestfriend
again,thanks for the job i love you so so much and another one, congratulations ah. hahaha joke.

I hate such periods when I have to feel stressed each time I think bout my upcoming exams and datelines. Its just a week more to waving goodbye to stressness, and saying hello to happy life.

Things to look forward to after exams:

1. Melanie's bday celebration (surprise surprise!)
2. Valerie's bday! same day as Melanie.
3. Work ! [ more $$$$!]
4. BBQs/Clubbings/Shoppings/Retreats/Foodscapades
5. Overseas! (hopefully)

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I can't wait to work! Thanks darling for helping me get the job, (hopefully i get it). Love you so much! And to the other one, YOU ARE SO FORTUNATE!! OMG. happy for you!

Thanks for the treat, the spin around Orchard. HAHA.

I love Kacang & Stripey,always.

I will be here for both of you, still.
I will tolerate till my very last breath.



( What if the boyfriend have sex with the girlfriend who got the holes in the nipples.. then bcos its dark and the guy cannot see, den he go suck it and lick it how? HMMM. if he suck it, the maggots comes out, and if he licks it, the maggots go in and never comes out again. OMGOMGOMG. Theres a video clip showing the maggots being taken out from the nipple, SO TELL ME NOW PPLE, do you want me to post it up? )

hahahhahahahha, im sucha sadist.

This post is dedicated just to Valerie.

darling, you must not feel so down okay! smile and laugh like you always do! and who says you will be so alone?! we will totally spend all breaks together and raid your class like crazy. REALLY. we promise to the max. and i know you were putting up a front today so i tried to make you laugh by the "Today's the happiest day of my life because I had 2 bowls of soup!" I hope i somehow succeeded, you mangama! Must remember we are all here for you to the max, till the end. If you say you are alone one more time, i will fight you in Fighter's Club. haha. and i swear i'll deprive you of Beef Lasagna. hahaha.

And really, today's the happiest day of my life cos I had 2 bowls of soup, 2 drumsticks, 1 slice of Hawaiian pizza, and MY LASAGNA~ I am so loved. We both had lagsana! *orgasms*

Thanks for making me smile too, i know I made you smile too.

Friends or Lover?
(choose one)

See? This is sucha selfish decision! Why can't we choose both? Like friends AND lover. Why must friend then lose lover? Why must lover then lose friend?

Wouldn't it be concrete to say if you lose the friend if you choose the lover, the friend is not a true friend? Can it be safe to say that?

I once made a decision, to choose a Friend over a Lover. I can't decide if its a right or wrong decision still. Yes, in my life, if I want a Lover, I have to wave goodbye to the Friend. If i want my Friend, I CANNOT have the Lover. Yes, thats how sucky my life is.

I hate such things, HATE. Fuck. IF only we are not so complicated, like as simple as my hamster Kacang & Stripey, only know how to sleep, eat, dig&dig, hoard food, act cute, be soft.. and all. Wouldn't it be nice?

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On a much lighter note, I AM HAPPPPPY!
:) My life is much happier now.
Thanks to some people, hahaha.
& a few good things happening as well.

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To : the 2 person ( i know u know who you are)
Please just ignore the fact I'm existing in this world, I have no wish to come between you AT ALL. I have no objections (why would I have any in the first place?) I do not want to be caught in between anything, it is so fucking torturous for someone like ME to handle it. I am a loser okay? So please don't drag me into the picture. I will wish for both of you to be happy and please just carry on. Do not let the word JOEI affect you both at all, i said, I AM NOT INVOLVED. I AM TIRED AND I DO NOT WANT TO. PLEASE BE BACK TO NORMAL. PLEASE, I BEG YOU BOTH. BEGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Love you both anyway , BUT PLEASE.

From Gheeting's blog:

" joei.. why are we doing this to ourselves. lol... and also to the many innocent pple. LOL now that your latest entry is directing people to my blog... they may be thinking that we're in cahoots, in actual fact, we're not. but somehow, yes we are. lol. "

Point: we're still not in cahoots.

& yes, i directed pple to your blog and i got hell in school today.

& bcos of all these, i am under very serious attack in Fighter's Club. My Facebook life is ruined unless i take out all the pictures. HMMM. I insist on still putting it. HAHAHA. DIE PEOPLE DIE!

Pizza Hut today was delicious!

Gotta go to National Library tomorrow for PW!

Can't wait for exams and all to END!

WOOOOHOOOOO.

omg! gheeting blogged about something so interesting!
go read it HERE like now please, its so nice!


And I'm so sad, everyone is against me for the maggots-in-the-nipple post. hahaha. Shirin AND EVERYONE ELSE picked a fight with me in Facebook! Reason being I traumatised them with the picture! And no one supported me, everyone supported her! (bcos of this, i shall post this picture on ALL OF THEIR FACEBOOK!) (and on ALL my blog post!) (and i shall print it out as flyers and distribute to them!) (and i shall randomly let them see this picture every once in a while!)


