Okay, before you guys do anything, I need to let you know that this will be one very long dry post. So, you may choose to continue reading or wait for my next loserish post. hahahaha. Okay, so get some light snacks NOW, like now.

First thing to announce, I PASS MY BTT (Basic Theory Test)! woohoo! Its like very unbelievable cos I'll never pass it one. I'm like the most stupid person in the world when it comes to the road. Gheeting, Elvin, Jeffrey, my daddy, and more pple will despise me if I fail it one. hahaha. Lucky I pass it the first time round ah.. Have to thank Gheeting for the book, and actually is thank Meng but too bad he can't read this la.

Second thing for you guys to think about..
Have you ever felt so happy before that you don't dare to fall asleep.. for the fear that everything might only be a dream when you wake up? Its a fucking scary feeling you know. Like sometimes I dream that Kacang lives forever, then when I wake up, I see Kacang and I know shes not gonna live forever.. Then its like a very sad feeling suddenly overwhelms you. Sighh... Or have you ever had the kinda feeling like everything is very dreamlike and fairytale fairytale like that.. Like something happened which would actually NEVER EVER, and I mean NEVER EVER happen. It makes everything seem so surreal and its a very terrifying feeling. Because everything seems so real and yet so unreal at the same time.

You tell me la, when something is feeling too real and too unreal at the same time, scary anot? Its like so tormenting and so happy at the same time. Next time I wanna torture people, I confirm let them experience this cheebye feeling one la. Hahahha, sorry I'm being too tormented by these feelings that I might go bonkers sooon.

Third thing to tell you guys.(sadsadsad)
SAD!!!
:(
Life is so pain............when you have to see something you love dying.. or on the verge of dying..... Its like, Kacang is dying........ We all know that........ My mummy even put her picture in her wallet in case any unfortunate thing happens.... :( Its like every night I see Kacang , I start tearing like some deranged loser. Its like Kacang is the sweetest thing alive, the softest cutest loyal hamster anyone can ever find. She never ever bites and is so retarded and cute and always responds to me calling her "Kacang baby!", "Kacang Kacang Kacang", "daaaaaarlinggggg" and everything. She loves YAKULT(really), and all kinds of JUICES, she EATS ANYTHING and EVERYTHING, she has got these cute BIGBIG round round eyes with cute paws and everything..... She is like a perfect hamster. a perfect one without any faults...... Its like, I love Kacang with my heart. Its like I've to cremate her and get her ashes back and put it in an urn. I need KAcang to be with me forever, forever. :(

I'm gonna write an eulogy for her if she dies.. I just hope she doesn't die anytime sooon. I hope she is an immortal in disguise. But my mummy tells me her days are numbered....... Oh no, I'm gonna cry now, like now. :( so saddening!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

KACANG PLEASE LIVE LONGER, I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU MORE THAN I ALREADY DO LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU KACANGGGG! AND I REALLY CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!

(for those people having a doggy/kitty as a pet, im very sure you guys know how i feel about losing the pet, its like they become so much into your life that it'll be very devatasting once its gone...sigh....)

**Do not tell me that death is inevitable in life, I do not believe that a cute thing like Kacang will ever die. Really, its too cute to die.

melanie & gheeting is beside me.
we totally webcammed with a loser from msn.
and its a joke, cos we let him see everything except our faces.
its like, fucking funny.
and we are like totally slacking at the lan shop at what sunshine plaza.
hahahahahaha.

so fun! i love you girls.
hugs & kisses.
YAY!

:) BYEEEE!

wahlao, $1 for 3o minute.Cheebye.
and gheeting let me see a youtube video on a ventriloquist, fucking funny/ she says i type with 3 fingers and im a loser. okay byebye.

"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy. It is often filled with anger and tears. It is when you want to be together despite it all. That is when you are truly in love."

I had fun yesterday. :) woooohooooo.
I am suffering from a very bad cough. very very bad cough.
And its like I'm dying slowly, but surely.
And Elvin more poor thing lor, its like I cough 1 time, he cough 10 times. We both like some loser sick chicken like that. And Elvin is being a brave soul by putting our pictures on Friendster, perfect move. Its like I am still so coward locking up my blog and everything. AAAAAAAAAAAA. Joei the loser.

To gheeting, "Love is like a hole; once you fall in, it's hard to get out."

hahaha.

To melanie, now someone song song already lor. the love of your past is back to haunt you, he is sucha copycat! >=( the look on your face is the bomb k.

(I have alot of pictures to upload from Purani's birthday, but first I must be not so busy first, its like late at night now and I am very tired and I have work tomorrow. So guess what? I'll not be able to upload it now, haha byebye.)

Good night my sweet friends who loves me.
Good night my sweet bf who loves me too.
Good night my sweet other guys who loves me.
Good night my sweet Kacang & Stripey & Riri who loves me.
Good night everyone in this world who loves me.

Joei loves you all too! :D
Hugs & many many kisses!

Elvin would like to say hello to all of you.
(yes again i know)

:) Say hello to my exboyfriend/boyfriend now.

Just finished watching the whole series of 15 again.
HAHAHA, love ah bengs. wooohoo.
Its like, Shaun is sooooo hot.

Anyway, I totally ate Wanton noodles for breakfast,
AND, someone just fed me Maggi noodles not long after.
which is crazy cos it tastes so good i HAD to eat it.

I didn't go for my diploma class for like 3 hundred days,
but I don't give a fuck actually.
The people there are FUCKED UP tothefuckingmax.
I can't stand ANY one of them. ANY.
Grossss x 10000000.

And, hmm.
Jealousy - this word is evil.

And I'll be working with Gheeting and Melanie again this Saturday and Monday!
And bloody hell, my BTT is on the 18th.. Cheebye.
And my diploma exam is on the 21st.. Double Cheebye.
And I'm fucking cheebye not prepared.

I guess sacrifices have to be made sometimes.
Life can't always go on smoothly. :(

"I rather have bad times with you,
than have good times with someone else.."

hello everyone. hahahaa.


its like, i've never posted any pictures of any guy on my blog okay. its like, THE BOMB. like totally the bomb. okay anyway, meet Joei and Elvin. heh heh heh.

I'm like wondering when can I open up my blog.
:(
I don't like to keep it private this way.
Its so sneaky and retarded.

Happy Happy Happy Birthday to my BFF, Purani

Yesterday was a crazy partying day okay, it was a mad night out at MOS, the crowd was like grinding and it was so squeezy but the crowd i went with was absolute fun. For virgin clubbers like Valerie(haha), and then theres Sylvia, Annitha, Renuka, Priya, Rosh, Dyan & Ziyan, & Minshan & of course, my long lost friend Keathwee! It was so so so so fun, I got really tipsy after the Ribena Vodka, its like... I died. I puked like a loser, a pure loser and I couldn't walk straight. Gross. Really, I swear NEVER to drink again! (its like, I drink cos i show face to Purani okay, its her birthday!)

Then we went to find road blocks, HAHAHA JOKE. its so funny i died laughing. Very fun! woohoooo.

And Joei is officially a loser in life. A LOSER OKAY. I've become another Joei, you all wouldn't wanna know this new joei, its just gross and very stupid and retarded. ahahahahahhaa.

AND FUCK! I totally heard a very cheebye news, its like fuck okay, its like KNNBCCB + FUCKED UP + IDIOTIC. Make use of you? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'm not so free you know, seriously. Joke of the century lor, make use of you. Enough bout losers.

I gotta go, byebye.

To: Melanie darling.

You know sweetie, you mustn't ever cry okay(though its like quite inevitable) but you see, sometimes not everything will go smoothly in life. (some pple are like worst, they are in debts but they still never cry, and like me, im like eating grass everyday, i also never cry..) so you mustn't cry okay. Because you are like never alone, you have me, gheeting, xingyuan, jarael,jeffrey and more more people who can totally waste their life away with you. (haha) I'm willing to ruin my life and come out slack with you from now on okay! Then we go eat grass together hor. just as long as you don't think of those sad sad things can already. :) You must remember you got me & ghee. Thats all that matters right? Remember you are NOT alone, if i hear you say that again, THATS IT u know. THATS IT. I love you, hugs and many kisses.

:D Never frown, cos you never know whos falling in love with your smile.

You know the song "Wo de Cuo" is so nice.
HAHAHA.

OKOK, I know people are complaining that my blog is officially redundant cos I don't update as much anymore. Sorry sorry sorry! I am very very very very very busy, though I don't know with what, but I'm just very busy. Okay, I'm working at those Starhub roadshows currently and I am enjoying myself very much actually. Except I don't get much sleep and I have to stand and talk ALL day. What makes it enjoyable is working with friends and all. And theres people like MIKE TAN(for gheeting only), DANIEL HENG GIN KIAT!(my elvin lookalike& candy-eye), CHENGYU(mel's CANDY EYE), our BEST FRIEND(someone we vow to make friends with but failed to do so), and more funny funny people. What a fun working experience. WOOHOO.

Something happened just yesterday at about 4 am in the morning, its like WOAH.. So I'm left with a very pain left chest and some body aches. And I'm so touched that the driver care about me first more than the car...... Its like.. omg.. But I'm not the unfortunate one please. :( Its the driver & the car that is like wrecked badly. I'm just glad the driver's fine. But the amount he has to pay for repair is THE BOMB. :(

Its like for now, I'll be eating grass and I'll not be thinking about any, and i mean ANY Guess wallet or Juicy Couture Watch for now. I'll not think about Japanese food for now as well. I will think about eating grass and drinking from Milo packet and order 1 packet of economical beehoon with more noodles from now on. And maybe eat only 1 meal a day. And be more gian peng gian sai, and find more WU HUA deals.

And I'm left with a funny voice again. >=(
Someone else has a funny voice too!

Its Melanie's test today, good luck pretty!

You know,I've always used to wonder "What is Love?" and all that crap kinda thing. HAHA, I think I've gotten the answer after much research. So here goes MY definition of love okay. You don't have to agree with it, I happy with the answer can already.
Love is like when you start missing the person even after they just left you, and how much you wanna see them every second of your life, when you smile just by the mention of their name, and laugh even when they do things which are not very funny, when you find that nothing else matters except them, and when you wanna hug them each time you see them, when you feel the happyhappy soursour feeling in the heart each time you see/hear them, and when you KNOW you are happy just by spending a LITTLE time with them, when you are willing to spend bad times together like eating grass, and when you know you are crazy by doing nonsensical stuffs like scolding each other cheebye(s) and fuck(s) and tiu lei(s).

Someone is coming to find me now, BYEBYE!

Hugs & Kisses.

The doggy Rusky is gone from my house and I miss it! But its okay I can go my godmummy house play with Riri already !! WOOHOO!

Isn't he a fucking cutieeee???


OMG so cuteee.


Baby Riri.

This is what I've been busy with.
The cutest thing in my life ever.(of cos can't be compared to my kacang darling) but this Riri is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Just look at the eyes. I will die can. I'm gonna migrate to Hougang(my godmummy's place) like for forever. OMG. BABY RIRI. JIEJIE LOVES YOUUUUU!!! I'm spoiling it very badly.

I've got good life already la, "ho mia liao" . I can enjoy life already la. Byebye!

I had lotsa fun with Edeline,Gerald,Edwin &co.!
:) more more fun please.

YAY! Saturday Melanie coming my house stay after work.
But I got wedding dinner, so you wait for me awhile okay?

And..
I'm so sad I can't go DXO with valz they all.
Its like DXO is my favourite gay club lor.
Its like got Free Drinks can.. Then I can ask for just Ribena without anything. or Ribena with a DOT of vodka only, A DOT AH. hahahahahaa.
I promise myself I will club when I'm not so busy!
PROMISE !!
Sorry darlings!

because everything you do for me makes me smile&smile

Quotes from some webbies. done cos I had nothing to do at home at all!

"I do, cherish you, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control, I've waited so long, to say this to you, if you're asking do I love you this much, I do."

"To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive."

"If you ever had your heart broken or hurt, and you forgave that person and still was able to love them like before, that's true love!"

:)

because you asked me to listen..

Aviation - You Were My Everything

[Talking] This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…

No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you

Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel

Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guyI
tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

Chorus

[Talking] And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy


::

this song so nice lor, although its a rap & i don't really quite enjoy raps but its just so sad and everything. its quite true too. except that someone asked me to listen and i really find it so meaningful. it makes alot of sense. aiya forget it, nobody will understand one la.

hahaha, i think im getting PMS-sy again. PMS is a loser, it has no life and is only intent on ruining pple's life. so gay. Anti-PMS !!

:( to ziyan darling: sorry sorry sorry ! im so bad, i totally PS u 3 times in 3 days! I will make it up to you totally, so duper sorry !! im feeling so guilty now. sorry ziyannnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!! omg.

YAY! I'm sick! its like Jackpot can. cos someone predicted i confirm sick one, den i really now sick. whahahahaha. and my whole body is aching like a loser. like a loserish loser. i need sleep, lemme sleep now.. oh wait i can't. my mummy's friend dog is at my house. Its called Rusky and is a Maltese+terrier mix. very very cute one. and very guai. and its cos of this dog i gotta PS dear ziyan. SORRY okay SORRY!

Ok i didn't go for the first day of Diploma lesson. nobody cares anyway! If only my best friends were there............................................its alright! its only for 2 weeks. YOU CAN DO IT JOEI TAN! JOEI TAN IS BRAVE!(well,not really)

Kacang being lazy.

:) hahahaahhaaaa.

I am so sleepy.
I am sooooo tired.

My life so sucky hor? "Ming ku" translated means bitter life. hahahahhaa. Like so pitiful like that. But I really too exhausted to even work or stand up. My body is literally aching like a loser.. :( How unfortunate.

However, I am also being kept happy and "xing fu" translated means fortunate. YAY! :) I wish some good things would never end, but we all know it ends someday. No matter how much promises and assurance is made, it STILL WILL end someday one. (okay, i shall psycho myself to not keep thinking bout negative things.) [but then hor, i still somehow somehow need to prepare prepare abit right]. HAHAHAHAHHA, whatever I'm still very happy now.

Wait, I'm not entirely happy. I can't please everybody one lor. :( I'm like so affected when I know other people is affected by the things I do/say. But what the fuck can i do man? Fuck care also cannot, want to care also cannot later pple say "no point la" or show attitude. Then how? Tell me la, I'm like very xing ku can. ARGHHHHHH.

My cousin totally just got a puppy, so cute!! I shall stayover at his house FOREVER. heh heh heh. Hougang is sucha heavenly place.

YAY, meeting Ziyan to get pay tomorrow! Song ah! Can pay my 140 & 60 bucks debt like at last!! SONG!!

sian, tomorrow diploma class starts. So i asked Purani, "how to be a loner ah? is it just be a loser?" yea and the answer is yes. And additionally, i also cannot smile cos she says pple always wanna smile back if i smile at them. so im not allowed to smile and give any opinions and talk. so i shall be like a loser with no friends? OMG this is not happening to me pls. sigh, hate sucha dreading feeling. Heng got things to look forward to after every end of it, if not i confirm die one. Gheeting says, "fuck it, alone jiu alone lor, awhile only ma, also not forever." I like her style. haha.