[i seem to have forgotten that i WAS the world's most traumatised shit when i first saw it like months ago............................i died]


And everyone's reaction is the same! HAHAHA. All hair stand for hours, all cannot eat & sleep, all very distracted, all look listless, all very traumatised, all keep yelling "JOEI JOEI JOEI SO GROSS! YOU ARE A BITCH!", and i received alot of "Joei Tan, I am not gonna step into your blog ever again!". and "DELETE IT NOW!"


JoKe , tHat piCtuRe iS a jOkE, iS it mOrE gRoSs tHaN mE tyPiNg likE thAt? cOs i usEd to TypE likE tHat.. HahAx. i sHaLL pOst tHe piCtuRe uP iN All mY pOst fRom nOw oN..

*with the background noise of "Joei Tan ah, i'm warning you ah, better not do that ah"

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cleared some things are much cleared up now.
hope it stays & not further escalate.

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back to being happy joei.
:DDDD
love my darlings!
(hahahaha)

OKAY. I WANT ALL OF YOU TO LOOK DOWN AND..
CONQUER YOUR FEARS!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA.
LOOOOOOK DOWN NOWWWWWW!
SCROLL DOWN A LITTLE BIT MORE!
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I still remember the very fateful day I received this picture in an email from my mummy, the first person I sent it to was.. to Gheeting. (cos i know she will probably freak out & die). And true enough, she sent me an sms telling me how she was dying from goosebumps and all. (which I died too, cos the hair refuses to stop standing.)

I was so terrified of this picture. And I regret, sorry Gheeting for sending it to you that time. BCOS YOU THIS BITCH MUST PURPOSELY POST IN YOUR BLOG AND MAKE ME SEE IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! screams! Life sucks. Life sucks! LIFE SUCKS!!

Just look at the maggots, and then look at your own nipple. This could happen to you. I wanna die. Anyway, can tell me if your goosebumps got keep standing? HAHA.

:::::

From Facebook:

The Priss

Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

(i like this part,haha)

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

**Editted.

Peace.

To: Melanie darling.

Hope you know I'll always love you.

Same goes to Gheeting.

I am straight, very straight.
Straighter than a straight line.

HAHA, realllly. I'll never stray from being straight.
However, I do not discriminate homosexuals.

Byebye!

FUCK, just went to gheeting's blog and saw some gross fuck. she post the picture of the maggots in the nipple. FUCK. now my goosebumps refuse to go down. wahlao.

I love my Daddy, he helped me mopped the floor and he will be washing the toilet tomorrow! YAY! Less stress for me then.

Because of PW, I am very stressed recently. Therefore I just did a facial mask to relax.

Billy Bombers this afternoon with Purani,Dyan,Anittha,Valerie,Deepak,Priya,Rosh,Shirin,Noorie.
SO FUN!
shopped around after that,
and totally slacked around till like 9!

Anyway, the picture on Gheeting's blog is still disturbing me badly.

And I caught 2 movies, Halloween & The Last Breath (both horror) & I died, so scary! and realllllly terrifying. hahahahha.

And I've this huge cravings for salmon sashimi. Although I just had Vienna International Buffet last week and I ate 10million salmon sashimis, its not enough, i need more. Anyone wanna satisfy my cravings?

School's getting fun.
(but can't wait for holidays!)

Sorry for not blogging for a long time!

To: dajie&rachel.
I can't wait for the next meeting with you both.
I love you both uber lots.
HUGS!!

Because, at least I know, these girls will always be there for me when I need them. Thanks again for being the best listening ear ever on earth. And best adviser award goes to them.

K-boxed alot lately.
with great company, of course.
:) Love you girls.

Plush - we were bugged by the thousand sms sent by them, therefore decided to check out this new club, nice nice nice place. (we were given free VIP entries although we are not eligible for it cos we're late!) hurray. we were quite auntie, go DXO drink free drinks den go other club. The night was fun and I love it to the max. Great music, superb company, funny dancers, only at Plush. My Friday night was perfect, more than perfect in fact.

I have PW meeting tomorrow at Plaza Sing. =\

I am happy cos I received an sms from my BFF and I am going to spend the rest of my after-exams-and-PW life with her forever: more retreats, clubs, latenightsupper, sister's day & more.

I am happy cos I am least troubled now, thanks to 2 very important people. They make me smile and laugh non-stop like crazy and I love them like crazy. as in, like crazy. In fact, I'm looking forward to more trips and outing with them cos they are so much fun to hang out with. Thanks for teaching me the true meaning of friends, :)

And lastly, "FUCK_______", yea man, "CHEEEEEERS!!!"

And very lastly, MENSES FIRST DAY.
This explains my turmoil of emotions the past few days.
Hope I'll get better! :)
I need to learn to SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE more.

i know this is one day early, but i insist on doing it.

This post is dedicated to 3 VERY important people in my life!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOAN TAN XIU FEN.
(will run to 8th floor to kiss you)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL TEO HUI FANG.
(me & dajie plan to celebrate with you after my exams and bring you clubbing, we discussed it already and we'll get you your wishlist!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC NG YONG XIANG.
(ya you will have your present after my exams k)

3 of these important people are having their birthday on the same day.
20th October.
hahahaha joke.