Next Monday-Friday got diploma lessons in school. :(
Next Saturday got wedding dinner. :)
Next Sunday got work! :)

I am a happy busy girl lately.
Busy because of work.
Happy because:
- Working with Mel & Ghee spells PURE fun.
- of something that makes me happppyyy.

Kawasaki
someone asked me to just type this here
=/

Come come all visit me at Expo okay.
I'm like at Hall 6.
weehee.

Hello I'm back after MIA-ing for years.

Today I shall blog about .....

I can't blog about anything I wanna blog about.

So byebye!

**sorryx1000 to dyan dearie! im so ashamed of myself and im so sorreeeeee!! im like a big loser so don't be mad at me lahh! i've been a bad friend for not hitting the clubs with you & ziyan sorryyyyyyyyyy! :(

And this marks the start of Joei's hectic worklife. Its gonna kill me slowly, but surely. But somehow, I'm enjoying this period of my life alot. Hanging out with gheeting & melanie.. SO HAPPY! :)

"I'm gonna marry you la really."
"LIAR!! stop being a big fat liar."
"yayaya, im always lying la."
"ya of course you are lying, you always lie"

Step One Step One Step One.

(thanks Edelline for the pretty nails! LOVE IT!)

I love this song! From my favourite gangster show also. HAHA. I shall watch Dou Yu part 1 & 2 all over again!

Till the end

All these precious moments with you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven that's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true to hold, to keep, to share

In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my boy
And through it all I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end

All my friend around me say you'd be gone too soon
Baby, I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my boy
And through it all I know that you've come to see that
You're the one till the end

The fine dining restaurant that went up to RM1000.
and one bottle of the "Finest Mineral Water from Italy" as seen from the bottom right of the picture costs RM13. Joke pricing.


Me with alot of ghostly orbs.


I love Genting. or I hearts Genting. hahaha.


Foggy and lotsa ghostly orbs. wee.
As seen from the pics, i was wearing a Fleshimp jacket, which DOESN'T belongs to me, but my gay brother. This jacket seems so familiar, I think someone around me has it too. I wonder who. Someone lent it to me when I was cold in the examination hall. hahahaha.

Back to ironing clothes! :)

I'm totally back from Genting, feeling real sad cos i LOVE Genting!
:( I wanna go back there.
I had LOTS OF fun there though! OMG.
FUN FUN & loads more FUN!

Fate has been my very good friend recently.
SERIOUSLY.

Right now,
I have a very sacred secret to keep.
*secret*

And my heart has been revived again..
I miss you, I really really do.
Those words you said to me,
I hope they are really really true.

Looking after doggy now, can't blog much!
Love you all!

YAY! going to Genting like in few more hours.
:D big big big big big grinssssss.
I LOVE GENTING!
cold cold weather! nice nice food! scary scary rides!
YAY gone from this loser place for 4 whole days.
I wished it would have been 4 years/months/weeks or something.
but i would miss all my friends..AND OMG MY HAMSTERS.

When i saw my hammies left this afternoon,I died.
I cried like a loserish loser you know.
:( It hurts not seeing them at home.
Kacang&Stripey&Bunnee; i love you all okay?

I want to have that Guess wallet !! >=(
I want to have that Juicy Couture watch!!
HINTHINT.
aiya scowls.

Purani is off somewhere in India now, hope she coems back safely and not get trapped by some Tsunami or something. Shes so sneaky! she left without a word and only informing me thru an email which i just read now. aiyo.

Gheeting&Melanie: LOVE YOU BOTH. and stayovers when im back! PARTY!
Dyan&Ziyan: Saw 4 & Kbox when im back! LOVE U BOTH!
Zhiwei&Meng: OMG OWE U BOTH BIG TIME! thanks for taking care of my hammies, please love them thanks.
Dajie&Rachel: Shopping trip when im back please!! SORRY LOVE u both too!
Eric: When im back then we go eat okay and stop saying loser things thanks very much! And you haven gimme my birthday present.
Joan&Serene: I miss you both like crazy.
Sylvia: I really need the bikini when I come back okay thanks haha.
Valerie&Annitha&Priya&Reyy:Sorry i can't club this Wed! do it next week okay!
Kacang&Stripey&Bunne:LOVE YOU THREEEEEEEE!!! OMG!!!!!!!

I did not take this picture hor! >=(
hahahaha joke picture please and OK THANKS for the cookies and you're so gay cos you make the stupid heartshape and still purposely take such pics. loser x 1000 okay.


Xmark being a very very happy bday boy unwrapping his presents.


All very happy cos last day of school.


I wish I'm as talented as Eric (in drawing Stewie only)
Clever right that Eric Ng.


What I had before heading to Club Play with Purani on Thursday. NICE!! I like it alot!!


Love of my life: GheeGhee & NANA


HAHAHA.


:) YAY.


My boyfriend la. REALLY. look like right.
he looks like hes on drugs but hes not the main thing in the pic la so ignore him.



My favourite! :)
Not as fun as NewZealand's one though!

** Just realised some people in this world are seriously so kind can, and whats so sweet is that person is just a stranger to me, and a girl somemore, shes called Annabel and she bought me socks! OMG so sweet, even though is people ask her to help me buy, she also buy. so nice hor! I dunno who she is At all though. But I admire her for that lor, cos if people ask me to help ANOTHER person buy, and somemore i dunno the person one hor, SORRY ah, you go and buy yourself. OMG, im so selfish, it scares me terribly. hahahahahaahahahha. joei is so selfish im so disgusted eeee.

***OMG, I'll miss my hamsters so so much already!

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak.
Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

hahaha, joke.

So, which of it is true? You decide.

I've not blogged for 3 hundred years.

My previous week was a big fat joke okay. Hectic wild fun and very tired after that. A very brief summary of my week:
Monday-Ear Candling and slacking at Godmummy's place
Tuesday-Job training with Melanie+Gheeting! i had so much fun! + Steamboat
Wednesday-Highlighted my hair + Zouk with Dyan&Ziyan +stayover at Ziyan's place.
Thurday-Play(lesbian club) with Purani+Annitha+Priya+Rosh
Friday-Dinner at Winehouse + Dragonfly with Mummy, Auntie Kellyn, Auntie Carris, Auntie Jasmin & Denyse.
Saturday&Sunday-Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort, Butterfly Park, 4D show, Carlsberg Sky Tower, Luge and Skyride, Fort siloso with Parents and brother
Monday-Fish head steamboat at Boon Keng , yummy.

i clubbed 3 days in a row, the bomb already. but im a tad unhappy cos i didnt club with melanie and gheeting which is so unfair cos gheeting is having her projects and neverending essays now. yupp 3 of us will party like losers soon cos we HAVE and we NEED to. yes deal promise, swear upon my hamsters. (my hamsters!!!)

You know that day when 3 of us (me, gheeting &melanie) had the Job training at the Adecco there.. I had this nostalgic feeling of going back to the past with them. The days at school when we can see each other everyday, hang out at Plaza and eat KFC cheesefries, taking sneak peeks at The Fat, The Black, The Short, we laugh at every single things, when we sit at our Beggar Sect Place, Our lemon barley and fish fillet, when we are index number 1,2,3,4, and that we always get into trouble TOGETHER, when we ponteng class and got caught by the teacher(shit! gheeting whats her name!?!?! mystery!!) and got our parents down and we cried, when we go see people get tio-ed after school either at some carpark or school toilet, when we stole from the Art Room first aid box(haha), when we seriously can see each other EVERYDAY......