I LOVE YOU 3 !
hugs and many kissssses.

Attn: All my friends esp. BFFs.

Please be there for me when I am at my lowest.

Cancancancancancancancancancan?
pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease?

SIGH.

Thanks to those who were there, I LOVE YOU(s)!

I am sorry.

Sorrry for spoiling the plans for tonight.
Will make it up to you both! SORRY!

:( Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Melanie and Gheeting were both sick at the chalet.
Melanie had a fever(really fever!)poor thing. and Gheeting was going-to have a fever. She was not feeling too good. I was feeling quite healthy and all, no illness or anything. I happily offered them my mineral water and I shared drinks and food with them, AND I SLEPT BESIDE THEM, with some hugs and all....

Guess what happened next?

1. We had hot sex.
2. We all died.
3. Thanks to them I am now sadly sick.

:( Why must such an unfortunate event happen to me. Sorethroat(i hate sorethroat!!!), Flu, and my head is spinning badly.

One reason why I hate being sick is cos I can't touch Kacang & Stripey !!!!!!! CANNOT TOUCH THEM. No one knows how torturing it is to stop me from touching them.

More tissue paper now, dying.....

BACK! from Xmark's chalet, FUN to the power of 1oo.
:) I died laughing, together with Mel & Ghee, really died.
So many funny things, Johnathan and Damark's HOT SEX, Isabel & Jon's MAOMAO, Xmark, Damark & Jon's funny conversation, Escape theme park,laughing at pple's dress sense, me being "suay"(as Melanie put it), Artificial Intelligence, Taking naps in chalet rooms, Disturbing people from sleep, more&more.

JOKE okay, died laughing, never been sooooo happy in sucha long time, love the fact they can make me laugh so badly. Saturday was a fortunate/unfortunate day for me. bumped into Kenneth, Jason dage! &... HAHAHAHA. My ex-boyfriend AND his girlfriend. haha. Me, Gheeting and Melanie died laughing and we concluded that I am very "suay"(unlucky) because I keep bumping into them

I sincerely hope all goes well for both of you, really.
You both look perfect for each other.
An absolute match made in heaven. :)
I am so nice!

(and no, i am not gonna divulge what me,ghee&mel discussed bout them,hee)

Okay, I really just had alot of fun. yay!

Now, the fun is over, its time to suffer.
:( PW time/revising time.

double fuck, triple cheebyes.

I have come into a conclusion that,
people do change. they do.
And although it hurts when that happens,
Life still fucking goes on.
Sometimes the

Life is just a sea of miseries right!?
NABEHCHEEBYE.

(funny how i can be happy and den sad next in just a few millisecs.)
THE POWER OF PMS!
PMSPMSPMSPMS.

(I am happy now cos I can totally see Kacang each time I play my lappy, I placed her cage right in front of me and I can keep staring at her now!)

The power of PMS..
Life's greatest mysteries....

Purani might kill me for the post that I initially wanted to post, cos its about how I feel that guys will always be the more 'domineering one' in a sense. OK SORRY SORRY SORRY PURANI SORRY SORRY SORRY. shit, why do I have feministic friends? WHY? haha, okay im sorry k purani.

MEN ARE STUPID!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok why do I feel MEN are downright dumb.

1. They think they are oh-so-powerful, like "hey I'm a man! I'm stronger!" (fuck off)
2. They are retarded bcos they keep thinking the mind of a woman is difficult to fathom.
3. The men just don't get it.
4. They sub-consciously THINK they DO NOT know how to do any household chores.
5. They KNOW they do not have to fucking do any household chores.
6. They will never ever know how it feels like to have menses coming out like tsunami and how it feels like to carry 1-2kg of foetus in the tummy.
7. They think we can control our menses flow(wtf.)
8. They think we are always over-reacting.(No,WE ARE NOT)
9. They think with their fucking dick.
10. I feel the above cos I hate guys!

You know, i would love to stick to the belief that not all guys are like that. I want a romantic guy who seriously will surprise me with things I love, satisfy my wants and is a domestic person who will help out with household chores.

I love surprises, and its really too bad if any guy that wants me don't know that. So far, you have not given me any. No points for you yet. Seriously, I cannot even see you are trying. Sorry but lemme tell you the cold hard truth, you are fucking fucking NOT fucking trying. And as long as I cannot see you trying, I will not fucking try to fucking accept you. You will never get to see this anyway.

Happy Birthday Xiaomark, though you won't get to see it now,
but when i re-open my blog, you will!

HAHA, 18 years old liao, no need use what Indonesian IC anymore!
stupid!

So many years spent together! FUN TIMES.

Head hurts, nose like a running tap. Signs of dying a slowww torturous death. Hope I feel better, theres America's Next Top Model tonight. And I am going to eat KFC now. hahaha.

Current Cravings are Salmon Sashimis, which hopefully I will get it satisfied cos daddy promised me a treat at Vienna International. YAY!