:( now we totally can't. and that day at the job training we scirbbled on each other's paper, writing ugly MELs everywhere and drew loser things all over, it really felt like secondary school days again.. :( i wish we were in sec sch forever and ever.... i love them you know. they made my school life so happy and everything. of cos we xmark,damark,ch,johnnie,dajie,rachel,4e4pple,and others also la. My resolution: Spend more time with Gheeting and Melanie so we wouldn't drift apart. Like more stayovers!:) since i can't thon cos i need sleep. And maybe we can have more job trainings forever. hahahahha. Or we can enrol in some cooking lessons, or some other classes so we can be in a class together? :) Good idea? SHALL WE DO IT? omg!! please reply!!

Yea, and that was dedicated to Melanie and Gheeting darling.HAHA,muacks.

And list of things that I need badly:

1. New handphone
2. Wallet
3. Bag
4. That Juicy Couture Watch! OMG i need to have it so badly.

And now i can't wait for my trip to Genting. 21st-24th November! Will miss all of you and i really love Genting!! :) YAY!!

I am so sad now.
I saw 2 dogs getting hit by 2 cars, and those 2 cars did not even bother to stop and take a look. And I watched one of it die right in front of my eyes.
I cried like a loser even though they are just stray dogs.

Seriously, im so affected by it. Terribly affected.

I.. watched it die. Like took its last breath and then die kinda thing. I shall kill myself now, that image of it taking its last breath is etched in my mind and it refuses to go away.

Why must those people be so cruel and not stop the fucking car!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those strays are innocent!!!!!!!!!!!!

:( :( :(

:)


Tastes as good as it looks man!
I LOVE IT.


BUNNEEE!


Gheeting giving me a ride, hahaha. I am damn terrified of driving this thing okay. She speeds and brakes and turns like a scary loser. And how sweet of melanie to take this picture. hahaha. Damark drove her on this and we overtook them i think! we overtook everyone! haahhaha.


Okay omg, i miss my Princess hair! :(
so unfair that all good things come to an end!
I WANT TO CURL MY HAIR NOW.
NOW. now. NOW.

I am highlighting it like now also.hahahaha.

I blame all my moodyness on PMS! PMS is sucha bitch, I hate PMS. PMS is a loser in life and therefore PMS wants to destroy us all. PMS ought to perish and burn in hell. Joei is officially now ANTI-PMS. I shall start a campaign soon. heh heh heh.

Highlighting my hair, LIKE LATERRRRRR!

I was the happiest girl in the world yesterday, not as happy as when I had 2 bowls of soup but yea,im still VERY happy BECAUSE my hair had beautiful curls yesterday!!!!!!! Me and Ziyan was totally slacking at work and we meet up to do some shopping and dropped by the RedKen something for FREE styling of the hair, and tadah! I had beautiful curls for the day. My all time wish since young was to have curly hair!(not the kind of CURLY CURLY kind, like only at the bottom have kind..) LIKE A PRINCESS KIND!!!! so i was a real princess for awhile yesterday. YAY!! but the curls are gone now, and its tempting me to do some real curls. :( BUT i promised myself the first thing i will do after A levels is to MAKE MY HAIR HAVE BEAUTIFUL CURLS!!! YIPPPEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway, I don't know if life is considered smooth sailing now or not..
I hope it will be..

Thanks to all who visited me when I was under torture of what you would call being a stupid promoter. I love all of you so much!

*Poor Gheeting is under examstress now! RELAX LOSER! if u don't relax, you are a loser okay, aiya just awhile more only! and after that is so partying time! please think of the partying ! love ya.

**Melanie REFUSE to blog about her birthday. REFUSE. anyway you are 18 and this calls for some pure fun ! like what you say, "TIME FOR SOME LADIES NIGHT OUT"

(what kinda friends are not worth having..? I NEED TO KNOW PLEASE)

looking at my archives when i came across this,
(yes i know im a loser, but i read my own blog ALL the time)

"What a lovely surprise to discover how unlonely being alone can be"

i want to put in a word about being single. its fine to be single!
beats going out with a lowlife or feeling like a vulnerable kid on an endless roller-coaster ride.

some pple aren't up for the whole relationship thing, they would rather focus on frens, sports, homework, shopping, wadever~. they like being able to do wadever they want, whenever they want. they like bein independent and able to flirt, they like having their options open, time free, and possibilities endless.no problem there. others jump from one love tangle to another and never take a moment to figure out who they really are and what they really want.

and that, my darlings, can be a BIG problem.

its nice to be loved, of cos ! but don't be afraid to be alone. bein alone doesnt mean u're unattractive, any more than bein part of a couple means u're attractive, thats total bullshit. and there's something kinda nice about not having your Friday nights booked up. besides, goin out with one person can sometimes be limiting and can lead to quarrels, jealousy, pressure, or hurt feelings. alone and unattached, you get to make your own schedule and keep yourself company. and who's better company than YOU?

"inside myself is a place where i live all alone" - Pearl S.Buck
"i never found the companion as companionable as solitude" - Henry David Thoreau

Alone, yes. Lonely, no.

**this is not a post discouraging love. of cos i encourage love~ i jus wanna let pple who are single have more confidence~ WOOHOO.

(hahahha, im sucha joke last time)

Current mood: PMS-sy

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See? Told you I'm PMS-sy.
I'm sucha loser.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

TO..

MY DARLINGS:

MELANIE & VALERIE !

Happy 18th birthday!
Clubbing time!

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Working all day - killing me slowly, but surely.
ARGH. I feel like a patient in a hospital,
with people "visiting" me on a regular basis.
New people, surprise! people, family members.
And surprisingly, I'm like paid to sms and shop around.
JOKE.
I hate working ah!! very the fucking sian can!!

I want money, I want a doggy, I want new tops, I want my hamsters to never ever die, I want to highlight my hair red, I want to club everyday of the week, I want to STOP working but still have money coming in, I want to eat non stop and never get fat, I want to go on a holiday BADLY, I want to go everywhere in the car, I want to have free manicures & pedicures forever, I want to be able to fly and become invisible, I want to not be so gullible, I want a new branded wallet, I want an ATM machine as a boyfriend, I want to be able to sleep as long as I want, I want to be able to print money, I want to stay in Genting forever(haha), I want to migrate to New Zealand, I want to escape this cruel world, I want to stay in a HAPPYland where everyone is nice, I want to eat salmon every second of my life, I want the world to only have chicken skins, I want animal abuse to STOP, I want all kinds of sufferings to END, I want to be slim, I want to be a social worker, I want to be nice and smile to everyone, I want to be a tai-tai, I want to be a Princess, I want to be bestfriends with my bestfriends forever, .....and the list goes on.....

(humans are just never satisfied, don't they?)

Went to Purani's granny's house for dinner yesterday.
I had the world's most spicy meal of my life. I died.
DIED. so now im actually dead.
Its damn spicy but damn delicious. YUM.
Headed over to Orchard with Sylvia and Purani,
And I FUCKING DIED A DEATH (yes, AGAIN)
GUESS WHO I SAW?!?!?!
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)
(i tell you....)