Another all-time cravings are CUPCAKES! no, not any ordinary ones but those with BUTTER ICING. ooooooh myyyyy goddddd. I love butter icing on anything! not just cupcakes but on birthday cakes and all! And best, my mummy knows how to make BUTTER ICING. WEEE. I might just make many for all my Best Friends someday!


There are alot of things I never once understood but finally do now.

I used to wonder alot why do people like looking at people they love sleep, like they always say "Waking up to see the person you love next to you is sweet, esp. when they are still sleeping", or "you look sweet especially when you're sleeping" WTF. I mean, I feel people look awful when they sleep, with the drools and all, and mouth opening, and sometimes snoring. In what way does it look SWEET to anyone?


HOWEVER, i've finally realised why - after realising how i always stare & stare at Kacang & Stripey whenever they're sleeping, I REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY! They loook soooooooo fucking cute when they sleep, really! With their mouth slightly open, their regular breathing accompanied by slight twitches, the various very-innovative-but-look-very-comfortable position they come up with, the way they cuddle up, the way they look so soft and stupid. OMG. My fetish, my strange fetish - just staring at them sleep. I am a weird child.

I love you Kacang and Stripey. alot. always.
:)

I've been sitting in front of this page for a long long time and I really dunno what to blog about, is this the end of my blogging days? I no longer feel the need to blog, to update just cos my friends wants to read it, to share my happiness with you guys, etc.. I feel like a loser. Ok, not really.

So, the verdict is out, I am promoted, thank everything.
I must keep to my promises of not skipping school.
However, today and tomoro doesn't count.
It starts on Monday.
However, i still feel its fucking fucking terribly unfair to some pple, i hate the school system, its idiotic and retarded and fucked up. I must come up with a petition.

Partied with fun pple.
Was a fun night out at MOS and to Phuture.
Got a little tipsy, with the help of alcohol.
My head was spinning and I dozed off on the dance floor.

Next thing to look forward to,
Xmark's bday chalet during the weekends.

Life is quite perfect lately.
Really. :)
No more suicidal thoughts, Kacang is fatter and retarded, Alot of nice TV shows, Daddy bringing me eat Vienna. YAY!

its 1.30am now, and im stuck in front of my lappy doing Project Work.
GROSSNESS x 10000. :(
Its alright, its gonna be over REALLLLLLL soooon.
Just pray hard nothing goes wrong along the way.
I must tolerate more! Tolerance! yea man.

In just a few hours time,
it will be judgement day.
Whether I will be promoted/retained/kicked out,
SIGHSIGHSIGHSIGH.
cheebye.
I hate this type of uncomfy gnawing feeling.
Like really can go commit suicide kinda feeling.
FUCK.
I really wish and pray hard.
I promise to turn over a new leaf IF i managed to get promoted/advanced.
PROMISE/SWEAR/VOW.
I will not skip school deliberately.
I will not skip lessons anymore.
I will hand up all assignments on time.
Really, me promise with my heart.

There goes my chance of happiness, gone just like that.
*screams!*
Why must life be so cruel!?!?
Life's greatest mysteries..............

Thanks for giving me the chance to talk it out with you.
I love you, as a Best Friend of cos.
Like love in an ALOT sorta way.

:)

Oh ya, everyone, okay not everyone,
pple who are allowed to read my blog,
I have something to say,
I learnt the Art of Dai Dee today.
HAHAHAHAHA.

All of you will diediedie!
ME will bug you all to play with me!
So funnnnn!

Tomorrow will be a fun day!
playing Daidee of course.
or some telepathy games, which only BestFriends will know.
WEEHEE.

Now that me is feeeling better, let me do a proper Thank you.

THANKS so much, to all my MI sweeeeties:
Purani, Sylvia, Dyan, Annittha, Valerie, Priya, Deepak, Renuka
thanks for cheering me up, coming up with Health Packages, encouraging me to go to school(after being missing for years), for helping me collect Maths Notes and other notes, for making me laugh like siao, etc.
THANKS, i love you allllllllllll.

THANKS so much to pple who was concerned, unconditionally.
Namely only Melanie, Gheeting and Joan!
Despite all they've been going through..
Despite all we have been going though..
I am sucha bad friend! I wasn't there for both of them when they needed me.
:( I disappeared without a trace from the virtual and real world.
I feel so bad now, will make it up someday.
SORRY & THANKS, for being there spiritually?
hahahaha, for letting me know you guys will be there.
*Big Fat Sloppy Kiss to you 3*

THANKS to the someone who bought me TANG YUZHE'S CD!
wEEEEE. got POSTER!!
Thanks Zhiwei.

And please god & all,
don't let me feel down again.
Its scary and I HATE IT!
Please, make me be free of PMS-es.
That was one major PMS.
I am afraid of it.
I think my friends hates it when I PMS.
So please, allow me to escape all forms of PMS-es.

:) I promise to be a good girl.