I saw Elvin. ELVIN. e-l-v-i-n.
MY EX-BOYFRIEND that i loved like a loser.omg.
with pple like Kenneth,Leon,Wilson and i forgot still got who.

wah seriously my heart stopped.
and then after that it went into a frenzy.
purani&sylvia had a hard time calming me down.
in fact, im still suffering from shock now.
(okay, i know now melanie and gheeting are so itching to hear what i have to say, and they will so ask me to meet them at rivervale plaza's mac and slack. hahahaa. or just stayover at melanie's house la for some HTHT)

hhahahhahaha. melanie darling hope you enjoyed your birthday! LOVE YOU! HAPPY 18th and MUACKS! i uploaded all the pics into my com liao. i will upload in my blog or send u via msn soon! when im free. hughugggg!

*valerie darling! happy 18th! sorry not able to join u guys at Sentosa, im working! sorry sorry but i know u enjoyed yourself. LOTS OF LOVE! 18th but still a baby!! hahaha.

OMG, i had salmon belly sashimi and famous amos cookies today, thanks to DASH. whahaha joke. it tastes so good im dying thanks thanks to the maximum max.

And to loser hoe, you think its so funny giving me sneaky visits huh.. i slap u den u noe. haha joke thanks for the Orange Julius.

and yes , my leg hurts so badly. :(
Thank god i don't have to take PT back home all the time!
I'm sucha fortunate shit.
XIEXIE.:)


Sucha long posts, even I am about to fall asleep.
Good nitey everyone.
I love you all.....

i need help badly. im being spoilt to the bloody max and i can't help feeling happy about it. and at the same time, im feeling so bad about it. hahahahah tell me what to do please.

im so sad i missed Zouk yesterday but i had a funner night out cos i laughed so hard i died. melanie's bday was a joke, i like her present part, its sucha BIG FAT joke. and as usual, damark and johnathan made me died laughing. so happy to see all of them again! its beeen years since i've seen melanie and gheeting !!! but technically speaking, i just saw them on the chalet day which is just a month ago. hahahahaa.

i like the surprise yesterday, i like the Princess on Board thing, and the cupcakes. alot. so im feeling happy!

YAY! another happier thing, going purani's granny house for Deepavali dinner. YAY!!!! YIPPEEEE!!

i cannot wait to go Genting!

WORK YESTERDAY WAS A TORTURE! I CAN'T BELIEVE I NEED TO WORK THERE ON FRIDAY, SATURDAY AND SUNDAY. PLEASE KILL ME!!!!!! but its okay, for my debts, i will work till i die. :)

been so long since i play with kacang, kacang me love you okay. and stripey too, and bunnee as well. Bunnee is being naughty, but i will tame her slowly la.

(pics to be uploaded soon)

Happy because:
1. Just did facial with mummy at De Beauty. I still have lots more to go! yay! I love the package she signed up for me. (ahhahahaaha)
2. Work officially starts tomorrow. weehee.
3. YAY, i get to be fetched again!
4. My quote is recognised in Purani's blog.
5. Melanie's bday celebration is tomorrow!
6. Valerie's bday celebration is Friday!
7. I have 3 love of my life! Kacang, Stripey & Bunnee!
8. I can pay up my debt soon!
9. I am going to Genting on the 21 - 24th November! HAPPYNESS!
10. Mummy just brought me to eat Jappy food.

Unhappy because:
1. Stupid Zhiwei gave me sneaky attacks in Facebook, say your prayers NOW loser. i wanna watch you die slowly, but surely.
2. I've no money at all, as in, at all.
3. Getting fatter & fatter.
4. Whats gonna happen to the 3 love of my life when i go Genting?
5. I am quite stressed for no reason at all!!!


Okay, its 10 happy things over 5 unhappy things. so I should be happier. Okay yay! i am going to Genting! happy happy! YAY!! i'm gonna forget all my loser troubles and sit the rides 10 million times, with the cold weather! and everythinggggggggg. My dad wanna go India too, maybe I'll bump into Purani there. muahahaha so fun. and then i will see so many of my "friends" in India! India is always night time, is it? Its okay, I will be the mangen sunlight there.

I am so sad over the demise of my Godpa's mummy. He is so devastated.... and it totally killed me to see him being so depressed at the wake. OMG, papa please be okay soon, i love you.

My secret wish: I want everyone to understand me, from the inside out.

Do you think it would be difficult???

I miss Cambodia,
and my junior ZhiYang is the nicest most sensitive guy ever.
then&now. thanksthanks buddy.


Look at their classroom..
Treasure yours now okay!


Me miss Cambodia la!!!!


Miss my bimbo friends!


:) Why am i always with Indians? I wonder why.
hahahaha.


Guess who & who? GUESS PLEASE.
omg, the girl has short hair, and braces. OMG.
If you noticed, the fat one has a big spoon and a big bowl, and i have a smaller spoon and bowl.hahaha joke picture.


Granny's birthday.


I dunno why i took this.


What I wanna let you know for all the things you've done.
Since you don't want any thankyous.


OMFG so sweet.

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Moral of this post: I miss Cambodia soooo much, that I will be going to Vietnam at the end of this year(hopefully). Daddy is very keen on going there, I am keen too, but that means I can't go Malaysia! :( I wanna go both. And i miss Genting so so much too. I love the weather there, I have so many longsleeves to bring there! hahaha.

New baby in my family: A Pearl White hammie, cousin doesn't have the time to look after it so its under my care now, its so cute and white and tiny. I shall name it "Bunnee" cos it looks like a Bunny. so cute right. when i take pictures of it den i post here. Its exactly like KACANG except its totally white. Okay its so cute, playing with it now. BYEBYE.

Actually I'm not feeling too happy about things happening around me at the moment. The $140 debt is very much affecting me, no kidding. The stress level is like so tremendously increasing, and it doesn't help when someone just decides to continuously ANNOY the fuck outta me. (adding on to the fucking stress), and the amount of unfinished household chores calling out to me, the death of someone, financial crisis... etc etc.

Have I ever ever mentioned that Life is a motherfucker ?
Well, it fucking is, and seriously I don't mind ending it.
(if not for my Kacang&Stripey& now with Bunnee around)

Thanks hammie for keeping my sanity.
I love you hammie darlings.

Alot of catching up with my friends!
Miss all of my friends!

Over at granny's house!
And that means MIA-ing time!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Byebye world!

I can sense a fun night out,
(no its not clubbing, i promised someone i will not club unless the person is there)
:) pasir ris, laughing, talking, drinking(no,i don't drink), and more laughings.

Haha, and another funner thing,
Meng is gonna fetch me again! YAY!
I am so so happy.
Fine,they are uncomfy.

I'm feeling uber happy now,
its almost like i'm floating.

Exams over, so much activities going on, fun ride outs to nowhere or everywhere, birthday celebrations, work starting soon, highlighting my hair RED(song bo!!!), and more.

If only everything stays the way it is now.....

ATTENTION!

My darling Melanie is organising a spree for David&Goliath and NoiseBot.
Kindly support alright!

I chose 2 items there already! A rainbow tote and a cow lip balm! I hope the spree is successful cos I love those 2 items very very much. PLEASE HELP!

Click HERE for the webby.

SUPPORT OKAY!
THANKS.hugs.

Your favourite pictures. HAHAHAHAHAA.


Love this chalet.


My boyfriend.

I appreciate every single thing you have done, or will do. But still, thanks for the ride here and there la!! And the "I'll make her swallow her throat" shit is funny. And don't tell me the history of BMWs cos 1. I'll never understand 2. I probably will not be listening intently. 3. I really will not remember anything. hahahahaa. :) (but the car is very fun & cool, i like the automatic screen and the thing where u can control the screen. OMFG so cool, i've never seen anything like it before. and that it will kaopeh when i REFUSE to wear the safety belt. joke.)