HAHA, i had the funnest time of my life today.
:) I am starting to love school, very very much.
Valerie, Sylvia, Purani, Annittha, and Priya were laughing so hardly at CentreStage just cos i said "Good Night" in a very deeeep manner, hahaha, and me and Val were throwing some metal stuffs at some random losers in front of us. So fun! I tried so hard not to laugh but failed terribly. Next was Maths lecture, aaaaaaaaaaaa. But still quite fun though,talking bout Facebook and refusing to do any work, and sneaking off thru the back door. Joke.

Love the Monday today.

The suay thing, I'm down with fever.
Joei the weak loser.

Faceboooooking. :)

My maternal instincts are acting up.
I want a baby so badly.....................

Watched High School Musical 2. I am happy.

Only bout 5 pple are invited. So, if you are invited, you are one of the fives! YAY! Clap clap to you guys.
Love you all. byebye.

Going to watch the Channel 8 "Fu Man Ren Jian" , Wok of Life now.
Facebooking later. :D

Life is getting a tad better than I expected.
YAY.

Its been years since I stepped into school,
and surprisingly, it feelt FANTASTIC!
:) really, i love you people so much!
namely, Purani,Sylvia,Dyan,Annittha,Valerie,Priya,Deepak&Renuka.
Thanks for making my time in school SUPERBLY...
ENJOYABLE!

Special special special special BIGBIGBIG thanks to..
my BEST FRIEND FOREVER.. PURANI !
:) You might not know, but im so touched..
By the Health-Package-In-A-Sock.
hahaha.
Shes damn sweet can, theres Orange Juice, Choc Pudding, A Hersheys Milk Choc & Cookies Bar, and a sweeeeet note! Loveeeeeee you x 100 million times.
*muahhhhhs*

YAY! heard that we're going to a Lesbian Club next Thursday!
I cannnnnnnot waitttttt. I hope we really go there!
hahahaha, I AM SO SCARED!
I swear it will be the bomb there. :)

So sad that I gotta close down my blog,
:( hope I can re-open it again soooon!

Watched Resident Evil 2 & 3 today.
It was fabulously... orgasmic.
:)

Thanks Purani for your health package,
will be looking forward to those tomorrow.
Sorry to those who have not seen me for years,
I... will be back tomorrow.
Hahaha.

And to those that I've invited to read my blog,
it shows you guys are truly really my Best Friends.
Love you all. :)

This is only temporary,
I'll open up my blog when I feel better.

Off to dinner with parents now.
Byebyebyebyebyebyebye.

MIA time. Byebye.

On a much brighter side of life.

Things to do:

1. Sleepover at Melanie's house, with gheeting.
2. RollerBlading with ______(cannot say who)
3. Going to find the Road of Enlightenment with BFF.
4. Wedding dinner with Godmummy next Saturday.
5. Facial on Monday
6. Mummy coming home on Wednesday.
7. Movie with Purani they all.
8. Jurong swimming complex with Rachel, dajie and gang.

Sometimes when life gets too cruel for joei tan xin yi. joei tan xin yi will go to yahoo! and type "Life quotes" and tadah! her brand new perspective of life returns, and hoping she would feel much better. It works all the time, except this time.......... its not working. at all.

*wails out loud*

NOBODY LOVES ME. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS. NOBODY TRIES TO. NOBODY WANTS TO. NOBODY NOBOBY NOBODY!

From now on, i shall develop a kind of hatred for humans. Sounds cranky but yea, i will do it.

I wonder how it feels to be anti-social, to not laugh or even smile forever, to have no friends to talk to, to have nobody trustable in life, to have no one by your side.

Would that kinda life be better?

All my life, as in ALL MY LIFE, I HAVE BEEN LIVING MY LIFE FOR FUCKING OTHERS. seriously. its tiring. Honestly, i don mind living it for others. I cant blame anyone except myself for being ultra sensitive to pple's feelings. So i try to do things which makes them feel better and not care bout myself. Now, unfortunately, its taking its toll on me. i wish this feeling would never surface but too bad it did. :( Yea, everyone just think the whole fucking world revolves around them. and me, have to constantly care bout how pple feel, how pple think, if the person is happy if i do this, den i do this lor. if the person is happy but im not happy den too bad lor. WHO CARES RIGHT?

I want to hold on to my belief that the world is a sweet happy place with nice pple.
My wish will NEVER come true.

Yes indeed, people are all selfish. They think only about themselves. ONLY themselves. Afterall as the saying goes, you live the life for youself, not others.

However, Albert Einstein says "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile." , so all along i've led a worthwhile life? YEA RIGHT, no one even appreciates please.

Sigh, i am sooo tired. tired of being gay and retarded. :( I wish i can be a little stronger, just a little. and not keep crumbling like a tofu. I am a tofu, literally. I crumble at the slightest touch, at the slightest setback. I'm like the biggest loser.

I just need pple to understand, very badly.

Pretend. Just pretend. Do not take this for real.

So the scenario is:
You actually have a boyfriend, or maybe you do not have one. But you do have flings here and there. So lets say you know your friend kissed/hugged a guy, so one day, one of the flings/boyfriends/admirer calls up your best friend and asked, "Hey, do you know if (insert your name here) got do anything with (insert any guy's name here) anot?

So, being a Best Friend, what would you do?
(a) "Huh? Sorry i don't know anything.."
(b) "Nope I don't think so."
(c) "I tell you but PROMISE you don't tell her okay? Promise me please!!!"
(d) "Oh of course they did.... haha, what a bitch, ya lor ya lor, she so bitchy."

So which will you choose? You may leave your answer on the tagboard of course.

My answer will always be either (a) or (b), I am NEVER into betraying my OWN friends.
so whats your answer? :)

:( I hate the fact that life is being mean to poor joei. But on second thoughts, actually life ain't that bad afterall. But, the fact that i spent 500bucks with my CC is enough to get me killed by my mummy when the bill comes. Fuck. How on earth did i get to spend 500 bucks?! This will always always remain a mystery. Now i feel like the main character of the book "Confessions of a Shopaholic", cos she is like very very terrified of her CC bills each time it arrives. Love that book wayyyyyyy lots, okay shall get to reading it soon. OH FUCK. just realised i have not even touched my latest Harry Potter book. :( Joei the big loser.

Ok, it is confirmed. I am feeling real PMS-sy. cos im escaping right now, my godmummy house is my source of escape. LOVEEEEE it here, don't have to do housework! YAY! and i can even get the time to do my manicure + pedicure! which costs me a bomb, which will lead to me being slaughtered. I can't help it, been waiting WAYYYY to long to do one, i mean both.

Alright, time to eat my Wanton Mee. Sounds pretty nice to me.

I have a dinner tonight at some hotel. I think its a wedding dinner.

Just a question, what will happen if i disappear ha? I wish i could can........................

If there's no hopes,
there won't be disappointments.

my kacang darling.

This post is dedicated to darling Kacang.
Sorry x 100000 times, i know sorry doesnt work but sorry again!
i know its my fault for not checking your waterbottle. and causing you to be dehydrated for days!! sorry! we thought you were being cute attracting attention and all, but yet never realised that you were actually very very thirsty and trying to tell us u are thirsty. darling, believe me, i am very sorry and i really hope you will still be cute and retarded. i love you dearly. please thank your grandfather(which is my daddy) who was the one who realised your waterbottle is not working and gave you water. darling kacang im sorry ! i promise to buy you more treats okay. ya i bought them already, pumpkin seeds and apples! your favourite! darling i love you and i cannot live without you. please do not ever die okay. and please be cute and furry and gay. muacks.

SOOOOOO many things to do, that i can even forgo blogging. Ok, this shows im busy. Or, did i not blog on purpose? hmmmm. I seriously think i have a huge issue with myself. i hate this issue, but i can't help it. I pray and wish this is just a PMS-period-feeling, that will go away after lingering around me for so long. :( i just HATE to feel this way. it makes me feel disgusted, like "Cheebye, why am i like that one ha?" Sigh, and i really can't help it.

Look, i've been going on and on up there and nobody knows what am i talking about still, hahaha, too bad, am not telling. Just hope it goes away sooon.

Watched Joshua ytd with Sylvia&Purani, i dunno wads going on in the show, cos i was eating some donuts, which is like quite nice, and i just like the fact that the dumb kid is so clever. he is a fucking genius, in a very morbid sorta way. which is, dumb. when joei is not making sense, it means.... she do not really enjoy the show.

Joei, I've something to say to you.
Always be YOURSELF, who you really think you are, and what you really think you are. DO NOT EVER care what others might think, because you control you own life, not them. You are always hindered because of the opinion of others. Aren't you tired? Tired of them constantly putting you down? Tired of their criticism? Tired of their opinions? If you are not, I feel tired for you. You always have to care what people say, what people think.. to the extent that you are not YOU anymore. You are just a Rojak, mixed by everyone's else opinion except yours. Remember, true friends do not put you down, and would never ever do that. Understood? Hope you do!
From, the fattest person on earth..


Anyway, to the person i promised to blog about entertaining entries, sorry! :) haha, im in a PMS mood. so , no entertaining entries till its over. and remember ah, steady pom peepee hor. harlowwszxx. miie lurbbe tuu diisgust euuuuuuuu.

*editeddddddddddd. i hate you.

*fuck, both this pictures, im nominated for the BFA (Biggest Face Award), just look. sigh. and the winner goes to.... *drumroll* JOEI TAN! fuck.

We are friends for a reason. a Fun reason.
Love you girls. Just hope forever exists with you guys.

My phone has got cranky since ages ago.
The light refuses to show up, but it would somehow if you hit it hardly.
And since the past few weeks, no matter how hard i hit it, the light refuses to show up, and therefore i cant see anything on my screeen!

Note: if anyone wanna get to me, kindly ring me, though i can't see whos calling/smsing me, I know my phone is ringing.

So many incidents happening when my phone statrts to occasionally act up. First problem was gheeting who thought I was majorly angry with her cos i don't wanna reply her, sorry but the phone's refusaL to lemme see the msges are beyond my control. Sorry for making you so worried please. I didn't want it to happen either. love you.