PW IS OVER! OMG! MY PW IS OVER! and our group will be video-ed next Tuesday! :) so happppppy that finally everything has come to an end. OMG FINALLY ! The pw road has been long and torturous, and now finally everything is over. HAHAHAH! HAPPY!!

Time to party!!!!! (oh wait, theres still Maths paper on Friday).
triple fuck.

"Remind me to remind you to watch a show tonight"
Thanks darling, i love you.

And thanks Purani for reminding to watch High School Musical Concert at Channel 5, 8.30pm. so nice thank you!

*I will wait for my BFF to finish her exams before I start partying, promise!*

***I cannot wait for the upcoming 18th birthdays of Melanie darling & Valerie darling. Both fall on the 9th November! I think people with the name ending with "ie" all have same birthdays.. Love you both!

Kacang is soooo cute, been staring at her for hours.

You know you're under stress when...

• the sun is too loud.
• trees begin to chase you.
• you begin to explore the possibilities of setting up an IV drip solution of espresso.
• you wonder if brewing is really a necessary step for the consumption of coffee.
• you can hear mimes.
• you say the same sentence over and over again, not realising that you have said it before.
• you believe that if you think hard enough, you can fly.
• things become "very clear"
• you ask the drive-thru attendant if you can get your order to go.
• Losing your mind was okay, but when the voices in your head quietened down it was like losing your best friend

Dedicated to all the stressed pple like me out there.

DON'T STRESS! THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY OUT!!

A level Chinese is down.
PW Oral Presentation tomorrow morning.
Joei is dying man!
After Maths on Friday will be havoc time for me., HAHAH.

Thanks Meng for fetching me home, THANKS to the power of 100. haha, and the yongtaufoo is gross. our school's one is better. Ya thanks for being so nice la okay. always say im ungrateful, i am very very grateful,i swear upon kacang. (kacang i love youuuuuuuu)

To:2bestfriend
I love the talk after school, do it again then. yea and please im not being selfish, haha.

To:2bestfriend
Melanie&Gheeting, im deeply disturbed by ur blogs. hahaha.WHY must you all do this? WHY. pple scold you all "cheebye" u all very happy issit. the amount of pple who scold me "cheebye" is 10 million. hahaha. i can see everyone hates you both, like how they hate me now.

To:2bestfriend
again,thanks for the job i love you so so much and another one, congratulations ah. hahaha joke.

I hate such periods when I have to feel stressed each time I think bout my upcoming exams and datelines. Its just a week more to waving goodbye to stressness, and saying hello to happy life.

Things to look forward to after exams:

1. Melanie's bday celebration (surprise surprise!)
2. Valerie's bday! same day as Melanie.
3. Work ! [ more $$$$!]
4. BBQs/Clubbings/Shoppings/Retreats/Foodscapades
5. Overseas! (hopefully)

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I can't wait to work! Thanks darling for helping me get the job, (hopefully i get it). Love you so much! And to the other one, YOU ARE SO FORTUNATE!! OMG. happy for you!

Thanks for the treat, the spin around Orchard. HAHA.

I love Kacang & Stripey,always.

I will be here for both of you, still.
I will tolerate till my very last breath.



( What if the boyfriend have sex with the girlfriend who got the holes in the nipples.. then bcos its dark and the guy cannot see, den he go suck it and lick it how? HMMM. if he suck it, the maggots comes out, and if he licks it, the maggots go in and never comes out again. OMGOMGOMG. Theres a video clip showing the maggots being taken out from the nipple, SO TELL ME NOW PPLE, do you want me to post it up? )

hahahhahahahha, im sucha sadist.

This post is dedicated just to Valerie.

darling, you must not feel so down okay! smile and laugh like you always do! and who says you will be so alone?! we will totally spend all breaks together and raid your class like crazy. REALLY. we promise to the max. and i know you were putting up a front today so i tried to make you laugh by the "Today's the happiest day of my life because I had 2 bowls of soup!" I hope i somehow succeeded, you mangama! Must remember we are all here for you to the max, till the end. If you say you are alone one more time, i will fight you in Fighter's Club. haha. and i swear i'll deprive you of Beef Lasagna. hahaha.

And really, today's the happiest day of my life cos I had 2 bowls of soup, 2 drumsticks, 1 slice of Hawaiian pizza, and MY LASAGNA~ I am so loved. We both had lagsana! *orgasms*

Thanks for making me smile too, i know I made you smile too.

Friends or Lover?
(choose one)

See? This is sucha selfish decision! Why can't we choose both? Like friends AND lover. Why must friend then lose lover? Why must lover then lose friend?

Wouldn't it be concrete to say if you lose the friend if you choose the lover, the friend is not a true friend? Can it be safe to say that?

I once made a decision, to choose a Friend over a Lover. I can't decide if its a right or wrong decision still. Yes, in my life, if I want a Lover, I have to wave goodbye to the Friend. If i want my Friend, I CANNOT have the Lover. Yes, thats how sucky my life is.

I hate such things, HATE. Fuck. IF only we are not so complicated, like as simple as my hamster Kacang & Stripey, only know how to sleep, eat, dig&dig, hoard food, act cute, be soft.. and all. Wouldn't it be nice?

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On a much lighter note, I AM HAPPPPPY!
:) My life is much happier now.
Thanks to some people, hahaha.
& a few good things happening as well.

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To : the 2 person ( i know u know who you are)
Please just ignore the fact I'm existing in this world, I have no wish to come between you AT ALL. I have no objections (why would I have any in the first place?) I do not want to be caught in between anything, it is so fucking torturous for someone like ME to handle it. I am a loser okay? So please don't drag me into the picture. I will wish for both of you to be happy and please just carry on. Do not let the word JOEI affect you both at all, i said, I AM NOT INVOLVED. I AM TIRED AND I DO NOT WANT TO. PLEASE BE BACK TO NORMAL. PLEASE, I BEG YOU BOTH. BEGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Love you both anyway , BUT PLEASE.

From Gheeting's blog:

" joei.. why are we doing this to ourselves. lol... and also to the many innocent pple. LOL now that your latest entry is directing people to my blog... they may be thinking that we're in cahoots, in actual fact, we're not. but somehow, yes we are. lol. "

Point: we're still not in cahoots.

& yes, i directed pple to your blog and i got hell in school today.

& bcos of all these, i am under very serious attack in Fighter's Club. My Facebook life is ruined unless i take out all the pictures. HMMM. I insist on still putting it. HAHAHA. DIE PEOPLE DIE!

Pizza Hut today was delicious!

Gotta go to National Library tomorrow for PW!

Can't wait for exams and all to END!

WOOOOHOOOOO.

omg! gheeting blogged about something so interesting!
go read it HERE like now please, its so nice!


And I'm so sad, everyone is against me for the maggots-in-the-nipple post. hahaha. Shirin AND EVERYONE ELSE picked a fight with me in Facebook! Reason being I traumatised them with the picture! And no one supported me, everyone supported her! (bcos of this, i shall post this picture on ALL OF THEIR FACEBOOK!) (and on ALL my blog post!) (and i shall print it out as flyers and distribute to them!) (and i shall randomly let them see this picture every once in a while!)


[i seem to have forgotten that i WAS the world's most traumatised shit when i first saw it like months ago............................i died]


And everyone's reaction is the same! HAHAHA. All hair stand for hours, all cannot eat & sleep, all very distracted, all look listless, all very traumatised, all keep yelling "JOEI JOEI JOEI SO GROSS! YOU ARE A BITCH!", and i received alot of "Joei Tan, I am not gonna step into your blog ever again!". and "DELETE IT NOW!"