The feeling of knowing you got sms, but cannot read, sucks. I'm sure you guys feel for it yourself. Imagine receiving msges and KNOWING theres an unread msg in the phone. wah, gross.

Second, Eric and the "you never reply me one :( "
Same reason, I cannot seeeeeee anything! anything at all.
Sorry if msges go unreplied. SORRY.heh heh.

Thirdly, my reply to Melanie, shes being sweet i know. but the screen went black in the morning and only revived itself when i hit it hard hard on my wall at night. And thus, causes her to thinkher concern is redundant to me and all. Its crucially important and your msg cheered me up, thanks for being there. Now, im feeling guilty im not there for her. Okay, please call me if anything EVER happens. But, you know i'll be there when things happen la. YOU KNOW. everybody knows. k love you.

Friends are important to me, yupp. Just hope there ain't so much problems sometimes.

*I want a new phone. HEEHEE.

Sorry i cannot tahan temptations to blog.

Let me start off with a simple question. Ok, maybe not too simple, but yea requires alot of thinking. I love answering such questions.

"What would you do if you found out ever your best friend betrayed you? Or told someone else some stuffs that he/she should not be telling?"

In my opinion, obviously initially I'll get super super angry rite. like, WTF. i hate pple to betray my trust please. Somemore is best friend you noe. Best Friends are supposed to stand by each other, no matter what happens! And not go around telling pple things you are not supposed to say!! Usually when a party gets betrayed, of course will feel hurt and all right. And maybe to the extent of breaking up all friendship ties and all. (or some might even get even. like since you said things you shouldn't be saying about me, den i go say things i should not say about you lor) Makes sense right? However, it MUST be considered that the person who betrayed you IS a Best Friend. I emphasize, Best Friends. And Best Friends DO NOT betray each other. Ya so back to the point, because the Best Friend who betrayed you is a Best Friend, I guess I will probably just forget the whole issue, yea.. and about breaking up Friendship ties over a betrayal.. I've yet to give it much consideration, I swear its not worth it. So, guys! Give your Best Friend a big fat hug today, cherish them! Friends don't come by easily, I mean, Goooood Friends REALLY don't come by easily.

So, my conclusion would be, if the person is my Best Friend, I will not do anything drastic but keep the pain in my heart lor. No point pursuing some stuffs anyway. For one thing, I really truly love my BFF. (BFF knows who she is) However, if it is some random person, SAY YOUR PRAYERS! hahahaha.

But sometimes, its best not to trust anyone lah. Because, ya lor. Personal Experiences. HAHAHA. My greatest mistake in this world, IS TO TRUST PPLE TOO EASILY! and, to believe that True Friends , Or Best Friend Forever ever existed. Time to wake up pple, to the harsh cold brutal reality. I'm no kidding, heed my advice about not trusting anyone, you will thank me soon.

My middle name is officially naive. N-A-I-V-E.
SPELL IT OUT.

I am sad! :(

I don't really know what to blog about when I'm sad.
Say byebye to my blog.

The void in my heart is increasing and increasing at an escalating rate. So many things are leaving my side! Esp. the doggy!

I am so sad that I am not gonna eat for days again! YES, thats how sad I am! Never mind!! Nobody understandssssssssssssssssss. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Why can't pple understnad? I wanna invent an understand-joei's-feelings machine, so at least pple try to understand. :( I will give it to people for free, no charges for understanding me. Well, at least I've some true friends to stand by me. I can't stand superficial come-and-go friends, or the kind that "hey, i know u for bout a year plus and its time i leave" friends, or the kind that "wah cheebye, you this bitch got boyfriend already, i don't wanna be your BEST friend liao" kinda friend. Please die. If you feeling guilty after reading this entry, time to think it over carefully. Its losers like you that makes me feel so affected to even do anything else.

Anyway sometimes, I rather have no friends. Really.
None, at all. Ever had such a feeling before?

Once bitten, twice shy.
Don't worry, no more Best Friends shit for me in future.

Okay, will not update this space anymore.
This marks the end of updates.
People, don't bother coming back here.

the sweet girl, i love herrrrr.


my darling. shes so sweet rite..
she LOVES lying beside me, yes i love u too dearie.


:( she looks sad that she gotta leave.
i can feel her sadness. REALLY.
maybe cos she can sense my sadness too.


byebye baby girl, "mummy" loves you forever.
I promise to remember you and never ever forget you till the day i die. you are the sweet lil puppy that lived in my house for sooo long. i love you, i love you, i love you.


Ok don be jealous sweetheart. I LOVE YOU TOO!
(this pic cute right? see her tongue. so soft and cute)
*orgasmsssss x 102022)

Joei Tan is sick. :(
Swollen eyes again, sigh.
Super serious sorethroat which hurts like a fucker.

Crying like a gayfuck bcos the doggy is leaving soon.
:( I'm really crying can. for 2 days straight.
Mummy and Daddy saw me crying and they are sad too.
The doggy is really cute... and very sweet..
:( So sad and no one is consoling me AT ALL.

Sobsobsobsob. I'm all alone.
No doggy. :(
I will always always love and remember you darling doggy.
I love you.
I hate life now.

I've nothing else to say.
NothingNothingNothing.


Vanity, not love, has been my folly. -Pride and Prejudice

Was watching some channel 8 taiwan variety show, about this guy wanting to propose to his girlfriend of 5 years. Then blah blah blah, give her surprises, ask her go some location to find some flowers and stuffs. and tadah! suddenly he appears with a huge balloon and ask "_(her name here)_, will you marry me? I know there is alot of girls who like me, but the person i'll always love is you."

She then answers, "I am not working yet, you're still working, so how to get married.. BUT under one condition will i agree, which is, earn $1300 by today to buy me a diamond ring."

I was like, WTF. like that also can ah. i also wanna get married now and lists out all the condition. so fun.

But, the poor guy, the poor guy.. he worked so so so hard, enduring the harsh weather conditions. and guess what?! HAHAHA, the girl cried and the guy scolded her, and he went into this huge temper! WOOHOO! CLIMAX! the guy said he couldn't take it anymore and that why must that lil slut be so ridiculous and give sucha huge amount..

But in the end they still got married la..

My father and I died laughing.

Such shows are such an entertainment. :)

Ok, my left eye is swollen to the max.
I think i'm allergic to Mee Rebus, or it might be the egg, or the potato.
Shit.
I need to take a nap very badly.
Naps actually lasts about 15-20 min.
Apparently, my naps last about 2-4 hours, sometimes even reeaching to 5, or even me refusing to wake up. HAHA. so logically speaking, i need to sleep, not need to nap.
When i talk nonsense, it means i dunno wad to blog anymore.

Byebye.

note to self: buy myself a really cute alarm clock that doesn't ringgggg in a scarily loud manner, so i don get a shock when i wake up each morning. MUST be cute. preferably like Stewie, Spongebob, or coated with diamonds or something. i dowan some ugly normal ones. I want it to be princess-y. It must NOT be pink, blue, green, grey. Alarm must be soothing and DEFINITELY will wake me up kind, not the RINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG in a pussy way kind. DEFINITELY must MUST must have SNOOZE system, so i can sleep 5 min more, 5 more min kinda thing.(in case u guys don't know, 5 min is ALOT to me, its essential after each sleep.)

Haha, I wonder why must I be so annoying.

Rachel darling, cheer up sweetie!

darling Dajie, i miss you so!

Lets meet up soon, the 3 of us.
Love you girls. Hugs & Kisses.

I am in love with the this black puppy in my house.
She is so fucking cute and I love her.

Of cos, I love Kacang and Stripey MORE..

Gosh, I am in love with a dog and hamsters. Fuck.
Am I still human? *wonders*

The sweet sweet doggy at my house. Love you.
:) Thanks for being so guai, but please shi-shi and poo on the newspaper provided okay?


Camwhoring outside bubbletea shop.
Love the sun, makes me look white!


I like the skin colour and the hair.


The attempt at trying to make kissing look real.


Mr Lee's Mazda, and we did this.


Deepak drew this for Mr Lee!
GUESS WHICH IS ME!?
Theres Renuka, MrLee, Priya, Valerie, Annittha, Deepak, Sylvia, Me, Purani.
So cuteeee. love this pic please.


I wonder why is my teeth so big..
Haha, can anyone spot SYLVIA & PURANI as well?


Multi racial friends! theres Chinese, Indian and Malay(hahah Valz i win)

I love my melayu/others friend.


For once i love the sun for making me fair.

Enjoy!

Life's great. Kacang looks cute, and plump. Stripey is happy cos my Mummy is back from Hongkong to play with it. I am looking after a Retriever+Collie mix for a week,shes so cute and she doesn't bark at all. I am feeling rich suddenly. I ate donuts. I watched ALOT of movies already. My menses is over. My pimples are all gone. I have splendid friends.

YAY! :) Soon, I will be stressed over my exams, PROMOs. CHEEBYE.

okay, watched the RAT-TA-TOO-EE show, NICE! 100 stars/5 stars. love it, its so Kacang. the rat really looks like Kacang. so its my favourite show from now. and the show made Purani's ear not pain. heehee. and had "eat-table" at Eunos again,went there last year. totally talked to TianCheng until i wanna die, hes only 14! i think i can communicate well with kids.

and i watched 1408 with glenn! okay, i totally didn't meet him for 10 years. (ok 1 year to be exact). 1408 is NOT nice. NOT. there is no ghosts. full of lies and deceit! very fun day though. glenn chan totally paid for everything and im feeling so bad about it now. and uncle spencer came to fetch us after that! :) WEEEEE.

Okay, time to play with my doggy.and to get my ass to Macdonalds to play with the sms system thingy.SO FUN! hhahahahaha.

quote purani,
Love is not for people who CANNOT handle it.
i like this quote, somehow it makes sense,
just somehow.