JoKe , tHat piCtuRe iS a jOkE, iS it mOrE gRoSs tHaN mE tyPiNg likE thAt? cOs i usEd to TypE likE tHat.. HahAx. i sHaLL pOst tHe piCtuRe uP iN All mY pOst fRom nOw oN..

*with the background noise of "Joei Tan ah, i'm warning you ah, better not do that ah"

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cleared some things are much cleared up now.
hope it stays & not further escalate.

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back to being happy joei.
:DDDD
love my darlings!
(hahahaha)

OKAY. I WANT ALL OF YOU TO LOOK DOWN AND..
CONQUER YOUR FEARS!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA.
LOOOOOOK DOWN NOWWWWWW!
SCROLL DOWN A LITTLE BIT MORE!
(you know you want to...)

I still remember the very fateful day I received this picture in an email from my mummy, the first person I sent it to was.. to Gheeting. (cos i know she will probably freak out & die). And true enough, she sent me an sms telling me how she was dying from goosebumps and all. (which I died too, cos the hair refuses to stop standing.)

I was so terrified of this picture. And I regret, sorry Gheeting for sending it to you that time. BCOS YOU THIS BITCH MUST PURPOSELY POST IN YOUR BLOG AND MAKE ME SEE IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! screams! Life sucks. Life sucks! LIFE SUCKS!!

Just look at the maggots, and then look at your own nipple. This could happen to you. I wanna die. Anyway, can tell me if your goosebumps got keep standing? HAHA.

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From Facebook:

The Priss

Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

(i like this part,haha)

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

**Editted.

Peace.

To: Melanie darling.

Hope you know I'll always love you.

Same goes to Gheeting.

I am straight, very straight.
Straighter than a straight line.

HAHA, realllly. I'll never stray from being straight.
However, I do not discriminate homosexuals.

Byebye!

FUCK, just went to gheeting's blog and saw some gross fuck. she post the picture of the maggots in the nipple. FUCK. now my goosebumps refuse to go down. wahlao.

I love my Daddy, he helped me mopped the floor and he will be washing the toilet tomorrow! YAY! Less stress for me then.

Because of PW, I am very stressed recently. Therefore I just did a facial mask to relax.

Billy Bombers this afternoon with Purani,Dyan,Anittha,Valerie,Deepak,Priya,Rosh,Shirin,Noorie.
SO FUN!
shopped around after that,
and totally slacked around till like 9!

Anyway, the picture on Gheeting's blog is still disturbing me badly.

And I caught 2 movies, Halloween & The Last Breath (both horror) & I died, so scary! and realllllly terrifying. hahahahha.

And I've this huge cravings for salmon sashimi. Although I just had Vienna International Buffet last week and I ate 10million salmon sashimis, its not enough, i need more. Anyone wanna satisfy my cravings?

School's getting fun.
(but can't wait for holidays!)

Sorry for not blogging for a long time!

To: dajie&rachel.
I can't wait for the next meeting with you both.
I love you both uber lots.
HUGS!!

Because, at least I know, these girls will always be there for me when I need them. Thanks again for being the best listening ear ever on earth. And best adviser award goes to them.

K-boxed alot lately.
with great company, of course.
:) Love you girls.

Plush - we were bugged by the thousand sms sent by them, therefore decided to check out this new club, nice nice nice place. (we were given free VIP entries although we are not eligible for it cos we're late!) hurray. we were quite auntie, go DXO drink free drinks den go other club. The night was fun and I love it to the max. Great music, superb company, funny dancers, only at Plush. My Friday night was perfect, more than perfect in fact.

I have PW meeting tomorrow at Plaza Sing. =\

I am happy cos I received an sms from my BFF and I am going to spend the rest of my after-exams-and-PW life with her forever: more retreats, clubs, latenightsupper, sister's day & more.

I am happy cos I am least troubled now, thanks to 2 very important people. They make me smile and laugh non-stop like crazy and I love them like crazy. as in, like crazy. In fact, I'm looking forward to more trips and outing with them cos they are so much fun to hang out with. Thanks for teaching me the true meaning of friends, :)

And lastly, "FUCK_______", yea man, "CHEEEEEERS!!!"

And very lastly, MENSES FIRST DAY.
This explains my turmoil of emotions the past few days.
Hope I'll get better! :)
I need to learn to SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE more.

i know this is one day early, but i insist on doing it.

This post is dedicated to 3 VERY important people in my life!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOAN TAN XIU FEN.
(will run to 8th floor to kiss you)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL TEO HUI FANG.
(me & dajie plan to celebrate with you after my exams and bring you clubbing, we discussed it already and we'll get you your wishlist!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC NG YONG XIANG.
(ya you will have your present after my exams k)

3 of these important people are having their birthday on the same day.
20th October.
hahahaha joke.

I LOVE YOU 3 !
hugs and many kissssses.

Attn: All my friends esp. BFFs.

Please be there for me when I am at my lowest.

Cancancancancancancancancancan?
pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease?

SIGH.

Thanks to those who were there, I LOVE YOU(s)!

I am sorry.

Sorrry for spoiling the plans for tonight.
Will make it up to you both! SORRY!

:( Sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Melanie and Gheeting were both sick at the chalet.
Melanie had a fever(really fever!)poor thing. and Gheeting was going-to have a fever. She was not feeling too good. I was feeling quite healthy and all, no illness or anything. I happily offered them my mineral water and I shared drinks and food with them, AND I SLEPT BESIDE THEM, with some hugs and all....

Guess what happened next?

1. We had hot sex.
2. We all died.
3. Thanks to them I am now sadly sick.

:( Why must such an unfortunate event happen to me. Sorethroat(i hate sorethroat!!!), Flu, and my head is spinning badly.

One reason why I hate being sick is cos I can't touch Kacang & Stripey !!!!!!! CANNOT TOUCH THEM. No one knows how torturing it is to stop me from touching them.

More tissue paper now, dying.....

BACK! from Xmark's chalet, FUN to the power of 1oo.
:) I died laughing, together with Mel & Ghee, really died.
So many funny things, Johnathan and Damark's HOT SEX, Isabel & Jon's MAOMAO, Xmark, Damark & Jon's funny conversation, Escape theme park,laughing at pple's dress sense, me being "suay"(as Melanie put it), Artificial Intelligence, Taking naps in chalet rooms, Disturbing people from sleep, more&more.

JOKE okay, died laughing, never been sooooo happy in sucha long time, love the fact they can make me laugh so badly. Saturday was a fortunate/unfortunate day for me. bumped into Kenneth, Jason dage! &... HAHAHAHA. My ex-boyfriend AND his girlfriend. haha. Me, Gheeting and Melanie died laughing and we concluded that I am very "suay"(unlucky) because I keep bumping into them

I sincerely hope all goes well for both of you, really.
You both look perfect for each other.
An absolute match made in heaven. :)
I am so nice!

(and no, i am not gonna divulge what me,ghee&mel discussed bout them,hee)

Okay, I really just had alot of fun. yay!

Now, the fun is over, its time to suffer.
:( PW time/revising time.

double fuck, triple cheebyes.

I have come into a conclusion that,
people do change. they do.
And although it hurts when that happens,
Life still fucking goes on.
Sometimes the

Life is just a sea of miseries right!?
NABEHCHEEBYE.

(funny how i can be happy and den sad next in just a few millisecs.)
THE POWER OF PMS!
PMSPMSPMSPMS.

(I am happy now cos I can totally see Kacang each time I play my lappy, I placed her cage right in front of me and I can keep staring at her now!)

The power of PMS..
Life's greatest mysteries....

Purani might kill me for the post that I initially wanted to post, cos its about how I feel that guys will always be the more 'domineering one' in a sense. OK SORRY SORRY SORRY PURANI SORRY SORRY SORRY. shit, why do I have feministic friends? WHY? haha, okay im sorry k purani.

MEN ARE STUPID!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok why do I feel MEN are downright dumb.

1. They think they are oh-so-powerful, like "hey I'm a man! I'm stronger!" (fuck off)
2. They are retarded bcos they keep thinking the mind of a woman is difficult to fathom.
3. The men just don't get it.
4. They sub-consciously THINK they DO NOT know how to do any household chores.
5. They KNOW they do not have to fucking do any household chores.
6. They will never ever know how it feels like to have menses coming out like tsunami and how it feels like to carry 1-2kg of foetus in the tummy.
7. They think we can control our menses flow(wtf.)
8. They think we are always over-reacting.(No,WE ARE NOT)
9. They think with their fucking dick.
10. I feel the above cos I hate guys!

You know, i would love to stick to the belief that not all guys are like that. I want a romantic guy who seriously will surprise me with things I love, satisfy my wants and is a domestic person who will help out with household chores.

I love surprises, and its really too bad if any guy that wants me don't know that. So far, you have not given me any. No points for you yet. Seriously, I cannot even see you are trying. Sorry but lemme tell you the cold hard truth, you are fucking fucking NOT fucking trying. And as long as I cannot see you trying, I will not fucking try to fucking accept you. You will never get to see this anyway.

Happy Birthday Xiaomark, though you won't get to see it now,
but when i re-open my blog, you will!

HAHA, 18 years old liao, no need use what Indonesian IC anymore!
stupid!

So many years spent together! FUN TIMES.

Head hurts, nose like a running tap. Signs of dying a slowww torturous death. Hope I feel better, theres America's Next Top Model tonight. And I am going to eat KFC now. hahaha.

Current Cravings are Salmon Sashimis, which hopefully I will get it satisfied cos daddy promised me a treat at Vienna International. YAY!


Another all-time cravings are CUPCAKES! no, not any ordinary ones but those with BUTTER ICING. ooooooh myyyyy goddddd. I love butter icing on anything! not just cupcakes but on birthday cakes and all! And best, my mummy knows how to make BUTTER ICING. WEEE. I might just make many for all my Best Friends someday!


There are alot of things I never once understood but finally do now.

I used to wonder alot why do people like looking at people they love sleep, like they always say "Waking up to see the person you love next to you is sweet, esp. when they are still sleeping", or "you look sweet especially when you're sleeping" WTF. I mean, I feel people look awful when they sleep, with the drools and all, and mouth opening, and sometimes snoring. In what way does it look SWEET to anyone?


HOWEVER, i've finally realised why - after realising how i always stare & stare at Kacang & Stripey whenever they're sleeping, I REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY! They loook soooooooo fucking cute when they sleep, really! With their mouth slightly open, their regular breathing accompanied by slight twitches, the various very-innovative-but-look-very-comfortable position they come up with, the way they cuddle up, the way they look so soft and stupid. OMG. My fetish, my strange fetish - just staring at them sleep. I am a weird child.

I love you Kacang and Stripey. alot. always.
:)

I've been sitting in front of this page for a long long time and I really dunno what to blog about, is this the end of my blogging days? I no longer feel the need to blog, to update just cos my friends wants to read it, to share my happiness with you guys, etc.. I feel like a loser. Ok, not really.

So, the verdict is out, I am promoted, thank everything.
I must keep to my promises of not skipping school.
However, today and tomoro doesn't count.
It starts on Monday.
However, i still feel its fucking fucking terribly unfair to some pple, i hate the school system, its idiotic and retarded and fucked up. I must come up with a petition.

Partied with fun pple.
Was a fun night out at MOS and to Phuture.
Got a little tipsy, with the help of alcohol.
My head was spinning and I dozed off on the dance floor.

Next thing to look forward to,
Xmark's bday chalet during the weekends.

Life is quite perfect lately.
Really. :)
No more suicidal thoughts, Kacang is fatter and retarded, Alot of nice TV shows, Daddy bringing me eat Vienna. YAY!

its 1.30am now, and im stuck in front of my lappy doing Project Work.
GROSSNESS x 10000. :(
Its alright, its gonna be over REALLLLLLL soooon.
Just pray hard nothing goes wrong along the way.
I must tolerate more! Tolerance! yea man.

In just a few hours time,
it will be judgement day.
Whether I will be promoted/retained/kicked out,
SIGHSIGHSIGHSIGH.
cheebye.
I hate this type of uncomfy gnawing feeling.
Like really can go commit suicide kinda feeling.
FUCK.
I really wish and pray hard.
I promise to turn over a new leaf IF i managed to get promoted/advanced.
PROMISE/SWEAR/VOW.
I will not skip school deliberately.
I will not skip lessons anymore.
I will hand up all assignments on time.
Really, me promise with my heart.

There goes my chance of happiness, gone just like that.
*screams!*
Why must life be so cruel!?!?
Life's greatest mysteries..............

Thanks for giving me the chance to talk it out with you.
I love you, as a Best Friend of cos.
Like love in an ALOT sorta way.

:)

Oh ya, everyone, okay not everyone,
pple who are allowed to read my blog,
I have something to say,
I learnt the Art of Dai Dee today.
HAHAHAHAHA.

All of you will diediedie!
ME will bug you all to play with me!
So funnnnn!

Tomorrow will be a fun day!
playing Daidee of course.
or some telepathy games, which only BestFriends will know.
WEEHEE.

Now that me is feeeling better, let me do a proper Thank you.

THANKS so much, to all my MI sweeeeties:
Purani, Sylvia, Dyan, Annittha, Valerie, Priya, Deepak, Renuka
thanks for cheering me up, coming up with Health Packages, encouraging me to go to school(after being missing for years), for helping me collect Maths Notes and other notes, for making me laugh like siao, etc.
THANKS, i love you allllllllllll.

THANKS so much to pple who was concerned, unconditionally.
Namely only Melanie, Gheeting and Joan!
Despite all they've been going through..
Despite all we have been going though..
I am sucha bad friend! I wasn't there for both of them when they needed me.
:( I disappeared without a trace from the virtual and real world.
I feel so bad now, will make it up someday.
SORRY & THANKS, for being there spiritually?
hahahaha, for letting me know you guys will be there.
*Big Fat Sloppy Kiss to you 3*

THANKS to the someone who bought me TANG YUZHE'S CD!
wEEEEE. got POSTER!!
Thanks Zhiwei.

And please god & all,
don't let me feel down again.
Its scary and I HATE IT!
Please, make me be free of PMS-es.
That was one major PMS.
I am afraid of it.
I think my friends hates it when I PMS.
So please, allow me to escape all forms of PMS-es.

:) I promise to be a good girl.

HAHA, i had the funnest time of my life today.
:) I am starting to love school, very very much.
Valerie, Sylvia, Purani, Annittha, and Priya were laughing so hardly at CentreStage just cos i said "Good Night" in a very deeeep manner, hahaha, and me and Val were throwing some metal stuffs at some random losers in front of us. So fun! I tried so hard not to laugh but failed terribly. Next was Maths lecture, aaaaaaaaaaaa. But still quite fun though,talking bout Facebook and refusing to do any work, and sneaking off thru the back door. Joke.

Love the Monday today.

The suay thing, I'm down with fever.
Joei the weak loser.

Faceboooooking. :)